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Tuesday, February 13th, 2007

Time:5:36 pm.
Mood: loved.
Music:Oceans Will Part.
Hi. this few days have been fruitful i guess. hahaha
but i'll blog about today. SINCE, tmr's valentine's day. hahaha.

as usual, went to sch and came home. &in sch, there was this firedrill. hahaha, kinda cool. got to skip chinese lesson till there was only ard 10 mins left. hahah YAY!!

den came home aft sch. had physics lesson and stuff la but. hhahah yea enjoyed it la.
nws e great part.

my whole life, i've never thought tt he'd like me.
till today.

he told me he liked me since e day i started calling him .....
& e keychain, e callin me down to help him adn stuff, was motive.. SMILES.
i was shocked at first. thinking he was playing with me.
so yea. i AM happy.
but i dont knw if i am supposed to accept him and stuff.
its weird, i know.
YA. sigh... aiya dunno la.. leave it all to God.

love sam.
hahaha. by e way. i think im in love.
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Monday, December 11th, 2006

Time:5:13 pm.
Mood: silly.
hihi! long time since i updated.
have i said HOW MUCH I ACTUALLY LIKE PS ONG SEK LEANG or sth.. hahha as in not LIKE LIKKE. but LIKE as in LOVE AS A FATHER. he's like a dad to me. sigh. and he went back to malaysia on fri morning. how sad. i seriously nearly cried. ok maybe i cried.. while i was playing my piano, played till i actually cried. i dunno why. but just cried it all out. i didn't want him to leave at all. but nvm.

yea. and.. me and * broken up. and u know what, i feel much better. :) who cares. hmms and i think im FOND of ' haha really fond of ' haha. dunno why. although ' is older than me by alot, i think im fond of ' .. thank GOd not in LOVE with ' yet. hahah i even said ' was handsome. eh hahaha. okies fine. hmm God i dunno why i am fond of ' .. is it YOUR way of saying .... ?? and God neither do i know why do i treat Ps Ong as a father to me?? PLEASE let him come back to Elim Church and preach for SO MANY days.. ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT and times infinity days let him come back and preach to us Lord. Thank You Lord Jesus.

smiles. i duno y im fond of ' at all!!!! argh... hahaha
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Monday, November 27th, 2006

Time:6:14 pm.
Mood: confused.
u know what? maybe i AM pissed with u.... u think LA changed me?? wth. go think properly. when im in LA, on msn, all u talk about is DEBBIE.. all i see in ur tagboard is DEBBIE, GIDEON, JEREMIAH, JAYLORD all this. and all i did was to say HI. and then u start blabbering about her. never mind about that.. then... i asked what u wanted to say.. then i asked a few more times, u didn't say u were busy.. RIGHT? and u didn't HAVETO say to me that im very irritating and stuff right?? those stuff really hurt me deep. left a scar i guess. now i feel as if im backstabbing. maybe i should let go............................. let go of all the painful memories........... all the sad moments.................... everything........................ but can i?

i guess sis, im just jealous of u..... plain jealous........ 1 moment ur hated by everyone, (srry to say that), and i'm ur ONLY true friend including shermaine.. the rest were all lying.. and the next, ur well-liked, even MORE well liked then me. and it all happened only in 2 weeks. less then that. and now everyone is like talking to u.... so nicely.. and now that u've got debbie, i feel that u've forgotten me. somehow deep inside im no longer there.........

is this the real me????? sometimes i really don't know........ i guess im confused........ between reality and dreams.......
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Time:6:01 pm.
u know what? maybe i AM pissed with u.... u think LA changed me?? wth. go think properly. when im in LA, on msn, all u talk about is DEBBIE.. all i see in ur tagboard is DEBBIE, GIDEON, JEREMIAH, JAYLORD all this. and all i did was to say HI. and then u start blabbering about her. never mind about that.. then... i asked what u wanted to say.. then i asked a few more times, u didn't say u were busy.. RIGHT? and u didn't HAVETO say to me that im very irritating and stuff right?? those stuff really hurt me deep. left a scar i guess. now i feel as if im backstabbing. maybe i should let go............................. let go of all the painful memories........... all the sad moments.................... everything........................ but can i?

