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Friday, May 9, 2008
10:54AM - Bad day.
I'm warning you now. This is going to be a negative post.
I'm super bummed today, and I'm having the sort of day where it would probably be for the best for me to go home and go to sleep.
My allergies are out of control today. Everything outside is covered with pollen. My eyes have doubled in size, and not in a good way. They are itching like mad, and I'm exhausted. I'm congested. I feel like the good year blimp. I went for blood work today, and that woman harpooned my arm, and it hurts. It still hurts. I'm going to have the nastiest bruise ever. They weighed me, and now I am completely demoralized. I looked at my banking statements, and now I am completely depressed because everytime I look at them, I realize that I can't afford anything at all ever again. Ever. Not even if it's on sale. Not even if I have a coupon. Not even if it's cheap and on sale. If it's not free, I can't have it.
And yes, this includes the following things I really want:
- cute wooden bracelet
-cute new sunglasses...my old ones are broken
-white bag because I don't have one, and I want one for summer/spring
-new flats because my feet just aren't comfortable
-maxi dresses because they hide the fat
I was broke ass before, but it's gotten much worse. Obviously I was on a shoe string budget given that my husband is a full time student, but now we're actively saving for a house, and my student loans have gone into repayment, which is awesome. I actually have about...after transfering my share of money into our joint account (pays for bills and rent and stuff), paying student loans, and paying my monthly investment, I have a whopping total of $80 a month to spend, which obviously goes towards paying off my credit cards, which means I don't have ANY money to spend ever. Any meaning ZERO. Nothing. Ever. Ever. This is beyond demoralizing. This sucks because I'm shallow, and while I obviously don't feel physically pretty, I feel a lot prettier if I'm dressed in cute things, and if I at least look as nice as I can. *sigh* This money thing isn't going to get any better until....sometime far into next year. And it's just going to get worse. I have to buy stuff for Father's Day, my Dad's birthday....I hate money.
Our house also recently got inspected. It is for the most part in perfect condition, except for the 10-20% of the house that has wood siding. Because the house is in a historic neighborhood, vinyl siding can't be used. Anyhow, the siding is old, rotten, and needs to be replaced. Plus, the building will need to be painted becuase the siding is....so all of this will cost about 10k. Shoot me.
The hormones of course, are making all of this much worse, so what would be a really, really bad day, is basically turning into a bad case of the mean reds, but worse. I know I shouldn't complain. I know people have it worse. Ugh....
Monday, May 5, 2008
12:00PM - to do today
To do today:
-Take 30 minute walk (I'm so happy I got this out of the way. I feel so much better when I get my walk in, and I need to get 30 minutes of fitness in EVERY day.)
-Return 2 dresses to Bluefly (This is so huge. I never return things by mail.)
-Call Verizon about refund; see if I can get it re-sent.. (must call on 5/14)
-Do something about that constituent inquiry
-Work on draft for dog bill
-Call SID about the self storage bill and about FGI bill/meeting (I tried...but apparently some people get to leave right at 5....)
-Stupid meetings
-Call about/order Mother's Day present
-and stuff.....
Sunday, May 4, 2008
10:32PM - Plans and reviews and stuff
Food
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I walked for 45 minutes on the treadmill at the gym yesterday at a 4mph hour pace, so I got a good 3 miles in.
Today I did 30 minutes of legwork, which was a combination of floor work and plies and that sort of thing. I also did some stretching. I'm going to try to get a 30 minute walk in tomorrow before session starts...
This weekend was slow...didn't do anything major really. On Friday, we went to dinner at Jenn and Seth's house. Jenn just had baby # 3 like a week or two ago. I can't believe she now has three children under the age of three. I seriously don't think I could do that without losing my mind completely. That was...fine.
