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[25 Nov 2003|08:36pm] :: it doesnt matter if your the high school prom queen, or the football quarter back ...or the ...biggest nerd in the school...you just have to find yourself, and hop you like it..and stick with it.:: *never been kissed* [excuse me while i fall apart]

[24 Nov 2003|10:18pm] i heart my boyfriend:) he went to a lame ass skool play with me just cuz i needed to go for theatre and he came with me :) and then jenny was suppos to drive me home but he did instead <33 and i fell asleep in his car...:) listening to the eagles and him rubbing my back<3 then i was locked outa my house so he stayed with me til i got my mom to open the door in 20 degree weather! god i didnt know i could be this happy in utah [excuse me while i fall apart]

[23 Nov 2003|10:42pm] BLINK 182 LYRICS "I'm Sorry" Don't bide your time 'Cause it is almost over And I know you're down And I'll see you around And I know it hurts But you're just getting older And I know you'll win You'll do it once again Just yesterday It always seemed like such a dream We're unstoppable, indestructable Nothing happens to our machine And there's no harm At least nothing I can see As for you, not so true You couldn't choose where his road would lead What a loss You just lost all your sleep And we've always thought That this could never happen, you see That it's so hard You gotta get up on your feet 'Cause the only way, I gotta say Is to move on through the week Don't bide your time 'Cause it is almost over And I know you're down And I'll see you around And I know it hurts But you're just getting older And I know you'll win You'll do it once again Sorry [x16] (Sorry...) Happened to you [x4] Don't bide your time 'Cause it is almost over And I know you're down And I'll see you around And I know it hurts But you're just getting older And I know you'll win You'll do it once again [excuse me while i fall apart]

[23 Nov 2003|10:36pm] fuck fuck fuck ER fuck....FUCK [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[:: it sucks i cant get you out of my mind::]] [23 Nov 2003|09:11pm] PLAIN WHITE T'S LYRICS "Behind" why can't you see? what you do to me? and why i can't let you go. but if you feel the same as me then, just let me know. but if you don't come you'll never see that you're part of me. and if you don't mind. you can leave me behind, i'll be back again, eventually. why cant you see? what you do to me that i can't let you go but if you feel the same as me then, just let me know. but if you don't come you'll never see that you're part of me. and if you don't mind. you can leave me behind, i'll be back again, eventually. but if you don't come you'll never see that you're part of me. and if you don't mind. you can leave me behind, i'll be back again, eventually. [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[:: i feel as if im looking down onto the stars instead of wishing on the from below::]] [21 Nov 2003|10:50pm] [ music | shadows like statues-matchbook romance ] [[ I.l.l..f.a.l.l..a.s.l.e.e.p..t.o.n.i.g.ht..c.u.z..t.h.a.t..b.r.i.n.g.s..m.e..c.l.o.s.e.r..t.o..y.o.u]] today was wonderfull lol... it gets better everyday when im with him. He makes me so happy, and when i dont see him i get *sad* hehe. i dont know i think its something in his eyes, neh...lol some guy named austin came up to me n him and was like "U CANT TAKE MY ZACK AWAY FROM ME I WONT LET YOU" :) o boy its overwellming. and now some matchbook...romance :)-Tiger lilly we drive tonight, and you are by my side. We're talking about our lives, like we've known each other forever. the time flies by, with the sound of your voice. its close to paradise, with the end surely near. if i could only stop the car and hold onto you, and never let go... i'll never let go. as we round the corner to your house you turned to me and said, "i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent." and, i want to speak these words but i guess i'll just bite my tongue, and accept "someday, somehow" as the words that we'll hang from. and i... don't want to speak these words. cause i, don't want to make things anyworse. why does tonite, have to end? why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts. we'll skip the goodbyes. if i had it my way, i'd turn the car around and runaway, just you and i. and i... don't want to speak these words. cause i, don't want to make things anyworse. 4[watched]| [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[::way away-yellowcard::]] [20 Nov 2003|09:26pm] I think I'm breaking out I'm going to leave you now Theres nothing for me here, it's all the same And even though I know That everything might go Go downhill from here, I'm not afraid Way away away from here I'll be Way away away so you can see How it feels to be alone and not believe (Feels to be alone and not believe) Feels to be alone and not believe anything You can't stop me now You can't hold me down You can't keep me here, I'm on my way I've made it this far now And I'm not burning out No matter what you say, I'm not afraid Way away away from here I'll be Way away away so you can see How it feels to be alone and not believe (Feels to be alone and not believe) Feels to be alone and not believe anything Letting out the noise inside of me (Letting out the noise inside of me) Every window pane is shattering (Every window pane is shattering) Cutting up my words before I speak (Cutting up my words) This is how it feels to not believe Letting out the noise inside of me (Letting out the noise inside of me) Every window pane is shattering (Every window pane is shattering) Cutting up my words before I speak (Cutting up my words) This is how it feels to not believe Way away away from here I'll be Way away away so you can see How it feels to be alone and not believe (feels to be alone and not believe) Feels to be alone and not believe anything [excuse me while i fall apart]

