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	2003.08.07  16.42 High School? You mean that big huge jungle full of tall people? Big two days, these past two. Yesterday I went to the mall. Yari and I obsessed over Hello Kitty. I absolutely loooove Hello Kitty!! Get me something Hello Kitty for my birthday, if you want to, please! I'm not having a party, I decided. What's the point. I mean, we're still recovering from the incidents at Han's, and then Mia's going to have one. *shrugs* Hello Kitty! Meow! Anyhow, I saw Danielle and Matt and Nick and Chris and we said hi and stuff. Yeah. Wherehouse Music still don't have the CD I'm looking for. Damn them. Today, I went to the orientation with Yari. It was alright. My homeroom pretty much sucks. I never really noticed how nice Chase is. Despite his lack of acknowledging authority, he's very nice and funny. I wouldn't mind getting to know him, besides, he's the only one in homeroom who talked to meh. S'was ok. We went on the gaywad tour. I didn't talk to anyone, but I saw Emily Blackwell and Matt Brundage. Their homeroom is somewhere near mine of something, and I have their homeroom teacher for Biology, and thats first First semester, so it ain't a bad deal to get to class. BTW, I'm going to type my schedule, so if anyone has the same classes, please oh please oh please let me know! First Semester: (Class, room no., teacher) 1: Biology 420 Berry 2: G Lit Comp A 214 Sanford 3: Lunch LGI Hines 4: InterBand THE B-Rob 5: Spanish IA 217 Price 6: G Anthropology 112 Carley 7: Geometry 303A Grant Second Semester 1: Spanish IB 210 Newman 2: G Lit Comp B 214 Sanford 3: Lunch LGI Hines 4: InterBand IB BAND B-Rob 5: Biology I 419 Gray 6: Technology 112 Carley 7: Geometry 303A Grant Advisement 423 Hines Of course, my schedule might change, as I might get into Spanish 2 if I'm lucky enough. And stuff. Anyways, I saw Taylor twice. He was wearing that shirt that he wore on the last day of school that makes him look like a bright blue half-eaten popsicle. *nods* I walked behind him and talked to Yari. I wonder if he recognized my voice......hahah.....How can he not? I hung out with Yari and Bianka most of the time and sometimes with Eric. Fun fun fun! I guess until I make new friends, these are the people I'll hang out with. I need to make new friends in my classes, because I'm not in that many classes with my friends. I hope that if I make it into Spanish 2, I can be with my Poopie. ^_^ I might forget something about it, if I did, perhaps Bianka will remind me or something. Oh yeah. My locker sucks. It's number 1108 and its on the bottom in a corner. Damnit. At least its close to my friends's lockers! ^_^ I'm kinda hoping the people I wasn't that great as friends with lsat year will get closer to me. The more friends the better, right? Besides, since three of the closest people to me aren't going to be experiencing high school with me........*trails off* Anyhow. Maybe I'm getting to hypped up about nothing, but still. I mean, its high school. Oy, debate team and FCA. What have I gotten myself into. o.o Anyways, blurty's irking me (hahaha, i love that word......'irking'.......hahaha) so I'm going to shut up now and stuff so I'll talk to you later. Love and Peace! Vaya con donuts! Mood: horny Music: Shatterday by Vendetta Red

	2003.08.01  11.45 Absolutely Zero You. You were a friend. You were a friend of mine I let you spend the night You see how it was my fault. Of course it was mine. I'm too hard at work. Have you ever heard of anything so absurd ever in your life. I'm sorry for wasting your time. Who am I to say this situation isn't great? It's my job to make the most of it Of course I didn't know that it would happen to me. Not that easy. Hey what's that you say? You're not blaming me for anything that's great But I don't break that easy. Does it fade away? So that's why I'm apologizing now for telling you I thought that we could make it I just don't get enough to believe that we've both changed. Who am I to say this situation isn't great? It's my time to make the most of it How could I ever know that this would happen to me, not that easy, no All along the fault is up for grabs why don't you have it Well it's for sale go make your offer, I'll sell it for no less than what I bought it for Pay no more than absolutely zero. Well neither one of us deserves the blame because opportunities moved us away And it's not an easy thing to learn to play a game that's made for two that's you and me The rules remain a mystery. See it can be easy. Who am I to say this situation isn't great? It's our time to make the most of it How could we ever know that this would happen to me, not that easy, no All along the fault is up for grabs and there you have it Well it's for sale go make your offer, I'll sell it for no less than what I bought it for Pay no more than absolutely zero. Damnit, the truth hurts. I'm sick of running from the truth, but I can't stop. Last night, I cried for the first time since Rose left. I told myself to stop. I told myself that this irritates people even more. But it just made me cry more. Then I started yelling at myself. It didn't work. Then I consoled myself, but then I realized that that's really pitiful, which kept the tears falling. Then I tried ripping my hair out, but the pain didn't hepl in the slightest. The tears kept falling until the could fall no more. I wanted to hurt myself because I couldn't stop no matter what I tried. I wished that Amy or Han were there. Two of my best friends. How will I ever live without them in high school? I'll fall apart. I keep sneezing. Either that means I'm getting sick, or someone keeps thinking about me. I hope its the latter, unless its bad thoughts. I had a long and complicated dream last night, and I don't know everyone who was in it, but I know there was...stuff I don't want to talk about. I didn't cry in my dream, but I did feel like shit. In my dream, I watched all my friends do drugs, have sex, have fun together, laugh and laugh, talk enjoyably, etc, but I didn't fit in. I never did those things. The only things I did in my dream were things that made me feel bad. I don't get it. I might ask Hugo to help me interpret it. He's done one or two of my dreams before. *sigh* Right now, I just want to find a place where I fit in, don't feel so uneasy about myself, and have many friends and great times. As long as I can take Amy, Han, Keru, and Yari with me. OK, well, its either Keru or Yari, those two don't get along. I wish I had a therapist. Too bad they're all expensive. I was making a pros and cons list of myself last night, after I stopped crying. It evened out on quantity, but definitely not on quality. Makes me sad. Well, before I start a super mego long rant, I'll end this shorter one. I leave tomorrow for Chicago. I don't know how long it will be until I get in touch with someone. I tihnk Yari is coming back when I leave, and I think that the band people are too. *shrugs* I'm sorry to everyone who I have wronged, or did anything that you didn't like. I'll try to do better next time. I'm too open, that's my problem. I completely hate being an extrovert. It causes so many problems. I'm going to try to keep to myself from now on. It might make my life, and my friend's lives, much easier. I want my Cookies!! I'm wearing that hat again. It made me happy, then it made me cry. Goddamn, I'm so confused, and there's not much for me to be confused about! I'm so disorganized! Love always, though the feeling may not always be mutual, Jessica. PS: Pessimism isn't a bad thing. Constant optomism is, in my opinion. Not like my opinion matters anyway... People love me, right? Because sometimes it doesn't feel like it. I'm sorry if I need to know constantly that I'm love. Does it make me a bad person? Mood: contemplative Music: Absolutely Zero by one of the greates singers of all time.