Saturday, we didn't do much of anything. We went to the gym, went to the super market, came home, had dinner, and played Trivial Pursuit with D and Bill. I was victorious. I also discovered the most delicious and delightful and evil of all food creations: Ben and Jerry's Peach Cobbler ice cream. It is heaven. It is the best ice cream I have ever had in my entire life. I will never eat it again. Well, maybe once, but after that...never.
On Sunday, well, today rather, I kinda sorta worked out, and Bill and I went to the mall so I could exchange these size 4 BR pants that I never got a chance to wear for this poofy but cute print summer dress that I should be able to fit in for the next two months or so. Maybe even more. Thanks to the screwed up sizes and the oddly roomy clothing styles that are trendy this season, the dress is a size small, and you could probably smuggle a platoon in it. Not that I'm complaining....trust me. Then I went to GNC. My life is very exciting...then there was dinner and all that, and that was pretty much it.
I am feeling larger. I have to tell my boss this week. Uuuuurgh. Thanks to the rhinitis of pregnancy or allergies or something, I am congested constantly, and my legs are really, really, really itchy.. On the upside, my nails look amazing. I am no longer nauseous, just abdominally uncomfortable. When I eat, I'm uncomfortable for hours.
I can't believe tomorrow is Monday.
I need to drink more water.
Current mood: 
tired
Thursday, May 1, 2008
1:41PM - Feeling scattered
Okay, I'm feeling super scattered today, which is better than the horrible hormone roller coaster I was on yesterday. Annnnyways, I think I need a list today of what needs to be accomplished.
Today:
1. Attend stupid meeting.
2. Make copies of house stuff and UPS it.
3. Start hearing summary thing.
4. Call lobbyist guy about self storage bill; then tell Ivan what the guy said.
5. Email Chair the Excel sheet about the roundtable.
6. Take 30 minute walk downstairs ONLY after I have done items 1 and 2 and at least made headway on item 3.
7. Finish filing project. (Can be done tomorrow)
8. Send back BlueFly dresses and Banana pants. (Must be done tomorrow)
Of course, 5000 things came up today. I had a COBRA inquiry, like two inquiries from Ways and Means, and an inquiry about Healthy New York Funding..blah, blah, blah. All the rest of this stuff will have to get done tomorrow. Argh.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
5:40PM - Blah, blah.
Things that I don't care about:
- Miley Cyrus and her stupid goddamn picture. Seriously??? Do we care wether some tween took a picture in a sheet or not? Is this news? Should this be the topic of every tv show, talk show, and news cast? Isn't there a war going on? A "possible recession?" What about that whole presidential election thingie? Anyone? The news reading and tv watching world really cares about whether some tween of debatable looks and questionable talent is a slut or not? (Seriously though...she's not even cute. At least Britney was hot back in the day.) The whole "Is she a slut? Is she going to become a slut? Who's watching out for her? How risque! How precocious! Blah, blah, blah" discussion is so old and annoying.. You want to know why she did it? Please. It's the oldest trick in the book. Get some precocious chick at a transitional age, have her take some slutty pics; she gets a ton of press; the guys dig it; the girls dig it because it's rebellious, and then she rakes in the cash. *yawn*
Actually, that bothers me so much, I can't even focus on all the other things that annoy me right now, but just because, I'll do a quick list anyways:
Other things that annoy me:
1. Vitamin/special water- Seriously? 100+ calories in water? Have some juice or milk for God's sake. At least then you'd get some real nutrition....because...that's not water. That's...like Crystal Light or Koolaid masquerading as water. It's sugar water with a little vitamin C added. Most of them have lik 10% of certain vitmins. Useless. Also, "Life Water?" Seriously? This is horribly redundant and weird. Water=life. Water water? Idk. If you want to spend 100 cals and get real nutrition, drink milk or juice. Otherwise, drink water and pop a multi with your next meal. You'll save 100 calories and get all your nutrition for pennies on the dollar. I know I'm in the minority on this one, but I think my real problem is that it's called....water. If it were called soemthing else, like Koolaid or Crystal Light, which are water based but don't purport to be water, then I think I'd be fine with them...I mean, I wouldn't drink them, but their existence would annoy me less.
