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[30 Jan 2004|11:54pm] |
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you know who i absolutely love? *A.Va* lol. her journal entries always make me smile, and they make my day. :) shes just a wonderful wonderful person! [hah, rea- we need to hang out!!] but yeah, its always nice to have someone that understands you and who listens, and thats what she is to me..and not to mention shes such an optimistic, head strong, gorgeous girl. and i am very greatful for her. :D okie dokies, bye!
ps. im single again!
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[23 Jan 2004|03:37pm] |
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uh, im so fucked up in the head right now. i hate to bitch about everything, i really really do..and its not usually like me but i cant take any of it anymore. it seems as if nobody understands me..and why is it that as soon as something really good happens to me- i have to let it go? i dont give a fuck, im not dropping anything. keeping myself happy and thats what matters. jeez.
on a better note, i finally got my new computer so i dont have to use the one in my brothers room anymore. yesssss! :) and we get dsl in a little bit which means no more slow ass computers in this household! well, its friday..i suppose i should go find out if my moms gonna make up some fucked up shit so that she can tell me im gounded. whatever, im gonna go out regardless. lol. sometimes, lifes a biiiiiiiiitch. but yeah, im outta here. xox
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[16 Jan 2004|08:30pm] |
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interesting...
 I am The Empress
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[14 Jan 2004|08:10pm] |
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school was so fricken shitty today. people talk soo much shit, its all a bunch of bull shit though. ive thought about it a lot and i honestly dont give a fuck anymore. its not worth worrying and being bothered by all of it, people will eventually get lives and stop talking. wow- ive felt like shit all week, ive slept so much [to make up for what ive missed over the weekend] and i think i over did it, and now im just drained because of excessive sleep. that ever happen to you guys? anyways, im putting my application in for uwf at the end of this week, i just need recommendation letters. i hope that i get them in time because if not im gonna be stuck here after high school- and thats gonna erk me. ooh i got report cards today, guess who brought her 2.8 up to a 3.0? yepp, thank you, thank you. lol. im so happy cause i like busted my ass for these grades..i got 2 b's the rest a's. no complaints. dads giving me some cash..whooo hoooo. im kinda hoping hell just give me the credit card so that i can go shopping or something. well, heres a quiz. have fun. xoxo later.
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[13 Jan 2004|02:32pm] |
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ah, the shittiest shit always seems to happen to me. just kinda pisses me off because i dont really deserve for stupid things to happen to me...atleast i dont think. anyways, i got my tarot cards read the other day when i went down to miami. i think that shit is crazy, seriously. like sometimes its so real that its scary but other times it all seems so vague- as if these cards could pertain to anyone..ya know? but yeah, the cards told me some interesting shit. gotta go, shopping :)....ill update more later.
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[04 Jan 2004|02:58am] |
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LMAO!!! i just noticed the little horny guy expression on my last entry. funny shit! LOL. okay sorry. im out.
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[04 Jan 2004|02:51am] |
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warning: im boy crazy tonight
why is it that the type of person that you least expect to like..is the one you end up liking? okay, i know this is gonna sound kinda shallow..but every girl is allowed to be shallow sometimes. lol. well, at one point when i had all these "guy problems" i made this list for myself kinda on a joking level but at the same time at a serious level about the ideal guy that i see fit for myself. [ill post it in here next time] and the guy obviously doesnt have to fit every description but most of them would be nice you know. so, after reflecting back on my relationships i realized that my number one thing should probably be that the guy not be all that "thugged out" lol - but i meet this guy a couple nights ago, whos not bad looking at all..but [theres always a but, lol] the whole "un-preppy" thing is so not me, or so i thought, so i actually hung out with him and got to know him and i think hes really a nice, genuine guy. and i wouldnt mind hanging out with him again. but yeah, its weird how things work out that way huh?
whoa whoa whoa. omg...hottest guy on earth. WHOA. thats all i have to say. its like sometimes when i see him i cant even contain my dinosaur noises. lol. *EEEE* x a whole bunch of fucking numbers. oh and speaking of hottness....im pissed cause i definitely didnt get to chiiiiiiiiiilllll with......[cliffhanger] try to figure it out. heres your clue: hes definitely a hott ass. lol.
saw jay and tony tonight. kinda miss hanging out with them. jay barely talked to me though. kinda weird...like ive always kept these convenient relationships with ex boyfriends or ex hook ups. [nawhat-imsayin?! lol] its not really like that with jay though, i just wouldnt mind hanging out with him and just being friends. is it too much to ask for? i dont know.. maybe ill get the balls to talk to him about it, eventually. and i especially dont want it to be awkward when we go back to school on tuesday. fuckshit. i dont want to go to school. just reminded myself about school starting.
omg, i saw the funniest thing tonight. this guy tony that i met has a fake id and wanna know what his name says on it?!! haha, jac mehoff. lmao. i read it and couldnt stop laughing, and he actually uses it! crazy fo' real. lol. anyways im out...ive been rambling for too long now. bye.
