| All for the pickle tickler |
[11 Sep 2003|05:49pm] |
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BIT EME LOV ATO: How come I am not in your update?
BIT EME LOV ATO: I demand a special update now.
OK...this entire update is about TONY THE PICKLE TICKLER! ::dies laughing:: He likes to tickle his own pickle ::nods:: I swear...then he had this strange idea that I fucked his penguin...I'M NOT SORRY! ::pouts:: Tony likes to hump trees...yes sir! Hes my tree humping friend...I'm going to go on and on about Tony for like five minutes. TONY! TONY! TONY! I MADE YOU OUT OF CLAY! TONY! TONY! TONY! WITH TONY I WILL PLAY! ::dies laughing:: MY SEX IS MORE WHOA-ER THAN YOU AND P-DAWGS COMBINED...JUST BECAUSE I GET MORE THAN YOU GUYS...BWHAHAHAHA. I am hearting Tony now...since he is my tree humping friend...ok...thats all...Im tried of talking about Tony ::laughs:: that is all...
~*Sam*~
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| Ew......I'm Updating! |
[11 Sep 2003|02:10pm] |
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I have nothing to update about. So Evan and I are just friends now and I am coloring a purdy picture for Tina....its a stick figure humping the ground....can you guess who it is...IT'S TINA! THE SECAPADES MANIAC! BWHAHAHAHA! ::dies laughing:: Ok ok...sorry about that...next I will draw a picture of Tim....then I'll eat it ::smiles innocently:: I am going to be in all the weddings....bwhahahaha...I changed my mind...I think I owe it to Tim because he has been there for me when others were pissed off or tried to kill me ::coughsBILLYcoughs:: I mean ::shifty eyes:: Where is Billy? Ew....he needs to come back ::nods:: Ew....I miss Billy...who would have thought...right? Ok...well I have finally thought this over and....I dont love Joel anymore...well I love him...im just not IN love with him. It took me a while to figure out that he feels the same way....maybe he never was in love with me ::shrugs then sticks her hands in her pockets:: Ew....im bored...somebody entertain me...P-dawg! I heart P-dawg...hes my home fry ::nods:: Ew I'm eating fries right now...thats why I thought I should call somebody my home fry...now I'm eating a pickle ::dies laughing:: Sara said that I look like I am deep-throating it ::giggles then looks around and starts to deep throat the pickle:: :X NOBODY SAW THAT! ::runs away::
~*Sam*~
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| uh no more love? |
[07 Sep 2003|12:41am] |
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::sighs deeply then gets up from her bed and walks slowly to her computer, sitting down at the chair and staring blankly at the screen::
I have been thinking about this thought through the whole day and have finally reached a conclusion. I am not going to be in any of the weddings ::sighs:: It’s not because I don’t like any of you people ::laughs nervously:: I just have a grudge against them. You see, when I was a little girl I used to dream about my father walking me down the asile while telling me that I look beautiful and that he was proud of me. Then I would look over and see my mother crying out of happiness and then see my brothers face. His face would be lit up with a smile ::smiles a little:: But none of that will ever happen now. My father hates me, and my mother and brother are gone. ::sniffles:: and I know that sounds stupid….to make matters worse, once I start thinking about that idea I start thinking about how anybody I ever loved always leaves me…like Joel…I wanted to try to patch things up with him…but he just doesn’t want a relationship right now even though he loves me ::rolls eyes:: I’ll believe that when pink and blue monkeys rule the Earth. I just don’t understand how he can sit there and lie straight to my face ::looks down:: I wasn’t lying to him when I told him that I loved him….I really did/do ::sighs again:: but sooner or later I have to get over him…though I will never be completely over him…I can try to be. Evan and I are no longer going out…short lived huh? Were just make-out buddies ::giggles softly:: David is the only one who knows who I love right now ::smiles weakly:: I love David ::nods:: he is such a sweetheart to me…I <3 him…more than I <3 P-dawg and his erm back problems ew. I would really like to talk to Benji ::sighs:: My dad just came in here like ten minutes ago telling me that I’m a “dirty little slut who needs to wear longer shirts because Itis showing too much midriff and that I cannot wear a hat” or something shitty like that. I just wish somebody would be there to hold me sloe at night and have me wake up to thieir smiling face and kiss them gently on the lips and lay with them for a while ::smiles weakly:: Well I’m gonna go to sleep in my bed now…alone…I would like my rule breaking butthole to come with me too :x
~*Sam*~
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| Uh...I got a new boyfriend? |
[04 Sep 2003|03:13pm] |
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Ok...well a lot has happened since my last update. Joel and I are no longer together...surprize..surprize...I guess? Benji is pissed at me ::shrugs:: I wish he wasnt...I really like him as a friend ::sighs:: I'm going out with Evan now....Tim wants to kick his ass....Tim why do you wanna kick Evans ass. My momma likes stealing my skittles ::glares then puts skittles in a special spot:: Now you cant get them! Bwhahahahaha! ::clears throat:: I <3 P-dawg....and my rule breaking butthole ::nods then looks around:: Grr...damnit where is he? ::shrugs:: Well I'm gonna go now...bye people! Woot!
~*Sam*~
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| Things just go all downhill from here... |
[31 Aug 2003|08:10am] |
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::yawns then stretches as she sits down at her uncomfortable computer chair and logins::
Wow….everything is happening so fast ::laughs softly:: Tina and Tim are engaged…again! And now so are Brit and Tony! ::smiles:: I’m so happy for Brit…she deserves to be truly happy and Tony has made that possible. Wow…it’s 8 AM and I’m up ::yawns again:: I couldn’t go back to sleep because something…well someone was on my mind. I just don’t know what to think about him. Grr…he doesn’t like me back…but I am in love with him ::looks away:: I can’t help myself…no matter what I do, when he talks to me my heart flutters. Then he tells me he can’t be with me and my heart breaks into a million little pieces, which he steps on over and over again.