i guess sis, im just jealous of u..... plain jealous........ 1 moment ur hated by everyone, (srry to say that), and i'm ur ONLY true friend including shermaine.. the rest were all lying.. and the next, ur well-liked, even MORE well liked then me. and it all happened only in 2 weeks. less then that. and now everyone is like talking to u.... so nicely.. and now that u've got debbie, i feel that u've forgotten me. somehow deep inside im no longer there.
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Tuesday, October 31st, 2006

Time:4:14 pm.
Mood: crushed.
Hi. im kinda sad now. suddenly dun feel like chatting with him**. here's how i feel.

im ur godsister ok. yet u wun even trust me enough to tell me the ans to the competition. ak who cares about that. speaking about keeping secrets. u always ask me for all my secrets, and gossips. i tell u EVERYTHING. ok EVERYTHING. when im feeling down, i tell u all, u keep it. and when im telling u about other ppl's secrets, u just go ahead and PROMISE me never to tell out. in the end, u go and disturb pple and when i ask u, u say nth. NEVER MIND. now u won't even trust me enough to tell me the ans. nvm. and u dun wna tell me ur blog?? indeed im hurt by this. i seriuosly am. but im nvr gonna say it out. when u said, no. after about 1/2 hr of BEGGING u to tell me the ans, man i was hurt. hurt enough to stop talking on msn alrdy. hurt that u're my godbro, yet aft i beg u so SO many times, u still fail to tell me the ans. ARGH. u've been there for me everytime i needed u. everytime i need u u're there. i LOVE u. but sometimes it ain't all about me. i too wna know about u. about ur blog, about ur secrets and stuff. aiya. no one'll understand. i dun know if u're alright now. but all i know is that i am not alrgiht. after i said i gtg, u said ok hahaha bye. i had no feeling to laugh along. and u called me a noobstress. i didn't know how to react, cause im not in the right mood. perhaps it's just me i guess. and i don't deny that im not crushed by this. my feelings and emotions are crushed. seriously crushed.

yeah. that's my rant. HAHA lame. okok.
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Thursday, October 26th, 2006

Subject:im screwed.
Time:11:37 am.
Mood: pissed off.
guess what. ARGH i really gotta let out some steam here. cause my other blog is really too 'clean'. lol. but nvm here i go...

i got back my friggin report book. FUCK. ok. bad results. i mean, is it really the bad carma? or is it just me? hmm. then let my dad see it.

im really pissed now. i GOT into express. i GOT into 4 express w/o staying back. w/o the teachers help. yet you're still so LAME. with the capital letters. man i hate u. u know how much i studied? this exam i really put in loadsa effort. wtfh la. asshole. and now he says i've gotta do 4 hrs of work. damn it.

not only are my results stressed. now my maid's gone. and we hafta do house work. WHY CAN'T THEY JUST FRIGGING GET A MAID?? damn. and they make me clean clean clean. WTFUCK lah.

and about my results. im SCREWD Lah. dad's gonna make me work hard. i mean, i CAN and i WILL work hard on my own when i want to. but if pple force me, TRUST me i WON'T. i promise u. I won't work hard. and i won't put in ALL my effort lor. 1 simply reason, I DON'T LIKE TO BE FORCED. so yeah. stop trying to force me. cause i won't work under pressure.

damn it. im friggin pissed now. i wish my godparents were by my side now. i wish i could live with them when their married. oops what am i saying? I WILL LIVE WITH THEM when they get married. woots. can't wait. and when GOD comes back, I ALSO CAN'T WAIT. cause, im gonna be with my Father who understands me. who UNDERSTANDS ME. dad u get it? the feeling of trust and everything ain't there no more.

last time, dad used to come home and play with us. joke, and blah. NOW? i can't even tell him my results. i can't even ASK him. ok pple u hear this. i can't even ASK him a simple qn like, " dad can i go out?" i CAN'T. because he'll say NO. and gimme long chapters. FUCK again.

