Thursday, February 12th, 2004

Time: 1:06 am. Mood: happy.

Yay: I was hired to be a tutor at the college. I'd be tutoring English and writing. Lol now i can say I'm employed! Hahaha. Watched the Golden Globes tonight. I was thrilled to see Bill Murray win, although I'd have loved seeing Johnny Depp winning for Pirates. I love awards season because I love seeing what all these celebrities are wearing to these great events. One of these days you're going to see one of my dresses on those actresses. Or just as good, you're going to see me there as the wife of one of the nominees in my own creation. Lol. I'm going to LA this weekend to help my brother move. I'll be glad to get away from the snow that is still dropping all over the area. I was originally going to leave on Wednesday, but I won't go until Friday because on Thursday night my dad and I are going to see Sarah Brightman. Very excited for that. That's all for now. Toodles

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Time: 12:16 am. Mood: giggly. Music: B2K: Badaboom.

I "learned" a few things watching The OC tonight: First, teenagers are so dumb. But we all knew that. I know it's a script, but it's true,too. It's something about the hardwiring rearranging itself due to raging hormones. I'm glad I'm not a teenager still. Second, don't do things that'll make you look bad. Ryan, due to jealousy and suspicion, goes all wacko "to protect" Marissa. Dude, you gotta have some solid credibility before someone thinks you're protecting them. So if you snoop through stuff and lie, she's not gonna believe you, even if you are telling the truth. Building your own credibility matters so much in life in general. Third, don't mess up a good thing. Seth and Ana are SO great together, and he's gonna get all jealous. I suppose it's human nature to be jealous, or to think of that whole 'grass is greener' thing. That's kinda sad, because it means we're never content with what we have. I'm going to write a book. Any ideas on why happy people are happy? Let me know. Thanks.

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Time: 11:37 pm. Mood: sick.

One week into the new year and I've got a head cold. I woke up on Tuesday feeling great from the mouth down, but really congested from the nose up. Here's hoping it won't take over the rest of my body. I'll be taking the GMATs on Friday, April 30. I registered for real this time, giving me a deadline to meet. I had planned to take them last year, but I slacked and the next thing I knew the year was over. Now I have 112 days to get my act together and kick ass on this $225 test that affects what business school I'll be going to. No pressure. School starts on Monday. Class 5 days a week, blah, starting at 9am, double blah. I was asked to interview for a tutoring position, so I hope I get that because it'll give me a few extra hours of something to do (and a paycheck). Staying busy is good for me, too, because I'm more productive that way. Revised New Years Resolutions: 1) Learn how to take compliments in a more socially acceptable manner. 2) Read at least an average of 1 book a month. (Goal: 24 books in 2004) 3) Don't use my credit card on every day purchases. 4) Attend my weekly yoga class again. 5) Keep my room neat and in order. 2004 List of Things to Do: 1) GMAT on 4/30 2) Plan and have Lauren's baby shower. (Either mid-Apr or early May) 3) Get a job. 4) Visit NYC, Chicago, LA, and at least 2 countries.

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Subject: HAPPY 2004 :-D Time: 11:29 pm. Mood: happy. Music: Making Christmas from Nighmare Before Xmas.

New Years eve went exceptionally well. For basically every new years eve since I was born, I'd either been at home or at some family 'relative's house not enjoying the evening. Going out to NHG's house was a pleasant change of events. Porkchops for dinner, and wine and champagne to go around. I got a kiss at midnight, which was nice. I crashed there, and woke up to find his mom making a huge lunch. True soul food: chitlins, ribs, cornbread, black eyed peas, greens, bread pudding, and some shrimp and pigs feet. I made the cornbread :) Spent the whole day there hanging out and watching some of the college bowls on tv. Definitely one of my better new years. The only not so good thing: I didn't win the $210 million lottery. For shame. I had such big plans, too... Buying my houses, buying some other townhomes to rent out, buying everyone in my family a new car, taking my friends on a trip to Europe or Asia, buying a franchise of a store that would probably never go out of business, starting a scholarship fund (and maybe my own charity)... So many plans... Maybe next time. I suppose this is a time for reflection about the last year, and a time to dream about the year to come. Well let's see. On one hand I don't think I accomplished enough this year, but on the other it was a sort of dream. And I really mean a dream - it felt surreal. I got to do so many things and met so many people who affected me for the time they were in my life. Example: Will was the full-blown epitome of the man of my dreams (physically the embodiment of Dream Guy), except that he blew me off after I didn't put out. Another example: Seeing Pedestal Guy for the first time since we graduated high school was definitely one of the highlights of my year. Example 3: Going to Greece was a dream come true. But at the same time I watched my peers get their jobs, move into their own places, and I'm thinking... gee maybe that should be me too. I almost feel a step behind. But I was willing to "give up" this year in order to travel and do all these things that I'd never be able to do if I had a full time job. (Example: I spent nearly 7 weeks in LA, 2 weeks in NY, and over 2 weeks out of the country this year.) It didn't help when 'friends' kept calling me lazy for not working. But whatever. It was a good year nonetheless. And my plans for 2004. Love. I want to live my life with Love as the forefront. I don't mean I'm looking to find The One or that I'm in love right now. No, because although I haven't given up on the idea of finding someone to love that much, I've just come to accept that it's just not my time yet. I just want to lead my life with love. Approach situations with the idea of loving life and all things happy and positive. If I don't find The One, that's okay because at least I'll still be surrounded by love and those that love me. I want to look back on Jan 1, 2005 and be like, 'yeah, I *loved* this year' and honestly believe it. Life is a matter of perspective and priorities, and I choose love this year. DAMN - If I'd only heard my cell phone when it rang an hour ago... I could be on my way to a club with Charlie. But I missed the call, and they're gone. That woulda been such a great night.

