| Thursday, March 10th, 2005 |
| 10:59 am |
When the bell rings
In 25 minutes the bell will ring and this hour will be over with. Kids will be in the hallway. But in 25 minutes I will see the guy I like. I wonder if he likes me. My friends say they think he does but how can I be sure if he never says anything. His eyes are the most loving things I had ever seen in my life. The only problem is that he hangs out with people I used to hang out with and do bad things. so I know if we ever dated I would probably get back into all of it again. I used to be a horrible person and I did things that I can't even believe I did. And if he finds out he will think something else of me and thats the last thing I want. I guess only time will tell what happens between us.
Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: Simple Plan (Perfect) |
| 10:31 am |
Bordom dum...dum...dum
I am so happy that the weekwnd is almost here. I am going ice skating with my best friend ever in the world and shopping at the mall. We are gonna have a blast. We love ice skating and its so fun when we are together because all we do is laugh and act really dumb and retarted. okay maybe not the last part. But we love haging out together. we both go to different schools so its hard to talk a lot with all the work we both get. Just 2 more days till we see eachother. |
| Wednesday, March 9th, 2005 |
| 9:27 am |
A song I like
Wish someone would tell me when i won't think of you again
I'll get past the emptyness and let a little happiness back in
Pretending not to care leads me half way there
One of these one of these days I'll be completley over you heaven knos how long it will take and one of these one of these days I'll find somebody who'll love your memory away One of these days
Ever since you've been gone time has a way of dragging on and on
Friends drop by to comfort me but
I'm not much company for long.
Oh I'll get past what was
If I live long enough
One of these one of these days I'll be completley over you heaven knos how long it will take and one of these one of these days I'll find somebody who'll love your memory away One of these days
That is by LeeAnn Rimes. I love that song cause in a way it helps me to understand how I feel about some situations. I can't believe I know it by heart though. Oh well. Well, Thats all I have to say right now so yeah. |
| 9:27 am |
I am so ahppy I can actually post on here. My other journal for this is under silly_sandy. It has a lot more about me and what I like and stuff. I hope I can make friends on here. |
| 9:11 am |
Poem
OMI (Grandma)
I remember having fun
Laughing until my side hurt
It was fun in the sun
But I was not alert
I came home with a smile
My life was going to change
I was far by miles
But I switched into the wrong lane
My mother looked sad
My father looked worried
I was getting mad
My omi had passed
The words struck me like a bullet
Why did this happen
I didn't understand it
My lips started to chappen
I sat there with tears
Thinking why now
This was my worst fear
Was it my fault some how
I was lauging with friends
Away from my sick omi
I didn't know it would end
I wish nobody told me
I should have felt it right away
But I couldn't sleep at night
Why did it happen that sunny day
My mom said it would be alright
The time came to burry her
I left that place
I had lost my omi forever
She was no where to trace
I used her as an excuse
Nobody seemed to care
I wouldn't drink my apple juice
I would just stare
In a way I felt it was my fault
For not being by her side
I was 8, not an adult
I wanted to hide
I remember my last words to her
They will never be forgotten
The way she looked laying there
English words out of her mouth weren't coming
I was scared to see her face
It looked to pale
I didn't like that place
My life went stale
I had to go play
Have fun outside
It had to be my way
But I lied
I miss her so much
I want her here
Those days she fed me lunch
Those days are now clear
She cared about her grandkids
and she loved me
she always closed the butter lids
I love and miss my omi |