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Well some good news on the Yasser front: My dad isnt pissed off at me anymore. *** I have recieved my modem adapter back. *** I went online on Phantasy Star Online. *** I have a rental car (a GMC Canyon) now with which to travel around with. *** I have recieved my Reign of Chaos CD back. *** I went into Roy's house for the first time in a LONG time. *** I nodded a "sup" to Kimmy for the first time in a LONG TIME. *** Isaac hasnt been THAT much of a bitch for today. *** My FOnewerl (Tiff) is now level 65! Only 58 more levels to get to where I was!!! *** I have a new memory card w/1019 blocks of memory and a new dope ass game called Tales of Symphonia. *** I had a great time with my friends yesterday playing Tales of Symphonia (Yasser = Lloyd, Aaron = Genis, Roy = Raine/Collete, West = Kratos). *** I'm at the LAST boss in Fatal Frame II: Crimson Butterflies. *** The guy that owes me my Chobits series has sent me an E-mail "confirming" that he has sent a replacement. ** We have a new person in our "group" and its not a guy!!! Welcome to the gang Stacy!!!
And now for the bad news: After installing Reign of Chaos, Yasser is unable to play due to a "Fatal Error" where the memory could not be "read". Downloading of a 3hr patch is due. Downloading of a new Direct X driver due. Downloading of a new Video Card Driver due. *** The rental car is an automatic w/power steering. *** I had to bore Roy, Aaron, Stacy and West for about an hour for things to pick up in Tales of Symphonia. *** Rob was the only one that didnt hang out with us. *** I cannot, in any way, beat the last boss of Fatal Frame II: Crimson Butterflies, dubbed "Rope Man".
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| My Dad |
[18 Jul 2004|01:54am] |
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Lately... i dont know whats up with my dad... he's become hella more mean and UNFAIR... i still havent gotten my modem adapter back... but thats besides the point. He has a new thing where he keeps saying that i PURPOSELY smashed the truck so that i wouldnt help him out with his work. Ugh... how gay is that? He knows damn well i didnt do it on purpose. Next thing... he keeps saying that i dont do anything at home... he calls keeping my bros in check and cleaning the house NOT DOING ANYTHING AT HOME?!?! wtf wth ?!?!! SOoOoOOoOo gay... whenever i ask for my modem adapter he says, "I dont know what you're talking about. You and me obviously speak different languages because you never listen to what i say so why should i listen to what you say?" uhhh.... BS! Today me and my two bros went to work FOR him... accidently we set off an alarm and police came... but since it was us it was cool. I called him to tell him that we accidently set if off and then he started up with his shizz.... "See? I cant ever have you do anything... you always mess it up. You always ruin things that arent yours..." He's forever putting me down... and everyone else just laughs and join in. Fucking great. Surprisingly, these blows dont hurt as much as they used to. Had this been about a year ago... i would have gone to my room and curled up into my classic fetal position (cuz everyone has noted that i sleep that way....) and cried my little heart out in private. Not anymore. I have been hurt so much by family, friends, and girlfriends that sometimes i cant feel this pain anymore. As someone once told me just recently, "I saw those tears that didn't drop from your eyes..." They didnt drop. They COULDNT drop. They were there but they were suppressed, deadened, numbed. Instead, ghosts take place in my head. I find myself thinking of when the next time i'll hang out with my friends will be. When will i get my modem back? What is the CD key for Reign of Chaos? How long will Tales of Phantasia last? Where must i go next in Fatal Frame II? How much will a keyboard for GC cost? Who'll snipe me in Halo next? Running through my head... these things make me forget. But then... every once in a while i dream. Dream... dreams... who fucking invented dreams? Dreams can get me very emotional. Many a time i've woken myself from my own voice speaking in the dark. Screaming sometimes. Isaac never wakes. Calm breathing... sleep again. If i can sleep. Maybe thats why i try not to sleep? I dont know... BOK this entry
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| O... M.... G... |
[15 Jul 2004|09:59am] |
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i am bored out my mind.
someone. anyone. save me. i'm going crazy.
Please God let me get my modem adapter back today.
arghfs... as i was telling Roy earlier this day (@like 2am) i need something to lose myself in... and apparently this shit aint working... i'm about to go out my damn mind not having anything to do. Esp. phantasy star or WC3..... grrrrrrrr..... i'm kinda pissy right now.
Hungry... nothing in fridge... hmmm.... getting kinda irratated over here...
