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Yesturday was my mom's bithday and we went to the lost coast brewrey to celebrate. I saw that chick from the rocky horror picture show that played Frank N. Furger. Not in the movie, but in the play of it i watched, i saw her tits that night, she touched my ass too, her and 20 other people (a tradition for people that havent been there before), i dont think she remembers me but i remember her. Shes pretty hot, she has short curly black hair, about 5'9", shes really cool too. I dont have to go back to school untill January 3rd, 2005 (5, wow). its the 22nd of demember now so i have lots of time to do the homework my evil teachers assigned to me. im gonna re-die my hair after christmas, the ol' blood red streaks, hellza yea. well, i guess i really have nothing else to say about anything, happy holidays everyone (no one reads my journal anyways) FUCK YOU ALL!!! |
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| 04:45pm 10/12/2004 | ||||
My birthday party was awesome, everyone loved my room of gothic elegance. There was about 30 people there and we spent most of the time blasting AC/DC and talkin and shit. I on the other hand spent most of my time with matt, my new boyfriend since like a mounth ago. I sat on his lap and he had his arm around me and my mom saw but she didnt really care, dunno why. Brittany kissed him on the forhead right infrount of me, I got pissed but alyssa ended up leaving because she couldnt stand to see me treated like that and all of my other friends cussed her out, life if good. I decerated the back of my binder. The frount is already all me-afied but the back was blank. Yea its sexy. The day before yesturday me and my friend trey made up a holiday called "national hug day". I hugged a whole shit load of people and they "spread the love" as i said. I also hugged 8 teachers (forcing one and knocking over his fan), the principal, this bitchy monitor, the PE sub, and the bus driver. |
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devious| Damnit...Janet...I LOVE YOU!!! | ||||
| 05:44pm 31/10/2004 | ||||
Friday, even though it wasnt halloween, everyone at my school dressed up. I dressed up as Lizzie Borden, Michelle was a gothic vampire, a whole shit load of my friends were gothic (even though they already where), matt was ICP, and this one chick was a fat ballerina, I kept squeezing her blow up boobs, hellza funny. About 15 minutes after school would end, there was going to be a school dance, black light night (self explanitory). I had a ticket to go, as did most of my friends (all exept for bobby, he was a pumpkin). I thought it was gonna be really stupid so i didnt really make a big deal out of it. I ended up loosing my ticket after P.E., but after school i stood in line anyway to see if i could still get in. Well, turns out the princiPAL shouted "Victoria I found your ticket, Victoria I found your ticket" over the mega phone. lol. So i got in the dance when it was my turn, lol, It was okay looking, no black lights on yet, just a dim from the lights above. I found Matt, Chris, and Michelle and started talking to them. The DJ put out a peice of paper infround of the DJ table, whatever its called, to write down requests. He told me they would be played in order, so I wrote down about 15 really awesome hard rock songs. When AC/DC came on, me and all of the other rockers in our grade got in a circle and where jumping up and down and starting mosh pits, fuckin awesome. Our metal horns where high and it was so cool. Matts leg was broken but he was still jumpin, i dont know how the hell he did that, but he did. When Chris and Michelle went away for a while, it was just me and Matt, we talked about the songs and stuff like that. Michelle was my ride home but her dad came an hour early. I didnt want to go, but I walked up to Matt and said that I had to go cuz michelle's dad was here. He said "Awww, your leaving already??" I told him I had to go even though I didnt want to, but he offerd me a ride home. I looked at michelle and she signaled me to stay, and smiled. I asked Matt if he was sure, he said maybe, but I stayed anyway. Me and him seperated for a little bit, I hung out with Zoe and Chris, there where skelitons on the wall, and we positioned then all to make it look like they where jacking off. It was hilarious. Then I went over to Matt again and was talkin to him, we both got drinks and then went back over to the request page, we wrote down a couple of songs and then rocked out some more. That really annoying song "Cotten-Eye-Joe" came on, its annoying but i like it. Matt took my arm and started swinging me around, I kept perposly hitting Chris in the face which was cool, Matt swung me too fast and i got dizzy. lol. Then we started one of those circle breakdance things and me and matt did a walts through it, that was kinda cool because he held me unusually close, lol. Then the last song came around, a slow one, of course, me and all my friends sat in a circle swaying our arms, matt turned to me and said he wanted to slow dance with someone, and I said I'll do it with him if he wanted, and he agreed. We