jade's Blurty

bad diet days with friend points
Sooooo diet-wise yesterday sucked. Alot. I didn't workout either.

I get mega good friend points though, and I think that has to be worth something, even if it does make me a cow.

Sooo...I had talked to Liz a bit on IM/Myspace, and I had basically told her that I was worried. I didn't chastise her or get into details or recommendations, I just asked questions: I just wanted her to be thinking about everything. This was...the day before yesterday.

So yesterday, I was getting ready to go to the gym, when I got an IM: "I'm finally freaking out!!"

Clearly, I could not go to the gym, and it didn't seem like the best conversation to have over a computer, so I invited her out to coffee, which with Liz, always turns into dessert.

Since the world isn't is lax about valium as I feel it should be (it should be EVERYWHERE), I had to have some wine to really have the conversation. Since this was all about Liz, I also had to eat. Brie. And cheesecake (but it was pumpkin cheesecake, which is absolutely divine.)

Anyhow, I shut up, and I listened. I didn't give any recommendations except to make sure ALL her questions were answered and to get a second opinion and a biopsy if possible. I told her no one would judge her and that she had to make what she felt was the right decision.

Bottom line: she does want to live. She realizes she could die. Her main fear is that she could be six months along, develop another life threatening infection like she had this summer, and then be forced into a nasty decision at 6 months: her life or the baby's.

The thing is, I think she's looking for a gaurantee where she won't find one. No doctor will preform a biopsy, and even if one could or would, they still can't gaurantee that she won't get an infection at some point during her pregnancy. If anything, it seems unavoidable since she has a growth and a detached ovary.

*sigh*

I think I'm feeling a bit better about it though..At least she said she's looking into things, and I guess at this point, that's the best I can hope for. It's so bittersweet. Seriously, I hope this works out for her.

Thank you all for all your kind comments.