	2003.07.31  23.55 So let the sunshine in, face it with a grin, open up your heart and elt the sunshine in. Okie dokie. Here it goes. That day…...can’t remember what its called……………Wednesday, I think…... I went to the mall with Stephanie and Danielle. Stephanie met up with her boyfriend, so it was just me and Danielle the majority of the time, because Stephanie and Matt went to the bush. Mmhm. Anyways, we had a great time. Well, I did, at least, I don’t know about Danielle. She missed her boyfriend a lot. It made me smile. Not that she was sad, but that she has someone like that in her life. I’m happy for her. I’m happy that Stephanie has someone like that, too. I wish I had that special something, too. Anyways, I ate more than usual. I was hungry. I had fun, and hope that I can do something like that with Stephanie and Danielle some other time. Danielle is getting a new blurty name because of this thing that happened with Candace and Courtney. I want to know her new name thingy-ma-jig. Mmhm. Damn straight. Heheh. I’m in a good mood. Probably because today I went shopping for school stuff. School stuff as in clothes! Yay! Jessica needs new clothes. Not that anyone sees that she has anything under that gray hoodie of hers, but it doesn’t matter. I had said in a previous blurty entry that I was going to get me some guy shirts, but I changed my mind. Though I want some, it’s just not me, you know? So it girl clothes for me, yup. At least I don’t have to dress like a total prep all the time. My mom doesn’t want me to become one of those kids. You know, Goths and punks. She wants me to be a goddamn prep. I just want to be who I feel like being. It’s damn hard, and I get ridiculed, but I guess someday it’ll be worth it. Anyways, I had a good time with my mother, and we seem to get along when I’m not getting on her nerves, and vice versa. I’m happy. I’m wearing a hat. It’s pretty. I’m happy. I need a hug. I’m all alone. I wish I wasn’t alone. I hate being alone. At least I have my pretty hat to keep my head company. I wanna go swimming. I’m a girl, despite popular opinion!!! I’m not that tomboyish, am I? I like shopping, and pink, and cute and fuzzy, and stuff like that!! Ok?? I’m sorry if that’s not how it appears *coughYaricough* Tomorrow I leave for Chicago. I hope someone will miss me. I love all of my friends very much, and I hope they feel the same, and stuff. If anyone cares, I come back Monday. Much love Jessica. PS: I'm too sensitive. Someone please help me. Mood: calm Music: Bright Eyes by Jason Mraz

	2003.07.29  22.15 Mmhm!!!! Today was a good day! No Keru troubles that went out in the open, and I felt good. I woke up early and actually read! Yes, I remember how to read paragraphs in proper English! Wow! Well, it was Old English, and a tad boring, but s'all good. I changed my outfit four times. Currently, I'm in my new favorite outfit aka jammies. I have my light blue Tweetie Hawaiian tank top on and these pants my momma got me. They have grey stripes on 'em and butt pockets. I've never seen jammies with butt pockets. Hehe, and I have my favorite bra on! Hey, I just sneezed! That means someone is thinking of me! I hope its good thoughts! Anyways, I want some Red Bull. It gives you wings, you know. Anyways, my room is semi-clean, my hair is a mess, but s'all good, I wasn't online all day today, and I have pudding! I explored this thingey on my thingey and found this thingey from someone, so I opened the thingey, clicked the thingey, and read the thingey that popped up, and I read about this couple a few years older than me in Australia. The girl reminded me of me, and the guy reminded me of someone who will remain unmentioned in this blurty. But it was beautiful. Yes, I know, I'm a romantic sap, I can't help it. Anyways, I have a new favorite song! Bandages by Hot Hot Heat! It rocks butt!!!!!! Woo!! I've listened to it over and over and over and over and over. I luuuuuurve the music video too, hehe. Whenever I think of the song, I think of me, singing it, in front of the whooooooole school, in an auditorium, with Taylor sitting in the front row, in total shock. Too bad it couldn't really happen, lol. It would be quite interesting actually. ^_^ Anyways, I danced the day away, not worrying about getting online, for once. I think I'm being cured of my internet addiction. I hope so, because I heard the agitation in Luky's voice when she asked me to get offline, even though it was my hour!!! But it's ok. Anyways, I was eating pudding! And now I'm not! Because I ate it all already! Tee!! But it's ok. Anyways, I want to go swimming sooooo bad!! But right now, at 9:55 PM!! At night! When its dark! And the water's freezing!! With a group of friends, or jsut two people, doesn't matter!! I jsut wanna go swimming! But none of my friends like to go swimming. Which sucks ass!!! And, none of my friends live near me. They all live off of Exit 268 and such, when I'm all the way at 265!! Which sucks ass!! Mmhm. Damn straight. Well, I'm done. See ya! Mood: chipper Music: Bandages by Hot Hot Heat

	2003.07.28  22.07 I'm just Frontin'. This sucks. Keru hates me. I might get into detail another time. But not now. I feel crappy. I have a big weight on my shoulders. The only thing that makes things better is listening to Jason. Rose is gone. Good thing, or a bad thing? I haven't cried as much. That's a good thing, I guess. I'm lonely. That's a bad thing. I want a tatoo. I wish I was queen of the Shadowkhan. Can't wait 'til the concert. Hope I can go. I wish Keru forgives me. Running out of donuts. Having weird dreams. Going out with Eric. My two best friends are on vacation. Amy's in New Jersey. Yari's in Mexico. Have to read a book or two. Must memorize long ass poem. I wish I had a life. I wish my wishes came true. I can't wait until December. The Last Samurai. Samurai X. Rurouni Kenshin. Stupid Cartoon Network. Humanity sucks butt. Elvis, was a hottie. I feel really really ultra mega crappy. But I smile. Just smile! Put a smile on your face! Make the world a better place! You know, those Hershey commercials, with Vitamin C's song! Superman rocks. Kryptonite, yeah! If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman? If I'm alive and well, will you be there, holding my hand? Song goes on, of course. Whatever. Leave me alone. Never mind. Don't leave me alone. I want all my friends here with me. Yes, Keru included. Anyone I consider my friend. Everyone on my buddy list. Bring your friends, too. But pay attention to me. Please? Don't hate me, Keru. Someone, anyone, save me from this hellhole. Somebody saaaaaaaaave me....... Smallville theme song. Good song. I'm going to Chicago on Friday. Revisiting old memories. Of my hometown. I hafta bring my Jason Mraz CD. I wish I had complete and total freedom. And happiness. And whatever I wanted. But thats not possible. Life sucks. Oprah Winfrey, number one pop icon? Who knew? Well Since no one cares I'm going to stop writing now. Just because. All my feelings, Should be said Not typed. But, ya know Things are things. I can't control it. I wish I could. Look, I'm a liar. I didn't stop. But I'm going to stop now. See? This is my last message. Besides this one. And this next one: Good bye, I love you, even if you don't love me. Mood: crappy Music: Curbside Prophet by Jason A good song to put up a front with

