08:06am 10/06/2005
 
mood: excited
music: melee - "girl so cruel"
ok so today here is the plan. help mumsy at work. then go to work. then cash checks. then go to mall. at mall do 2 things. 1) get megs' b-day present which is so cute but i cant write it here cuz she is the only person who has ever actually read this. and 2) get second holes. that way i will have a total of 7 and megs will only have 5. YAY. then on my b-day im getting one or 2 more. sweeeeeeet!!! then all i have to do is convince someone to move to yakima washington with me! or maybe seatle. w/e. its gonna be great!!!
 
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05:15pm 22/05/2005
 
mood: lonely
music: the postal service: dc sleeps alone tonight...
megs' is home and i am stoked. but she doens't like me that much and would much rather be in boston than here right now. she should probably call germ when she sees this. she could use my phone if she would like to. megan and i have a new best friend. her name is becky. she is tall and skinny and perfect. we are both insanely jealous. if anyone ever reads this and knows where i can get a "save mary-kate" t-shirt it would be totally rad if they let me know! im so bored, and i really need to go for a run. i also need to get a tan but before i tan i must be skinny so that i dont make other people sick when they see me tanning. since i know megs is the only person reading this anyway i feel secure enough here to say that yes, world im fat and this needs to be ammended immediatly. although as i learned today from that wonderful pro-ana site; laxatives are clearly not the way to go. i think i will be lazy and go the stay-fat-but-be-wistful method. i have seemed to have perfected that already. running into the guy who seems like he might possibly be C.H.'s ex bf was weird - old memories from last year and last years friends - ahhhh i wish those memorties would go away lol. except the really really good ones. plus it reminded me of how much i loved hanging out at that place. it was sweet, calm yet exciting, everyone felt like they belonged and we were like united which was weird; but everyone wanted to be friends w/ everyone else. then it shut down. damn the man. im off i am gonna go read THE JANE AUSTEN BOOK CLUB (sorry i cant underline so caps seemed appropriate).
 
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05:55pm 16/05/2005
 
mood: confused
music: weezer: beverly hills
FAT people suck. harvard people are stalking me. dyke vs DBD. i have too many friends to count. l,k,s, and n, rock my stilettoes! - chanel is the mothership!
 
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05:55pm 16/05/2005
 
mood: confused
music: weezer: beverly hills
FAT people suck. harvard people are stalking me. dyke vs DBD. i have too many friends to count. l,k,s, and n, rock my stilettoes! - chanel is the mothership!
 
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05:55pm 16/05/2005
 
mood: confused
music: weezer: beverly hills
FAT people suck. harvard people are stalking me. dyke vs DBD. i have too many friends to count. l,k,s, and n, rock my stilettoes! - chanel is the mothership!
 
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08:40pm 02/04/2005
 
mood: sad
music: mando diao: 'God Knows'
depressed...let the record show a hearty four rejections three acceptances and one waitlisted. i cant even remember how many more schools i havnt heard from. i fucking miss wen i could just drink it away and just get blasted or do lines until i couldnt see and my face was numb. w/e parents not really helping. why cant dad function in a family? wat the fuck is so hard about being honest and taking care of the family. maybe mom should just leave this time for good. and back to school on monday. woot. im so lost right now. i hope u dont read this. this is cathartic in a way though. i ate an entire pint of coffee ice cream the other night. now thats a "u kno ur fat when.." moment if i ever saw one. theres a chance i might not go to college at all let alone my top choice (at least i got in there). maybe God didnt want me to be able to make a choice b/c He knew i would make the wrong one. this is worthless. besides u have more stuff to deal with than this, im sorry im so petty and emo right now.
 
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07:48pm 14/03/2005
 
mood: nauseated
music: senses fail: bloody romance
chanel tote
chanel diamond earings
chanel sunglasses
turks & caicos vacation

o how the times have changed
 
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10:09pm 06/03/2005
 
mood: creative
music: Copperpot - Annie
i have decided what to do with my life. it involves everything i love and aspire to. clothes, music, the scene, couture, im so stoked. of course my goal in this is to eventually by my snotty high school and tranform it into a trailor park where our wonderfully evil "head mistress" (wtf) can reside for the rest of her damn life. gotta go watch garden state!!!
 