i know im pretty vulgar in this post. who the fuck cares how vulgar am i? fcuk fcuk fcuk. other pple's dad can understand them. ARGH. why can't u understand me?? and. im alrdy depressed enough DAD. im already. u think i want this results is it. if i can i'd retake the WHOLE sec 3 again. but the principal wun give me another chance. DAD how'd u think i feel?? if only u knew... dad if only u knew...

but i doubt u'd know. cause u ain't that DAD i want u to be. u ain't like that DAD everyone else has. and lastly, you ain't my GODPA who promises he'll be there for me and actually KEEPS the promise. unlike u dad.

fuckin pissed
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Tuesday, October 10th, 2006

Time:6:45 pm.
Mood: tired.
Music:Blessed be Your name.
HEY! im back again. i suddenly feel like blogging alot. wahaha. i wonder why?? hmm.. i have to just rant random stuff here.

1) the feelings back again. i dun deny it... imsorry to those concerned.......... i really am.. sometimes i really wish tt we'd be as close as ever again. like before. but when i see u.. i get reminded of the past. incase u remember.

2) i miss my godparents. esp my godmother. alot. was just telling jill about my godma. how pretty she is. man i miss that girl. loads.

3) will our band be successful? hmmmm.... i hope so.... we've got the members here alrdy. ok. MOST of the members.. i hope more pple'll join though.. and we've gotta come up with a band name first. :) hmm.. haha.
here's the list of the members: lead guitarist -max. side guitarist - shu ai. keyboardist - rachael/me. bassist - guess gota train pple? but i can try.. heh..... :) .. main drummer - shu ai. side drummer - me! backups - sarah, becca, train more. but i guess these are the main ones now. haha. all for one and one for all.

4) many times i want the same feeling back again. but why do i feel bad now??

hmm.. im tired of all this.
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Subject:EOYE
Time:1:42 pm.
Mood: crappy.
hmm, hi! i suddenly feel the urge of blogging. sometimes backstabbers aren't WHO u expect them to be. take girlA for example. she became close to me for like quite a while, because i helped her take care of her brother. and now she backstabs me and DENYS everything. calling me a slut. wtf. but i have forgiven her alrdy la. CONFIRMED. devil's not gonna win this time:) not this time. Jesus has conquered the grave alrdy. too bad for you devil. hahaha who cares about u.

hmm. end year exams. SIANNED. exams are gonna end tmr. now chatting with my coconut tree and my godsister. this is considered my PRIVATE blog. but i DON'T backstab pple like what SHE did. smiles im evil. hmm. i also wna say another thing. iLOVEmyYOUTHpastor ALOT. he's the NICEST guy i've ever met and i think i will ever meet too. he counsels us, he loves us, and most of all, he LISTENS.

RADI8 ROCKS!!!

godma,, hurry and come back PLEASE?? i really miss u SO so much. too much. already. iLOVEu.
godpa,, hmm. haha HI. im BORED. and im excited for friday. sigh. haha

peace,
sam.
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Tuesday, June 20th, 2006

Time:2:15 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
Are dad's all alike? Lol. just feel la. i mean. one moment he's the ideal dad. nice, caring, fun to be with, happy go lucky. loving. the next moment, he's a horror. he's mean. and worst of all, he starts scolding you. and you know what you did wrong, but you yourself think, i know i did that wrongly, but that doesn't allow him to just start changing from what he was until now. i mean. think about it. yeah. right now, i really feel ............. i also not sure. Lol.

well, last night went to watch she's the man. haha NICE SHOW!!!!! haha.
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Saturday, June 17th, 2006

Subject:Peace
Time:6:39 pm.
Mood: bored.
Music:King of Majesty.
Hmms. reading 2 people's blog really make me wana hmm how do i phrase it.. haha well, it simply makes me feel that anything can happen in friendship. hah. hmm. charleen and jillyn ar... just forgive each other, BOTH say sorry at the same time, and all is alright. haha i know both of you are just plain pissed at each other and stuffs,, but just forgive and don't have to forget la. just forgive. and ya. aiyah.. never mind not gonna mind any business. hahahhahaa. hmm.

