I miss Naz Farm so much! It totally sucks everyone lives like 10 -12 hours away from me! :- ( tear... I'm still trying to figure out a way to get over this guy - but for some reason i can't.. i don't know why but i just can't seem to bring my self to ever say no. I wish Naz would have been like 2 weeks long - I miss everyone so much!
blahI just got back from Naz Farm!! That was such a great time - i've made so many friends there it's incredible! Thank you all so much! I LOVE YOU and you're amazing people! Thanks to everyone for helping me with some major disicions I have to make - I'm now 100% sure of what I want to do. You guys are SUPER SWEET!! hahaha... "I said a BOOM chica BOOM..." -- ohh soo many quotes... I couldn't even begin! lol... Naz Farm Staff- You guys totally made me feel at home right from the start - I hope to see you all again some day soon. --- If anyone's ever in the Pittsburgh area give me a call and we'll hang out!
I'm still confuzzled on a few things but I know now that they will work out ; - )
contentHe's still gone and I still miss him and I know I shouldn't. I still find myself wanting him, but nothing will ever come out of it. I just want him to feel the same as I do. I know when he comes home he'll want me, but not the way i want him too. I'll go to him, because I know he wants it. He hasn't changed at all, and he probably never will. I'll probably end up hurt again and again. It's just he makes me so happy and yet makes me feel like shit at the same time. I just don't know how to get closure. But I think the main reason is because I don't want it.
Well at least today was a pick up~ Em's grad party was a blast. I don't know what I would do with out my friends... but again - I couldn't get him out of my mind all day. He just pops up! -- Neway... I so shouldn't have worn those shoes! especially on that slide!! .. rita: "And I'm not even getting paid!!" skip: "Don't say that around little kids!" rita: "What?! I said i'm not getting paid." skip: " OH! I thought you said Laid!" --- good times guys!! --- you make my day!
I just don't know anymore. I know what I feel and I know what he feels but I don't know if I can keep up this charade. I want more, but for some reason, he doesn't. I'm just really confused and sick of waiting around. I know I'll still go back to him. That's just the way I am, but i know nothing is ever going to come of it. So what do I do now?
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