Blurty for Sam.
|Sunday, January 4th, 2004|
Its been a longg great vacation =). The parents come home tomorrow dammit. Its been so much fun and we def made some memorys that i will never forget =) and some that were so good I cant even remeber. <3333 I had so much funnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont even kno what more to say...Heres some highlights =p
+Friday night haha went out with good intions but lau had to go home on account of being extremly drunk and crying. Luv ya tho
+For the next few days hung round the neiborhodd considering some ppl were locked up lol<333
+Christmas eve went to Aunt Dees.
+Christmas day went to Aunt Geris. Wow big fight wit the mom and the aunt haha. ITs all good now tho.
+Sunday was the 1st night eveyone was alloud out but we didnt go out chilled here and it was the 1s night the prents were away but we were good =p.
+Tue was planned to be girls night. But turened out being girls adn guys night with island trees. HAH but its all good it was maddd funnn. Even tho my bros werent very happy with me it was well worth it. Def the best night of the vacation. And took some funny pics!! http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?p=6&uid=1770685& <333
+Wed New years =\ Hadda go to my aunts considering my parents didnt trust me and thought i was gonna throw a party. HHAHA Prob would have tho. Lau KT and John came to vist me at like 2am tho and it made my night. Thanks guys. 1433
+Thursday Went to Wills. Got very trashed to make up for missing new years. Dont really know what happend but it was funnnn. Had some madd bed spins tho ughh lol
+Friday Went to wills again lol. Sober night tho. Watched movies while ppl made me feel like and idiot with the god damm chair. HAHA i really thought i was physically retarded!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAHA not cool.
+Sat Last night of vacation =(. Went to wills again cause my bros wouldnt let me have people over. Got alil buzzed chilled wit some cool ppl <33 We always have funn A good way to end the vacation. Love you alll <33333
Now here i sit sunday. Its like 4 and im still in my pjs and need to get to king kullen to recycle some bottles for the other night b4 the parents get home and see them lol. It was such a great vacation. =)
Peace out hommies
01. Full Birth Name: Samantha Ann DeLucca
02. Hair Colour: light brown/redish??
03. Eye Color: Brown
04. Height Currently: 5'5 i believe
05. Glasses/contacts: yea colors =p
06. Birthdate: 9.20.88
07. Star Sign: Virgo
08. Current Age: 15
09. Siblings: 2bro
10. Siblings Age: 23 and 21
11. Location: Wantagh
12. College Plans: Cortland hopefully
13. Any Piercings: ears
01. Best Friend: I have 4. :)
02. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: :( nopeee
03. Current Crush: =)
04. Hobbies: Dance mofo
07. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: None at the moment
08. Are You Timely Or Always Late: Depends if i wanna go
09. Do You Have A Job: Nope but i think i should get one
10. Do You Like Being Around People: Yessss
01. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: Yep =\
02. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: Yea :(
03. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: The kind i cant get. Im a creature of habbit
04. Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: =\
05. Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: Humm not that i can recall
06. Are You Lonely Right Now: I guess you can say that
07. Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: I try to be optistmic
08. Do You Want To Get Married: Absolutley
09. Do You Want Kids: 2 or 3
01. Room In house: My basement =)
02. Type of music: All kinds
03. Song: Humm...Yellowcard-Back home
04. Memory: The other nigth =) fun fun
05. Day Of The Week: Friday hommie
06. Colour: Peach
07. Perfume Or Cologne: Escada-Ibzza Hippie
08. Flower: lilly
09. Month: July. Two words...summer time =)
10. Season: Summer
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
01. Cried: Nope
02. Bought Something: Yess beer haha
03. Gotten Sick: Nope
04. Sang: Yep right now
05. Said I Love You: Yea
06. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: =\
07. Met Someone New: Yeaa
08. Moved On: =\
09. Talked To Someone: Yeppp
10. Had A Serious Talk: Humm maybe
11. Missed Someone: idk
12. Hugged Someone: Yea
13. Kissed Someone: Nope
14. Fought With Your Parents: Nope theyve been away :)
15. Dreamt About Someone You Can't Be With: idk i dont remeber my dreams
16. Had a lot of sleep: yepppp
|Sunday, December 14th, 2003|
xXx disney movie = Lion king i cry every time!!!!!!