stood up and he put his hands on my waist, and I wraped my arms around his neck. He kept saying "this is hard" I asked what and he told me that he was just kidding, he told me it was really easy to sway back and forth because his cast made him stand sidways, he told me that he sometimes sways when he doesnt want to, lol. Chris was kinda bugging us the whole time, which annoyed me but it didnt matter. Okay, okay, I really like Matt, he's so awesome. He a punk/skater kinda guy, total rocker, he has really pretty eyes too. After we danced, we went outside and I met his mom and his little sister was named Vicki too, lol that was cool. Chris offered me a ride but I went with matt (of course). Matt asked for my # cuz he wanted to go to the mall with me later so I gave it to him. then Chris got mine too lol, I gave it to him infrount of matt's mom, she probly thinks im a slut. She dropped me off and he told me he would call me later. I called Keli and Michelle to tell them what happened and they thought it was awesome. When Matt called me I told him I would go. So my mom dropped me off at the mall at around 7. Me and Him stood in the food court and talked, he told me Britney might go, which was okay, shes cool. He asked me if Britney didnt come then we would go see a movie, i said sure, lol. I asked him if he wanted to sit down and he said yea. We walked over to the nearest table and he pulled te chair out for me, sweetheart. He told me that he'll be a gentleman. I got kind of confused because I wanted to sit by him but when I saw him pull the chair out I walked to the other side of the table. but the chair was for me, lol. Britney came and my mom came and brought me money and left. We walked around the mall and went to spencers for like an hour and a half, lol. Then Britney went to the bathroom so me and matt went into zuimez and sat on the couch, he told me about his skateboard and it sounds really cool. We where there for about 20 minutes so we went looking for britney, we finally found her and then we went on a fake rollercoaster type thing. britney went home early and I hung out with Matt some more. He bought me a mexican soda, to be a gentleman, lol he asid that again. His mom came and I hung out with him and his mom untill mine came. Then we both went home. That was really fun. Saturday night was a COMPLEATLY different story. I'll give THAT story later,lol. |
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| 03:08pm 03/10/2004 | ||||
Another thing that pisses me off about this world is that whole "rap" thing. EVERYONE likes it, and by like it, I mean only like it because its the cool thing now a days. I think its hellza stupid because all these rappers are obviously trying to be someone they're not, each and every one of them. The whole "free speech" thing is cool, but these people talk about "how they want to get all these hoes lined outside of there crib for they're pimp juice", what sweethearts. Of course, I like rock music because it is something that comes from the soul, and the lyrics actually affect me because they are meaningful, even the heavest metal bands ever have lyrics that say things we can all relate to. I still dont know what I want to do with my life after I finish high school, but I know I want to do one of these things... A drummer for a punk, rock, metal, goth, hard rock, or grunge band: I love playing the drums, its the only thing that makes me happy (that and a certain person) when I'm feeling down, I pay the drums and I'm in my own little world A hair dresser: I dont really know why to be perfectly honest, I like doing hair. I think that I would be more into dieing hair than styling hair though, only because I die my hair all the time. A porn star: ok ok, I know what you're thinking. And forget what you're thinking and listen. Sex is not what people say, everyone says sex is bad, ever though there is nothing wrong with sex. Without sex, no one on this planet would be here, no one ever would. This whole panet would be empty. I am definetly not perverted, but I have a fasination with sex. Its a very interesting subject i think. Everyone has sexual urges, some more than others. And sometimes, those sexual urges cannot be satisfyed with another person for whatever reson. That is when we turn to masturbating. I masturbate, and I'm not ashamed, why should I be?? There is nothing like a pornagraphic porn to spice up your night of masturbation and/or your sexual experiance with someone you love. They are so sentual, and erotic. |
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curious| Lies and desivings is what i'm believing, I guess that's just what I beleive | ||||
| 04:33pm 30/09/2004 | ||||
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| 01:09am 25/09/2004 | ||||