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[03 Jan 2004|02:28am] |
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help me out here, someone. what is up with some guys infatuation with asshole fucking?! personally, i dont see the arousal in it..and i find the whole process a little humorous. lol. anyway. tonight was boring..i went to the movies with my parents- then to steak and shake for milkshakes [my milkshake brings all the boys to the yard..lol. sorry, i had to] and didnt get home till like 12:15 so i couldnt go out after that because my parents are stuuuuuuuuuuuupid. anyways im gonna go to bed. i might be leaving for orlando early in the morning...g'night.
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[01 Jan 2004|02:52am] |
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happy new year everyone! ;D i hope everyone had a great night. mine was pretty good, i chilled in boynton it was quite the interesting night. got to find out new fetishes that people have grown into. lmao. and i did see a lot of people that i havent seen in sooooo long! and i saw lots of people that ive been DYING to see..im sure most of us know who im talking about. oh and i made a new years resolution with kristen, which is unusual cause i dont really make new years resolutions..its just like a big shut down when i dont go through with what i hoped for [like my whole losing weight thing, i did lose some but im not to my ideal weight yet..] but anyways out resolution is for me and her to start hanging out again! verry cool huh? alright guys, im out. lata.
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[26 Dec 2003|08:28pm] |
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christmas went well. just pissed off i didnt get a coach wallet. its okay though, im getting dads debit card when i go to wellington green and bet im charging that bitch straight to his bank account. lol. but other than the wallet...i have no complaints.
christmas eve was spent in miami, like every year. it was okay..but me and chapi definitely found new obsessions. yay. well nothing drama filled. sorry guys. im off.
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[24 Dec 2003|12:41am] |
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jay and i broke up the 18th. it was kinda long awaited..and i think he was expecting me to break up with him. it was a mutual thing though, i just dont understand why he hung up on me while i was mid-sentence. whatever though. the thing about our break up that caught me as amusing is that people seem surprised when i tell them we broke up. lol..its funny how people precieve things from the outside. im sure a lot of people thought "oh melissa and jay are so cute and so happy and- blah blah blah-" they didnt know the half of it.
anyways..i went to the mall today and saw a buncha people. got some xmas shopping done [im a huge procrastinator] im still not done, gotta go back tomorrow. and i finally got my nails done. i got white tips for the first time in years...i couldnt remember if i liked them of not, guess well have to wait two weeks and see how they turn up. anyways im gonna go to bed..gotta wake up early to do presents with hallie. x0x
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[17 Dec 2003|09:13pm] |
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i know this may sound a little immature or whatever, but i hate it when people fucking use things that i have said before, or copy my shit, or anything. its like c'mon be original. atleast reword my sayings. i duno. i hate that bullshit though. some may know who im talking about. but im out....just wanted to rant.
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[16 Dec 2003|06:38pm] |
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i find myself to be surrounded by the biggest fucking imbeciles ever. its like i talk to people and my words go into one ear and just float around in there depleted little heads with no direction. here- ive got the perfect example for yall...yesterday im talking to someone and heres the part that got to me...
me: "...i feel like everything is crumbling right in front of me and i cant get close enough to do anything about it..."
xx : "so, do you have homework this week?"
its like hello you fucking stupid ass..theres obviously something wrong with me and you fucking interrupt my sentence to ask me if i have homework, and trust me, even if i did have homeowrk it would be the least of my problems!! then the person who says i can talk to him about whats bothering me somehow miraculously feels the same way that i do and understands everything thats going on with me. tell me, how do you know how i feel when i havent even told you the most of my problems, when i dont even know how i feel?! enlighten me please, and tell me how its possible? all i need is for someone to JUST listen to me, not to necessarily understand me, or to agree with what i do...JUST LISTEN. so i finally figure out the perfect person to call...and i called. and it definitely helped me out, i was able to talk about my problems- i mean my real problems- things that ive been keeping from everyone hoping that eventually i would forget about. and i got to talk, they listened to me, and said things that i didnt mind hearing. sooooo yeah, theres that.
exam week started today...i started school at 1:00 cause i didnt have an exam for 1st hour...which left me with my 3rd period [english 2] exam. OH i failed, for suuuure. my teacher is a phsyco. and im just saying that class better not bring my fucking gpa down. so anyways..i went to the mall before i went to school and i got some things. i looked for a new outfit at american eagle...but it feels like i have all their winter line clothes. lol. i guess ill either have to get accsessories or wait until next season...which should be cute.