2. Misuse of appostrophes
3. Run on sentences
4. Oil dependence (in general, in relation to our domestic energy policy, in relation to our foreign policy, and in relation to our increasingly weird culture where everything is made of plastic (ie oil) and is disposable. Hm.)
5. Tree sex...or more accurately, allergies in general, which to me are just silly if you think about them.
6. Government
7. The fact that people seem to actually care if Ashlee Simpson is pregnant or not...that and the whole Hollyweird bump obsession. I mean seriously? If a woman is pregnant, she probably doesn't want you following her around with a camera to document her growth, and she may want to keep it under wraps until everything is in the clear. If a woman is not pregnant, what's more annoying than being falsely accused of being pregnant because you recently had a few drinks or a good meal for once? The tiniest bit of bloat or an unflattering outfit spawns tons of pregnancy rumors. Annoying and boring. Seriously not newsworthy. Hell, I am pregnant, and I don't care if that guy from My Name is Earl's wife is having a kid. I mean really?
8. The fact that Macy's has a one day sale/biggest sale of the year like....every day.
9. The fact that Heather Locklear is like 45 or 50 years old and still doesn't have cellulite. Seriously. Wtf?
10. The fact that I want to buy everything and have no money. Seriously, wtf? I have no money. None. Actually, technically, I have negative money. I have like $20 of discretionary money a month after student loans. However, this doesn't stop me from wanting to buy celebrity maternity wear (damn Gwen and Nicole and Angelina for their cute $300+ maxi dresses), everything at Sephora, and everything at MAC. Gah!
I'm allergic to everything right now, so I can't enjoy the outdoors. I'm working late hours, so I can't exactly go to the museum or do stuff like that. Losing weight is free too, but I can't do that right now either. I can't get a mani/pedi (despite seriously having the best nails of my life), and I totally suck at doing my own nails, so I can't really do that either. Can't drink....I seriously don't know what to do with myself.
....Don't drink, don't smoke, what do you do?
Monday, April 28, 2008
9:01PM - so about that whole house thing
We're obviously super excited, mostly because it seems to be perfect.
It's like a block or two away from where we live, which means the parking will still be good, and it will still be walking distance to work. Both key.
The building has 2 units. Ours is a two floor unit, with two bedrooms and a full bathroom on the second floor and the living room, kitchen, dining room, half bath/laundry, and deck acess on the first floor. Now get this: this used to be a three unit, but it was renovated...so basically, the current owner turned the upstairs living room into our palacial bedroom, turned the kitchen....into our beyond huge closet, and then left the bathroom and the bedroom. Can I get an amen?! A closet that used to be a KITCHEN?! *angels sing* Plus, the bedroom is totally big enough to bring in our big leather recliner for nursing and baby chill time, and it's totally big enough for a treadmill, which despite my lack of funds, I'm quietly squirreling away for.
The place has plenty of closet space, has a pantry, etc. It's really great, and the price is right, so we're beyond thrilled. We offered, they counter, we countered their counter, and they said yes. So now....we just need an inspection, annnnnnd they need to buy a house as that's a contingency. We're thinking this'll all happen sometime in July or, which would totally be perfect.
And....as anticlimactic as it may be, I'm now going to do a quick weekend/today update.
Today: Today was super quiet at work, which was awesome. For whatever reason, it was a non session day, which meant one more day of reprieve, short hours, and casual clothes. I walked to and from work (1 hour total), and I did 30 mins of prenatal yoga, which.....was way lame. I mean it felt nice, and it was relaxing and stretchy, but it wasn't nearly as challenging as what I'm used to. Hmph. The pilates dvd was definitely better, probably because of the killer leg series!
