Shiro's Blurty

Time:

5:17 pm.

Yo!

I didn't do much this weekend, last weekend was flat!

Before I got all excited and high by talking about my weeked, I'm glad you're becoming a better person. Had I mentioned I have a policy to read only things that I will apply? It saves time and energy, insteading of dumping everything from the article into my head. Nowadays I also read the sub title, cause after reading so much, it's rare to find new things. Mostly are just different perspective or explanation, I find that the more experience I have, the more I find nothing to read in other blogs, article and newsletter. The only newsletter I still subscribe is from theapproach. They rarely give techniques, it's all social dynamics and mindset stuff. I thought it's crap before, now I enjoy reading most of the newsletter from them, I either learn something new or have a refreshing course on a particular subject.

Experience experience experience! Nothing can beat in field experience. They are a life source for the new you! You can realise alot of things through reading, just remember to apply what you realise.

Yeap, yeap, friday night was flat. The clubs were filled with tired souls or those that are not ready to party. And in Kuching, the party starts after 12! WEIRD! So I was early, HBFriendly called to invite me to a club, she said she's alone, and I go visualize all sorts of possibilities, turn out she got a job at the club, she just want me to club there. No party crowd there, I made plans to meet with her after she's done, found nothing interesting to do, called a buddy, had supper and went over his place to chill. after 2am, I called HBFriendly, she said she's busy. Ok fine, no more party. I went home.

Satuday night is great. Went for a birthday dinner, then I suggest to club. The guys with me are not really guys who can party and be high. So bad move. The girls were ready to have their BT pumped. I meet a group of schoolboys I meet, didn't have anything to talk. Nothing else worth mentioned, we bounce to another club.

At the entrance, saw a cool dude I met before. I vibe with him and exchange names with the 2 girls with him. So the cooldude, his last name is Ang. So Ang is with a birthday group. There's a group of cute girls with him. I group is rather dead, we got seated in the middle of the club, I was bored my ass off, took a girl in my group, to somewhere quiet and talk, I tried to practise the pua swing with her, something is missing. So my swing doesn't work with girls who doesn't dance. I made mental note to find ways to improve this. So we went back inside.

Whole night I just self amuse, my group can't entertain me. I ask a dude which girl he think is cute, he point me one, I approach the chick, tell her what happen, and have her come over to my table to talk my friend. Later I realise she's a hiredgun.

Talked to almost everyone in Ang's group of 8 or more. I saw a chick dancing alot rather aggresively alone, against the speaker, I was like wtf, I went over and dance with her, not feeling so hyper, I told her to dance with one of my guy friend, which made his night.

The highlights are: I went to sit in Ang's table, I have a Malay dude come over and say something, he wasn't speaking loud, I think it's "You have tight game dude" we exchange name.

I move a girl, Amy, around the club playing the game fuck, kill, marry. We end up talking in a quite place of the club, genuine conversation. (Thanks buddy!) Talked about singing, she love to sing, good, we could sing sometime. So number closed.

Yesterday I texted her, she said it's her first time having a good conversation with her stranger. And it's my first time being so genuine to a stranger too =)))

She seems to be a really nice girl. Pics here http://profiles.friendster.com/19110255

Alright, happy playing.
Shiro

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Subject:	How
Time:	12:25 am.

My life, was rarely with choice. At the age 20, I’ve decided to step up, and took risk, believing, I've found my salvation in life. It’s not easy…

I learned how to walk, how talk, how to look, how to display the body posture to communicate subtlety, how to think and how to act and react. I learn how to be the man I always wanted to be. It was hard, it was harsh. I was laughed by my acquaintances, family members shook their head in great denial in my ways. I was completely alone.

And so, I went to search for others walking the same path. I found 0 signs in my town, 0 within the same state. It's either KL or Singapore, I went for both.

Well, I was not insane, I was not the only one, it's not a lie, it's not a joke. EVERYTHING IS REAL! I saw life, enriched by the knowledge, and life overwhelmed, shallowed by greed and also life, powered so much by the knowledge, a life like a king. Just like everything powerful, there's a yin and yang, it could save life and kill life.

Even knowing this, I took the red pill, entered the matrix, living, fighting for a better life.

Can u relate?

Subject:	OneItis
Time:	12:54 pm.

Oneitis is what a man experiences when he becomes convinced, for one reason or another, that a woman is significantly more important than any of other attractive women that might come into his life.

http://cocksanddolls.blogspot.com/2006/05/how-to-cure-oneitis.html

http://www.seductionbase.com/seduction/cat/seductionfaq/Beginner/720.html

http://realitymethod.com/2007/01/overcoming-one-itis/

http://www.thundercatseductionlair.com/2004/05/28/one-itis/

It’s been a while since I looked into the internet to hunt for specific subject in detail. I’ll just keep things short.