	2003.07.25  14.54 I'm Sorry, That's Incorrect. The Correct Spelling Is D-O-U-G-H-N-U-T. It can only get worse and worse. I dont know the last time I updated so I'm just going to do the day before yesterday, yesterday, and what little of today had happened. That day.....whatever it was: Can't remember much of it. All I remember was going swimming in Gramma's pool, and having to pull umbrellas out of it because of the storm, and cleaning the leaves at the bottom, and Rose painting her nails because we might've gone to White Water. Hmm........its been a long time since I've updated. A looong ass time. Yesterday: umm.........went to White Water? Didn't go on any rides again. We stayed in the goddamn river thingey for a long time. I always looked forward to passing these three hot guys that were standing on one of the bridges. They were HOT. I mean, SCORCHING. lol. : P They were from Texas, I know that, because the yelled it at some punks-rocker ppl that were behind me and they yelled back things like Georgia and Wisconsin, etc. Everytime I passed by, I would look at them and the one in the middle was looking back at me. Then I would float on by and look back and see those hot guy's backs. The second to last time I floated by, I looked up and the guy in the middle looked down at me and said, "Hello." And waved a little. I smiled my what-went-through-your-head-to-talk-to-me smile, and said, "Hi." Then the next time I came around, the guy looked at me, ran down to the entrance thingey, just when I was passing it, and tried to get in or something, but failed cause it was too crowded or something. I was alone, too. Mother and Rose were.....somewhere else. OK, hold up. Update later. Big thing just happened. Mood: frustrated Music: nothin

	2003.07.13  23.04 Call Me a Moron. Go on. No one's stopping you. ALrigh. Last night, after I wrote in blurty, we went to the arcade. I spilled my Icee three times. Not fun. We played a game similr to DDR, but the arrows were kinda crooked, so it was harder for me to get coordinated. Then Rose played this game and she hit the jackpot and won, like, 200 tickets!! She wanted to get a Homie poster thingey, but she didn't have enough tickets. So we just got a bunch of crap. Anyways, it was fun. That night, I was thinking about the previous night, were I had put on good dance music and took my shirt off, so all I was wearing was a bra and pants or something like that and I danced and danced and danced. This was in the dark, so Rose couldn't see what I was doing. She told me to visualize the guy I like and pretend like I was dancing for him. I did. It was like whoa. After that we meditated. I was soooo lustful. I wish the guy I liked was with me right then and there. My god. ANYWAYS. Today, my mother cleaned my room while I was asleep, not caring to be quiet. After that, we went to the car wash. I had much more fun. Right now, I'm in such a debate with myself. I don't know if I should quit marching band or not. God. Anyways, I was totally soaked. Then Kayla and I went to hold the sign. We were talking and then all of a sudden, I felt something on my right ring finger. I tried to brush it off with my middle finger, when all of a sudden, I felt a sharp prick and pain exploding in my finger. I screamed high pitched and started crying. My right hand started shaking like crazy and I just left the spot and went straight to Rose. She came over and saw me crying and asked what was wrong. I told her I was stung by a bee. Mrs. Matthews heard and got people to help me out. Someone went to get me a cup of ice cold water to stick my finger in. My hand was still shaking. I sat down next to this hot guy, but three minutes later, he got up and left. Then this baseball team from Indiana came out, and these guys were HOT!! My god. They even asked for a picture with us girls! I panicked! My whole body was soaked because I needed it after scrubbing that one guys tires, and my hair was a mess!! And I had my finger in a cup of water! So, I was looking down in the picture and I was dripping water all over the hot guy in front of me!! Arg! Then I found out that Mrs. Matthews had a first aid kit. So, Dr. Dhruvie wrapped some gauze around my finger 20 million times and sealed it with a band-aid. Then I saw these girls with perfect bodies, and I felt so hideous. Then we left. We said we'd go jogging today, but it never happened. Then Sarita and her family came. I saw this hot guy named Alex wlaking around my kitchen and I just about fainted. Then I found out he was at the pool. I just about died. I borrowed one of Rose's two-peices and went to Grandma's pool. I had a great time! Rose and I tried to keep this little red ball from Alex. And we wrestled him and ran from him, etc. We scratche dhim up pretty bad too. There was one point where I swear he brushed my breasts, but that could have been my hair. I mean, Rose put that thing up so high, no one could avoid noticing my cleavage. Bad thing was.......nah, never mind. Anyways, it started to rain, so we went inside. I changed into my pj's, which aren't that bad looking, and we went and played Twister. When I did the spinny thing, and Rose and Alex played, he was always trying to get so close to her, and flirt with her, etc, but when he and I played, he kept away from me and didn't say or do anything. *sigh* Then I spilled some chocolate ice cream on my shirt, so I had to change, and the only other thing I had that matched my pants were much sexier and revealing, so i think he thinks I changed into that so I would be more appealing to him. Didn't work, even thought thats not what I did it for. Anyways, here I am, in my room, scared that I may be too shy and immature for a 16 year old Colombian. Talking to Hugo and Amy. And Bryce, if he would reply. Well, I'm done and finished. I'll let you know if anything better happens tonight, but I wouldn't be waiting on the edge of my seat for something to happen, cause NOTHING'S GOING TO HAPPEN BECAUSE I'M A FUCKING ASSHOLE WHO HAS NO COURAGE OR SELF-ASSERTIVENESS WHATSOEVER!!! Ok, well, good night, all! Mood: disappointed Music: At The Stars by Howie Day