So tell me why blurty is going SLOOWWW right now?
i'm home alone... girls call me ^_~ ..........yea right... i dont have girls... how pathetic
i'm hella protected from viruses and ad ware shit... i have Ad-Aware, Norton Anti-Virus, Norton Internet Security, SBC Firewall and pop-up blocker, and i also know when shit gets installed into my comp... HELLA safe!
People need to get online and offer me entertainment damnit!
People need to wake up and call me to offer me entertainment damnit!
People need to get home soon and offer me companionship damnit!
People need to stop hiding my shit so i can actually have something to do besides clean the whole house.... DAMNIT!
Did i mention i was bored, hungry, and going crazy?
HAHA... tell me why i keep checking my email every 5 minutes and the forums every 7 minutes?
My eyes are burning kinda sorta in a way.... think i should sleep? OH SHIT! thats it! i figured it out! i should go to fucking sleep! I can sleep my pain/boredom/hunger/crazyness/bitchyness/pissyness away!!!! YAY!!! Hopefully nobody comes along and WAKES MY ASS UP!!!!!!!
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| BWUAHAHAHAHAH!!!! |
[15 Jul 2004|07:30am] |
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So... the guy finally answered back... he said i "never sent an email telling him what i wanted" and shit like that... thats some BULL SHIT.... i BEEN done told him i wanted a fucking replacement... so i told him so... again! anyways... i didnt sleep tonight... i was studying me some DAMN japanese!!! whoo hoo!! i know me a few words now ^_^ i'm on my way to learning it! but the katakanas and kanjis and hiraganas... omg... thats gonna take hella time...
Ohayo! Watashi wa Yashio desu.
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| GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR |
[15 Jul 2004|02:57am] |
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THE FUCKER AT EBAY STILL HASNT SENT IN MY FUCKING CHOBITS!!!! I'M PISSED!!! OMG WHY IS EVERYTHING GOING WRONG WITH ME THIS DAY!?!?!?!? THAT COCK MASTER HASNT EVEN FUCKING RESPONDED TO MY EMAILS ASKING HIM WHAT THE FUCK IS UP AND WHERE THE FUCK IS MY CHOBITS!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOMEONE KILL ME NOW!!!!!
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[15 Jul 2004|01:45am] |
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ugh... i'm so pissed right now... okay... remember how i was playing PSO and wasnt on WC3 that much? well it seems my bro and dad doubleteamed me and took my modem adapter for my GC and now i cant get online with PSO... fine i still have WC3 right? i come use the computer and that same brother had "unknowingly" downloaded a computer virus that caused Window's to shut down before it even finished starting up and would open a creepy message saying "I miss my mother I miss my father" over and over and over before shutting down... i reformatted the whole thing and installed the OS again... but now guess what? i cant find my RoC CD and no RoC CD means no TFT!!! OMG sooooooo pissed.... i wanna kill me something
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[14 Jul 2004|06:08pm] |
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I AINT EVEN GONNA UPDATE.... ISAAC IS IN THE DAMN ROOM
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| Sups! |
[12 Jul 2004|02:16pm] |
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hey i'm updating my journal for all you who dont know whats been goin on in my life so far... basically i recieved my Modem Adapter and have been on PSO for hours on end... longest i've been on it so far was about 20+ hours... i've had my data corrupted due to my connecting to a Japanese Server (which i will nEvEr do again!!!) and thus making me start over with my FOnewerl... i've made hella friends on there too... my dopest friends all have forces too!!! hahahah... its just so cool seeing 4 Rafoie's go off at the same instant...
i've been slacking off in my forum upkeep in the clan and have missed two MP roll calls.... NOT GOOD... one more and i lose the forum mod powers of the Warcraft III West section.... ugh... anyways... uhm... slept over aaron's this weekend and so did roy (YAY) and we both played through Fatal Frame II... or what we could... we are DAMN near to the end of the game... we got stuck trying to find the last medallion thingy so now its blah... i will NOT resort to a fucking guide... i'll find out what to do and if not me my HOMIE will!!! Oh and mario came over and so did hec and west and robbie!!! w00tnEss!!! hahaaaaaaaaa... okay i'm feeling like some PSO right now :) see you all later!!!
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[01 Jul 2004|10:38pm] |
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okay so if my adapter got sent out today... and its priority mail from Fremont and i'm near Hayward... logical reasoning would assume that it will come in TOMORROW right!?!?
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[29 Jun 2004|11:57pm] |
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damn... i CANNOT wait until my modem adapter comes in... i've been reading and researching HELLA on Phantasy Star and when it comes in... omg its over... Aaron has my PSO though... bastard... i'm gointo have to jack it from him BACK...