[20 Nov 2003|08:49pm] *Ill cry the prettiest stars and line them in the sky just to make your night a little brighter* by..ME hehe [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[:: what is this??::]] [20 Nov 2003|08:24pm] [ music | walk like an egyptian-bangles ] :: today is the HAPPIEST day OH MY! yup me n zack..are..together.. haha <33 ... o man...im so in lust! yupp hehe! ands he stayed with me during 8th period hehe since we had a sub yup and jon scott and dan came in and started skateboarding it was great! and then after skool we gave each other are buh bye kiss and then dave drove me n christy home... i dont think zack like dit but o wells...i lust him! o boy and on an other noteee if you ARE going to STEAL...the things in MY journal please TELL me ESPECIALLY if i dont KNOW YOU! havea lil consideration! RUDE... not to be a bitch...:: Buh bye ps... I LOVE SHIVA [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[:: kiss me tonite ill never forget::]] [19 Nov 2003|07:56pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | THE EFFIN O.C ] ::yesterday was so great.well i want to skool...yea sucked but after skool i went to the silence the fall show with zack and zain. We got there around uhhh... 7 but bradys band (slience the fall) started at like 630... but zain still wanted to stayso we did... zain went to watch the band but me n zain sat in the back...:) yea so then we had to help his friend call his friends that left him and zacks like ill just drive u home and the guy goes ur not gunna kiss n stuff r u lol ...so then the guys came and picked him up and me n zack went back and he held my hand :) and so we went back in and watched the other band then left around 830 cuz zain needed to be home at 9 and it was in downtown SLC.. so zain dropped me n zack at zacks house. it was freakin freezin so we cuddled under the blankets and then his mom came home so i met her :) shes nice but she askes a lot of questions and i thin zack was getting embarrased lol it was cute. So he started to drive me home and we were listening to some cool country music. lol anyways we got to my house and he walked me up to the door...and then he kissed me... o yea LIKE A MOVIE :)... im in lust ...hehe *blushes* well nitenite <33 WHAT ARE U DOING READING THIS!? THE EFFIN O.C IS ON GOOOO NOWWWWW!! 2[watched]| [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[::o sweet....::]] these thingys are addicting [17 Nov 2003|10:46pm] You, my friend, are a true emo kid. You don't like the word "emo" however. You like awesome music and you own to no end. Listen to Saetia. A True Test of your Emo Knowledge. brought to you by Quizilla [excuse me while i fall apart]

