jade's Blurty

Possibly uh-oh.

Last night:
D: "Did you know they have pro-anorexic blog communities?"

!!! Thinking fast, I remembered that I always update on my work computer, but I was paranoid anyway. I had used my screename to sign up for a xanga account so I could post on Carrie's page, but since she's about 80lbs, all the messages had been supportive/recovery/encouragement related and that I had mentioned her site to him before, so I said that yes, I knew, and I said that there was her page, and that she was sickly thin, yada yada yada, and that I had read about the pro-ana movement, and just like anything, if it's interesting, I research it online.

I am now INCREDIBLY paranoid.

He's pretty direct. If he had found something, I think he would have confronted me. I don't know though...

I think I did pretty well on my final. Now I just have to make it through this final project with my group. I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER. Then I have no class for about two or three weeks or so. I even took a week off from work. I'm so excited! I don't have the money to go anywhere, but just the prospect of chilling out for a week is amazing. D has the week off too. :)

Yesterday:
Bfast: pria bar=110
Snack: 1 bowl of peas=60
Lunch: veggie burger on diet bread=170
Snack: 1 bowl of peas=60
Dinner: tilapia and salad=300
Snack: 1/2 low cal popsicle=75
Snack: 2 veggie chick nuggets=95
Total:870

I did a weight workout at home as well. Not bad.
Today:
(So far)
Bfast: strawberries & nf yogurt=80

I feel like my butt and thighs are gigantic. If only I could get those down a bit, I think I'd be good to go. I don't feel like working on this project. I just want to lie in the sun, read books, shop, go to the gym, and listen to music ALL DAY.

I have to talk to my group in twenty minutes, so I'd better prep my questions, and then..coffee! It's not exactly the order I'd prefer, but I have no choice. Bleh.

Current Mood: annoyed