6:36PM
Yeah, so I'm not exactly doing a lot to fill this journal up...But nobody is reading it anyway, I think. Soon, my sister should be getting one, so that's pretty cool...She's having stupid troubles getting into Deadjournal... Parental Controls or something, nevermind that she's exactly the same control as I am. So the computer's fucked up...Taunt pis. So hopefully it'll let her onto blurty, and I'll find a livejournal code for her, too, so that she can join the REAL community of online-journalists. Fun, fun. It's very sad that my entire life is run by online journals. The only time people ever pay attention to me at all is when I make posts online. That's very sad.
Portland was very good...Go to my livejournal to see the details. www.livejournal.com/users/brandelwyn/
Wylie continues to ignore me whenever Whitney's around, as if she doesn't think Whitney will think she's cool if Whitney sees Wylie talking to me, which I'm pretty sure is shit, considering what Whitney said to me the other night after reading my livejournal entry that talked about it. But today, Wylie and I were walking out in the hall, and I was right in the middle of saying something, and then she just randomly peeled off and I realized it was because Whitney was near and she just walked off while I was saying something to go talk to Whitney. She didn't excuse herself or anything. I would have been pissed off enough if she had excused herself, but to just walk off like that...! Anyway, I always sort of got the feeling that I was only mild entertainment for Wylie, just someone to feel the silence when there was no one else. Like, I guess I never get/got the feeling that when I was talking I had her total attention...It was more like she was leaning away from me, just waiting for someone better to turn up. It makes me really sad, anyway, because I really like Wylie, and I wished I got the feeling that she thought me as good a friend as I think of her. But it never seems like that. And this time, it's not really something that I can just say 'taunt pis' to, because it's really important to me. grrr....
Talked to Dan yesterday...We spent a good amount of time talking about how I needed to relax and give myself more credit, and I was like, "I'll relax and give myself credit when I've actually accomplished something that deserves it." And he was like, "You HAVE accomplished stuff" and then he listed all these things that he considered to be accomplishments of mine. He really is incredibly sweet...I really wish I could be as close to him as I want to be. But I can't, can I?
And that's about it for right now. I should REALLY be doing homework, since I have a ton of it for tomorrow, AND I need to catch up on all the chemistry I missed while in Portland, but I really don't feel like doing it. well, I'm not a masochist for nothing, am I?
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