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Weekend: I did nothing. Basically. I avoided the outdoors like it was the plague, mainly because it was. I rested a lot, did some stretching, and that was about it. All weekend. I did briefly go to an 80s party, and it was lame, but I was hot. I had a flash dance sort of thing going on. Roar. The party was weak because I wasn't drinking, and because most of the people at this party were adults or teens in the 80s; we had expected more of the work/happy hour crew. Anyhow, the outfits and the food were good, so that was cool. Oh yeah, and we got a house. Did I mention that?
Current mood: 
relaxed
Sunday, April 27, 2008
4:05PM - yay!
We're buying a house!!!!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
10:44AM - omfg
I'm so tired.
If I didn't know better, I would think I was dying.
Pregoness+allergies=living death.
I could literally sleep for another seven hours right now and probably wake up exhausted.
Sucking. My will. To live.
Also, I take back what I said yesterday. Claritin with no D sucks. My eyes are practically swollen shut, and I can't breath through my nose.
Dinner with the mystery relatives yesterday was nice. Long story short, my grandma's brother and his wife, who lived in Alaska for like....ever, have been traveling all over the country studying the family geneology for years. Right now, they're in New York, so we and my parents met them for dinner yesterday. The last time I saw them, I think I was about 4. Apparently, they've traced certain lines back 25 generations, all the way back to the 1300s. We have six lines that qualify me for membership in both the Daughters of the American Revolution and the Daughters of 1812, which is pretty cool. Apparently, one relative actually got tried, convicted, and released for witch craft in Salem becuase she sold butter to a ship's captain, and it went rancid en route. (refrigeration is awesome.) So yeah, that's all pretty cool. I guess we're also very distantly related to Mary Todd Lincoln and maybe some other presidential types. We'll see. Anyhow, that's all pretty cool.
I had steak, a teensy bit of baked potato, and broccoli. Yummmm....I ended up going all ala carte because the idea of pasta made me want to hurl.
On a side note, I can't wait to go on a diet.
Tonight, we are going out to dinner with some people for $16.09 week...Here's the menu...I'm thinking vegetable minnestrone (can't eat the other two...no "fresh" soft cheese and nothing tartare), salmon, and maybe the mousse or the ice cream.
Hopefully I will be able to stay awake long enough to make it through dinner.
Current mood: exhausted
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
2:14PM - Wednesday
Allergies are in full swing.
This girl's just glad she can take Claritin (sadly no "d," which means I'm woefully congested). This weekend, I couldn't get in touch with my doc to find out what I could take, so instead, I took nothing, and it was beyond dreadful.
I am tres tired.
This weekend was uneventful.
I had Monday off, but I ended up having to do a bunch of work from home via email because...I don't even know why. Ugh. I also went in for ultrasound 5,251, which was actually a repeat of the last one when le bebe wouldn't cooperate. This time, I bought D, just because I thought it might be neat for him to see, and wouldn't you know it, the baby moved into perfect position and was an absolute lamb. The good news? Everything looks normal. The bad news? It's three months into it, and the baby already doesn't listen to me? Jk. Honestly, I'm just glad that I didn't gain any weight between that visit and the ones prior... Anyhow, then we went for lunch, and it was an all-round good day.
As of yesterday, I am 14 weeks, which puts me officially in the second trimester. I'm 1/3 done! While most of the nausea has abated, some still lingers. For example, I can't stomach large meals, and if I drink water on too empty of a stomach, I get very queasy. The exhaustion hasn't abated at all though. I'm beyond tired. I'm on the edge of almost showing, depending on what I wear. If I wear jeans and a t shirt, you can't tell. If I wear a loose jersey dress, and the wind blows, you can almost tell. I think I have between two weeks and a month, and then I will be showing for sure. As far as food goes, I'm eating well, although I think I'm just going to try to focus more on protein, veggies, and fruit because when I eat a carb-y meal, I practically go into a coma. Not good.