today went to sakae to eat lunch with my mom, sis, bro. ha cool! then er yeah. delicious! tonight we're having fish n chips for dinner. haha hungry already. Lol. then went with my bro to cut his hair. waited like so long. for the aunty to do up another aunty's hair. ahha but never mind. was reading thru some weird and R-rated magazines. haha don't think wrongly. it's not THAT sick. yup. haha quite boring now ar.. and i din go for the dance thinggy ahha. stupid. i wanted to go lor. but too bad.......
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Friday, June 16th, 2006

Subject:My birthday
Time:9:41 am.
Mood: loved.
Music:Blessed be your name.
yesterday was my bdae. hah it was fun lah! woke up at 6.54am just to reply gideon's, zq's, godpa and godma's smses. hah thanks! then went back to sleep and suddenly receive dad's sms, then rae's sms then my mom said happy birthday. then i went to bathe and all. haha soon before leaving the hse, sashi smsed me. lol. well, reached church and entered lobby A. hah damn all of the people were there and i sat with godpa and he started singing happy birthday song to me. haha like so funny. then sarah and rae gave me my 1st birthday present. my bag and stuffs inside. stuffs inside were cards and ang pows. lol.and a badge. hahar. yay! then went for vbs thinggys. haha amy said she din get me anything and din plan on getting me haha so i said ok. but amy and sashi both made me a card, actually a BIG bookmark. haha well, whatever amy~!! haha. lame. ok then vbs ended at 3.30 like that. then after getting ready and stuff, it was 4. and godpa had lesson at 7. haha damn. then it was so rushed. hmm i was kinda pissed cause Ps patrick kept making us help help help and yup whatever. haha but never mind lah. then yeah then we were plannign to go to Fish & Co. hmm cool place. but advise: NEVER go there on your bdae. lol. yup. then FINALLY at maybe 5 we left,, godpa was kinda pissed could see. haha he was like never mind i go school first. then he walked off. what a bdae. but never mind in the end, he still came. lol. at fish n co, the fish and chips were like so large. haha then suddenly my godbro came with an addidas paper bag and put it on my head. haha everyone was waiting to see how surprised i will be. guess what? they ALL gave my an MP3!!!!hmms haha so happy! then yup after that, godpa wanted to leave, and sashi and amy said no. haha so yup he sat down. and suddenly there was a cake. and they all started counting 1,2,3. then sang happy brithday song to me. haha so embarrassing. and on top of that, they made me stand on my chair. damn it. haha er then made me blow my candles from where i was standing. haha couldn't have done it w/o peoples help. haha so fun! and godpa left for his class. haha hmm. then after eating the cake, we left for music practice. yup. that's it lor. haha.

God bles.
thanks everyone for yesterday!!
sam
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Time:9:29 am.
Mood: okay.
hmm lame lame lame. haha cool words. ok bored.
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Wednesday, June 14th, 2006

Time:4:49 pm.
Mood: tired.
hmms. tmr's MY birthday. yay! finally. 365 days has passed. hah hmms? today was so tired in vbs, all the helpers practically slept during the creative time.. haha.. godpa slept for like so long and he was UNWAKABLE if there is such a word.. hmms. yups that's probably all lar.. hah tday games was funner.. hah CAPTAIN'S BALL!! hah quite fun lah... but all the kiddos were like pure noobs who can't play ball.. LOL. tired tired now.. ha ha
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Tuesday, June 13th, 2006

Time:4:58 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Music:To the ends of the Earth.
Hello!! today vbs first day. cool! i helped in the games place.. haha quite fun leh.. er, started at around 9 + lol. then first class is Majestic. haha man, they're so funny. hahar all the classes, had to split themselves up and get numbered off by max and they had to get into groups, haha group 1, led by yours truly, hahr obviously won!! hahar go!! lol. had to find a partner and one of them had to get blindfolded and yup lead through the obstacle course. LOL. hahar. and yups then nxt group of students to come in was Awesome. yups rae's group. haha and when rae entered, her face was so black. cause of her teacher in charge, aunty daisy ong. haha but after the whole day of scoldings, aunty daisy ong apologised to her. HAHA. so lame. ok but i doubt rae can let it go. hahaha. who cares. well, as i was saying. then i was supposed to led rae, and rae banged her head on the chair.. WHAT A NOOB!! hah kidding. hmms yup then the next group of students to come in was the duno what. hahaha. forgot. oh man my group was group 5 this time, and lost lah.. haha cause the girls can't lead each other for nuts! lol. hmm then lunch. lunch time was quite fun lah.. then followed by some duno what thinggy. haha rae got pissed with joshua and deborah for quarrelling. lol. noobs. hmms. yups. then was the rehearsal time. yup that's it lor. then last thing was games with the youngest group, think it's Wonderful or something. forgot.. wahhaa. then yup their all so small and punie. and amos was sleeping at the obstacle course there. lol lame lame lame. LOL. okok