xXx perfume/cologne = Escada
xXx word = Cheesemo
xXx nickname= Sam, Samyd haha
xXx guy name = Jayson
xXx girl name = Kim
xXx eye color = Light green
xXx flower = Lilly
xXx piercing = Idk ears
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
xXx pretty = not at all
xXx funny = I love making people laugh!
xXx hot = not at all
xXx friendly = yeaaa im a nice person lol
xXx amusing = Yea i have my comments lol
xXx ugly = yeppp sonn
xXx loveable = idk...do you love me?
xXx pessimistic = noppee i try to be happy
xXx optimistic = yesssss
xXx caring = yeaa...lol poor walter is never gonna have a wife LOL
xXx sweet = when i wanna be
xXx dorky = haha in my own ways
xXx Spell your first name back wards = ahtnamas
xXx The story behind your user name = Nope only my spanish teacher called me it last year
xXx Where do you live?= Wantagh
xXx 4 words that sum you up = Dumb happy funny nice
DESCRIBE YOUR -
xXx Wallet = a coach whristlet
xXx Hairbrush = black and green kinda squareish
xXx Toothbrush = blue and white
xXx Jewelry worn daily = neclace braclete and ring
xXx Pillow cover = umm yellow?
xXx Blanket= yellow and melon
xXx Coffee cup = a huge ass mug i got 4years ago at the outlets
xXx Sunglasses = idk small ones form oldnavey
xXx Underwear = i have more then one pair lol
xXx Shoes = a whole bunch sneakers mostly
xXx Handbag = coach kate spande and soon a fendi<333333
xXx Favorite top = My black sweater from Nycomapany
xXx CD in stereo right now = none i use gehtto launch cast
xXx What you are wearing now = cut sweatpants and a old tshirt
xXx Hair = down and a big poof
xXx Make up = none woke up alittle while ago
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) -
xXx In my mouth = nuttin
xXx In my head = stare stright into the sun---thrice
xXx Wishing = it would stop snowing
xXx After this = shower prob
xXx Talking to = no one i need all my attention on this cause im retarded lol
xXx Eating = nothing
xXx Fetishes = ?
xXx If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason? = haha i shouldnt say...
xXx Person you wish you could see right now = :( i kno who it is u prob do 2 lol
xXx Is next to you= a pen lol
xXxSomething you're looking forward to in this up coming month = christmas<3333
xXx Something that you are deathly afraid of? = heights
xXx Do you like candles = yeppp
xXx Do you like hot wax = when its used for removing hair lol
xXx Do you like incense = yeaaa
xXx Do you like the taste of blood = nope and i hope you dont eaither
xXx Do you believe in love = yea
xXx Do you believe in soul mate = yea
xXx Do you believe in love at first sight = nope
xXx Do you believe in forgiveness = yeaa eveyone makes mistakes were only human
xXx What do you want done with your body when you die = idk
xXx Who is your worst enemy? = no one
xXx If you could have any animal for a pet = a baby monkey
xXx What is the latest you've ever stayed up = haha like 6am wit lauren
xXx Ever been to Belgium?= no
xXx Can you eat with chopsticks?= yeaaa maria letos sweet 16 lol
xXx What's your favorite coin? = quater
xXx What are some of your favorite pig out foods? = chips
xXx whats something that you wish people would understand? = im a confusing person
xXx What's something you wish you could understand better? = boys
xXx Something you want to make happen for tomorrow? = No school so this snow goes to good use lol
xXx Favorite Movies? = Vagas Vacation, center stage, Tommy boy<3 Black sheep
|Saturday, December 13th, 2003|
You see the world in bright pink. The world is a
happy, happy place! You love all people and
things!! Life is great! You're just like a
happy child. Spread the cheer.
What color do you see the world in?
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Got the islanders game soon should be fun. Idk what were doin afta,
Last night was good. Could have been betta. I was still trashed off my ass!!! So it was a pretty good night.:)
|Sunday, November 30th, 2003|
Well not alot has changed since the last time. My grandpa is getting much better he came to thanksgiving for a few hours but then he is still kind of weak so he left kind of early. My grandma on the other hand went for a catscan and it showed that she has empizema and a spot on her lung. They dont know what the spot is yet she has to go for another test to find out. Who knows if she will go :-/ but she didnt show up to Thanksgiving she said she was "to weak".
