| 10:43a |
I'm getting paranoid. I've been reading all the oh-no health posts, and I was thinking to myself that I must be fine...I eat what seems like a ton, and I take a zillion vitamins, but then I started thinking about it....
I think my vitamins are not saving me.
Lately, I haven't been looking that great. My lips are cracked no matter what I put on them. I let the Neutragena stuff wear off my nails, and they're all...well...they look like crap. My skin even looks like crap, and my skin NEVER looks like crap. I've been making excuses that it was stress-related or pms related, but it's been going on for the past month or so.
I wonder if it is related to my semi-crash lately...with the exception of Thanksgiving, I've been under 800 consistently, and sometimes under 600, and I'm basically only eating carbs at dinner, if then. Before, I had a maybe 2-3 1,000 cal days a week, and I'm wondering if it's possible that the extra 600-800 cals is really making a difference in my health. It seems silly; it seems improbable. I'll think about it for a few weeks, and I'll see if it gets better. If it doesn't by New Years', maybe I'll add it back in, but during the holidays, I just am too paranoid with all the parties and all the food that's around, I'm afraid that if I lose control, I'll just gain tons and tons of weight, and I just can't do that, so I always end up going a little overboard with the restricting over the holidays...
I don't know..
Current Mood: curious, but skeptical
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