maestra's Blurty

Someone To Watch Over Me
The other day I decided to face my monster but it seems like my monster has been evading me. I haven't seen my dad...he hasn't expressed his desire to talk to me...instead they tell me that his woman..."my godmother" sent me 600 dollars...are they bribing me to keep quiet??? The money's supposed to be for my trip to australia on July...which by the way won't be pushing through cause I'll never accept anything from that woman.

I'm sooooooooooo tired. Emotionally I'm drained to nothingness. I desperately need a rest. One thing that struck me about my conversation with my boss yesterday was when she told me that she's willing to give me sometime off because I should take care of myself...she told me that there's no one else who'll do that job for me...not my mom...especially not my dad...I'm actually on my own. I've never really thought of this seriously...I've always believed that I'll always have my family with me but at times like this you realize that you're really on your own...no one can shelter you from the strong blows of life. Something inside me wishes this is not true...somewhere inside me is this hope...hope of someday finding that someone who'll take care of me. It's really unfair if God designed me to be alone...He knows how frail I am...He knows I need someone:( I know this sounds pathetic...people have always said that we can be complete on our own...I don't believe in that...I know I need someone and I pray that God would send that someone soon

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