Janushka's Pudding Pie's Blurty

WARNING: JASON MRAZ FAN RANT AHEAD!! DANGER!! DANGER!!..but there's more to it than just Jason shit.
My life has now taken one step closer to completion. I have finally seen the Jason Mraz music video for The Remedy. I am now happy. See me happy? I am happy! I am so happy, that I decided to update my blurty. Not that I don't do it constantly anyways...I am happy! It was so cool! Damn, I wish I was that girl who carried all those eggs. I mean, sure she got covered in egg goop, but, hey, I would get covered in egg goop if it meant meeting Jason, ha haaaaa......I'm turning into a fangirl, damn, just not an otaku one. Ha haaaa. Is that a bad thing? I think it is. Who knows? Well, if you people still want to keep me, you're gonna have to take me as I am. I don't think I rant as much about Jason as I do in blurty......I hope not.......but anyways, he wears the same clothes in the music vid as he does in the booklet thingey from the CD, minus the "I love sex" sticker/pin thingey. I have yet to determine which it is. And I want a freaken Mrazda truck!! Ha haaa!! I lvoe that music video. Hey, I'm listening to that song right now, lol. Mr. Mraz changed my life, I swear. That, and Train. I need to download Calling All Angels, just cause it's a beautiful song, with beautiful lyrics. I mean, blah blah religion blah blah, but I still really like it, and it's all about endurance and knowing that at the end of every dark forest, there's a field of beautiful flowers, and that at the end of every thunderstorm, there's sunlight, and warmth. It makes me cry just thinking about it........and the music video is beautiful. I think I'm getting obsessed with music videos now. Before, I was all, like, anti-music video, but now, whilst awaiting to view the ever sexy Jason Mraz, I have fallen in love with music videos........

I need to watch less TV. I saw a music video today, and I had it on mute, so I didn't hear the song, but I saw people throwing away alot of material possesions, and I though, maybe I should do that. Maybe I should go, and throw my TV off a bridge, and my computer too. I mean, I would be bored to death, but I think it will help me enjoy life much more, you know. I wouldn't have to worry about my stupid cousins disconnecting me from the itnernet, and I wouldn't have to worry about missing the latest episode of blah-dee blah-dee blah. Hmm.......things like this get you to think.

I think, that if I could only have five things in life (counting things I didn't already previously had....*sniff sniff*), it would be music, beauty, love, friends, and happiness. But, there are so many obstacle in the way, and I don't even have beauty. I have music, but I want more. I want to be able to make music, but not the crap that I play in Band. I have love, but it's so hard to realize how much I have, over how much more i think I need. I have friends, sure, but I don't have a friend who is into everything that I'm into and shows me new things, adn can talk to for hours and hours on end. I have close friends that i can do so many things with, but there comes a time when we must go our seperate paths. It's not freaking fair. I'm happy, sure, but there are also so many things that make me doubt happiness in its entirety.

Today, I got a brand new muse. I must get it written down. I really need to write this summer, I mean, like, on paper, otherwise I think I'll forget and only know how to type. Damn.

I wonder, if I were two people, and I had just met this other me, and not known that it was me, would I be my friend?

Do I rant too much? Please tell me. I want to know. I'm not whining, am I? I'm trying to stop whining. I just want to know if I should stop ranting, because some people don't like it. People use this thing as a journal, and I do that too, but I also use it to let out some deep thoughts inside of me.....is that a bad thing?

I wonder if someone who I sent thins URL to has stopped reading this because it didn't interest them.

I'm repeatedly voting for Jason at TRL vote thingey online, lol. I think it's really funny how they say that you can vote limitlessly. It's great.

I think I now value life a little more, just by some various little things that have happened these past few days. Ha haa........just watch as something happens at home that makes me forget all these things, and feel like shit. *coughMotherandCousinscough* I think it would be nice to have a family I can actually communicate with and love. But, no. My mother never taught me enough Spanish, because my father wanted me to also learn Romanian, but I just want to focus on speaking English as correctly as I possibly can. It's just not fair. Especially when I'm around Yari and her family. I feel so stupid because she's all tlaking in Spanish and everyone else is too, and when I hang out with my Romanian friends like Florina and Laura and that cool bald guy, and I watch them speak fluent Romanian, and I understand very little. I have pressures to learn Spanish, Romanian, proper English, and French. I know that French is last on my list, but I see all my friends who are in gifted classes talking in French, and I feel so left out. I really don't know these things anymore, lol. But, hopefully, when this is over, it'll taste like chicken. It had better, lol!! ^^;;

I think I'm going to go outside today, and just sit outside and play with my dog. That poor thing is all alone out there, with no one to play with but the chickens and getting oggled at by Derrick and that stupid blob downstairs with her stupid bunny which I should have killed when I had the chance.

Lol, here I am being all optomistic about life, when it's Friday the 13th!! Is that a bad or temporary thing?

Hmm.....someone told me that really rainy and really sunny days are good omens. Yesterday was really really rainy, and now I'm so upbeat. I hope its not temporary. I mean, I don't want to be one of those hippie people *coughMrs.Dawsoncough* that value life so much that they almost always have a stupid smile on their faces, but I always want to feel this way, because it feels good.

Well, I'm done, because no one wants to hear my sad pitiful happy happy rants, and I have to pee, too. I guess I'll update tonight and of course tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that, and the day after that.......

Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: The Remedy by Jason Mraz