Of all the girls I’ve meet thru all my life, you are the special one. I tried to give you my all, without knowing how you feel for me. I took risks; I drop everything I learned just to be with you. I did everything I could.

But you are my one itis and You are not available. Therefore, you’ll never be able to love me. You can’t be there for me when I need someone.

Knowing our worlds do not connect, I will regret for not being able to do more.

And the Community had change their advise from

GFTOW – Go Fuck Ten Other Women

to

To Go meet ten other women.

I’ve meet 4, 6 to go?

Can u relate?

Subject:	Gone were the days
Time:	2:04 pm.

Shiro: Wow, Singapore wow says:
Yeap, any chance for them?
cause if you want, I’ll give last try

XiaoyuEr says:

don’t le lor
cuz i can predict it wont be better
cuz they have no the tendency to do it better

Shiro: Wow, Singapore wow says:
k
well, so it’s finally over, I’m glad to be able to play with you after p2p gone
sorry, couldn’t build a team to support you

Yeap, it’s finally over. My attempt to rise an empire to conquer Kuching’s DotA scene, crushed before it could have it’s fundamental done.

Gone were the days I play DotA competatively, gone were the days I play DotA casually. Killing time with DotA is just too much of a waste.

Was I too harsh or I was too strict on selecting members?

DotA competatively with me is never fun, it’s always pressure, giving 100% and more stress. It’s too helish for average people. I remember one almost cried because he didn’t do well. He have the heart but he didn’t have the fundamentals, I’m not interested in training newbies, so didnt recruit him. He’s doing well in a team now.

It’s not that I love to make things serious or stressful, I just have a bigger goal in mind, I was aiming for the top. I got guys who told me they like what I did. To be in control of my boys, to aim for the top. It’s good mental training.

There’s only one team that play in a serious level all the time, and their stress level are only about 50% of what I give. So, Kuching gamer vs stress, not many can handle it. That’s why successful teams are base with good friendship instead of the tenacity to die for the same goal.

Yeap, I’ll always be known as the mad general who ride my teammate’s bone and soul into dust.

3 years ++ in the world of dota. Wow…

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Subject:	Dou vs Sei
Time:	9:33 am.

I have lovely trip to Singapore.

and wow, much more advance blog function here, and I was thinking of moving! my bad!

First, before I forgot, going to write this down.

Dou vs Sei

http://www.onemanga.com/Historys_Strongest_Disciple_Kenichi/

Read about dou and sei in the above manga, but I did apply it and they are both true.

Dou, using anger as a source of energy and explode while trying not to be consume by the anger.

Sei, with complete constrol and clarity, using just enough energy to complete the task.

Kanji was not included in the manga, I could write to the scanlation team. Hmm.

Anyway, the nature in my blood is dou, I never learn how to control when I follow the dou path, hurt my partner couple of times. Sei is definitely a path I wish to follow, and last night, I think I’ve reach an understanding on hapkido where I could do sei.

Dou could also be compliment with killing intent.

The manga mentioned using both dou and sei together at the same time, but it will be a burden to the body, I think it will be the same as controlling 2 emotions at the same time, I tried an experiment, it’s a big weight on something inside, either heart or lungs, too overwhelming to handle. Even my spiritual teacher was not able to achieve this the last time I asked.

Unless I’m going for fights like ultimate fighting, I don’t need to follow the path of dou.

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Subject:	The Sweetest Smile, My favourite game
Time:	9:24 am.

I did what I could with the sweetest smile, It's not possible (at least at this moment), I did what I could, I have no regrets. (beside the kiss)

And then, I have the song, My Favourite game playing in my head after the above event.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=styYbRWQYP8 (contains violent)

Lyrics here, http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/cardigans/myfavouritegame.html

I have the early part of the song and chorus playing over and over again. Like "
I don't know what you're looking for
you haven't found it baby, that's for sure"

"And I'm losing my favourite game
you're losing your mind again"

This is one of my all time favourite song, and what's great about this song is the vocal, in the mv, it's very sensual to listen to the lyrics and expecting the next word coming out of her mouth. There's multiple ending to the mv, look around.

Yeah, so without the sweetest smile as my goal, and so, this is the birth of the social man, all hell break loose in Kuching. God bless.

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Subject:	step up1
Time:	11:03 am.

Step up. Taking a stand in this world.

Yesterday, I did. It's been a long time I didn't move away from my comfort zone. I haven't try to do something extra for a long time. Last night I try to give a talk on talking to strangers to a group of 3. I was expecting knowledge starving, answers hungry men to beg me to talk more, didn't happen. I wasn't talking my best subject, which make me nervous.