	2003.07.12  18.47 Puberty, Curls, Lube, and Fundraising. Whoo.....busy busy day. Started off over sleeping and missed the first 20 minutes of the car wash. Rose had to do her hair for a CAR WASH and that pissed me off. Things got better though. We got there, and the people that were there, I didn't know. I made friends with this Andrea girl. She's cool. Most of the time, Andrea, Rose, and I were holding the sign and yelling at the cars at the same spot that Dhruvie and I did a few weeks ago. We were yelling stuff at the cars, most memorable being: "free sex!!" LOL Well, I yelled it at a car full of Hispanics (Rose said they were Mexicans, but I wouldn't know), and they actually pulled over!! I panicked and his behind Rose, and I don't know where they went, they just left or something. Then we left early to go to the Wal-Mart for raffle ticket sales. We got there, and I met this guy. At first I thought he was kinda shy, but then I got to know him. We got split up into two groups, one on one entrance, the other on the other entrance. At the first entrance, it was me, Daniel (that guy) and Kayla. We had fun getting to know each other there. Then I found out that Rose was mad at me, but then later we kinda got over it, I hope. Right now it's kinda quiet, but I'll get to that later. Anyways, Kayla, Daniel, and I hung out and had a good time. I was forced to go to the other side and hang out with Emily, not like Emily isn't cool and all, but I wanted to hang out with Kayla and Daniel. Anyways, when we left, I went over to the other side and got a hug from Kayla and then I got one from Daniel! Yay! He's not the greatest looking guy, but he's such a great guy, it doesn't matter! If only guys were as open-minded and not shallow as I am. My god. ANYways, Daniel is a cool guy, and I want hang out with him more often, he kinda reminds me of Oscar, just not as much of the blowing up the world thing.....*blink* He even patted my head. Heheh. ANYWAYS. About Rose. Well, she had abandoned me to go inside of the store and let me suffer in the heat alone with people I don't know too well. Well, when she came back I was all like, "What are you doing back? I thought you didn't like hanging out here. Go away if you don't like us so much." I had a goofy grin on my face, and I coulda swore I was obviously being sarcastic. Well, she got offended. Things were mended, but I learned that she holds grudges. I think that holding grudges is utterly ridiculous. If people never forgave other people, the world would be even more chaotic than it is now. My god. I see no point in it. I mean, look at the situation between Farzin and I. I'm not mad at her anymore, I've gotten over it. She hasn't. We could be friends again, and things would be much better, but she refuses, and let's the gap between us expand, to the point of no return. Anyways, can you tell I get off subject a lot? ANYWAYS! Rose said that she holds grudges, adn that got me mad, but I'm not going to show it to her. She said that she loves me too much to hold a grudge, and I'm glad. Rose and I are very different, but when we get hyper.....heheh. We're just about the same. ^-^ Rose is a good person. I'm glad she forgives me. ^-^ ANYways, I just took a shower. I have yet to do my hair, and I don't know if I'll wear makeup or not. I haven't worn any in a while. Heh. It feels weird, but in a good way. My eyelids are so soft now, usually they are stiff from the eyeshadow. Bad thing is that I'm breaking out!!! Aaah!! I hate acne!!! Aaaaah!!! Where's my makeup?! Alright, I did my hair, learned that if I was lube, I'd be cherry-flavored: You Are Cherry Flavored Lube! Innocent, romantic, and sweet. You are the flavor most likely to have sex only after you fall in love. You are the flavor least likely to talk about your sex life with others. *nods* Curly hair. Tee! Well, cyaz!! Mood: accomplished Music: The Remedy by Jason Mraz

	2003.07.11  22.43 Anyone have a life I can borrow? NEW WORD OF THE DAY: denigrate: (v) put down. Used in a sentence: that denigrates us, we were thinking something humorous but then people might not take us seriously. Having fun. Everything is getting so hectic though. I really regret joining marching band. I don't think I'm going to enjoy it one little bit. I hate band now. I suck at the Alto Sax, despite popular opinion. I don't want to be in the heat, I don't want to sweat, I don't want to memorize things, I don't want to waste all that money, I don't want to fundraise, I don't want to march, I don't want to meet these gay people, and I don't want the extra responsibility!! But I can't turn back now, I'm in too deep. I have to stick it out for this year, then quit IMMEDIATELY at the end. I can't stand this shit. ANYways, I'm in deep shit. I HAVE to go to Han's party, I don't want to let her down, because she's one of my best friends, but I want to go up to Illinois with Rose, and the weekend of the party is the weekend we go up there. Goddamnit!! MY GOD I HATE MARCHING BAND MORE THAN ANYTHING IN MY LIFE. I'M A GODDAMN SLACKER!! I WANT TO GET OUT OF IT, BUT ITS TOO FUCKING LATE, MY MOTHER WILL JSUT YELL AT ME AND TELL ME THAT I WASTED SO MUCH MONEY ON IT AND NOW I'M BACKING OUT AND SHE'LL KILL ME GOD I HATE THIS!! *blink* How was your day? I NEED A LIIIIIIIIFE!! And other things would be nice to. Like, *cough* A GODDAMN BOYFRIEND!! IS THAT TOO MUCH FOR ME TO ASK FROM YOU GOD?? Damnit! I'm going to go and be in a bad whiney mood, but cover it up for the sake of the people who want to wring my neck *coughHugoRosecough*. *sigh* Mood: frustrated Music: Clocks by Cold Play

	2003.07.07  03.48 damnit I hope blurty goes to hell. Sleep would be nice. Rose is over right now. But most of you would already know that. It says something about you regarding me if you didn't know that, don't you think? This blurty isn't personal at all, so why the fuck do I supposedly put all my feelings in this, when I obviously don't, otherwise.....ackward situations would occur. I might rant more later, if I bother to update this fuckhole blurty. I was, like, sooo obsessed with it in the beginning, but it was like a fad, and I got lazy and got over it. Now, I have a notebook thing, but how much you wanna bet that ain't gonna last more than a week? Damn it all. Hugo would, like, gag if he reads what i write next: where is my damn rocket?? I finished the HP book and I still need to begin chapter two of my fic, not like anyone cares. : ( Right now, despite how Rose repeatedly insists that I am pretty, and not fat, I am NOT pretty and I AM fat. Damn it! Mood: sleepy Music: Cher commercial on TV