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Yesterday and today were lame, although this week has been blessedly quiet because it's not a session week, which means no meetings, no members, no nothing...and...casual clothes. Hurray hurrah. It also means I have plenty of times for walks in the concourse. Today I walked to and will walk from work (20 mins/1.2 miles total), and I walked 30 minutes in the concourse. Yesterday I walked for 30 mins in the concourse, plus another 30 or so of generalized running around. I also intend to walk tomorrow and Friday. I'm hoping to 30 minutes of yoga or pilates today too, if I have the time and the energy. Hopefully I'll make it to the gym this weekend too.
Ugh. I just wish Session would be over. It's getting harder and harder for me to pretend to care anymore. I'm so mentally divorced from the process. From government. From the inefficiency. From all of it.
I just finished Book 6 of Harry Potter, and it was so sad! I'm hoping to borrow Book 7 and finish it before work gets too hectic and before I lose all ability to focus.
I'm becoming a bit dejected about this whole house hunting thing. Everything is either gorgeous and way too expensive (>300k) or affordable (<300k) and requires a lot of time and money for it to be livable. This is why I hate New York. I know damn well that in other states, you can buy a gorgeous house for under 200k that requires zero work. Plus, if you are unfortunate enough to live in a city, you pay at least 10k a year in taxes, but because you live in a city, the schools suck so bad that you either have to move, or you have to pay for private schools. Oh well, I'm sure eventually the right thing will come along.
Omg. I just want a nap and for this day to be over with! The day is dragging, and it seems like it will never ennnnnnnddd.....
Current mood: tired
Friday, April 18, 2008
10:59AM - but I am le tired!
Annnnyhow...
Ugh.
Tomorrow, no, scratch that, today, I have to go down to Long Island, and I don't wanna!!!! In general, I'm tired, and my energy overall is kind of low, and everyone there is going to be hyper and high energy, and I really just want to lie still and be quiet. So I'm not really feeling it.
Went for a bright and early doc's appointment. Blood work all came back good. For some reason, blood work always scares me. Idk why, but it does, especially all the stuff they test you for here....all sorts of horrible diseases and stuff...which...I don't have. Woo hooo!
Ultrasound went well, but not perfect. They were supposed to look at the skinfolds on the back of the baby's neck, but baby....was...not...having it. The lady poked; she prodded; she jabbed. Baby waved around hands and feet, but wouldn't roll over.
As a result, I put the baby on womb arrest for the next six months or so. That'll show him/her! Ha!
Yesterday, I did a prenatal pilates dvd, and it went pretty well. Prior to ordering, I read all the reviews so that I could order the hardest one, and this one was actually pretty tough. Understandably, it was like 70% leg work, but the leg work was really intense, and this dvd had some tough moves I haven't even seen in regular dvds. Let's just say this: I'm going to have the hottest prego butt ever.
The day before that I did a brief weight workout, which was good. I focused on upper body and abs, and then I did some plies and squats, which were good.
Today I want to go for a kinda early 30 minute walk while I still have energy.
I'm really trying to stay active, especially before I get too big.
Today, we're also looking at another building. D already saw it and thinks it looks really promising. *fingers crossed*
Last night, D and I went out to dinner with my parents, who were kind of disappointed that I haven't exploded over night. I don't see how they could have expected that, but there you have it. I had salmon with sauteed veggies and a rice medley. It was good, but would have been better with some white wine. *sigh*
What else?
Food I suppose. There is always food.
Today:
Bfast: 100 calorie bagel...half with pb, half with margarine
Lunch: salad with chicken and veggies and stuff and light dressing
Snack: fat free Greek yogurt
Dinner: ??? I imagine it will be some sort of fast something or other. Le sigh. Maybe a salad and a grilled chicken sandwhich somewhere?
Best news ever: I have Monday off! Woo hoo!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
11:12AM - Today and stuff.
