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[24 Aug 2005|07:05pm] |
Dear Wife,
When I came here I saw your picture and was automatically in love with you. We started talking and I fell more in love. You proposed to me. But I proposed to you. And then, we were married. We finiailly had three wonderful kiddies. When you start drama I think its attractive haha. You didnt care that I was an ugly piece of crap, becuase unlike everyone else, you loved me for ME. You helped me with all my problems and listened and cared when I needed caring. I am going to visit you with Bryce and Chris and Im going to pick you up and never let go my dear. You are my favorite person on here, ( with others not trailing very far behind ;] ).But dont get jealous of other girls becuase you are prettier ! You complete me. You are my universe. You are my world. You are my everything. You are the owner of the next spiderman panties i send out. You are my Allyse and I love you. More. The end.
Love infinity,
Aidenlove.
yayayayyay the end. how mushy.
i love Aiden
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[18 Aug 2005|12:39am] |
the sun goes down
and my feelings increase
the truth is
i only care
when its dark out
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[12 Aug 2005|03:18am] |
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ppl are pathetic and fake
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[12 Jul 2005|04:39pm] |
"your beautiful" he says to her as his hand caresses each part of her fragile body
"how can someone be beautiful with a body like this?" she thinks to her self looking past his bright blue eyes and into the mirror over his shoulder. the way her bones stick out of her chest but she still continues to not eat. because what she sees starring in that mirror is something noone else will understand. she wants perfection. she wants to be a model. she wants to look like something straight out of a magazine. she wants to be skin and bones. Everyone continues to tell her shes unhealthy but if unhealthy means skinny than so be it..shed rather end up in a hospital than be how she was. beauty is perfection. and perfection...is skin and bones..hey they always said beauty must suffer...well..starving yourself is suffering for beauty
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[04 Jul 2005|08:10pm] |
you nothing less than a barbie
with your fake friends
and your plastic ken
your died hair
and your orange skin
you even got the fake personality
and the "blonde" brain
girl..your nothin less than a fake
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[06 Jun 2005|04:32pm] |
"your beautiful" he says as make-up runs down my face
"but your just not her" I feel the distance between us growing stronger
Whats she have that I dont?" I manage to say while choking on my tears
Look at your wrists love"..I slowly lower my hands into my hoodie pocket
You're not okat..I cant be with someone that causes pain to themselves"
"but you stopped my pain. Do you see any new marks? you saved me when I couldnt save myself"
Im sorry dear..I have to go" he pulls me close to him and with just one last hug it all ends
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[04 Jun 2005|11:20pm] |
Sorry my lifes not perfect as yours
and to express my self i use a blade
Sorry I cant be pretty
and have every boy I want
I cant help that I know how it feels to have my heart break
and im not the one breaking them
I dont know what its like to actually be loved
I only know what its like to be in love and not loved back
Im sorry that I cant be you
and be so fake
sorry my life is real
and im not some plastic bitch
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[25 May 2005|08:55pm] |
I wanna cry like they do in movies
so overdramatic
so full out
like somethings wrong
and everythings not okay
Im afraid to cry
I know I wont be able to stop
and ill have noone to hold me
oh i just want someone to hold me
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[24 May 2005|03:08pm] |
another one of my pathettiic english poems..
Crash the thunder breaks through the tree
Lightning lights up the sky
She lays awake questions, "whats wrong with me?"
What can she do to just get by?
Her heart screams in Pain
Everything is just a game
She stares at the scars in her Vein
Why cant she just forget his name?
Living in tears and SoRrOw
Her life is like a fairy- tale went wrong
She know's she'll be like this tomorrow
So she finds her emotions that fit with a song
These memories just wont fade
She'll love you forever and a day
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[16 May 2005|10:58am] |
She lays outside
The grass on her back feels like her own bed
The rain coming down, a mirror image of the tears she cried last night
The air reminds her of ice
but she doesnt seem to care
She gazes at a plane in the sky
wishing she was the one on it
getting far away from this place
She realizes she may never leave
so she closes her eyes and sleeps to dream
that maybe one day she'll dissapear
to someplace where pain is non excistant
and hearts forgot to break
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[30 Apr 2005|10:01pm] |
the words you say..make my heart ache and the razorblade becomes my best friend..the scars on my arm.. show every lie you ever told me
I wrote a poem today my love
It started off as the reasons I miss you
I took the paper and tore it up
and thought about every lie you threw at me
loving me was never an option to you
but smashing my heart into pieces was another story
you took it right out of my chest
I guess ill always just be Second Best..