Things wit friends are well....um....confusing. Over all they are better then they were. We are finding ways to work around things. So its all good in the hood.
Friday--Sat in my house almost the entire day. Then around 7:30 Will came ova from Kts and then Alis dad came to pick us up. We got droped off at Krystals then walked to Wills, Then John Giannie and Scott came. We went ova to the pre school and chilled there. It was raining so we were all in the little houses pretty funny. We went back to Wills then hadda get picked up around 11.
Sat night we were going to go to Wills but then plans got all messed up. Kt and Ali dont get along so we werent gonna go, but then Kt said she wasent gonna go so me and Lau were gonna get a ride. But then last min Kt and John wanted to come. So then when we called Ali they said it was to many people or somthing idk. We ended up driving around all night with John, Tom, James and Steveo. I miss old times with them. When eveyone got along better then we do now. Oh well :(. But its all good in the hood hommie.
My parents have a wedding to go to Friday night :) Yayness!!!
Ight time to go xoxox
<333 Someone new <333
|Monday, November 17th, 2003|
I really have no idea how much longer i can hold all this shit in. Me and my mom were screaming at eachotha for a good hr today. She thinks so much shit of me. I dont understand how eveyone else can just move on and im stuck here with and alocholi phyco mother and NONE OF YOU HAVE ANY IDEA. This is such bullshit.
My mom had to take my grandma for tests today. Yea well shes not healthy at all. If she dont get help soon shes gonna heal over and die. They say she is and anorexic. Yea shes starving herslef. She dont eat and she dont drink. All she does is siti in her house and smoke. My grand pa is out of the hospital thankfully but hes not healty eaither. He has a bag attatched to his leg. Yea a bag and thats how he goes to that batroom. And to top it all off now my life is messed up. I have to be home at 11. And im not alloud to hang out wit one of my best friends in the world. Thanks alot. Im not looking for pitty. But i should have never had to see my mom break down and go hysterically crying. So yea my life is pretty messed up. And i cant talk to anyone. No one knows. Fuck whats even the point anymore. Me and my mom were screaming at eachotha for a good hr. i awlays told u guys there are resons why i dont tell my mom anything. Yea cause she takes things to heart. I was gonna tell her the story but what ali does is ali businees and now the whole world knows. What the fuck. I just wanna scream i wanna move away. I cant take this shit. I dont understand what is going on. How can eveything be fine one day and eveything fall on you the next.
No one knows
No one cares
You have no idea how much this fucked my life up.
Maybe im a little bit of an extremest but what the fuck is there to be happy about right now.
I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN HOLD EVEYTHING IN.
|Sunday, November 16th, 2003|
If i feel liked this i could only immage what is going through ur head. This isent how things were sposeto happen. I wasent planning on telling my mom anything. She got a phone call and then called. I was asleep while all this was going on. Its so messed up the way things work out. Im so blank yet so filled with emotions. I wasent even going to tell my mom. But now im never alloud to chill witht you again and i have no idea what to do. Im so torn and confused. It all feels so unreal i dont know what to do or think or even what i was thinking all i kno is krystal went away and so did u so i was alone called up people to pick me up and it eneded up being loretta and all this shit now. I have no words.
Honestly What The Fuck.
Someone shake me cause im living a nightmare.
|Sunday, October 26th, 2003|
Hey for all you cheesemos that dont log in..If your a friend of mine log in and read my previous post ((if you wanna haha)).
And for all you fagmos that have no life and read my blurty.
Fuck off thanks.
|Monday, October 13th, 2003|
Im ova him....
The picture is retired to the memory box....