Food and stuff
Bfast: fat free organic Greek yogurt with ground flax seeds
Lunch: salad w/ chicken and light dressing
Snack: raw broccoli w/ light dressing
Snack: whole grain oatmeal (enriched with all sorts of awesome stuff)
Dinner: probably steak fajitas w/ vegetarian refried beans, sauted onions and bell peppers, salsa, low fat sour cream & cheese, and low cal/high fiber wraps
Yesterday:
Bfast, lunch, and snack went as planned.
Snack2: whole grain oatmeal
Dinner: KFC with most of the skin peeled off (yuck and unhealthy I know, but I didn't get to eat dinner until like 9.)
Anyhow, I'm seriously obsessed with this oatmeal because it's so damn healthy.
Sturm's Whole Grain Oatmeal- Blueberr
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I want to go back to sleeeeeeeep. Working late sucks when prego.
Very much.
I am dragging ass.
I feel like I need some motivation today to do some of the crap I need to do, sooooo....here is one of my ever popular to-do lists.
To do:
1. Clean desk.
2. File new bills and memos.
3. Prep for tomorrow's committee meeting.
4. Go to boring meetings.
5. Compile invite list for upcoming roundtable.
6. Go for 30 minute walk.
7. Drink one bottle of water.
8. Use toning band.
9. Create and forward a report of all min. bills in committee.
10. Clean out email in box.
In other news, the house hunt continues. Hopefully we will find something because we seriously are bursting out of our apartment as it is. Once number 3 and all of his/her stuff comes along, I have no idea what we will do.
Also, our entire family now knows, as do my top five friends. I feel like that's enough notice, and the word will spread. What now? Do I need a myspace bulletin or something? I'm seriously too lazy to call like every person I know, and because my old phone died, I don't really have all the numbers I used to have anyways. I somehow feel like I'm supposed to do something official or something, but I don't know....what.
I'm going to try to put off telling work until sometime in May, at which time I'll be like 4-5 months, and it should become pretty obvious and will be unhideable.
Okay, and....well, I somehow got sucked into the trashtastic wonder that is Rock of Love II, so I watched the finale yesterday, and I'm undecided about how I feel about the results. Thoughts?
Current mood: exhausted
Monday, April 14, 2008
12:35PM - So far so good.
Feeling a bit better today.
I walked to work this morning (15 mins), and I walked in the concourse for 30, and I'll be walking home for another 15, for a total of an hour.
Yesterday D and I had to dogsit for my parents, and I walked 3 miles on my mom's treadmill in my MBT's for 45 minutes.
I'm really just trying to stay as active as I can because I feel SOOOOO much better when I get moving a bit.
I'm also loving that fresh produce is finally in season. Last week, I went to the grocery store and loaded up on bananas, fresh berries, and cantaloupe, and it was fabulous.
Today:
Bfast: eggwhites, turkey sausage, lite/high fiber English muffin, high calcium OJ
Lunch: 3 oz steak, peas
Snack: 1/4 cup pepitas
Dinner: Depends when I get out tonight. I might make vegan chili and baked potatoes if I have time.
Yesterday:
Bfast: curried eggs, whole grain english muffin, sausage, OJ
Lunch: a ton of cantaloupe, a little bit of cheese
Dinner: pork tenderloin, roasted potatoes & veggies
Dessert: kiddie sized serving of ice cream
Weekend update:
Friday: D and I dressed up and went to his law review semi-formal. I felt self conscious, but I looked really cute. It was boring because it was full of boring drunk people who only talked about law school. Still, it was fun to dress up and go out with D, even if the open bar was completely wasted on me.
Saturday: Sucked. I had to get up way early to go to continuing ed for my insurance license. 8am-4pm talking about insurance. UGH! Way to kill a Saturday. The one thing that was cool about it was that my dad was there, so it wasn't completely lame. After that, D and I played a lot of Guitar Hero, and then we walked Mugs in the park for like an hour, and he loved it!