God bless,
sam.
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Monday, June 12th, 2006

Time:11:39 am.
Mood: calm.
Music:Still.
Hmms. Hello. last night slept quite late. hahaha. 12am. cause at 10pm to 12am, CSI miami and newyork both joined tgt to catch the same killer. so nice! haha. hmm sweet. lol. today woke up at 10.20+. hah and made soup for myself to eat. Lol. so nice soup. so saltish. haha mmm delicious. just the perfect soup to start my day. haha but my arms are aching i wonder why. haha damn. YAY!! tomorrow's vbs. woohoo!! haha soon it'll be MY 15th birthday. boring. haha i'll be going to sakae sushi with benson and the rest of the people confirmed. muhaha. hmms. i'm bored lor.

hmm. haha. nth much to say. today's gonna be boring lor. hahahar.
God bless,
sam
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Saturday, June 10th, 2006

Time:8:25 pm.
Mood: content.
Music:Take it all.
Hello. hmms long time never blog ar..? lol. youth was fun lar.. my godbro bought me one large packet of malteasers. hahaha and yups. zq, you might have bought me one LARGE packet of malteasers, hhah but i'll not say you're THAT nice (as jillyn's blog says) hahah. lol just cause she praised you once and you become bhb. hahahahahhahahaa. ok i'm bored now. lol. no one is online to accompany me to chat except my da jie and gillian. hmm i rebonded my hair on friday!!! FINALLY. wahhaha it's my bday gift from my grandparents. THANK YOU GUYS! HAHA. hmms. VBS starting soon. yay!! this year i din go down to church to help with the decorations much, not like last year. haha. and benson said he is gonna bring me to eat sushi. hahaha. anyone wna come? lol
well, and schools starting in like 2 weeks. DAMNIT. haha. so fast.. and i am just beginning to enjoy my holidays.

Hmm today i went to marche with my mum and aunties and sarah rae they all, for lunch. haha sarah, gerard, me and bec were singing the cookie song to rae. For Your info, it goes like,

" She is a Cookie Cookie Cookie with a chocolate chip brain,
She has no hands but flexible fingers,
And she lives in a basket,
She is a cookie cookie cookie with a chocolate chip brain."

Lol. and rae wanted to strangle jeremiah`bro when he created it. haahhaa. so funny. Yup. Can't wait for tmr. lol.

Jesus loves You!!
God bless,
sam.
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Tuesday, June 6th, 2006

Time:11:05 am.
Mood: happy.
Music:What the world will never take.
Hey. so fast 2 weeks have gone by. today's godpa and sashi's bday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEOPLE. lol.

tmr's amy's and gerard birthday. ok.

and today godma will be going back. how sad is it today lor. i mean, lol she's only back for like 2 weeks holiday, and today's godpa's bday. i mean, ar.. haha. i don't know what i mean. ok. but then sigh she's going back tonight and i don't even know whether i'm allowed to go to the airport to see her off. i really hope i can. i don't mind rushing back for music practice or something. all i want is to see her off. Lol. seriously.

