maestra's Blurty

I'm in Love(it's the real thing)
It's almost one in the morning...just finished cooking for our Father's day luncheon tomorrow in church. I'm kinda tired and my mind is kinda hazy right now...I would like to apologize in advance since this entry may sound incoherent and disturbing (bad combination...hehe)

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

Right now I'm listening to "Wherever You Will Go" by The Calling...lately it has been one of my favorite songs...never really liked it before but I guess it grew on me. Why do I like it??? Disclosing the reason is kinda difficult...been hiding this inside myself for the past weeks for fear of what other people may think of me after they discover this secret that I've been hiding. I think I'm falling in love with this guy...I'm not supposed to feel this way about him, but I do. I'm actually hoping this is just a phase and that eventually I'd forget about him but part of me doesn't want that to happen so instead of stepping back I move forward...pursuing him. I believe he likes me too...that's something big for me...it's seldom that guys actually find anything attractive in me but whenever I see him looking at me I know that he likes what he sees. I don't know...I guess it may just be my imagination. Well I can't do anything about this anyway...I know this'll just die down...he'll eventually forget about me and hope the same thing for myself. I know I'll live my life forever guessing what couldn't have had happened if our circumstances were different...*sighs*...you know I'd give anything to just get the chance to tell him I love him but that won't happen...it'll be too complicated...I'd get in BIG TROUBLE:( Well at least I got to know him even for just a period of time...at least I got love him even if it was just from afar*sighs* I'll be saying goodbye to him soon:(

MAN I NEED A LIFE!!!

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Where You Will Go by The Calling