	2003.06.22  21.19 This will be long, so unless you really do care, don't bother to read, understand? I haven't updated in a while. I have reasons. I'm not getting lazy, I've just been busier than usual. *gasp* Jessica? Busy? Never!! Yes, well, its true. Friday: I didn't really do much then, until later. Amy and I went to the park by Gritter's library. I'm nit up to tell the details, but I had fun. Snapple does not make me horny, ok?!?!?! Saturday: Car wash. Not fun. I yelled myself hoarse, not like I had to, but I did anyway. There was only one guy there, and he was being all..bleh....Anyways, after that I rushed home, rushed getting ready, and left for a stupid party. ALl the people that were there were Hispanic. There was one cute guy, but he was being an asshole the whole time, so I'm like meeehhh. I felt really sick, so my mother took me home early. On the way home, we talked about my brothers. I really really wish that I could see them sometime soon. I feel like there's something missing, and I know what it is, a sibling. I mean, I have two, but they're not really caring for me the way older brothers should, and its not fair. I started crying, then I stopped, then I started again when I saw a dead kitty in the middle of the road. It was sad. Sunday: Made new friend. She's awesomenessful! Keisey and I went to the mall, she doesn't live far from it, and she lives kinda close to me. She went to Palmer and now she's going to North Cobb. She's a real prep, but, hey, according to Nikki, so am I, but she's really nice and cool, so eat your heart out Nikki. Just because I may dress however I choose to, doesn't automatically make me a prep. It makes me Jessica. Not your ordinary average Jessica, but this Jessica is different. I'm not mad at you, just.....I can't explain it Nikki. But you really did hurt me when you assumed that I was this person, that I absolutely know that I am not. And why did that dude laugh every time I looked at him? And was that your brother in Aeropostale? I saw someone that looked just like him there, dressed in clothes that I never thought I'd see Chris in, so I was like, all confused, but too shy to ask....it was weird......then I came home. I thought I'd be more detailistic, but I don't feel like it right now. I learned some new Japanese words today, yay! lol Anyways, bored, and I really gotta pee, so: See you all later! Mood: amused Music: Heart of Sword

	2003.06.20  00.02 You Evil Pervs!! *glares* Pervs!!! My day was pretty uneventful. I actually bothered to do work in the Spanish book thing. Bleh. Didn't do anything much. Monica called. Whoopee! Rosie is coming over for summer vacation soon!! OMG, we are so different. I wonder what she'll think of me. She'll prolly think I'm an internet addicted weird-o. See, we get along when we're babies, and don't have personalities. Now, we grow up and have personalities, we might be too different for our own goods. I hope she doesn't hate me. And I wonder if Linda is coming. She might be still in trouble for her pregnancy. I'm not sure whether or not to be glad that she lost the baby or not when it was still a fetus. Hmm....... Anyways, you know those things that open soda cans? "Tabs", I think they're called......well anyways, I save those things to make a necklace out of them when I have enough, and I needed something in my mouth, otherwise, I squirm, so, well, they were right there, and they taste like metal, and I love the taste of metal, so I had one in my mouth, and I was watching Futurama, and started to laugh, and my throat opened up or something and it was like, right there about to go down and i stopped myself knowing what happened the lsat time i swallowed somehting not meant to be swallowed, then I realized it was too far down, so I had no choice but to swallow. And it hurts everytime I swallow......and its not co-operating with my esophogus. Yep. And just an hour earlier, I had a major stomach ache. .........you're all evil pervs, who enjoy messing with my mind, aren't you? Mood: lonely Music: Fighter by Christina Aguilera

	2003.06.18  21.58 Oh no!! Not that!! Anything but that!!! So bored........so lonely.....I think I'm going to do something now that I'm going to regret. Like watch South Park. Mood: cynical Music: TV....which happens to be playing Why Not by Hilary Duff

	2003.06.17  22.24 Today is Tuesday. Hey....I was born on a Tuesday..... I felt so lazy today. Once again, I feel ugly, and this shirt makes me look fay, so I'm going to change into my jammies now. Better. No mo' donut. Oops. Forgot to call Danielle. Well, see, I have a good reason. Spot ran away today, and I spent a lot of time looking for him, and then when I got back, my cousins were online. Then I had dinner, and Yari called during dinner. Then I got online, but it was late at night anyways, and I'm not allowed to make phone calls after nine. Me so sorry!! Me a bad person!! We ran all around the neighborhood looking for Spot. Stupid dog. My mother found him though and I wasted precious Sharpie on a flyer. And now I learned that there's a Matchbox 20 concert at the Philips Arena, and Sprayberry can work there!! Except there's one problem!! I'm not 18! Woo hoo!! So I can't work there!! Yes!! That's awesome, because i simply looooove Matchbox 20!!! *sobs* Well, I'm going to drown in my sorrows at the fact that I can't go to the concert, because its prolly too late to get tickets anyway. It's so sad. Mood: angry Music: It's Gonna Rain by Bonnie Pink

	2003.06.16  21.58 ...no more donut... Today.....was alright. I woke up, did the stuff no one cars to hear about, like, shower, dress, blah blah blah... Yari called........someone I know thinks she's immature. No wait, a lot of people I know don't like her. We talked about why she didn't like Amy and she's like "I don't know.......I just don't like her." I'm like, 'That's the stupidest reason I know. Amy did not do anything to upset you, so why all the hatred?" So then she's like, "Fine. A looong time ago, remember that time we were sitting on the bleachers by Farzin and blah blah blah?" (well, she didn't say blah blah blah, but you catch my drift....)"Well, we were talking and she butted in and it was none of her business." Now, someone tell me that Amy is the type to butt in. Because then I know that i need to slap you. Amy's shy, quiet, polite. NOT the type to butt in on soemthing that is not her business. "What? That's insane Yari!! Amy's not that kind of a person!" "Well, she did it then.......so I hate her for that......." "Hate?" "Yeah....what about it? You hate Farzin...." "I don't hate Farzin; She hates me." "Still. I just don't like Amy." Poor Amy didn't do anything to her. Yari is so shallow.....We are so totally different, it's scary.....She hates every single one of my friends.........well, maybe not Han, but that's cause they used to be friends..... Anyways, I have a donut! A happy happy glazed, chocolate donut!!! Everyone say hi to my donut!! *takes a bite* Everyone say bye to my donut! ............no more donut.......... Straightened my hair all pretty. Then all the heat made it curly.....I'm in pain.........I really don't feel like telling every single solitary detail of practice, though normally, you know I would. But the three hours practice in the heat ended with some saxophone tradition. Running. Around the parking lot. In sandals. Well, the sandals ain't part of the tradition, but you catch my drift. .......*sniff*.....no more donut........ Missed Kenshin today.........shucks...... Oh, another thing about Taylor. See, the last day of school, Tim kept threatening to ask Taylor out for me. I kept telling him that if he did it, he'd die. Well, apparently, Tim did anyway. He told me that Taylor had said "No" like it was the stupidest question in the world. And it probably was. But still. It's so sad........ *yawn* so tired....... Mood: drained Music: Gotta Get Through This by Daniel Bedingfield