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[28 Jun 2004|05:41pm] |
i am in a good mood... not entirely happy but i'm in a better mood than i've been in the past few months...
Randomness:
- MY CHOBITS ISNT HERE YET WTF!!?!
- Looking for a Gamecube Modem Adapter...
- I'm never going to get that banshee icon in WC3 ~_~
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| Anime style :D |
[25 Jun 2004|11:12pm] |
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| Twin KA 91 is now dead... |
[22 Jun 2004|08:42pm] |
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Twin KA 92.... you're going to have to do this alone now... my 91's power is now gone. Everything is over... for now....
Now to everyone else who doesnt understand the above: I got hit by a car today. or actually... my car got hit by another car... it was the other guy's fault but even so... i'm out a KA... damnit... i have no fucking means of travel!!!! THIS FUCKING SUCKS... i'm both sad and pissed about this... i have grown so attached to the KA that it hurts me that its hurt... if u caught that good... if u didnt oh well. but all is not lost... it can be repaired and if it is i'm back... if not we're going to sell it (regrettably) and use the money to get me a car ::*(an FC seems to be ringing in my head)*::... but STILL!!!! omg i hate feeling like this... anyways... time for work -_- and i have to go WALKING.... grrrrrrrrrrr.........
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| Torchuric dreams |
[16 Jun 2004|07:02pm] |
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i hate having dreams that torchure you... you get so happy in the dream that you actually begin to think its reality... until you wake up. Then you realize... its not really real. That all it was WAS a dream... just a dream... a very nice dream but a dream nonetheless... So... what did i dream about? i dreamt of a girl i once loved... very long ago... one that disappeared before my eyes like a wisp of smoke. But in my dream... she was back and oh so very loving. Damnit. I'm pissed that its not real. I really thought she came back. But in the real world i know she doesnt exist anymore... and i know she wouldnt want to come back. bah.... BOK THAT
So today marks the third day i've been working with isaac... and actually today is one of the harder days cuz i have three accounts instead of two.... grrr... i'm about to be out for 6hrs or so... this sucks... my cousin was supposed to help me too but she hella flaked out on me... damn her... i'm thinking i should move the compy back to my room since Gera isnt here but isaac took over his room now... grrrr....
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[15 Jun 2004|05:52am] |
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holy shit what am i still doing awake?
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[15 Jun 2004|03:18am] |
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So i dropped my family off at the airport... i didnt feel anything... after i left... i started feeling sick... i felt i would never see them again... i guess i miss them already... esp Gera cuz he lives here with me and things arent so cool anymore... plus i gotta do his job while he's gone? ugh... oh well... i hope they make it there and back safely
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[11 Jun 2004|01:45am] |
yea clarissa's graduation was cool... i saw a HELL of a lot of people i knew... and i even saw LIZZ!... i couldnt go say hi to her though cuz Kimmy was there... you all know how THAT goes... anyways i saw Shelley too and said hi and congrats and stuff... hehe.. it was nice...
i tried burning out in the truck today... it didnt work... the truck doesnt have enough power i dont think... how gay... it was this LONELY ass road too... i hella revved it WAYY the fuck up there... i was MACKIN on it... and then i let loose the clutch only to go forward... WITHOUT burning out... how dissappointing... anyways off to work now!
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| pain... |
[10 Jun 2004|12:40am] |
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im hurting... it hurts... this pain... at night... in the dark... i would much rather be an ill-fated-chocolate-bunny than to be existing right now... damnit... i wish things we different... i wish things hadnt gone the way they have... i wish many things but none can be changed... or maybe they can... someone special to me once said, "Time heals everything..." so i must stand here and believe it... maybe someday they'll understand... maybe someday i'll really and truly happy... until then i dont know what i'll be doing... more sleepless nights? more "tears that wont drop"? more playing of video games through the break of dawn? i dont know... but i will sit here... and wait... wait for things to go my way... wait for happiness to greet me with open arms and give me a hug full of warmth... ones i have felt before but were taken away from me...
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[09 Jun 2004|10:10am] |
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ah yes Initial D music always brings the mood back to good... especially my song Impact Blue... its like DAMN good... so yea... i'm heading down to pitt for walter's graduation and Hector's graduation and also tomorrow is Clarissa's graduation so i'm goin to that too... ROY GET URE ASS UP AND PICK UP YOUR DAMN PHONE I"M GOING DOWN THERE RIGHT THE FUCK NOW>>>>>>>!!!!!!
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