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06:16pm 28/02/2005
 
mood: frustrated
music: jackson: all the way
i want bubble tea, a snow day, and a good grade on my history paper, oo and throw in a nice emo boy for good measure. and come april first at least one college acceptance!
 
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05:10pm 23/02/2005
 
mood: working
music: Tsunami Bomb: '20 going on...'
so last friday i was in my first car crash. i would be lying if i said i wasnt "all shook up". so strange...completely clear blue skies all day and then a freak 15 minute snow storm (during which we crashed) and then clear skies again. they took my mom to the hospital and throughout that process it began manically snowing again. if this were a book i would be laughing at the author for such blatent symbolism. meanwhile the younger of the firefighters are hitting on me.. wtf. this was all followed by an extremely weird weekend at my sister's college. where i learned by the way that i suck at flipcup like no other and my tolerance has definitly decreased since getting new "healthier" friends. what would u think of diane coming to visit u next weekend with me? maybe i should try that friendship again? or maybe not. w/e - its up to u anyway. i hafta go study now so that i can watch PROJECT RUNWAY SEASON FINALE tonight (9/8c on bravo). LOVES IT!!!!
 
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09:50pm 15/02/2005
 
mood: worried
music: stairwell: Boxcar
please tell me i made the right choice.. not just in my best interest but everyone around me. i hope it was for the right reasons not just to make other people happy. its over by now though yesterday proved it.
 
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09:09pm 15/02/2005
 
mood: blank
hey! i was gonna leave a message for u on ur sn but u are not signed on my friend. i need u to do me a favor but dont worry its not a big favor nor is it a big deal if u dont get around to it. call me to find out what it is!!! love you!!!
 
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08:20pm 02/02/2005
 
mood: drained
music: the unseen - false hope
i have got some bad news. hellogoodbye has not yet responded, leaving us very insecure. could they really just ignore such a bodacious invite? that hurts. unfortunatley this happened early enough that it is not gonna get me out of going to prom f* that. MUN in like 2 days - im so stoked!!!! i gtg finish this essay - o slc punk was on hbo today (even though i own it) i watched it and was very content.
 
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08:06pm 31/01/2005
  we have e-mailed hellogoodbye and asked them to prom. how f*ing awesome would that be???? im soooo tired this month is gonna suck too. but then it will be spring!!!! I can't wait!!!! ahhhh  
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08:06pm 31/01/2005
 
mood: crushed
we have e-mailed hellogoodbye and asked them to prom. how f*ing awesome would that be???? im soooo tired this month is gonna suck too. but then it will be spring!!!! I can't wait!!!! ahhhh
 
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08:13pm 21/01/2005
 
mood: artistic
music: "london calling" - the clash
life is soooo boring- i really want to go to the new salvation army but when can i??? why would i want to if i have to get dropped off by the madre??? also i want a haircut so send me picks of ones i would like ok? 14 days till model un!! is so excited. i really feel like taking photographs but we cant afford that class; there is nothing to shoot in the house and its like 2 degrees out. i want people in my pictures but i feel creepy doing that. my friend katie is burning be the clash "london calling" 2 disc compilation talk about excitment... once january is over there might be liberation from my academic hell.
luv ya
 
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03:57pm 08/01/2005
 
mood: pensive
i wish i had some blurty buddies!
 
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03:50pm 08/01/2005
 
mood: working
music: rumors!! -LL
ok to i just deleted my last entry - sorry but i guess it really only affects me. i was informing u that i am defiinitly being stalked and his latest txt message was "what are u doing- hows work - are u still grounded- can we hang out?" o well- at least i am getting some semblance of male attention however pathetic and prepped out that male caller might be.

so in other news i really despartly hope that i get into college. laters
 
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09:08pm 05/01/2005
  Tomorow....ETHNIC FOOD DAY for the hottest people around!!! thats right i will be repsesenting my people of Mexico although i am not mexican sara has great britain nikki has italy (shes bringing cheese wtf) and k-luv has ireland!! OH SNAP!

adios!!!

p.s. heres a random thought- if u could have any accent what would u pick?
 
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11:29pm 27/12/2004
 
mood: contemplative
music: hellogoodbye: jesse buy nothing...go to prom anyways
is there any current band in the scene, signed or not, that is true and plain old punk? not hardcore, not street punk, not oi but PUNK. think about it.
 
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