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Subject: 23rd Bday (on 12/30) went A-Okay :) Time: 12:32 am. Mood: happy. Music: Good Charlotte.

I successfully stayed awake for 22 of the 24 hours of my 23rd birthday. I figured that I wanted to fully enjoy every minute I could of my birthday. It started at midnight with 2 of my friends, then I went to the gym (at 1am), then to the store, then to see my future house, then to my house to watch a movie, then to IHOP for breakfast, then an hour long nap, then lunch with my mom and brothers, then hung out at my moms, then napped at my dad's for an hour, then dinner, then watched a Wizards game on TV, then drove my older brother to my mom's house, then drove to Georgetown to buy Powerball tickets (only to find out that they stop selling lotto ticks at 10:30pm, and I was there at 10:45), then back home. And here I am. Just about everyone I love contacted me for my birthday, which was great. Oh, I was pleasantly surprised and Nursing Home Guy finally called today. He invited me to dinner (that he's cooking for me) tomorrow night so I could spend New Years with him. How sweet, right. I'm giddy. I was actually getting sad that he hadn't called me and believed we were done. That was a bruising I didn't want. But he called himself my "potential love interest", so we'll see how that goes. The cool thing is that I actually have plans for New Years now :) And I won't feel like a 3rd wheel if I'd gone with other people. Nice. The best gift I got was hearing from an old friend I hadn't talked to since April who accepted my apology for being a complete and total ass earlier in the year. Because my birthday coincides so nicely with New Years, I usually make my new years resolution today. They're resolutions for one more year of my life... And here are some of them: 1) Add a new color to my life. Current color of choice: bright pink, and dayumn it looks good on me! Shocking. I just bought this cashmere sweater from Gap that's hot pink, and it just suits me wonderfully. 2) Take compliments better. The other day someone said to me "How are you gonna take every compliment I give you and then give yourself one on top of it?" Um, it's cuz I'm a cocky bastard. But I should tone that down, and learn to take compliments more graciously. 3) Get a job. Self-explanatory. :) If I don't update again, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

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Subject: Lemon meringue pie: Take 2 Time: 3:10 am. Mood: tired.

It looks like this time around the lemon meringue pie for Charlie's Xmas gift will be a success. I'm now just waiting for it to cool a bit before throwing it into the fridge. The custard looked thicker this time, so hopefully that'll make it all work. I HOPE it works this time. And just in case, I made a 2nd pie from a boxed mix. Haha. For some reason, and I'm regularly a paranoid person, I think Nursing Home Guy is done with me... Boo. But like I said, I'm paranoid. I guess it's just easiest to expect the worst... So when something good happens I'm still pleasantly surprised. So here's to hoping I'll be pleasantly surprised. 2 days until my birthday :) No plans. I'd toyed with the idea of having a lil brunch with my close friends... but I don't really want to cook. Haha. Plus the idea of all of my close friends together in one room makes me shudder. So I'm guessing I'll just chill.

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Subject: Happy Boxing Day :) Time: 1:08 pm. Mood: full. Music: Ludacris: Stand Up.

