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[04 Apr 2003|07:17pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Sweet White Lies\\Keepsake ]

[.Lack Of Updatin'
Blah, sorry I haven't been updating, I've just been having too great of a week to even get online. Me and Pat are great, me and Megan are of course great. Everything is! Except today, I kept daydreaming in Mathclass about things...and the more I think about it, the more I just want to explode! I have to get it out somehow...

[.The Problem
Okay, this may sound immature...but I really think that someone might come between me and Pat. I asked him last night if anyone would and he said "No, of course not!" and everything...but still. It's that Kris chick, since Monday he's been talking about how much he talks to her, how he has a good time with her, and how they 'flirt'. I know when people are flirting, and whenever you make fun of someone, or chase someone around...c'mon now. Her looks are nasty and all, but I asked him who he would choose between someone and her, and he picked her right away. Maybe I'm just too overprotective...or I'm just jealous. Whenever he talks about her, I just fake a smile and act interested to hear about it. I've tried to be nice to her, smile and say hi and everything. She made him this black and red bracelet, and I wanted a black and white one, and a pink and black one..so she was nice enough to make me one, but she made Pat pay for mine, giving his to him for free. She's going to his band practices now....God, what am I even here for? The sex?...it just...gets to me that she'll turn out to be his best friend instead of me being that...and that he has a better time with her then me. God, I worry too much..and that's exactly why I'm not telling him what's on my mind. I just act happy around him and all. Surpisingly he hasn't noticed that I'm faking it. If I tell him what I think about him and Chris, he'll say "Oh, you're stupid..shut up...no one will come between us...she's just my friend..I love you not her" I believe it, but I know that he won't understand from my point of view. Megan understands perfectly, I'm just scared to tell him because he might get pissed and make a fight out of it. God I have trust issues, I trust him don't get me wrong. It's just her, you know how us girl's are. We won't stop until we get what we want...and he even told me that at the beginning of the year that she liked him, but backed off because of how long we've been dating. It just really gets under my skin and makes me wonder if he's starting to get feelings for her, or not. I hope I actually make sense to somehow, and not just ramble on and on..- sigh -

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My Hair Owns [30 Mar 2003|07:17pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Flesh Into Gear\\CKY ]

__{Oops...
Sorry, I kinda had a busy weekend and didn't get a chance to write in here yet. But I'll start with Saturday because that was so much fun!

__{Red Lobster...
My Aunt, my Gram, Pat, and I went to Red Lobster before we went shopping. We had this waiter that was kinda good looking and really nice. So, he started talking to me and Pat asking if we were in the 'scene' and him and Pat were talking about their Bands. He's in a local band that I've heard of, and I can't think of a name. Him and Pat are both drummers. And he told us to check his new band out at The Why're in two months. Which I will! So will Pat, cause I'll make him. lol

__{Capital City Mall...
I had about 24 dollars with me, so that kinda rocked. We went to FYE first and over to the clearance place and there were these purple and black bracelets that were just on the rack, and I was about to take them but I was scared of getting caught, so I didn't even touch them. He got a pair of MTV sunglasses, and then scratched the MTV logo on the side of 'em off. It was pretty funny. Then we went into Spencers and over to the clearance rack, and he found a jackass shirt that said "Warning, don't eat yellow pee." and I got a blue unwritten law one. It's a guys' large, so it'll be pretty huge on me. But then again it was only 4 dollars! And his shirt was only 5. So we rock. lol, then we went into Hot Topic and this chick was there and was talking to us and asked who Patrick was and I pointed him out and she was like "Why doesn't he have one that has your name?" and I said "Because, he doesn't love me..." lol, so I got black and white bracelets, a shirt that says "This is my smile.." and a black and white checkered wristband. And I was at the resigster and she goes "Wow, you can totally be like Avril Lavigne!" lol And I was like "Oh yay!" lol, she was cool. Pat didn't get anything, I have no idea why though. So then we went into JC Penny with my aunt and gram, and I got a green camflague tank top. I love it. So then we left there.

__{Wal*Mart...
We all went into there and I got this big Icee, which he hogged alot of it. Argh, but I got this tank and pantie set that said "Girl's Rock!" lol, it's really cute. While my aunt and gram were checking out we went into the Arcade and he was playing this racing game, and I sat in his lap and was screwing him up. lol, it was pretty fun. But it was more fun afterwards ;]

__{Dying My Hair...
We got kinda bored and decided to get the bleach out and the Nuclear Red hair dye. Ew, he had to put this Pjelly in my hair which made it feel so nasty. Icky, We both got our hair bleached, then we watched Marilyn Manson's Government tour thing while it set in. Mine was the first one done, so he was dying it and I had my eyes closed the whole time, then whenever I finally openned it. I flipped out! It wasn't just like..a redhead red..it was BRIGHT red. It's so awesome though. I love my hair. Black and Red owns. Pat did his too. He looks like a fireball<3

__{Today...
He came over today and I had my hair in pigtails and I didn't watch it since last night and it looked so nasty. Lmao, he said it looked like Garret's. The Pjelly didn't come out whenever we washed it last night, so we washed it because it was boring him. lol, he watched MTV Spring Break where this dude went to Cancun and got caught by his mom, dad, and ex. It was pretty funny. I love him

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New Journal! [26 Mar 2003|10:11pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Marilyn Manson\\Coma White ]

Howdy»
This is my new journal. I love my user name, and ah! I'm trying to find a wallpaper of Marilyn Manson, but it's failing. So if anyone can help, that would be great<3 I'll write tomorrow! __aLy*

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