Wow this weekend was really good!!! I wasent expecting to say that lol. Humm...Well friday night we went to the Farmingdale Fair it was good :). A new place new ppl hung wit joc and ppl they were cool it was a fun night. Sat didnt go accoring to plans...Didnt get a chance to drink wit Steve Donovan But its all good. Me Lauren and Michele went to Lowes and the Lauren had to go home cause she was having some problems. So them me and Michele chilled in wendys for like 2hrs just talking bout alot of things it was funnn. Then we walked ova to cold stone met up wit Brian Shubba and a whole bunch of ppl from our school. Then on Sunday we were at lowes again ((HAHA big suprize right)) But its all good cause Krystal Ann Smith is the funnniest girl of my life <333 I love you so much. She def kept the night goin. Okay well 1st there was a rolling chair in the side walk and she went to go jump on it and we all thought she was just gonna like roll...BUT when she jumped on it the chair flipped backwards!!!! OMG SO FUCKING HYSTERICAL....We all almost peeed. So afta that we need to find a place to pee and since the night before Krystal yelled out the window to the guy that worked at McDondals that he was cute she didnt wanna see him so we walked all the way to Taco Bell. While she was in the bathroom she just screamed out of no where so Me and Lau ran out and hid from her and when she got out of the bathromm she was looking all over AGAIN TOOO FUNNY!!! Ight and then the thing that completed the night....When we were walking back to Lowes there was these guys across the street and there was like a hill sorta by Target so she went to wave hi to them but when she was she threw herself down the hill! Omg omg KRYSAL I LOVE YOU!!!!
Today was okay. I stayed home all day and just chilled. Naped alot. Then i read a whole bunch and FINALLY did my reading logs cause i realized if i dont do them i gonna fail english and that wont be cool. So yea. Then im hea now and im prob gonna go read more cause im really into the book. Ha me into a book its like an oxymoron. This week is spirt week! HAHA i cant wait to dress like a cheesemo! Funnnnnnn. Then hoemcomming this weekned! Im so fucking exictied! Fuck Yea hommie. Well im gonna go xoxo peace out...Much love
Yea im to lazy to spell check...Sry Lau i kno that bothers u haha.
|Monday, October 6th, 2003|
[ .001. ] first name: Samantha
[ .002. ] middle name: Ann
[ .003. ] last name: DeLucca
[ .004. ] nickname(s): Sam, Sammyd, Samantha Jones
[ .005. ] gender: Girl
[ .006. ] age: 15
[ .007. ] birthday: September 20, 1988
[ .008. ] height: 5'5
[ .009. ] hair color: Light Brown...Blonde...Red ((CONFUSED!!!))
[ .010. ] eye color: Brown
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: Yepppp Colored ones
[ .013. ] do you have braces: Nopee got them off a long time ago
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: In the middle
[ .015. ] where were you born: Bethpage Long Island
[ .016. ] current location: Long Island
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: Virgo
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know: English...Spanish ((i take it but i dont kno it to well lol))
[ .019. ] nationality: Italian and German
[ .020. ] bad habits: Nail biteing
[ .021. ] piercings you have: 2 on each ear
[ .022. ] piercings you want: Tounge
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: none
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: Ballate shoes on my back
[ .025. ] today's date: Oct. 6th
[ .026. ] the time: ummm 5:25pm
[ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions: Im gamee....
. : School : .
[ .028. ] are you still in school: yeppp
[ .029. ] did you drop out: Nope dont plan to
[ .030. ] current gpa, or last gpa you got: humm.....i get numbers 80 lol
[ .031. ] favorite grade: 88
[ .032. ] least favorite grade: 55
[ .033. ] favorite teacher: Mrs. Tuttle
[ .034. ] least favorite teacher: Fucking Miss Ratagan ((this lady should kill herself!!!))
[ .035. ] favorite subject: Social studies
[ .036. ] least favorite subject: English cause of my dumbass teacher
[ .037. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: Buy lunch
[ .038. ] play any sports on the school's team: Kickline
[ .039. ] do/did you do any extracurricular ativities: DANCE!!!!
[ .040. ] got friends: Yeppp
[ .041. ] favorite dance: humm....
[ .042. ] favorite memory: My pants riping
[ .043. ] least favorite dance: hmm dont have many
[ .044. ] least favorite memory: oh yeaa not gonna mention it!!
[ .045. ] most humiliating moment: HAHAHA WHEN MY PANTS RIPED!
. : Favorites : .
[ .046. ] number: 78
[ .047. ] clothing brand: abercrombie- and american Eagel
[ .048. ] shoes: humm flip flops lol
[ .049. ] saying: Fagmo...Cheese Mo lol
[ .050. ] tv show: DAWSONS CREEK!! Yepp im a cheese mo
[ .051. ] sport to watch: FOOTBALL!!!!!
