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:: today was blah...i dont know nothing exciting happened like i dont know it just went by...nothing to good...yea tonites a football game im going i guess. Shane was suppose to call but i dont think he will probably to bust with jenna..watever... yea so me christy and martha are going and meetin donny and bradly there...yea...Tomorrows homecoming but of course no one aked me..haha yea figures...i dont know. i guess i dont really care...i want to go to Souths...but i dont think i can get a date... lol... yea last nite was like weird ...the buring of the Alta a woo hoo ..it was boring.then a guy got arrested for being drunk under-age and in public and "attempting" to cause havok weird... people get arrested for weird things here... yea and i dont know i went home and then a was talking to ricky and he said something and i didnt get it and i said "huh?" and hes like nothing forget and signed off... i was Alrighty then thats cool...i guess im just loosing him..?...but yea im writing a note to shiva because i feel like shes the only one who cares or like REALLY wants to talk to me...yea know like someone just IMed me for something they needed and when i said i didnt have it they stopped talking..i was like yea love u too.. but u know i guess im being selfish...but yea i dont knoe ive been really down lately...like i dont kno..wvwn people that barely know me ask me whats wrong... all i can say is nothing because really its everything and i know they dont have a whole day to listn to my problems...and i dont kno i dont feel comfortable talking about my problems really to anyone here...only shiva and shes in torrance....like shiva was the only one i could trust with all my problems because i knew she would tell me the truth... and not just say "yeaaa" or "awwwe" ya know... but shes not here and just thinking about me not being with here at lunch or me noth meeting her at my locker it just hurts so bad. like i dont know how to act... im like emotionless..im not myself i can tell that... i just dont have fun anymore. like last nite was suppose to be fun, but it wasent ..it would have been if shiva was there... but he wasent... and all i can think of is what if shiva was here or what would i be doing on a saturday nite...i dont know i should stop complaining i guess i feel like im wasting peoples time ... well i guess ill be going buh bye
if only i was with you, i'd hold you tight and never let you go
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