Sunday: We slept in, and then we went out for breakfast with Bill to my favorite breakfast place. IIt's really small and well-known, so the wait was seemingly endless, but I had to have those curried eggs, and it was so worth it. After that, D and I headed to my parent's house to dog sit, where we dog sat. Exciting!
This coming weekend we have to go to Long Island for Passover, and it is going to be totally lame because they have NO healthy food there, and I'm not going to be able to eat any leavened food. Annooooying.
Next week there is NO session, and that makes me really happy, because I can wear casual clothes all week and leave by 5, and that is AWESOME.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
4:54PM - Is she just bloated?
Venting
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I'm trying to buy the cutest possible clothes. I got an Arden B maxi dress for $40!!! Can you believe it? It's super cute. Also, Gap mat. has a few super cute things. I'm trying; really I am.
Yesterday I went for my blood work, and they took all my blood. Seriously. I think they took it all, and none is left. Like 7 vials! I'm fairly anemic to begin with, and if I wasn't before the test, I probably am now. Annoying.
Also, I really miss wine.
A few really cool things:
-We passed the budget! YAY! Life will return to some state of normalcy at work!
-I don't have to take stats! They're waiving it because I was a math minor in undergrad! Yay! This means that I get to save $1,000, not take stats, and that I am now only 3 credits away from graduation! WOO HOO! YES!
-D agreed that all my prego stuff can go on our joint card, so I don't have to pay for it all. This is good because I'm going broke buying crap.
-Now I can start going to the gym 2x a week again! Woo hoo! Going to the gym makes me feel SO much better.
-I've been walking a lot too.
Friday, April 4, 2008
10:48AM - Supposedly it's Friday.
Today is annoying. It's Friday, and I want to go home.
My allergies are starting, and I can't take my meds because it will turn my baby into....something? Other than a baby? Like everyother useful medicine known to man? Le sigh. I'm a sneezy, runny-eyed mess.
I haven't been able to do laundry because I haven't been home, so my fave black tights weren't clean, so I had to dig this other pair out, and although I didn't know it at the time, they suck.
I can barely walk without the damn things falling off. It's like the manufacturers forgot to put the elastic in or something. I need suspenders or a belt for them. Seriously. Annoying! Unfortunately, unless I can figure out how to make a belt out of office supplies ( rubber bands!!!??!?!), that pretty much eliminates the possibility of taking a walk today. The rubber band thing totally worked!
I feel like I'm gaining weight even though I'm not eating a super ton. (I'm not restricting or anything, just eating healthy, but by no means eating a lot..) I'm not one of these pregos that sits around eating ice cream and crap all day. Generally you're only supposed to gain a few pounds during the first trimester, and I'm like 10 weeks in with 2 to go, and I've already gained all 5 for sure. Somehow, I thought since I am not drinking, that I would lose weight unless I ate way more to make up for it, but somehow that doesn't seem to be the case. I feel like my metabolism has beyond tanked. Gah! I'm going to chalk it up to a beyond shitty diet this week and almost zero activity because I've been chained to my goddamn desk. This is totally TMI, but I'm also blaming it on the fact that I CAN'T POOP! I eat, and it just....doesn't....go....anywhere.
I've worked over 100 hours in the past 7 days..
I have a doctor's appointment in 2 weeks, and I still haven't been able to make it to the lab for my blood work because for some reason labs aren't open after midnight when I get out of work. Hm.
It fucking sucks.
Everyone here is whining about how tired they are. Ummm...yeah. Try being pregnant with untreated allergies while getting this little sleep, and then come talk to me about it.
I want to go home.
Tomorrow, I'm supposed to proctor....if I'm not here, of course. That being said, I don't know if I will be physically capable of dragging my ass out of bed to go ANYWHERE at 5 am....regardless of how badly I need the money. And I do need the money. Idk if it's because I'm in a funk or what, but all I want to do is spend money, and I have been. Help? Thoughts?