I got another Thrasher Magazine today, they dont have many hardcore chick readers that arnt reading just because their boyfriend likes the mag. i think im gonna write to them to thank them for their unique matirial. maybe they'll give me some free flame stickers, that'd be kickass. We had to do something like that in english last week. we had to write to a company and mail t off. I wasnt thinking about thrasher, only because it had to be a "formal" letter and that is definitly not thrasher style, and, it had to be a desent letter. so, instead, i wrote to the local newspaper about the resent presidential election and my opinion about both canidants (there is actually 4 canidates but the other 2 are almost compleatly unknown, one is from here). I have actually, for once, been getting good grades, im surprised. I died my hair again. What colour? purple. yea. awesome. well...purple streaks, it still looks awesome though i hate looking like everyone else |
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| 05:35pm 24/09/2004 | ||||
my drumsticks clunk around in my backpack I want to get home where it might not be soon I can choose my friends or my carrier my family or my future i can either stay here and go to a high school with no other people like me that high school is where everyone is the same looking dressing thinking acting the same or i can move to southern california and go to an art high school where people like me will be i can help my music carrier there but my friends wont be there or my dad or my brother my mom will come with me my life is here i love this small town i hate big cities in So Cal do i love the drums as much as i love my friends?? my home??? my family??? my life??? im not sure |
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depressed| Silence is still ringing in my head, stuck on repeat, not much longer I'll be dead so just forget me | ||||
| 05:10pm 16/09/2004 | ||||
Kick me, Stab me, punch me, shoot me It all wont be that bad. When I cry inside my room I'll remember those things you said. I will pray to my fake god, And hope that you will leave. Just so I can breath. Do you think I like the way you hurt me, The Way you make me bleed? The way you leave me all those scars, like it's something that I need? Thats all I got so far, I wrote it to let out my anger. lol. lots of anger. I'm not mad all the time though, the person that I wrote this about is the only person in the world that can me get ticked off enough for me to hate. Today, all I ate was 3 locas mexican suckers. They taste so bad when you first have one, but for some reson, you'll get addicted, trust me. I think they give off energy because i ran as fast as i ever had in PE today. heh. |
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| 09:44pm 10/09/2004 | ||||
Tuesday: wake up at 4 Wednesday: wake up at 5 Thursday: wake up at 7 Friday: wake up at 5 I love playing the drums so much and that is enough motovation to wake up so early. Oh by the way, im the drummer in the school jazz band (0 period). I have to be at school by 7:15 and on Tuesday i have to wake up at 4 to deliver newspapers but thursday is my day off because school starts at 9 and there is no jazz band that day. anyways, I love jazz band its so full of energy and i feel so comfortable around these people even though i have only known most of them for a week. Im also in advanced band, so i have to 2 music classes, lol yey!!!The drum set at school is so badass, its this gray colour and its fuzzy, lol. it's a Pearl which is a really good brand. mines a hohner, very crappy but its all i can afford. the love is worth it all in the end. Drumming is sort of like my excape from the rest of the world. If that makes any sence. When i play, im in my own little world and no one can break me away from it. Ive never had more passion for a hobby than playing the drums. it was awesome to see all of my friends again when school started. this year is so different from last year because now there isnt any 8th graders to boss us around, so now we do whatever we want which is be our weird little selfs. I have like 30 friends, but of course i dont hang out with them all at once, about half of my friends (teresa, alisa, bre, jessica, jyssica, laura, britney, hyden, elizabeth, kaliee, kevin, gabe, and lendon) claimed this cement bench in the 6th grade and named it "the sexy bench", i think thats awesome. when people walk by we all scream at them "HI!" and if they dont say it back, alisa says in this really scary shout "I SAID HI!" and people think we're crazy, of course they're right. We always sit at the sexy bench, its the shit. I kicked this guy's ass the other day for callin my friends whores and throwning spit wads at us, we told on em but the moniter person didnt do anything, if i would of kiked there ass at school i would get expelled. So i saved it untill the bus picked us all up after school, and i would kik his ass on the bus because the worst thing they can do to punish me is the bus driver giving me a bus ticket which means i cant ride the bus for a week, which is okay because i can get a ride from bre or somthin. well i did kik his ass, i grabbed the fat on his leg and squeezed it as hard as i can and he was screaming and i kept doin it and he wouldnt hit me because i "was a girl" lol. i didnt even get a bus ticket, THEY did for callin us whores GO ME! and this chick that he always made fun of saw me and gave me a slipknot poster she found, i thought that was sweet. |