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[14 Dec 2003|10:13pm] |
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been a while, huh?
i was inspired my rea to start writing in here again, ive been wanting to- i just honestly havent had the time to. sooo heres whats new...
- i have a boyfriend..jay. yeahhhh. its good. kinda weird going through the whole boyfriend thing again, i still need some time to get used to it all. i have some issues within myself that i dont think ill ever be able to overcome..we'll just have to see.
- i still have no fucking job = no fucking money for xmas. but yet i sit and bitch about it, and i never get off my lazy ass to go look for a job. blah
- i need to lose weight...goal is to be 100 lbs. and not a half pound more. and ive given myself till new years. actually annmari has given me that limit. she has her reasons, and i have mine. and thats that.
- school sucks, i hate to go. i hate homework. i hate school work. i hate people there. i just hate every aspect of it. grades arent too shabby though, i just figure- hey, might as well get shit done so i can get the fuck out.
theres definitely a lot more going on right now..im not regular melissa anymore..its weird. and i dont know whats been affecting me but its gotta be something. but anyway im outta here...later. x0x
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[18 Oct 2003|12:09pm] |
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i came back from orlando yesterday. -blah- what happened was that nobody could meet me up there friday and i didnt want to stay in the hotel by myself for an entire day/night, so i came home with my parents. i still got to go to horror nights though, it was fun. [lotsa hotties] lol. and holy shit, i ate a fuckin emu leg! haha. i tried it [thinking it was chicken] but it was full of grease and fat so i spit it out and some kid was like laughing and goes "you know what your eating right?" and i said "yeah, chicken!" and he goes "nooo, its emu" so i asked him what an emu is and he said it was a gazelle looking thing! LOL. so i was picturing something that resembles a horse!! but hallie assured me that it was just an oversized bird. haha, thats still pretty gross though! ..buuuut anyways! i am gonna bizounce! lol. peace. x0'
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[15 Oct 2003|03:05pm] |
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well, im off to orlando for the weekend. it'll be fun, im gonna meet up with erica at halloween horror nights on saturday night. goooood times! i've never been to halloween horror nights and everyone is telling me its real scary! anyways..someone called me today, and i was kinda surprised cause we havent really talked in a while, and i think he like wanted to hang out.? hmph, i was strong though. :) yay! not much more to talk about so, im gonna go out before i have to leave. xox
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[08 Oct 2003|08:48pm] |
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hey guys! how've ya been? wow, my past weekend was pretty very fun! i hung out with erica and we just kinda "party hopped" cause were ballers like that. lol. anyways..ive decided that i am gonna go to homecoming. ;D i mean, what the hell- it is my senior year and my moms gonna pay for everything. and if it sucks i can always leave. soo yeah, im going to miami this weekend to go dress/accessories shopping. :) and my aunts gonna come with me and my mom, omg- i love going shopping with my aunt, cause she has the same style as i do hhm, funn times. ahhhh, i have my sat's this saturday. i havent studied for shit. i dont really plan on it either; ill study the second time around if i do shitty the first time. so thanks to the sat's my weekend is probably gonna s-u-c-k. o'well, its a price i must pay! annnnnyways..im gonna go. xox
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[27 Sep 2003|01:23pm] |
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heyy, just got back from dori's house. me and riley spent the night over there. omg last night was definitely a night to fuckin remember...it was crazy. lol. anyways, i decided that im not gonna go to homecoming. i feel bad cause im gonna like sell evryone out but i just dont wanna go, i just think its a complete waste of money. ah well, anyways im gonna go to my little brothers baseball practice/game. later.
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[23 Sep 2003|09:15pm] |
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blahhhhhhhhh!! i feel like shit. i came home right after school and fell asleep, and i like just woke up. and to tell you the truth, i could probably go right back to sleep right now. buut anyways im going to homecoming with the youngins. ;D were gettin an excursion limo..and then everyones gonna come back to my house cause we can only party after if we all sleep here. its all good though, were gonna have fun. i have to go shopping for a dress and everything. ahhh, so stressful!
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[17 Sep 2003|06:24pm] |
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so last night i went to the baseball game with my *best friend* alicia!! lol. it was boynton vs. santaluces. i was shocked, there werent too many hotties. blah. im definitely gonna have to check out the river boys, right ann!? today was boring, i just got back from yet another baseball game. hmm..tomorrows a half day, i get out of school at like 10. im not sure what im doing yet but i might go get my permit with alicia- wish us luck!! oh! and i definitely wanna hit the beach..
omg, haaaaaal so im listening to madonna right? and material girl comes on and guess what she said?! "only boys who save their pennies make my rainy day" LMAO!! so0 truuu! sorry, i just had this major laughing attack ;D
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