I mean, it's warranted. I spent a bunch of $$ on prego workout dvds and Bella Bands (these things that help you keep your pants up and stretch your prego wardrobe), and while it was necessary, that doesn't mean I can afford it. To top it all off, I'm dying to spend all this money I don't have on beauty products and clothes (because I feel like a beast, and somehow spending money helps me with this?), and I can't afford it. I'm still paying off that stupid phone I couldn't afford. GAH!
Ok.
So I'm currently lusting after the following beauty products:
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Food
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Current mood: tired
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
6:46PM - whining.
I'm dejected. about pretty much everything right now.
They are increasing spending when there is a rejected.
I will get rolled on important issues, especially when I'm right.
I will continue to get sent to supid meetings that are two hours long where I will have no role aside from my chair being able to say that he sent someone.
Everything is half-conceived, corrupt, inefficent, and stupid.
I am mentally divorced from my job completely.
A part of me can't help but wonder what kind of job I would be happy in or if such a job even exists.
1:19PM - I heard today is Wednesday?
Ugh.
Bfast: non fat organic greek plain yogurt w/ 1 tsp flax seeds, 1 tsp sugar
Lunch: sandwhich w/ grilled chicken, lto, wheat bread, provolone, 3 pieces bacon, balsmic vinegar (- It was supposed to come on parmesan ciabata w garlic aioli mayo, but I subbed them out.)
Snack: orange
Dinner: grilled chicken breast, a bit of rice pilaf, salad, glass of V8
The end.
Still working late.
Yesterday I managed to get a 30 minute walk in, and I'm hoping to do the same today. I've also been using my toning band a lot for upper body work while at my desk to try make up for the fact that I'm at my desk for 12-15 hours a day. I really wish I could work out more. Sitting all day feels so unhealthy. Actually, wait....it is unhealthy.
My boobs are getting bigger, and it's annoying. I always thought I wanted bigger boobs, but now that they're bigger, I don't like them that much because my jackets don't look cute. I think they might be approaching C territory soon. I'm not super huge yet or anything, despite being almost 3 mo...10 weeks actually. My waist is just thick. I'm at that point where no one can tell, and everyone probably just thinks I've let myself go. Of course, if you had never seen me, you probably wouldn't think much of anything.
I ordered a prego pilates dvd and two prego yoga dvds.
I'm so tired that I feel like I have the mental capacity of a cucumber.
The end.
Current mood: really tired.
Monday, March 31, 2008
1:53PM - Budget sucks.
Tired doesn't begin to cover it.
The fact that I've been eating total crap for the last few days does NOT help. Ick. I need detox or something. I just want to eat steamed vegetables and soups and chicken for like days....that and sleep. Lots of sleep. Copious, ridiculous amounts of sleep.
Today. 9am-???
Yesterday. Noon-3:00 am
Saturday. 11am-2:30 am
Friday. 9am-11pm
Thursday. 9am-8:30pm
Obviously I worked m,t, w, but I can't remember the hours. Hopefully this will end soon.
I'd definitely try the nettle tea suggestion, but that would require me to actually leave my desk long enough to buy it. *le sigh*
Wth is everyone?
I finally sized out of my size 2 khakis. I can get in them, but they are not by any means wearable. Le sigh. And so it begins.
I'm wondering how long I can get away with not dishing to the work folks.
Current mood: tired
Friday, March 28, 2008
2:39PM - Really F#$%ing tired
Omfg.
I'm so tired I can't stand it. I mean, budget makes me tired, and pregnancy makes me tired, but pregnancy + working until 11pm and showing up at work at 9am the next day= exhaustion, followed closely by death. Of course, you're not supposed to drink mega doses of caffeine while prego, so that can't even help. Le sigh.
I will likely be here until Midnight or later tonight, Saturday, and Sunday. I don't know how I'm going to make it, given that I feel super dead on my feet as it is, and it's not even 3pm yet.
Amended food from yesterday:
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