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Full name: Victoria Lyn Gerner Nickname: Vicki, Vixter Location: Eureka, California Birthday: December 3rd, 1990 INDIVIDUALITY Things that make me happy: Thursday mornings with my mom, bald guys head bangin, the little squeeking noise when you rub 2 pickles together, anything involving music, feeling needed Things that make me sad: Thinking about the fact that everyone i know someday will die and there is nothing anyone can do about it, when people kill animals Things that make me think: Anything that comes from someones heart, i hold close to mine Things that make me entertained: playing the drums, listening to music, playing rugby, talkin on the phone, hangin out with friends Things that make me swood: guitar players, skateboarders, uniquness, penis peircings, open mindedness, kindness Things that make me angery: Anythings that is worth being angery about, im not angery often though Things that make me me: My style, my personality, my confidence Things that make me fasinated: Presidential Elections (John Kerry all the way!), throwing bunched up tin foil at people, new friends, artwork Things that make me sleepy: watching tv, writing songs, drinking tea Things that make me hyper: Canada, When the band Queen comes on the radio, TOP TUNE!, certain words (i.e. chaboigen) Things that make me scared: horror movies (i like em though), darkness, airplanes MUSIC Types of music I listen to: Classic Rock, Hard Rock, Heavy Metal, Punk Rock, Alternative, Reggae Rock, Goth Rock, Industrial, Grunge, emo Bands/Artists I like: Sum41, Ozzy Osbourne, Weird Al Yankovic, Linkin Park, Nirvana, Queen, Metallica, The Who, Cake, The Romones, AC/DC, Siblime, The Cure Bands/Artists I like that no one would expect me to: Maroon 5, Jamie Cullum, Dasboard Confessional Insterments I play: The Drum set, Snare Drum (in school), Cello, Viola, Violin, Song flute Bands/Artist that I respect as musicians but dont have a liking for the music: Avirl Lavigne (i dont think shes a poser, i cant name anyone that is anything like her) Theme Song: "1985" -Bowling For Soup DATING Straight? Gay? Bi?: Bi :0) Date Often?: nope, dating destracts me from everything else Age range?: 14-16 (guys my age are immature lol) How Many Dates Have You Been On?: 3 Descibe Your Type: down to earth type, has to be unique, i like skateboarders and gutair players, has to be funny, has to be kind, has to have some things in common with me but i dont mind an opposite, HAS to be into music, has to be open-minded 100%. pysical apperance isnt important but i live very tall and very thin guys, with a nice smile and gorgous eyes, with slightly over-grown hair and wears a beany alot (i think thats cute) Does Size Matter?: of course not How many bf/gf have you had?: ive had 1 offical boyfiend when i was in the 5th/6th grade, i havent dated since (exept for once) because it was a painful breakup and i dont wanna go through that again. when i was 4 i had a boyfriend names joel, he was deaf so he taught me sign launguage, i still know some Married?: aw hell no Do you have friends of the opposite sex?: yea lots have you dated any of them?: only once and it was ocward, we make awesome best friends but dating we are totally wierd PHYSICAL APPERANCE Height: 5'4" Hair colour: i die it alot, right now its blond with wine red streaks Hair lenth: down to the middle of my back, long Eye colour: very dark blue Body type: average, but curvy (big boobs, small tummy, pretty wide hips, round ass) Peircings?: no, i want my tounge peirced though, and "down there" Tatoos?: no, i wanna get the jappanise symbol for cheese though lol |
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I'm not gonna spend my time explaining, so I'm not going to, but I will tell you one thing, all of the feelings that you get and all of the fellings that you fell are afected by other people, as opose to your own thoughts. So if you lived in the middle of no where and knew no one at all, and never did no anyone for some reson, you wouldn't have any worries wut so ever, but on the other hand you wouldn't have friends either, which would not be good. So we have to admit, that we do alot of things to impress people, and I do too of course, everyone has someone that they would give anything just to take a second look at them. So if you are at school and you make a crule remark at the teacher, or something mild like that, you've got some people (obviously the "cool" ones) saying "Aw man, that was so kick ass, you're so cool!!" You smile and you feel like the king/queen of the world, in reality, these people that just called you cool dont have any idea who you are. no one knows what you're like when no one else is around, even if you tell them because they still have no idea what so ever. I've done some thinking, and I think alot, as a matter of fact, i spend most of the day inside my own head, talking to myself rather than others (not in public, in my mind). I was wodering if this is normal, i dont think it is because I see girls and guys all talking to eachother, all talking at the same time, the could do this for hours and still have so much to talk about. While I'm in my group of friends and they talk like that, but im just standing there, thinking about something compleatly stupid, like a guy i like or something weird like that. If I spend more time doing insdead of thinking, then I would have less to think about, and then I would be able to do alot more. I dont have hobbies, I mean the usually of course; listening to music, talking to friends, watching TV, stuff like that, my only hobby is playing the drums, which i do literally hours a day, trying to make up different things, since i stopped taking lessons because of money problems. |
