9:03AM - The boy
For one week, he doesn't exist. :-(
Current mood: 
crushed
crushedCurrent music: Imogen Heap- Hide and Seek
For one week, he doesn't exist. :-(
crushedWell i am finally feeling better today. I just got over bronchitis, I forgot what it was like to be that sick. I don't think I have been that sick since high school!
Well since I haven't written for a while, let me update you.
Still not dating anyone (but have slept around since then).
Got braces on my lower teeth.
Nails are long (because of the braces).
Broke (this is nothing new).
Still working for LSU AgCenter (ring ring...Burden Center, this is Celeste!)
Rachel moved out (moved in with soon to be fiance, Brandon) :-(
Sarah, my younger sister moved in with me (a.k.a. Sleepy dwarf from Snow White) :-(
Got a new Toyota Camry because the Saturn died (R.I.P.).
Got the big room with bathroom attached when Rach moved out (yeah!).
Graduating in May 2005 in Communication Studies.
That's all I can think of right now. Let me get back to work, I have a lot to catch up on.
Celly
blahI had a very good friend tell me last night that there are some people that are kind, but not sweet and then there are some that are sweet, but not kind. This friend told me that I was both. I appreciate that more than you know. Thank you.
Well I always felt alone, but now more than ever. Apparently, I live by myself now. So now I either hang out hmmmm by MYSELF or I might hang with Chris and Shelia. Oh well, just one more year of hell to endure, then I can do whatever I really want to do. When i figure that out, I will let you know. My main goal right now is getting my degree as quick and painless as possible. Spring 2005, here I come! The end is near, I can feel it!
I had this whole entry planned, but since I can't write worth a damn I just deleted it.
Maybe I will try again later.
crankyWomen are like apples on trees.The best ones are at the top of the tree.
Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy.......
So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
And... Men are like a fine wine. They start out as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.
Well I am now in my new apartment!!! One story, large kitchen, soon new sofa set, playground for molly to shit in, I LOVE IT!!!
Thank God for the help of family, otherwise we wouldn't have been able to move at all!!! Apparently, my friends were far too busy (shopping, drinking, fucking, etc.) to help me move. I will be sure to return the favor when they need my help. But YES MAAM, I am moved! I think the whole apartment complex thing will get old, but for now it's cool.
Oh, right about now, my little sister is getting a new car!! (Clearing throat) A BRAND NEW TOYOTA COROLLA! Well what can I say, she deserves it! (I mean she did have a real shitty Christmas, I mean all she got was a brand new Dell computer, 4 in one printer and a web cam.....how stingy! And at age 17, she got to go to North Carolina to see her boyfriend of a couple months. And not to mention how highly involved she is in school....I mean she is in the.....well the.......welll that club.....well not exactly........well at least she takes classes at school, that's involved enough. And it must be the excessive nap taking and the screaming, cursing, and slaming of doors. Yeah, that's it!) A new car for you!!!
But as my mom put it best....i'm just "jealous". Well I agree! I would like a new car also. There I said it!
Well enough of my jealous ranting.
Peace.
annoyedWell I am officially twenty five years old. (In case you didn't know, that is a quarter of a century) I had a really good wish when i blew out my candles, I just hope it comes true! (And no, I am not telling you what it is!)
I was way more depressed for my 24th B-day, I wonder what was up with that??? Anywho, I had a great night (not day, because I had two midterms.)
After my night class I drove back to my old, ghetto fabulous apartment where my mom, nanny, sister and roomy had thrown me a mini-surprise party...complete with cupcakes, choc chip cookie cake, balloons, roses, and pepto pink streamers! My mom gave me a cute baker's rack for the new place. Go mom! Later Christopher and Shelia came over as well.
My friends are taking me to Vincent's on Thursday night to eat out for my B-Day! How exciting!
Everytime I have a birthday, my dad's birthday is not too far behind and we are twenty years apart, so that means that my dad will be turning forty-five! I can't even believe that!!!!! That is just crazy!! Man, is he old or what!!?!??!?!?! LMAO!!
Well hopefully the next time I write on here, I will be living at 9771 and not 8178.
Peace!
Well I am moving in 5 short days!! I can't wait to have a new place to look at! I think I have been packing for 25 days now!!!!
Celly
Well it has been 3 whole days, going on 4!!! I am smoke-free!!! The first three days were hell, I really hope it gets better. I am only doing this because it is not good for your health, other than that...I like everything else about smoking.
I would like to send a shout out to my girl Rachel!!! She has been the MOST supportive of all of my friends through this very trying time. I love it how she threatens to open her biology and show me the good lung versus the bad lung! LMAO!!
Well back to the grind!
Celly
You know that little saying, "you have to give respect to get respect"....well I don't believe a fucking word of that shit. No matter how much respect you give someone, they are only going to do what they want anyway!
People are selfish...including myself, but damn you bitches are fucking selfish! Oh and you know that other saying, "give someone an inch and they will take a foot"....well that shit is TRUE!!
I am so frustrated, I don't want people to walk all over me (which happens all the time), BUT if I actually say something to stop the maddness, then I'm a BITCH! I don't fucking get it...I don't know what to fucking do anymore.
I keep telling myself that I need space, i need air, i need to just chill out, i need to calm the fuck down and focus, just do my own thing for bit.....but that is boring as hell! Then what happens is I sit at home and find another fucking reality show to get obsessed with!
I am so frustrated that I want to pull my fucking hair out. I can't talk to my friends about this because more than likely it will end up in an argument. I get into enough arguments, I don't need them with the people I care most about.