	2003.06.15  17.06 Cult Music Dancing In My Head My weekend was actually spent OUTSIDE of MY ROOM for once. Lucky for me, we went to SaveRite and found some Clearisel and black eyeshadow so I won't feel as ugly as I usually do. I so want to go see Pirates Of The Carribean!!! Someone please please please ask me to go with them, besides, maybe the usual people.....not that I have a problem with them, but a change is always welcome. Oh, I almost forgot.......JASON MRAZ!!! lol.....can't make an update without those two words in it, lol. I'm all "Mraz-ed Up!" Ha haaaaa...... My momma said she's gonna get me a Wrangler when I get my license!! Alrrrriiiiiiiight!!! Car wash cancelled. Washed mom's car anyways. Had a Whopper, with all my specifications. ^_^ Came home, watched TV.....went to The Catholic Cult Gathering House and fell asleep. Then I got a Cult song stuck in my head. Then we went to SaveRite. I hate that store. It's so...pleh... *yawn* Bored now......I have Band Rehearsal tomorrow. You can bet that tomorrow, you'll get that update...... Did you know that they don't have a mood icon for ugly?.......or British? I mean, do I not get a smiley if I'm feeling British? What about Australian......that's not fair...... Mood: Ugly and British Music: Calling All Angels by Train

	2003.06.14  20.58 So this is must be the point between Heaven and Hell. Well, today started out normal enough. Cleaned my room. Yari called. My speakers were plugged in the wrong place, so I had to fix them. Painful process, especially when on the phone. Went to K-Mart. Bought make-up. Three things of eyeshadow. Don't like any of them. Mother won't let me buy any more Clearisil cause she's a bitch. Bought eyeliner, thinking it was black. Turns out it was navy. Lovely, isn't it? Went to Yari's house to pick her up. Her mom can talk for hours on end. Kinda like me. Heh. Went to movies. Finding Nemo for 2:30 was sold out. So we walked to the mall in the drizzle. At least I had my new red hoodie. Went to Waldenbooks. Looked around. Looked at manga, or as Americans call it, "graphic novels"...... Yari dragged me to all the preppy stores. Thank god she hates The Limited Too, otherwise I'd rip her heart out and stomp on it if she tried to drag me in there. She wore her hair like Pamela frequently did. I was too shocked to say anything.... Went back to movies for the 4:00 show. Wasn't too bad. A little crowded, but the movie was good. Walked back to the mall. Saw Dano and Katie. Talked for a second, but Yari doesn't like them too much, so she ran off, and I had to run after her. Damn her. Ate food. Bought poster. Sat at fountain. Made wishes. Talked. Had a great time. .....spilled orande soda all over Parisian.......none on clothes though, lol...... I made an important decision today. I decided that the next time I go shopping for shirts, I'm going to get guy shirts. They are so much more comfortable!! And so cool looking!! I would feel much more comfortable removing my hoodie if I wore shirts like those. I know it wouldn't be too attractive to guys, but I really don't care. I mean, I'm not that attractive anyways, so a few guy shirts wouldn't really hurt. And besides, I need an individual style, instead of just doing whatever other people want me to do. I mean, some guy shirts are just ugly, but I'll buy the cool ones. In the smaller sizes, lol. But right now, I have someone in mind that I want to base my new "look" on, who I shall not name...........fwa yeah! I hate people, but I love them at the same time. Point between heaven and hell, I guess. So, then, while waiting for a ride home, Yari and I talked a lot about how utterly different we are. We are two totally different people. I mean, we dress, speak, act, and think differently. WHatever I like, she usually goes, 'Oh my god, I can't believe you like that junk!!".........And when she likes something I don't, I usually go, "Oh my god, you're such a freaken prep!!" And then we "argue" and I usually end it an "I hate choo!", but in the way that means, "Naaah.........I hate you so much that I love you to death..." Well, I'm done ranting. Later ya'll. Damnit, I said ya'll. Ha. I bet if Keru read this she would send me an email correcting all my improper grammer and how I constantly end my sentences in prepsitions. Ha! Mood: weird Music: Absolutely Zero by Jason Mraz