ok yesterday's dinner was so fun. haha i was really wolverine............ until sashi plucked out my claws and crushed them. *stupid* haha. well, but it was fun lah right? Lol. sashi is so funny. yup. and i was trying to be ice man also, trying to freeze a cup of water. haha but can't. Lol. er then i tried to be the fireguy. Lol. then when the birthday cake was there, er sashi kept calling me (fireguy's name), to go up and light the candles. and also i tried to be Magneto. muahaha. so cool! yups. Well, vbs is 1 week time, woohoo!! that means my birthday will be coming up. yeah!!! i can't wait. seriously. haha. and i really don't wanna go for sakae sushi on my birthday lor. hahaha. sad case. haha

yup. that's it lah.
God bless,
sam.
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Sunday, June 4th, 2006

Time:5:49 pm.
Mood: thankful.
Music:Forever.
Hi. 6th June is godpa's and sashi's bdae. on 7th june is gerard's and amy's bdae. wonderful. haha. sweet. well,, tmr we're celebrating godpa's birthday. not sure whether sashi and the rest are going. but never mind. lol! we're celebrating godpa's birthday 1 day earlier cause godma is going back on 6th. damn it. hahaha. gonna miss her.

hmms. sarah's so sweet. she drew a special section on godpa's card just for me, and titled it, god-daughter. haha so touched. ok never mind. and on friday, haha sarah told godpa ,, if sam is your goddaughter, and i'm your sister, haha then i'm her aunty. haah so yups now she n rae are my aunties. muahahha. ok lah lame lah. but quite fun leh. hhahhaar. er. then that also says that gerard is my uncle. hahaha. and hahaha. ok, i'll stop going and and and. haha cause if i continue, then zq is my bro and so they are OH .. hahaha. never mind.

tonight gonna watch X men 3 hahar. with bro and sis. yups.

i thank God for everything. and i mean EVERYTHING.
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Friday, June 2nd, 2006

Time:11:21 am.
Mood: cheerful.
Music:Love me..
well, dad's out. and as the saying goes, when the cat's out, the mouse comes out and play. so yup here i am! muahah.

life is normal, although many times i really feel that my dad is really,, really too irritating. just ytd i got caning haha fun experience. this really makes my skin thicker and i don't feel anymore caning pain. lol! i'm serious. so dad's just gonna take away privillages. whatever. lol!

now i'm chatting with my godbro. n reading blogs. hahar
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Wednesday, May 31st, 2006

Time:11:36 am.
Mood: giggly.
Music:Through it all.
well, my day today begins at 11am. hahhaa. nothing much happened leh. lol! but yesterday went to my auntie's house b4 going to church.

my aunty said i'll be able to bathe at her house. YUp bathe. how am i supposed to bathe when there is no soap nor shampoo? haha but never mind i survived. then went to chruch for dance thing. when i arrived, godpa kept telling me to go and dance. but i did not wanna dance in front of my daddyo. haha. then yup. so my dad left. then followed by my godpa. so i danced. hahaha a while. then it ended. so i was like, end already? hahaha. i just got here. but never mind. then sashi left. so left, amy, kelvin, bec, sarah and i. lol! so fun. we slacked in church for quite long about 1/2hr. then stupid kelvin bluffed me, haha i actually thought that was a word alright! haha lame. ok he said, the girl form of idiot was IDIOTRESS. haha stupid kelvin. and i called amy that, she asked me what was that, so i said girl form of idiot. haha then she was like. YOU IDIOT, THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS AN IDIOTRESS. LOL! haha i forgive you kelvin. muahha. then i went to use kelvin's laptop to play games and listen to music, suddenly amy and kelvin wanted to practice dancing again. hahaha. so had to play the song again. but never mind. haha then finally, we were able to go and have dinner at KFC. muhaha. and we were late for practice. sorry clement. hahaha. then poorthing kelvin got all the blame. haha hmm. then at kfc, kelvin and amy helped to order our food. lol! and eating time. haha woohoo! so fun. cause i was hungry. then we kinda rushed back to church. but bec had to stop at 7-11. lol. then after a while, clement called again. and i had to answer the phone. so yup he sounded pissed. but nah i don't care. ok. then we walked back to church and yup. practice was kinda fun lah. haha then my grandma came at 9.15 like that. but at 9, amy came down to accompany me and bec. thanks girl! haha. then she gave us gum. hahaha.

yup. that's it.

take care,
Jesus loves you. haha
sam.
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