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| 08:48am 03/05/2004 | ||||
"hey sexy Luv Boo" ---I have that writen on my arm, its unually cool and bitchin I cant wait for summer! Its gonna be so fun because im gonna go to bed at 7am every night (morning for most people) and wake up at 6pm every morning (night for most people) plus, I get to do whatever I want like go TPing and then go egg my house. I also get to play with Keli, which will be awesome (not hid-and-go-seek play, I mean play insterments, im 13 fcking years old, i dont play games, only cool ones that involve male nuditity. |
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Right now, it's the Sex Pistols (Johnny Rotten in particular), comic books (marvle), and a computer friend named Joseph. To tell you the truth, I'm worried about her, but there is only a minimum of things I can do to help her. Last Tuesday, I got a job, a paper rought with a 4 block radius from my house. 122 papers were delivered at my house at noon today, when I got home from a long day at school, and just bumped into my ex on the way home (he's my neigbor but I havn't talked to him since we broke up), there was a 4 foot tall stake of newspapers for me to fold and put in the bag, it took me a good 2 hours but i got it done, I have to deliever then tomorrow morning, which will suck, but I hve to save up money to get a second cymbol (in my couculations, it'll take me 6 mouths for a really nice one, and 3 mouths for a cheap one). I have alot to write about, im using this jurnal to put the thoughts stuck in the back of my mind. |
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worried| Nothing Fells Better Than Sinking Your Feet Into A Worn In Pain Of Converce All-Stars... | ||||
| 10:55am 30/04/2004 | ||||
Today was Friday...no...Saturday...yea Saturday, anyways.........shit it feels like Sunday, what happened friday, i dont remember? Alright, YESTERDAY was friday and i was............wow it IS friday, jeeze i dont even remember going to school today. Well, wheater I remember it or not, I went to school today. Emily called me last night at 1 in the morning screaming in the answering machine and woke me up and i was craking up laughing so I called her back. It turns out that she was pissed off because 102.7 (the party, the local rap station, i hate rap but she loves it) got kicked off air for cussing, bad influence, and just basiclly all the DJs quite becasue they were paying them minimum wage. I find this funny, and that 102.7 is now the country oldies station, I have another friend listening to that in featle position waiting for the party to come back on, poor Teresa.... Me and Michelle got kicked off the bus again for trying to sell pez candies to the preps saying it was diet pills, but it was worth the "it taist like, like cheap candy, ew gross", dispite the fact that we had to walk home all the way from Cutten (an outskirt of Eureka, like 5 miles south, but we eventually called my mommy). There was a portable toilet on the other side of a soccer feild me and Michelle past by on the way and I finally got to show her the cool writing above the plastic urinal "Hey ass holes, the sink is TOO LOW! You NEED to LOWER the fuckin sink!" I found it when I was hopping over the fence and ripped my best jeans from the seam in the croch all the way down to my knee and had to get changed into my PE shorts in that same urinal earlier that year. I finally get to get my drumset back tomorrow, I got it taken away a month ago becasue i skipped 1st period with Keli and Emily, hid in the bathroom, and then vandalizing it the following ways (I'm reading this off the suspencion notice the principal gave me)... -putting paper towles, toliet paper, and seat covers in the toliets all the way to the top -flushed the same toilets about 15 times -sprinkled it with blue food coloring (we usually drink the food coloring to make our mouth and teeth blue, but this was an acception) -wrote "FUCK" all over the walls with my handy dandy sharpie, including writing my poem too inoproprite for this thing, but the middle lines are "Fuck me, Fuck me till I bleed, kinky sex is all I need" YEA!!! -taking condoms (from Emily's condom colection stashed deep in her backpack) and roled em onto the sink fosets, making water baloons with some, rather fun actually) okok...I'm not proud of this...well, yes I am It was HELLZA FUNNY! but the punishment was a bitch, i miss my drumset SSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOO much, i get it back soon though YEY! |
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