	2003.06.13  12.12 WARNING: JASON MRAZ FAN RANT AHEAD!! DANGER!! DANGER!!..but there's more to it than just Jason shit. My life has now taken one step closer to completion. I have finally seen the Jason Mraz music video for The Remedy. I am now happy. See me happy? I am happy! I am so happy, that I decided to update my blurty. Not that I don't do it constantly anyways...I am happy! It was so cool! Damn, I wish I was that girl who carried all those eggs. I mean, sure she got covered in egg goop, but, hey, I would get covered in egg goop if it meant meeting Jason, ha haaaaa......I'm turning into a fangirl, damn, just not an otaku one. Ha haaaa. Is that a bad thing? I think it is. Who knows? Well, if you people still want to keep me, you're gonna have to take me as I am. I don't think I rant as much about Jason as I do in blurty......I hope not.......but anyways, he wears the same clothes in the music vid as he does in the booklet thingey from the CD, minus the "I love sex" sticker/pin thingey. I have yet to determine which it is. And I want a freaken Mrazda truck!! Ha haaa!! I lvoe that music video. Hey, I'm listening to that song right now, lol. Mr. Mraz changed my life, I swear. That, and Train. I need to download Calling All Angels, just cause it's a beautiful song, with beautiful lyrics. I mean, blah blah religion blah blah, but I still really like it, and it's all about endurance and knowing that at the end of every dark forest, there's a field of beautiful flowers, and that at the end of every thunderstorm, there's sunlight, and warmth. It makes me cry just thinking about it........and the music video is beautiful. I think I'm getting obsessed with music videos now. Before, I was all, like, anti-music video, but now, whilst awaiting to view the ever sexy Jason Mraz, I have fallen in love with music videos........ I need to watch less TV. I saw a music video today, and I had it on mute, so I didn't hear the song, but I saw people throwing away alot of material possesions, and I though, maybe I should do that. Maybe I should go, and throw my TV off a bridge, and my computer too. I mean, I would be bored to death, but I think it will help me enjoy life much more, you know. I wouldn't have to worry about my stupid cousins disconnecting me from the itnernet, and I wouldn't have to worry about missing the latest episode of blah-dee blah-dee blah. Hmm.......things like this get you to think. I think, that if I could only have five things in life (counting things I didn't already previously had....*sniff sniff*), it would be music, beauty, love, friends, and happiness. But, there are so many obstacle in the way, and I don't even have beauty. I have music, but I want more. I want to be able to make music, but not the crap that I play in Band. I have love, but it's so hard to realize how much I have, over how much more i think I need. I have friends, sure, but I don't have a friend who is into everything that I'm into and shows me new things, adn can talk to for hours and hours on end. I have close friends that i can do so many things with, but there comes a time when we must go our seperate paths. It's not freaking fair. I'm happy, sure, but there are also so many things that make me doubt happiness in its entirety. Today, I got a brand new muse. I must get it written down. I really need to write this summer, I mean, like, on paper, otherwise I think I'll forget and only know how to type. Damn. I wonder, if I were two people, and I had just met this other me, and not known that it was me, would I be my friend? Do I rant too much? Please tell me. I want to know. I'm not whining, am I? I'm trying to stop whining. I just want to know if I should stop ranting, because some people don't like it. People use this thing as a journal, and I do that too, but I also use it to let out some deep thoughts inside of me.....is that a bad thing? I wonder if someone who I sent thins URL to has stopped reading this because it didn't interest them. I'm repeatedly voting for Jason at TRL vote thingey online, lol. I think it's really funny how they say that you can vote limitlessly. It's great. I think I now value life a little more, just by some various little things that have happened these past few days. Ha haa........just watch as something happens at home that makes me forget all these things, and feel like shit. *coughMotherandCousinscough* I think it would be nice to have a family I can actually communicate with and love. But, no. My mother never taught me enough Spanish, because my father wanted me to also learn Romanian, but I just want to focus on speaking English as correctly as I possibly can. It's just not fair. Especially when I'm around Yari and her family. I feel so stupid because she's all tlaking in Spanish and everyone else is too, and when I hang out with my Romanian friends like Florina and Laura and that cool bald guy, and I watch them speak fluent Romanian, and I understand very little. I have pressures to learn Spanish, Romanian, proper English, and French. I know that French is last on my list, but I see all my friends who are in gifted classes talking in French, and I feel so left out. I really don't know these things anymore, lol. But, hopefully, when this is over, it'll taste like chicken. It had better, lol!! ^^;; I think I'm going to go outside today, and just sit outside and play with my dog. That poor thing is all alone out there, with no one to play with but the chickens and getting oggled at by Derrick and that stupid blob downstairs with her stupid bunny which I should have killed when I had the chance. Lol, here I am being all optomistic about life, when it's Friday the 13th!! Is that a bad or temporary thing? Hmm.....someone told me that really rainy and really sunny days are good omens. Yesterday was really really rainy, and now I'm so upbeat. I hope its not temporary. I mean, I don't want to be one of those hippie people *coughMrs.Dawsoncough* that value life so much that they almost always have a stupid smile on their faces, but I always want to feel this way, because it feels good. Well, I'm done, because no one wants to hear my sad pitiful happy happy rants, and I have to pee, too. I guess I'll update tonight and of course tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that, and the day after that....... Mood: optimistic Music: The Remedy by Jason Mraz

	2003.06.12  20.24 Wow!! A good mood!!! Whoo!! Lol.........I have a new favorite show!! It's called The O'Keefes. It's awesome!! lol.......it's so funny! I'm in a good mood!! I may call it denial, or refusal to face the facts, but I personally believe that it may be better than the truth sometimes!! *nods* Anyways, watched Adult Swim last night. Kikaider is only twenty minutes long......rip-off. And I learned from Bianka that the InuYasha dubs aren't as bad as Renko and Kimiko said they were. :P Then I fooled around with Blurty, trying to find out how it is possible to get mine to look like Daniell's and Stephanie's, but I couldn't find out how!!! I did find out how Bianka got her simply adorable little Vash thingey to be, like, everywhere, so I got my chibi InuYasha to be, like, everywhere. Yeehaw!! I was acting like a pirate all day. Weird......... Storm went through. I think it's still here, though, so I shouldn't really be online, now should I? Damn you, dial-up!! Damn, I really wish I had a cell phone........ I neeeeeeeed a picture of myself............ Well, I'm bored. Yari tells me that we HAVE to go to the movies Saturday whether I want to or not. We HAVE to see Rugrats Gone Wild. I really could not care less whether I see that movie at all. I'm homeless.....not literally, but I feel homeless. I don't have a place to call home. *tear* Well, bored. Must go. Sayonara. Mood: surprised Music: O'Keefes Theme on TV

	2003.06.12  00.11 Damn......... Well, I had a situation, but no more so, I guess. The truth is scary. I don't like the truth. I don't want to put exactly how I feel onto here, because I know that other people read this and I really truely can't express this when I know that others can lay their eyes upon this and I don't think I'm ready for anyone to really get that close to me........I really don't know anything these days and I don't know what matters to me anymore. I've been having severe mood swings lately, and I fear I amy be targeting the wrong people. I apologize to those that I have. I don't know these things anymore. I don't know much of anything. My mind is slowly turning to mush......I need someone.......I mean, I do have someones......a lot of someones, but I need someone special to be right here, right now. But there isn't anyone, now is there? Mood: moody Music: Like A Stone by AudioSlave