Christmas went well :) My family went to church and then to lunch at my favorite dim sum place. Then we opened gifts. Angela called and invited me to her family lunch, so I went there just in time for dessert. Then my brothers and I went to my moms house and had dinner and opened gifts. Yup, that was my Christmas :) I got these gifts for people: Roomba Pro and pedometer for my dad shirt and jucier for Albert 3 shirts and a keychain for Jeffrey ornament and travel pillow for my mom hats for Bob doggie toys for Bishop Redskins hamster, cd and scarf for Nina Bath and Body Works lotion for Miatta Shirt for Lauren books and truck for Jay book for Angela money clip, cds for Luisa These are the gifts I've recieved (thus far): wolf blanket from Dad vest and scarf from Albert sweatshirt and CD from Jeffrey Sephora gift cerfit from Nina Sephora brush set from Lauren book from Miatta planner from my godfather lotion and candle from Nikki and Chesa lotion/body spray from Tito Nonoy My attempt at the pie for Charlie almost worked. It'd have turned out really well, except that I didn't refrigerate immediately (I thought it had to cool first), and the custard ended up separating into thick custard and liquid. Too bad, cuz it was soooo close to being good. I'll make a second attempt at it tomorrow. Now I feel like I may be getting sick. :( And I have to go to work at 5. I talked to someone I havent spoken to in a while the other night. The last time I hung out with him I told him he reminded me very much of an old friend, right down to how he said things and the shape of his lips. And when he picked up the phone when I called, he answered exactly the same way my old friend used to. It's strange... I wonder if I was attracted to him because he reminded me of the old friend... or it's because he reminded me of the old friend that I'm not as attracted anymore. Hmmm..... I have to learn how to take compliments in a more socially acceptable manner. Haha. Bye!

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Time: 1:25 am. Mood: calm. Music: No Doubt: Hella Good.

There are a few things that are necessary in a successful relationship: 1) Timing - it doesnt matter how much you love someone, if the timing is against you, you're screwed. How awful is it to meet the person of your dreams, and he's dating someone else or about to go to jail or something like that. How great is it to meet the person of your dreams at precicely the most opportune moment. Maybe the timing will work out later, but not right this very second. In any case, it'd be good to have timing on your side. 2) Peace - that happy feeling of calm you get just thinking about the person. Or that same kind of content giddiness you get being around him. Because if you feel agitation or confusion or worry or whatever in regards to him, there's something not in balance that needs to be worked out. 3) Lust - Attraction, more specifically. Everyone has her thing that turns her on. For example, I dig dorks. I dig smart guys with a killer wit. Sometimes it grows with time, but there should be that thing that draws you to him, makes you want him. 4) Love - haha yeah, that had to be on the list eventually. Love, good love. Not laced with lust or images of how you want to see the person. Actual love where you take the person as he is, where he'll go and where he's been. Where you understand his faults and his strengths, and you know it's okay. I guess it comes along with understanding and acceptance and compassion and even some hope. 5) Laughter - every life has problems and every relationship hits its rough spots, right. So... do you get bogged down by them and depressed and think everything is all tragic. Or take it in stride, laugh when it's nothing big. Laugh when you make it through it. 6) Faith - Believing in the relationship, even when things are rough, especially when things are great. It seems easy to believe in it when things are good, but it's too easy to take for granted. I've just been thinking about this recently. I guess the holidays will do this to a person. Also hearing of someone else's engagement (God bless Hot Eddie - I wish him the best of luck, although there's now one less good guy off the market) made me think more about relationship stuff. On a somewhat related note - my date with my crush went very well. I still have a crush on him... which means his personality didn't fuck up what I thought he would be. Haha. Here's hoping.

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Time: 4:30 am. Mood: cheerful. Music: the new Nelly Furtado song.

yeah it's been a while. thing's have been going on and i've been living my life. and life is good. and now, a list: 1) I loved LotR: Return of the King. We went to the midnight showing (and just got back a little bit ago). It was SOOOO well done! Sure the ending got to be really slow (including slo-mo speaking), but it followed the book well enough. The battle sequences were just plain WOW! Loved it. 2) I love shopping, especially when I don't actually have to spend any of my money on stuff that's bought. Gotta love Christmas time! 3) I have a crush on someone! 4) ( Here's a survey I found and wanted to fill out. )

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Time: 3:18 am. Mood: okay. Music: Baby Bash: Suga Suga.

Happy Thanksgiving (technically a day late, but whatever.) Things I'm thankful for this year: ~ my family, especially my dad ~ my friends ~ having faith ~ my dog ~ good movies ~ good music ~ dancing ~ attraction ~ body heat ~ flirting ~ hope ~ happy memories ~ basketball ~ make up ~ touching ~ logic ~ gift wrapping paper ~ great food ~ good health

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