[17 Nov 2003|10:28pm] crowd surfing ::what would you most likely be doing at a show:: brought to you by Quizilla who spells rock rawk....honestly... [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[::do you know, do you know how much this hurts me?::]] [17 Nov 2003|10:12pm] [ music | harder they come-me first and the gimmie gimmies ] THE PRIZE FIGHT LYRICS "Summer of '98" Where are you now? Dissapeared somewhere. You're just a subtle thought behind my mind, you stay right here. Dreaming away. Am I someone remembered, nothing you forgot. The words you once defended, now it's what you're not. All your cliches and used up novelties, We'll dust off the old pictures and see if you believe. On the bed inside my room. The past, the peace is gone. It will never be again, from the mantle you sit on. Am I someone remembered, nothing you forgot. The words you once defended, now it's what you're not. All your cliches and used up novelties, We'll dust off the old pictures. Let's see if you believe. Do you believe what you can see? I gave up. There's nothing left to lose. There's nothing left to use of what I need from you. Gone for good, With no reason left to try. Gone for good, With no reason why. [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[::you dont know how it feels the warth of your smile...you just dont know::]] [17 Nov 2003|09:18pm] [ music | on my own-the used ] my shiva i love her with my heart n soul no replacement. she the one that when you look back on ur life and see the shittiest day that you've ever been through, the heartbreak the tears, the bad grades, the hurtfull words, the bad hair days, the bad clothes days, the stains on the new t shirt days, the wet from walking in the rain days, the days when ur sick, the embarrassing moments, the moments that you want to last forever, the great summer days, the lonely winter ones, the days when you just need someone...i look back, and i see her always no matter wat..face to face or spilling to her over the telephone, shes there its her... i love her so much, no one understands its like a connection we both have....we know... how it feels, what we feel we know it, we see the memories and know that NO ONE can take that away from us no one no matter how far apart we are, we are still the closest any 2 people have been shes my... my hero, shes the one i envy, just for being her...shes that little voice in your head that even though your having the worst day... its saying smile...you can do it... shes my soul hehe my flower :)... i love her shes my heart<33 MATCHBOOK ROMANCE LYRICS "Farewell To Friends" A pictures worth a thousand words But not worth the words I need to hear I miss you so much that it hurts And tonight, I wish you were here with me So I could make you see The stars, they lay across the sky so perfectly They remind me of All the times, when we used to sit underneath them, those summer nights And fall in love Its not alright, it's our last night together I won't give up, I can't let go, of you. I can't let go of you. And tonight, I close my eyes and dream that she is still the one, laying there beside me I'd walk a thousand miles I'd swim across the sea What do I have to do, please just tell me i love you :) <33 melia 2[watched]| [excuse me while i fall apart]

[17 Nov 2003|04:06pm] Life, is floating fast away. But I look, your head is turned away. From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right. But the feeling inside has kept me up all night. You and me are like one heart-beat. So slice open my veins. And let, the romance bleed away. Back into I thought I knew, these words inside me, tell me what to do. My heart held, in the palm of your hand. (Forget my name)Now I know, the way to go, this place inside my demented mind. (Forget my name)You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor. (Forget my name)This time in silence, this time I win. sense fail-bloody romance 1[watched]| [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[::build me a ocean and distroy it with your heart::]] [17 Nov 2003|02:51pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | 20 going on-tsunami bomb ] ::today was ok...it was an A day so i gott to go out to lunch with jenny marth christy and vince taco bell hehe so ya we had to run back to skool from this parking place aLLLLLL the way far away lol...and i was running with my barrito in my hand and brighton and brett walk out and start making fun of me lol...yea...so anyways today i onno like me n zack were walking to our class and zacks class comes first so he stopped then i was like making fun of him and he like had my arm and like we looked at each other for a long time...he has the prettiest green eyes ever i could stare in them for like ever :) and then in ceramics DJs like u and zack should hook up , not in a sexual way like...g/f n b/f...,i was i onno and hes like u guys should and i was like yea...and i guess i was smiling really big cuz hes like im gunna tell him "ya u guys should go out she likes you a lot"....i didnt even tell him...yea i was like ok u do that lol... so anyways ...DJs like yea hes really shy with girls...and im like he isnt to me...and hes like O REALLY :)...i took like 3 pictures of him acting like a retard lol... :) well this was a long entry about nothng jezuz!:: <33 [[:*: b.u.i.l.d..m.e..a..o.c.e.a.n..a.n.d..d.i.s.t.r.o.y..i.t..w.i.t.h..y.o.u.r..h.e.a.r.t:*:]] [excuse me while i fall apart]