[ .052. ] vegetable: Yuck....
[ .053. ] fruit: Bannans...Yummmm
[ .054. ] movie: Tommy Boy!
[ .055. ] magazine: Teen idk...
[ .056. ] actor: CHRIS FARLEY
[ .057. ] actress: hum...Katie Homes i guess
[ .058. ] candy: chocolate
[ .059. ] gum: Winter Fresh
[ .060. ] scent: ESCADA...Ibiza Hippie
[ .061. ] candy bar: Chucky
[ .062. ] ice cream flavor: Choclate but ill always have a soft spot for cakebatter...
[ .063. ] color: Peach and Yellow
[ .064. ] season: Summer and Fall
[ .065. ] holiday: Christmass
[ .066. ] band: brandnew-
[ .067. ] singer: Yea idkk....
[ .068. ] group: are there even any left...haha
[ .069. ] rapper: Snoop Dog lol
[ .070. ] type of music: Anything on the raido
[ .071. ] thing in your room: My make-up mirror hhahah and my bed..
[ .072. ] place to be: Anywhere wit my friends <33333 Almost always Lowes...Were attempting to look for a new place haha
[ .073. ] radio station: z100
[ .074. ] tv channel: Tbs Supersation haha
[ .075. ] junk food: hum...All of it hahah
[ .076. ] overall food: French Fries
[ .077. ] store: Abercrombie
[ .078. ] shoe brand: Humm......Old navy Flip flops hahah
[ .079. ] fast food: McDonadals
[ .080. ] restaurant: omg Trssoros!
[ .081. ] shape: Heart
[ .082. ] time of day: Night time!
[ .083. ] country: Italy
[ .084. ] state: New York!!!
[ .085. ] boys name: Jason or Rob
[ .086. ] girls name: Kimberley or Estella ((haha dont ask))
[ .087. ] video game: Not very good at video games...
[ .088. ] shampoo: Garnie Frutise HAHA CANT SPELL
[ .089. ] board game: Clue
[ .090. ] computer game: The sims idk...
[ .091. ] car: a BUG CONVERTABLE
[ .092. ] music video: Get low
[ .093. ] swear word: Dickwad
[ .094. ] word: Chessemo or Fagmo
[ .095. ] month: September
[ .096. ] cartoon character: Eor
[ .097. ] scary movie: The ring...
[ .098. ] team: hm Mac football! HAHA WERE AMAZING!
[ .099. ] possession: My Dawsons Creek 1st season on DVD hahah
. : What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear : .
[ .100. ] eminem: Dr. Dre
[ .101. ] dog: cats
[ .102. ] hot: stemy
[ .103. ] britney spears: Georgous NOT FAIR
[ .104. ] nsync: where did they go????
[ .105. ] real world: road rules is betta!
[ .106. ] orange: yumm...
[ .107. ] choice: You...
[ .108. ] fuck: shit
[ .109. ] bisexual: no thaxxx
[ .110. ] black: white
[ .111. ] icq: what the fuck?
[ .112. ] insane clown posse: scary
[ .113. ] linkin park: Dawsons creek?
[ .114. ] jack: the riper
[ .115. ] rainbow: pretty.
[ .116. ] cherry: check please
[ .117. ] cucumber: eyes
[ .118. ] shark: oh no!
[ .119. ] lifehouse: is that a band?
[ .120. ] bat: sleep
[ .121. ] leather: bag
[ .122. ] whip: me up some of that....
[ .123. ] america: Free
[ .124. ] water: summer
[ .125. ] volcano: Hawaii
. : This or that : .
[ .126. ] rock or rap: rap
[ .127. ] rock or pop: pop
[ .128. ] rock or r&b: r &b
[ .129. ] rock or metal: neither eww
[ .130. ] rap or pop: rap
[ .131. ] rap or r&b: rap
[ .132. ] rap or metal: rap
[ .133. ] pop or r&b: pop
[ .134. ] pop or metal: pop
[ .135. ] r&b or metal: r&b
[ .136. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: where did limp bizket go??
