01:35am 23/04/2004
mood: sad
Ok, so I told her. Things are just gonna get worse, now.... u_u dont wanna lose my sissie.... ='(
03:51pm 20/04/2004
mood: tired

I dunno if I wanna go back to my Culinary class. =/ According to Sara, to all the people there I'm just a "forgotten soul". So in other words, no one misses me, cares about me, or even remembers my name. I know school isn't for making friends, but for learning, However, friends make the schooling experience that much easier. Without them, it can be hell. So, I'm not so sure I want to go back, if I'm going to be a stranger to the few people I was able to call "friends".

On a different subject, I'm worried that my sis doesn't want to be cliose to me anymore. It feels like she's distancing herself from me, and like she's putting up some sort of barrier to keep me from getting too close. Recently, I posted an entry to her on my deadjournal, asking how close she feels we are. She hasn't responded yet.... but I'm not suprised. She never really responds to my posts anymore, nor does she write back to e-mails. I want to write her a letter, however, I'm certian I won't get a response. I know she's always busy with her job and offline life, and that's why I don't hold any of these things agianst her, but I won't say it doesn't make me feel sort of... well... forgotten. I know she tries, though, and I guess that's what counts. I'm just scared of losing her care and love, because she's really the only caring family I have left. I love her so much, and I don't wanna lose her. Even though she tells me she still loves me and everything, I can't help but feel that I'm driving her away.... We shall see how it all plays out. I just pray to the Gods that I don't lose her.

Sara had to go to Joanna's house for the remainder of the week. This is because her father had to go out of town to go to a business meeting, of sorts. She had asked if she could stay here while he was away, but alas, he said no. Neither of us were surpised by his response, though we couldn't see why she couldn't stay at her own house for his absense. Instead, she's stuck at Joanna's house, with her ex-best friend Mara (thats her name, yes?) I feel bad for her, because her situation resembles that of mine when I was in foster care. Joanna, try to make her feel welcome, won't you? Please try to make her stay at your home as comfortalbe as possible....

Anyway, I've got some other not-so-pressing issues to tend to (sleep lol) I'm off.
First entry in my first blurty.   
03:06pm 19/04/2004
mood: bored
Hi. n_n

Yeah, I got bored, and made a blurty. Though my DJ is my default journal, this is my second...so.... yah.

Blurty is wierd. >_< They don't have many mood icons, and sicne I have a free account, I can't create a style. Lame. e_e So, deadjournal is better. Hah.

Well, I guess that's it. Byes.


I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then, I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

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