[16 Nov 2003|11:59pm] i don't know how it feels?? you think you're the only person on earth who wakes up in the morning wishing there was someone else!?" Poison The Well -but a sample from something else [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[::the world spins but i, i stand still::]] [16 Nov 2003|11:43pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | thanks you're the best-starting line <3 ] :: tonite was good... i talked to shiva for 63 minutes :) its always great to hear her voice and her storys. i love her more than life itself, i think shes the only one...i think i can die happy knowing i was dieing for her...umm ok not to start freakin u out... so i called zack on friday, wasent home... so i called christy..wasent home then laura...yea u guessed it, i bet they all had caller i.d,ew melia... yea i know i know...so sadurday my mommie came back from her n ricks honeymoon... so i spent the day with her i *missed* her alot so today we went downtown...i was gunna call zack and see what he was up to but then i heard "wanna go to downtown" so i didnt. I love d/t so ...oldy looking haha... so we went to this cathridral...ENORMOUS.. i took some good pictures of the towers it had like gargoles... i thought they were only in cartoons lol it was so beautiful...then we headed off to einstiens and i got chia tea whenever i get that i think of sydney... "taste like christmas" then i remeber how joey said the same thing... making me think even tho were hondreds of miles away...they thought alike... it was weird..then we were driving and my sister asked if i liked the snow... i replied with ...it remindes me of a lonely heart,my mom looked at me as if i was crazy... but it does, a cold bitter lonely heart. When i wa sin the cathridral an old woman sat behing me...her hair was kinda dirty looking and her clothes were grungy and didnt match too well, i could tell she was either homeless...or poor but i looked at her face and i could tell that this woman had so many stories just by looking at her face... the wrinkles each one telling a thought or story. i wanted to take a picture of her but i thought it would be rude so i just took a mental picture...so now ima bout to go to sleep nitenite [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[::take me home::]] [14 Nov 2003|09:54pm] [ mood | artistic ] [ music | Everynights another story-early november ] Watching the days burning out like a cigarette, just a few drags to go. Built me up and broke me down somehow. Everything just seemed so clear to me, nothing left to know I'll love you right and I'll love you pure, right now How can you say, that it's too late To save us now And I would wait for you, if you would wait for me And I will wait for you, if you would wait for me Intoxicated the edge is serrated, so easily torn from the core I blushed the first time, but you blushed the last time my eyes in your mind regenerated these feelings of hatred, I long for your love evermore You built me up and you broke me down this time. cigerettes-yellowcard [excuse me while i fall apart]

[[::Yeah well maybe I hurt you sometimes but lets contrast and compare::]] [14 Nov 2003|04:25pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | set the stage-anatomy ] Never found our way out again cause to trace this blood trail is more than I can bear this is my spring I finally fixed the car floored out of here I’ll found out who my friends are the ones waiting tomorrow morning I pushed this away so hard this is my spring fixed the car today “I wish I were lighter, the weariness weighs too heavily on me.” This is my spring still cold enough for snow from planes tracing seams across the sky overhead seed the soil left to fallow for too long with pamphlets proclaiming “falls finally dead” the steering wheel never mine to turn now it turns on any tangent but around “that’s something you still have to learn” With the muffler my memory removed I’m spared the sound (so much like growing up falling becomes fallen and buried alive but buoyancy keeps it up survive, keeps it alive) birth of a mile-anatomy of a ghost [excuse me while i fall apart]

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