[ .137. ] tool or korn: korn
[ .138. ] selena or jennifer lopez: Jenny from the block
[ .139. ] hot or cold: cold
[ .140. ] winter or summer: winter
[ .141. ] spring or fall: spring
[ .142. ] shakira or britney: britney
[ .143. ] icp or eminem: emeinem
[ .144. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: kill urself.
[ .145. ] kittie or garbage: Huh?
[ .146. ] mtv or vh1: Mtv
[ .147. ] buffy or angel: Dawsons Creek
[ .148. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: DAWSONS CREEK!!!!!
[ .149. ] football or basketball: FOOTBALL SON
[ .150. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: Winter <3 Iceskateing
[ .151. ] skiing or snowboarding: Ski
[ .152. ] rollarblading or skateboarding: rollarblading
[ .153. ] black or white: White
[ .154. ] orange or red: orange!
[ .155. ] yellow or green: Mellow yellow haha
[ .156. ] purple or pink: pink
[ .157. ] slipknot or mudvayne: neither
[ .158. ] hot topic or pac sun: pac sun
[ .159. ] inside or outside: outside
[ .160. ] weed or alcohol: alcohol
[ .161. ] cell phone or pager: cell
[ .162. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: neither
[ .163. ] scooby doo or dino: scooby!
[ .164. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: haha
[ .165. ] tattoos or piercings: Cool beans
[ .166. ] prep or punk: Prep
[ .167. ] slut or whore: slut....?
. : Private life : .
[ .168. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: No
Ive been mad depressed latley. Things suck the end
|Sunday, September 28th, 2003|
Yeppp well i guess you can say i only post then things arent going so well. Thats exactaly the siutaion. Idk I dont understand things. I guess i try to hard to see the good in some ppl i dont see the real person thats right in front of me. Things arent going good at all. School idk i guess im doing good but i fucking lost my bio book the 2nd week and now everying is so werid that i dont study or conterate. I hate this. Idk...W.e well see what happends in the next few weeks and Ill try and post more cause shit is not good and thats the onlly time i post. Leave me one
Oh yea had my Grandparetns 50th anaversity dinna it was good i was looking foward to chilling afta then shit happend yeppp what else is new besides eveything always gettin fucked it. It comes a time for me to sit back and remind myself once again...IM JUST SAMM....i hate this w.e bye
|Monday, September 1st, 2003|
Yea so.......What can i say. Summer is over =(. Its been a crazy funnnnn time. Im gonna miss it. It would have neva been the same without my gurls! You complete me haha.
Besides form summa comming to an end....Things have been good....Well kinda good besides the fact that I confuse myself about alot of things. I dont know anymore. Blahh.
Me and Krystal are shearing lockers =P! Yay go us haha. Hopefully this year will be betta then last its already starting out betta cause we aint freshmen anymore and eveyone says that 10th grade is betta. I think i might acctaly study this year. Humm well see. Lol.
Ahh I cant believe summa is ova!!! I gotta go cause im gettting myself depressed.
....So long sweet summa....
|Saturday, August 23rd, 2003|
THings are good you mofo...Im out peace xoxoxo
You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.
What kind of kiss are you?
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|Saturday, August 16th, 2003|
Me and krystal had a really long talk on the phone...Found out some things thaat i would have been betta not knowing but its betta that i kno. Ive done all i can do to patch things up. If ppl wanna talk to me ill let them come around when they wanna cause ive done my part and im sick of trying. Hung out wit Michele hall, Bridget Beretta, Cassey Murphey and Jamie Blake. Some of the niceset ppl they made me feel so welcomed and they all didnt mind and acctaly wanted me there. It was a good change and a good thing to know that i can go with otha ppl. Not that i would eva leave my friends but just to kno that i have others.
Im diffrent bout things then some ppl. Like even when im in a huge fight with someone i wouldnt wanna hurt them to get them back i would only wanna work things out. I dunno i just always thought thats what a true friend was. I dont wanna get myself in troble. But me and krystal really talked last night and it was good. Thank you. I have so many ppl trying to help me and making me feel betta. Its werid though cause the ones that are making me feel worse are the ones im closest with. Is this how its spose to happen??
