| 10:54a |
Bad day.
I'm warning you now. This is going to be a negative post.
I'm super bummed today, and I'm having the sort of day where it would probably be for the best for me to go home and go to sleep.
My allergies are out of control today. Everything outside is covered with pollen. My eyes have doubled in size, and not in a good way. They are itching like mad, and I'm exhausted. I'm congested. I feel like the good year blimp. I went for blood work today, and that woman harpooned my arm, and it hurts. It still hurts. I'm going to have the nastiest bruise ever. They weighed me, and now I am completely demoralized. I looked at my banking statements, and now I am completely depressed because everytime I look at them, I realize that I can't afford anything at all ever again. Ever. Not even if it's on sale. Not even if I have a coupon. Not even if it's cheap and on sale. If it's not free, I can't have it.
And yes, this includes the following things I really want:
- cute wooden bracelet
-cute new sunglasses...my old ones are broken
-white bag because I don't have one, and I want one for summer/spring
-new flats because my feet just aren't comfortable
-maxi dresses because they hide the fat
I was broke ass before, but it's gotten much worse. Obviously I was on a shoe string budget given that my husband is a full time student, but now we're actively saving for a house, and my student loans have gone into repayment, which is awesome. I actually have about...after transfering my share of money into our joint account (pays for bills and rent and stuff), paying student loans, and paying my monthly investment, I have a whopping total of $80 a month to spend, which obviously goes towards paying off my credit cards, which means I don't have ANY money to spend ever. Any meaning ZERO. Nothing. Ever. Ever. This is beyond demoralizing. This sucks because I'm shallow, and while I obviously don't feel physically pretty, I feel a lot prettier if I'm dressed in cute things, and if I at least look as nice as I can. *sigh* This money thing isn't going to get any better until....sometime far into next year. And it's just going to get worse. I have to buy stuff for Father's Day, my Dad's birthday....I hate money.
Our house also recently got inspected. It is for the most part in perfect condition, except for the 10-20% of the house that has wood siding. Because the house is in a historic neighborhood, vinyl siding can't be used. Anyhow, the siding is old, rotten, and needs to be replaced. Plus, the building will need to be painted becuase the siding is....so all of this will cost about 10k. Shoot me.
The hormones of course, are making all of this much worse, so what would be a really, really bad day, is basically turning into a bad case of the mean reds, but worse. I know I shouldn't complain. I know people have it worse. Ugh.... |