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[14 Apr 2005|06:37pm] |
come over..you know you want to..
we have a secret hidden
and its between the sheets
for this moment I am yours
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[29 Mar 2005|04:16pm] |
in the blink of an eye
sparks fly and fires die
some things were meant to last
no you wont be the first
to break that heart of hers
and you wont be the last
so let her go x3
let her go x3
she'll get over it in time
one less burden on her mind
hurt a little bit
she'll get over it
when those tears drop from her face
someone else will take your place and
she'll be over you
for good
so let her go x3
try to tell her goodbye
oh no your mouth goes dry
and your heart starts to sink
then you look in her eyes
oh you just might be surprised
she’s stronger then you think
so let her go x3
let her go x3
she'll get over it in time
one less burden on her mind
hurt a little bit
she'll get over it
when those tears drop from her face
someone else will take your place and
she'll be over you
for good
make up your mind
you cant take forever
she'll get over you in time
so let her go x3
she'll get over it in time
one less burden on her mind
hurt a little bit
but she'll get over it
when those tears drop from her face
someone else will take your place and
she'll be over you
for good
so let her go x3
let her go x6
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[29 Mar 2005|04:09pm] |
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And I cant picture you kissing her..because for the longest time..i was the only one you were with..Now that your gone I cant see you loving anyone..the way you loved me..Will you tell her what you told me..that I was the only one for you and you never wanted me to leave? Cause pretty soon you'll leave her too..she'll be broken shattered and torn the way I am. I'll never love anyone the way i loved you..cause i devoted everything to you. including my heart.
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[29 Mar 2005|04:08pm] |
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you are everything i want..your all that I need to get by and save me your eyes light up my life, they restore hope. now you're everything that makes my head confused with thoughts of loving you.dont break this promise, this promise of us.the sky glitters red under this thursday moon and it's beautiful, but not as beautiful as you so here's the last line, of this tragic poem...about aboy who fell for a girl who noticed her blue eyes in a movie theater....no rose could compare.
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[29 Mar 2005|04:06pm] |
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your face sparkles in the sun, like the moonlight gliters on my pool, i want to call you all the time, baby i wanta call you mine.from the bottom of the deepest heart, i'll love you forever, from the bottom of my broken heart i think you can mend it together i love you. (thats the chorus) your face, so elegant, your smile, burns a whole in my heart..your blue eyes light up my sky without them iti 'd be dark and cold...so lonley tonight..
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[29 Mar 2005|04:03pm] |
Dear *the one who holds my hear*
Im writing this to you because I wanna tell you every thing I feel..I dont want to have any secrets from you. When I first talked to you, you just seemed oh so perfect. The day you called me up at the mall and asked me where I was..seeing you was just better than I imagined..the way you looked just made speechless..We just talked for a few minutes than I had to go..that whole day I couldnt stop thinking about you..by the time I got home..you already left me messages saying how you loved seeing me and you want to hang out more. We went to the mall again this time for longer..being with you just felt so right..like noone could ever hurt me..because I had you by myside..I wanted to hold you forever and never let go..Everything seemed so perfect for that short time..yeah until you got a girlfriend..did you try and keep her a secret from me? you didnt even warn me..you didnt even tell me..until i finally asked you. You apoligized to me and said you were horrible..What makes you so horrible? the fact that you have a girl? Its not my life..i told you to live it how you wanted and who you wanted to be with..you told me im the one you wanted to be with..it just wouldnt work..why wouldnt it work? because you dont want to leave her..because your afraid that me and you wont work out? Theres some chances you take in life..maybe it all could have been a mistake..maybe meeting me could just all be one big disaster..but maybe i could be all you ever wanted..lifes all about taking chances.. you still write songs for me..saying Im the one for you..I told you I wanted you to mean them. You asked me 'why would I sit around for 4 hours and write songs about you if I didnt mean them?'..How can you mean what you say when you have a girlfriend..for all I know is you could be saying the same things to her. the difference is..you might actually mean them to her and she doesnt even know that you have a girl on the side..You cant have us both. I could be so happy right now..being with someone who really wants to be with me..but how can I be with him..when I still have hope in you? i have hope that maybe one day you'll relize that you cant have us both..and hopefully you'll choose me and if you dont..ill be giving up someone else..someone who I know I could be so happy with. I just cant do that you..because if you really do like me..I dont want you to have to go through what I went threw when you got a girlfriend..Maybe I should put you threw the pain..I just cant..but right now im hurting cam..its all the same situation..im being you..having two guys on the side..im just not dating him. I could never hurt cam the way your hurting her..its not fair to either of them..I guess im just really writing this..because I want to know..am i waiting for something that i dont have or never will..or do i have a purpose? sooner or later your ganna have to pick one of us..if you stay with your girlfriend..i mite be gone..by the time you break up..I just want you to know..that I will always love you..because you did something to me..you made me relize I had a purpose to live..because people out there love me..and one was you..does the love still remain..cuase if not..im trying to move on..not saying im ganna stop loving you..because i can guarentee i will always think about you..soo goodbye..mayb not for long..or maybe for too long..its your choice.< / 3
Love always,
*The hopeless one*
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[29 Mar 2005|03:58pm] |
I wanna feel our hearts beat as one..
Crash your hips into mine
I dont care about the pain.
Can you feel me shake?
Your hands so soft, caress my body
my mouth trembles as our lips touch
you pull away..and whisper "I Love You"
those 3 words mean so much
I wanna lay with you forever
cause at that moment it was only you and I..and nothing could come between..
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