| 9:32a |
I'm feeling a lot better today...
I think I'm just going to take it easy while I adjust to my new schedule (three classes) and let everything mentally return back to normal.
I think I'm getting there.
I just can't shake the very certain feeling that something very bad happened, but I just need to stop being so ridiculously paranoid about the possible consequenses of what may or may not have happened. I'll only drive myself crazy that way, and it's a pretty short trip as it is so....
Bleh...
Enough of that.
I got my new suit yesterday, and it's ADORABLE! I want to wear it everywhere.
I <3 Murad's tinted moisturizer, and Kevin Aucoin's new eyelash curler is amazing.
My new schedule sucks because it leaves me very, very little time to go to the gym. Basically it leaves me Wed, Fri-Sun, but I'm almost always out of town over the weekends, so I'll have to get creative. Eat less. Walk more. Do more weights at home. I finally got my pilates dvd back, so at least I can do that at home now too. I think I'm stuck with just walking and weights until all this heals. My arm is a disgusting mess, and my knees are in shambles. 'm having a hard time lately for obvious reasons...I'm giving myself one more day of just being "healthy" so my body can cope with all the stress, and then I want to restrict more than ever. It'll be something else to focus on, and I need that more than ever, especially since severe restricting will be an extra incentive for not drinking...
Current Mood: transitory
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