What happens when you want to bring up issues with people that you KNOW won't understand anything you are saying. I am not good at arguing my case and point with someone other then my parents. I can fucking scream and say anything to my parents and i KNOW that we will work things out and move on and we will still love eachother, maybe even a little more!
I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW...I FUCKING KNOW that the biggest part of the problem is ME not saying anything and just letting the time pass by, letting things build up and swallowing all I can. I KNOW THIS, but how can I stop?
hmmm maybe I will just bring up the problem when it arises?????
do you think that would fucking help?
Yes, i do.
Well thanks for that genius fucking advice.
No fucking problem.
boredWell I am finally moving out of the ghetto. Praise the Lord!
excitedYou know how when you have so much shit going bad in your life....that it just doesn't bother you anymore???? It almost becomes normal. Well that's me.
I am trying to fix my whole debt situation....might be over soon (cross fingers). I will still have student loans to pay back, but with an extreme low interest rate....did i mention that I will be paying that off over 10 years....yes TEN YEARS!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Oh well, I will feel better knowing that I have no more credit card debt.....whoever made credit cards was a retarded genius!
Peace.
Yes dad, i know i'm Fat! Thanks for telling yet again.
boredI hate it when two people that I absolutely love are fighting...it's like when your mom and dad fight, there is just something bad in the air and nothing goes back to normal until things are resolved. I can only hope that things are resolved quickly....as in before the new year and hmmmm let me see...it's New Year's Eve Eve.
I love both of my friends dearly and could not have made it this far without them.....or at least the ride would not have been so fun! (Giggles.....You have the right to remain silent...)
My heart can't help but go out when someone's feelings are hurt...I just feel awful inside when I know that someone I love is hurting. I just think about when my feelings are hurt, how I desperately want someone to know exactly what I am going through so that I know that I am not the only person in the world feeling the way that I do. It keeps you feeling normal.
I only have a handful of friends, but I love them like I would if I had a million more. You fight with your mom, dad, sister, brother, boyfriend, girlfriend, boss, co-worker, dog, the bitches in front of you that just drive too damn slow, the bitches at Wendy's when they ask you to back up and pull up to the window again, all the bitches leaving the church parking lot at once that insist on stopping traffice for two hours....but not your friends. Your friends are the ones that you go to when you need to talk about the above mentioned. I understand that sometimes friends may get into little arguments, but agreeing to disagree is a nice way to go sometimes.
I am not looking forward to the new year...2004! I mean damn...the years are just sailing by. This year I am going to be 25....twenty-five....two and a half DECADES......that is half of FIFTY for sobbing out loud!!!! Anyway, things right now are not looking too good for a new, fresh start.
I fucking hope that someone proves me wrong.
Celly
P.S. I am depressed, I need therapy.
sadOk so I am obssessed with a TV show.....
Admitting that you have a problem is a first step!!!
I am totally obssessed with the OC! I haven't missed an episode and I get pissed when it doesn't air (like due to the billboards awards or something of the sort).
A nice present would be the first season of the OC on dvd...of course it won't come out for a few years probably, but still keep it in mind for next Christmas.
And I would like to thank my girl Shelia for recording it for me last night...much appreciation.
Ok, well I just wanted to admit that I had a problem publicly...maybe you can all help me deal with this situation, but I don't think so....I just love this very DRAMATIC show too much!
Celly
sleepyWhen am I going to be financially stable???
On the outside, everything looks great....I have a good job, I have weekends and holidays off, I accumulate leave and can take off (not all the time, but most of the time when I want), I am in school part time, I am about to get a raise and position increase....yadi yadi yadi
Let me tell you what comes out of my check before it even hits the bank.....TAXES FA DAYZZZZZ (Federal and State, which i calcutated to be 20% of my check), health insurance, retirement, some other bull shit fees for accidental stuff, school tuition, payment to capital one nazis, payment to radioshack nazis, and payment to my savings account (which I always end up transferring back to my checking account because I NEED that $30)......then finally after all that fucking shit, I receive via direct deposit CHUMP CHANGE!!!!
Then I use the CHUMP CHANGE to pay my rent, electricity, cell phone, house phone, cable, and misc. other bills. Then I still have to go grocery shopping for food so that I don't spend the negative money that I MIGHT still have on fast food.
Tis the season.....yeah right!!! I will have to stretch my budget thin thin to get my friends and family their gifts. And then sometimes you find out that a person you weren't planning on giving a present to is now getting you a present, well FUCK!!! then that changes everything and now that's another $15 or so that I will have to spend.
Don't get me wrong, I like buying presents and all that Christmas shit, but when you are broke and skating on thin ice like i am.....IT FUCKING SUCKS!!! I HATE CHRISTMAS!! AND IF I WALK INTO ANOTHER PLACE THAT IS PLAYING CHRISTMAS MUSIC ALL LOUD AND SHIT, I WILL HOLD THE STORE UP HOSTAGE AND ROB THEIR CASH REGISTERS!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU FUCKING BUNCH OF BITCHES!!!!!!!!!
OHHHHHHHHHH AND IF I SEE ANOTHER 1982 PLASTIC SANTA AND REINDEER SET ON THE ROOF, BABY JESUS NATIVITY SET ON THE FRONT LAWN, CANDY CANE DRIVEWAY LINED, CHRISTMAS TREE IN WINDOW, ICICLE ROOF LINED, CHEESY ASS COLOR LIGHTS ALL OVER THE FUCKING LAWN HOUSE...I WILL RAM MY CAR INTO THEIR FRONT DOOR!
Damn, I didn't think it was bothering me that much until now. Anway, have a merry christmas!
Celly
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