Peace out xoxo
|Friday, August 15th, 2003|
|Im in the middle of the road..Laying there helplessley...3 ppl i once knew staring at me not even offering a hand to help me up and save me....Is there even a tomorrow to live for?|
|Thursday, August 14th, 2003|
Humm yea...How come its okay for ppl to make mistakes, but when i do ppl make me feel like the lowest person on earth when i have done nothing but apolgize they dont wanna accept it. Guy im so sory for eveything and you dont wanan believe that. Im a horribel person but all i can say is sorry i dont kno what esle u guys wanna hear. I need to talk to you evey sec that goes but that i havent talked to you i feel like there is knives in me and they are being twisted..Im ready to throw up and i cant eat and im gonna kill myself if i loose any of you. I said im sorry yet it feels like 3ppl are still jumping on my back for somthing i had no intention of happening the way it did. I dont kno what esle to tell you guys but... I LOVE YOU AND IM SORRY peace
|Sunday, August 10th, 2003|
Ight hears how it happend at Barkers...
We got there at like 7. We all went downstairs and were sitting around then Steve Donovan went upstairs to get us drinks. He came down we all finisshed and then out of no where my nose started bleeding. So then I went upstairs with Lauren and Steve followed to get us more drinks. He had to go to the bathroom and he told Lauren to bring down the drinks. (We didnt realize it at the time but Barkers mom was standing right there). So then when we went downstairs eveything was going fine. We all caught alil buzz and then it was time to go upstairs for cake. Before we began singing Happy Birthday John's mom was like i dont kno you guys whats ur names we all told her and then we went back downstairs. Somehow His mom found out we were all 15 and she didnt want us drinking. From then on the rest of the night was okay but we couldnt drink and we thought we could still sleep ova. But then his mom said that we were to young and couldnt even sleep ova. So then twards the end of the night we met this kid name Jogen...( i think i couldnt get it right). And he said that if he was us he would be sittin in the corner downstairs just drinking cause no parents were going downstairs. And then we were like "Well we cant go and get beer." So then he wa slike "Well sneke you girls beers" so we were like "Okay." So then we went back downstairs and i chugged like 4 beers in 10 mins. So i had a really great buzz goin. I was loosening up and talking to eveyone. OMG HOCKEY IS MY NEW FAVORITE SPORT!!!! IVE NEVER SEEN SO MANY CUTE GUYS IN ONE ROOM! It was alll going so good. But then John had to start gettin ppl out of his house that werent sleeping ova cause his mom was gettin mad. So we had Garry drive us home. We droped krystal off home but then we were all saying that we didnt wanna go home right away. And me and Lauren were complaing that we didnt get ass lol. Lauren kept goin on how she wanted Kevin so we went to go get him. And then Garry drove us to toco bell. I really dont kno how it happend but Lauren leaned foward to do somthing and me and Kevin went behing her and started hooking up. I wasent expecting it at all lol. So then we stoped and he was like "Lauren lean foward again and talk to the ppl in the front i have to tell Sam a secert again" and she did and then i didnt wanna hook up again cause i felt bad cause i didnt wanna do that to Lauren cause she wanted him to come in the car so she could hook up wit him. And then he asked me and i was like "No i dont wanna do that to lauren not ot her (even though she didnt care lol)". So then Lauren and him started hooking up and i was like "Sloppy Seconds" But she didnt understand me lol. Then we got toco bell. When we were waiting for the food Kevin took his clothes off omg it was so funny. Then ppl called Garry phone and they needde him back at the party so he droped us off at Jocs.
Back at Jocs she was text messing Mike and then we sunk out to go meet up wit them at some fild. He was wit Tom and Ryan. I had another beer and sips of ppls. I hadda pee really bad and i didnt wanna go in a bush but then i finally did lol. WE got back to Jocs talked for alil while and then passed out. It was overall a good night could have been betta but not bad at all!!!
Laurens family is going to Montak like Friday i think. And they are leaving Matt home alone! When we were at Barkers Steve mentioned it to Joc and Joc invited me so were going to Matts party witout Lau (if she cant get out of Montak). Lol. And then Barkers parents are going away so were gonna go there again i think! HAHA. Hopefully there will be Hockey players again lol. Well i gotta go xoxoxoxoxo peace out
Blurty for Sam.