At the end of the day, makes me feel less adequate. And suddenly, everything matters, the things I never achieved, matters, the things I thought I could do, but never did it, they matter now, all these hurts alot even the sweetest voice couldn't calm this pain.

It's time to step up, every single day.

On a side note, after having calm peaceful weeks, why bother, doing all these to feel hurt, pain and dissapointment? I could have let go everything, and just go thru my simple days and text messages. Why Why Why?

And my favourite quote from matrix flashes in my head.

"Why Mr. Anderson, Why? Why fight when you know you can't win? Why stand up when you're all hurt?"
"Because I choose to....."

Yes, because I choose to. I choose to be standing instead of laying on the ground. I choose to walk this path where no one I knew has ever walked. I choose this unknown future, that had brought miracles in my life.

Because I will not stand another second, laying on the floor admit defeat.

So why? Why? WHy?
Because I choose to...

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Time:

12:53 pm.

I don't remember sleeping without a dream every night since last week. Before, No matter how much I sleep , it was never a good sleep. Lately I'm calmer in the day, so the logical explanation I have, is that I have much more energy for dreams now.

Fay said someone is playing with my head.

Calm days are almost over, now I need to tackle the subject on sleeping well asap.
artist : Chordettes
song title : Mr. Sandman
album : Born To Be With You [2001]

(scat “bung, bung, bung, bung..........)

Mr. Sandman, bring me a dream (bung, bung, bung, bung)
Make him the cutest that I've ever seen (bung, bung, bung, bung)
Give him two lips like roses and clover (bung, bung, bung, bung)
Then tell him that his lonesome nights are over.
Sandman, I'm so alone
Don't have nobody to call my own
Please turn on your magic beam
Mr. Sandman, bring me a dream.

(scat “bung, bung, bung, bung.….)

Mr. Sandman, bring me a dream
Make him the cutest that I've ever seen
Give him the word that I'm not a rover
Then tell him that his lonesome nights are over.
Sandman, I'm so alone
Don't have nobody to call my own
Please turn on your magic beam
Mr. Sandman, bring me a dream.

(scat “bung, bung, bung, bung)

Mr. Sandman (male voice: “Yesss?) bring us a dream
Give him a pair of eyes with a “come-hither” gleam
Give him a lonely heart like Pagliacci
And lots of wavy hair like Liberace
Mr Sandman, someone to hold (someone to hold)
Would be so peachy before we're too old
So please turn on your magic beam
Mr Sandman, bring us, please, please, please
Mr Sandman, bring us a dream.

(scat “bung, bung, bung, bung….)

Credits: http://www.ablyrics.com/lyrics_98634_Chordettes_Mr._Sandman.html

Update: Dreams were cause by empathy, I capture my family's thoughts and fay's when I'm sleep. Even if I dream, I have better rest than before. =) I should keep that girl mine... I'm selfish.

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Subject:	Mini presentation on drugs and alchohols
Time:	12:40 pm.

Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
so, drugs and alchohols, why ppl love them?
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
it's because it make ppl feel good
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
just like how cigarette, and your favourite food
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
make that effect on you
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
in science aspect, our mind is divided into logical and emotional
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
when our emotional are stronger, it overwhelms the logical part
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
WHO doesn't like to feed good?
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
I feel good when I get a praise after I complete this presentation, you feel good when you're being love, he feel good when he is drinking his favourite cola
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
it's not like those who take drugs or alchohol are stupid, in this era, I think everyone know the effect of these 2 product
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
it's just how it feeeeeeeeeels so good that, the consumer, are consumed by the good feeling
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
each of the individuals can then choose a reason and blame, it's an escape from hardship, it's only occasional, etc
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
at the end, it's all about feeling good, instead of feeling right, or being right
Shiro: Godlike hapiness says:
that's our blind spot as human

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Subject:	DOMAIN name hunt
Time:	8:27 am.

I spam the survey thru msn, and got the follow results

shiro.com 10
shirolau.com 7
GreatShiroUma.com 2
TheShiro.com 5

With reasons supporting them, shiro.com is simple, easy to remember. I do receive stronger opinion for shirolau.com, specific, building my brand name, I can't remember, but those 2 are good enough reasons.

GreatShiroUma.com was generated by the system's suggestion, I think it's funny, but I'm not that whacky person, am I?

theshiro.com, got good support, the name of it sounds like godzilla says one, later I discuss with another, it's good for product cause it creates an impact.

As an additional note, I didn't get to ask many about shiro.asia, none of them choose it, I'll ask around in real life today.

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