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Wednesday, September 17th, 2003
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| 9:48p | Why is it that I actually am really truly content right now? Wow, I havent felt like this since......years! Its great! I feel unstressed, even though I know that once this mood is gone, its all going to come crashing down onto me. Life is going alright, I guess. I think and hope I'm getting closer to Shawn. I really hope he gets this Merrick thing straightened out. I see Merrick's POV, and I kinda agree with it, kinda don't. Of course I'm on Shawn's side, because I know him a trillion times more than I know Merrick. So yeah. I wish Bianka and I could be closer. *tear* I wish I actually had friends in my classes. What am I going to do about Pre AP WH and Geometry? I need help! And someone to whip me so I can actually get moving on my projects!! Oscar is supposed to call me Saturday. ^_^ I hope he does. Maybe Hugo will be around. He said I'd be surprised at Hugo's voice. *shrug* I wonder what they'll think of my voice......XD Sip4253: so hows life seamonkeyswrath: well, right now i feel ok, just tired, but once i snap out of it, its going to crush me like a large boulder falling on a tiny insecure ant seamonkeyswrath: i'm hungry.....but if i eat food, i shall gain weight.....and i'm alreayd chubby as it is! i dun need more chub.....oye, i'm so hungry. i dun eat like anything except whats force fed to me.......i think i have an eating disorder...... CandyChick61089: well you should hungry, then work out seamonkeyswrath: i dun have time! seamonkeyswrath: and where would i go? CandyChick61089: well um seamonkeyswrath: what would i do? CandyChick61089: run around the school! seamonkeyswrath: lol i shall try! seamonkeyswrath: hey babe MisterCriminy: hey sexy seamonkeyswrath: whats up? MisterCriminy: nothing here..just self loathing like usual seamonkeyswrath: aww, you should stop that. i really dun see why you loathe urself so much MisterCriminy: heh, you? seamonkeyswrath: lol, self loathing as well MisterCriminy: whats wrong? seamonkeyswrath: same odl complaints seamonkeyswrath: *old MisterCriminy: OH =\ So this is my life, huh? LOL I hate it so much! ^^;; Someone save meh! Kidnap me, I say, kidnap me! I just wish I could work out my insecurities right now. Then I might feel better. Oh darn, I wish I could have gotten Homecoming Court. NOT! Phew, I was so relieved when I learned I didn't make it! Can you imagine me in a dress? Inuyaaaaaaaaaashaaaa..........Inuyaaaaaa I wish I could solve everyone's problems. Then I might feel better about myself. I wish I could be as happy as Bianka. She's always so happy. I wonder why. Is it because she has God in her life? Where's God in mine? ANd don't blame it on me, like everything else!! I wish people could just see that this is how I am, and accept me for it..... *sigh* I feel really bad. My friend is really depressed. I want to help him feel better, but I don't know what to do. Well, I'm going to go before I go back and change my mood to 'depressed' and delete the stuff I typed earlier. Mucho amor, Jessica Current Mood:  contentCurrent Music: Chevelle -- Send The Pain Below |
| 10:04p | Yeah, skip the parts in the tidlies, unless you have nothing else to do..... ~~ i'm pleased to announce my new me has begun. it's been a long process, especially amidst the schedule that i keep, missing sleep and washing my feet. foot care is the most important thing one should pay attention to when traveling. the japanese have it down. taking off your shoes is more than a tradition, it's a lifestyle. when i get my own home i'm going to instate the no shoe law. it's all about comfort really, the only way you'd be uncomfortable is if you haven't changed your socks in days, toca rivera. ~~~ ok, i was just told not to take anythign in my friends blurty seriously. *looks at previous entry* Oops. ~~~wow... i'm tearing up just thinking about it. no, nevermind, it's all the smoke in this internet cafe. makes you wonder, if they have smoking sections, couldn't they have peeing sections in pools?~~~ ~~~maybe it's time i get an assistant. simply to have a friend everywhere i go. someone to always agree with me and allow me to complain from time to time. maybe someone to massage my feet, feed me grapes or wave big banana leaves at my face. someone to give all the polaroids to and tell them to scan them. that's the only thing that bums me about the 'roids, is that it's not easy to get them on the site. i'd love to show you some of these pics. maybe i'll just publish a book in a few years and add some road journal entries to correspond with the images. "yea, great idea mraz," my assistant would say. "thanks friend, more bhudda's tears please."~~~ I'm posting all this shit that no one cares about up because no one even bothers to read my blurty anyways, so WHY THE HELL NOT?!?!?! I'm angered, hurt, adn sad right now. All the happy go bai bai. *sigh* I hate myself. I wish I could be happy like Bianka. Eye loff ewe, wooevr ewe ahr woo dusnt reed this aniwaiz. *sigh* Much Love, Jessica Current Mood: Sad, hurt, mad, and tired. Current Music: Seven Nation Army -- The White Stripes |
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