	2003.06.11  16.00 Bleh Bleh Bleh Hey, its.....Wednesday, June....11th. Wow. Amy just left. She's turned on by monks. When we first picked her up, we went straight to the movies. We went to see Bruce Almighty. It's pretty good. Its really funny, too. I mean, I've seen better, but otherwise, it was worth my money. Then, we went to the mall. We ate from that Southern something or other place. You know, the first place you see when you walk in from the direction of Claire's *shudder*. While eating, we saw Stephanie and Daniell and Matt Cheney. I saw the back of Daniell's head, and I'm like, "Is that Daniell?" So, I leaned back to see who else was at the table. I saw Stephanie and then some bright pink hair. I didn't have to see anymore; I knew who it was. Not like bright pink hair is a bad thing, its just.....not conspicuous.....Fwa yeah!! I used conspicuous correctly!! Ha haaaaa!! *reminded of Orlando and argument between Katie and Ylaine* Anywho.... Then we went to Waldenbooks and hung out there. Oh wait, before that, we went to Wherehouse music and we saw the Jason Mraz CD for sale for only ten bucks!!! OMG!! So Amy bought it for me because she owed my six dollars so now I owe her four........I love love love love love the CD! Then we kinda walked around and then went back to my mom who was waiting in the food court. Mommy bought me three new hoodies form Old Navy!!! They're a little thick, but that's ok. One is blue, the other one is orange, and my favorite is red, with navy stripes going down the side with a five inch zipper going down the front! They're not the same as my favorite, the original, gray one, my first, my favorite giant hoodie. I will cherish it for the rest of my life..............@.@ Then we went to my room and got online, downloaded songs, talked to people, etc. Oscar now has her screenname, damnit! Then we stayed up to watch Adult Swim and she watched Cowboy Bebop, Kikaider, and and Trigun. Fwa yeah! Then we stayed up talking and giggling. You know, typical girl things. I learned that MONKS TURN AMY ON!!!! FWA YEAH!!! "What the MEAT?!" lol.....*giggle* Then we went to sleep around 6:30 in the morning. We woke up at 11:00 and just did stuff. We started to watch Bubble Boy, but she left during the Vegas scenes. So, here I am now. I want to tell some people some things.....lol.....but I don't think Amy would appreciate it if I told Michael some of the things that she said last night....fwa yeah!! Michael would totally hate her. Now I'm wondering if I'll ever give him the URL to this blurty..........fwa yeah....... Fwa.......I have a new band. I'm still obsessed with Jason, don't get your hopes up, but I'm also totally getting into Rooney. I like their sounds. Some of their songs are kinda gay like Mrs. Steven Rooney, but I like how they're kinda seventies put into this decade in some songs like Blue Side and Sorry Sorry, but they also stay true to rock with Prom Girl and Popstars. And I'm not going to rant about Jason, but I AM going to say that in his CD cover pictures thingey he has either a sticker or a pin that say: I [insert red heart shape here] Sex It odesnt actually say the 'insert heart shape here', but I dont see how else I could do it........Fwa it all. Anyways, I'm bored, and tired, and achy. Theres' nothing on TV, so I'm watching Growing Pains.....ha haaaa........gay eighties show..... Ok, so I randomly change it to MTV2, and there is Rooney, talking about their music video. Well, now I at least nknwo the name of the lead singer, and he's awesomeful!! His name is Robert Carmine.........whoo!! I like the name Robert........its so........flexible.........fwa yeah! Oh god.........Amy told me that once Keru got back from that church camp she went to, she was all holy and religious and grateful that Han was "saved" and all that shit. It gets a little annoying. I think she really really wants to convert me back to Christianity, because religion is important to her, but in my opinion, a lot of these religions are fucking annoying cults.......like Bright and Shiny from Bubble Boy.......fwa yeah....... You know, now I'm watching Real World Paris now, and it's not as bad as I thought it would be........I'm not that into reality TV.....but hey..... Well, ok, so I'm chewing gum with braces right now....its not as horrible as I thought.......I'm definetely going to do that more.........screw Dr. Katz.......I keep my braces clean right? So get off my back, aight? I have nothing to rant about right now, but currently, what's going through my head, is a whole bunch of those rants that I had in my second entry...... I need to find out more about how to get this stupid blurty to be cool, like Stephanie's.......*sigh* I can't do anything right, or well. Damn......... Bored....... Mood: drained Music: Blue Side by Rooney

	2003.06.10  12.56 This is me.......and my issues......... Fwaaaaaaa haaaaaaaaaaa!!! Poof!!! It is I, the one, the only, dun dun duuuun: Jessica!!! Wait, there are millions of Jessicas. Screw you aaaaaaaaall........... Amy's coming over, Amy's coming over!!! Weeeeeee!!! This proves it people: Disorder | Rating Paranoid: High Schizoid: High Schizotypal: Very High Antisocial: High Borderline: Very High Histrionic: Very High Narcissistic: High Avoidant: Very High Dependent: Very High Obsessive-Compulsive: High Must run, aighteys? Me loves you people!! Me currently cleaning room so Amy doesn't have to see what a slob I am!! How do you walk a bunny? Anyways, no I REALLY must run, cause mommy's coming home in an hour and I just got up and I need to do things otherwise she'll yell at me!!! I don't want that to happen!!! OKie dokies!!! See yas laters!! -Jessica the Ranting Seamonkey PS:.........typos are fuuuuuuuuunny............ Mood: giddy Music: Bright Eyes by (Guess who)

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	2003.06.10  12.43 This is me.......and my issues......... Fwaaaaaaa haaaaaaaaaaa!!! Poof!!! It is I, the one, the only, dun dun duuuun: Jessica!!! Wait, there are millions of Jessicas. Screw you aaaaaaaaall........... Amy's coming over, Amy's coming over!!! Weeeeeee!!! This proves it people: Disorder Rating

	2003.06.09  21.04 Fwa ha! Oh, I called Amy to ask if she wanted to spend the night tonight, and we could go to the movies tomorrow, but I got the answering machine. Plus, I'm kinda sad about something that has to do with the movies and Amy. See, I wasn't there.....which is the problem.....*sobs* lol.....I just realized something that I won't put in here, but its pretty funny...ha haaaaaaaa. I just got off the phone with Amy. We talked a little and she listened to some of my downloaded music, which I'm sure Hugo wouls absolutely hate. Fwa ha! I have a new word: Fwa!! I just came up with it as a typo. Like I said, aren't typos funny? Well, I'm bored. So, I'm gonna go now. Mood: indescribable Music: On Love, In Sadness............by [insert guess here]

	2003.06.08  22.01 An accomplishment, Lonliness, Typos, My Daddy, Relaxation, Glares, and A New Me? Ha haaa!!! I got Hugo to download Jason!! Ha ha haaaa!!! Alright!! Go me! Alright. About yesterday. I guess when I look back it wasn't that bad. I mean, Katie was kinda ignoring me for Marley and Ryan, but can you blame her? Last time I heard, she was like, in looove with Ryan, and Marley and she had been best friends sice forever. She did blow me off, but I guess I really can't blame her. It was hard work, and I did the math. Each worker gets like 28 dollars or something like that. (You really can't depend on my math.....) I'm still aching though. It was much more work that Thursday. Typos are funny, ever realize that? I went with my dad today. We went to church.....*gags* and then Florina and I were at the swing set on the tire swing when some obnoxious guys came and stole the swings and told us to fuck off. They were only, like, ten, too. Then we left and went to some people's house. They were alright. I had a great Romanian meal. And some coffee, but the coffee didn't really do much for me........: ( Then we went to Florina' house for a looooong time. We almost set her house on fire, and she tied my hands to the bed thingey with dental floss. It hurt too. I still have the marks. It looks like I tried to cut my wrists with a Reverse-Blade Sword (Ha! Kenshin! Whoo!) in the wrong direction.....@.@ I came home and took some advice Oscar once told me. When I want to feel refreshed, take a long, cold shower, then lie down and turn the fan on full blast. Well, I did that, but I turned all lights off and turned Jason on full blast. It was great!! *glares at readers* Well, I'm bored. I think I may actually finally be getting sick of ranting. *gasp* Yes, Jessica, is getting sick.....of ranting. Ha! Yeah, when she gets a blurty this happens! Goddamn.