theeere fooooor me....
so, what have i been up to?
i broke it off with mike. i had to. i still care about him so m uch, but he just wasn't right for me. well, maybe he was... but it's the fact that he is so young, and i want what a 19 year old can't give me. especially a 19 year old doing the 9 hours a day at school thing, followed by the 8 hours at work thing. plus he needs his sleep too... and i just couldn't cause anymore stress to this poor kid.
i think i regret it, but thats only because i am feeling a little lonely. a lot of lonely, and i know i shouldn't. i have josh, who is so utterly amazing in every aspect... and then there is jaime... who i love dearly...
sheesh. i wish life was a little easier. but then again, life is supposed to be full of obstacles right? thats what makes us human. i want ot see a movie tonight. anyone with me?
preferrably ELF at the cheap theatre. just because it is set in NY. and i am a fan.
i miss josh.
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