Maybe I’m just being selfish ::shrugs:: The only thing I know is that I want him, I need him. I want to wake up to him with his arms wrapped tightly around me and be greeted by his face which is smiling ::sighs:: I want him to take me in his arms and tell me he loves me over and over again and that he CAN be with me and that there are no obstacles in our way. We could live happily ever after ::laughs softly:: But unfortunately that may never happen. He just doesn’t love me back the way I love him. I’m sure your all reading this right now asking who I am talking about. All I have to do is mention roses, whine, dimming the lights, and trapt ::laughs:: He knows who he is ::shakes head:: I’m sorry that I feel this way…I really am. But I cannot help myself…I’m in love with you.
~*Sam*~
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[30 Aug 2003|05:43pm] |
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Wow...Brit raped David? ::shakes head while laughing a little:: Thats...just...wow. Brit would never do something like that...congrats to her and Tony...woot finally you guys are going out...it's about time damnit...I wish you guys the best luck ::nods:: And David...your an okay guy and all but...dont make up lies...it's not nice...I hope you feel better ::nods:: Well I need to talk to butthole...really badly...I have decided to give up on Joel ::nods:: As much as it will hurt to see him with somebody else...I just have to. He was my first love ::laughs a little:: as corny as this may seem...it's true...that thing they say about always loving your first love ::sighs:: It's true...I will always love Joel...I just cant sit around and wait for him to love me back ::laughs softly:: I need to move on...so I'm sorry Joel...I love you ::sighs::
~*Sam*~
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| Brit...I got this quote thingy.... |
[29 Aug 2003|11:42pm] |
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"Loneliness is like cancer. There is no cure to either of these diseases. They increasingly appear - sporadically - and touch everyone, somehow, someway. People are searching for solutions, trying to repair the damage. And when the thought of infection manifests anyone's mind, it's almost instant denial, covering up the holes with hope. It’s always there, even when you think you've taken the miracle medicine or been put through the perfect procedure to end the madness. There is always this lingering feeling that what infected you may come back, that it still whispers in the hollow cavity of your inner depth. There is no cause. There is no end. There is the living dead. There is the superficial cure: love. There is the never-ending turbulence for the rest of your days. . . "
::thinks:: That is really true...I was lurking and I came across this quote...I have been tlaking to Brit...I think this suits both our situations we are in...kinda...well right now...I'm just...up I guess...I dont know what I'm doing up...Butthole told me he wanted to talk to me...so that's why I'm up now...I'm gonna go look for some more quotes ::smiles:: I'll update again ::nods::
~*Sam*~
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[28 Aug 2003|10:43pm] |
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XxRockerBabe13xX [12:46 AM]: Do you....how do I say this...do you like getting hit by Benji...and you cant just answer "if it makes him happy"
Heey Billllllly [12:47 AM]: No ... I might put out the vibe that I do, but I assure you, I don't get an ounce of joy out of his degrading.
XxRockerBabe13xX [12:47 AM]: Then why do you always hit me?
Heey Billllllly [12:48 AM]: -narrows his eyes- The same reasons he hits me ... I make him mad.
::re-reads the conversation over five times::
So Billy hits me because I make him...mad? Ew. You should never hit girls...but I know for a fact that he will say something like "your not a girl...your a fucking whore" All right...I can take that...WOOOOT IM A FUCKING WHORE!! ::flails arms around:: Ok...thats done with ::smiles a little:: And congrats to Good Charlotte for winning ::claps:: It was well deserved ::nods:: Joel was looking mighty hot at the VMA's I must say...especially when he started to make the "jerking off" gestures with his hands...tell me Joel...do you do that often? Well...I wanna talk to Kenny...he is my ass monkey...woot for Kenny...he gave me good advice but still...he dumped Brit in a very mean way...grrr...Chester obviously doesnt like his wife ::goes and looks for his wife:: I'll find her Chester the molester...then you'll be sorry..bwahahaha.
Well I had a nice little talk with Lars today...I was gonna have him run me over with his car again but ::shrugs:: I dont know what happened though. I talked to Sebbers last night...aww him and Ginger are so cute together ::nods:: I wish them the best of luck...same with ew pierre ew and Brit! I dont know what's up between Benji adn Billy but I hope everything works out ::nods:: And Tim is not Crayon Boy...I think ::thinks:: Well I'll just take his word for it...oh and congrats to him and Tina! Woot this time it better work...I told you that you guys were closet buddies didn't I! Woot I am right! ::does dance then presses update::
~*Sam*~
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| I'm sorry...forgive me? |
[27 Aug 2003|10:54pm] |
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::is still thinking about hers and Kenny's conversation::
Whoa...I actually had a decent conversation with Kenny...he made me relize something....I cannot let people just walk all over me anymore. He also made me relize that true friends stay loyal in times like the ones I'm having right now...so thank you Brit...and I guess Kenny...woot and Officer Mikey...and ew Pierre ew ::laughs softly::
Kenny was right though...I cant let people walk all over me...I sit there and take Billy smacking me ::doesnt wants to say what shes about to say so she wont:: I mean...I will admit...the stuff he says about me being a "fucking whore"...it hurts..really badly. I never ment to hurt him...honestly...but Kenny made me relize that I just shouldnt care. It will take time but I'll try to not care.
I also should have taken into consideration of what Marshall said a few weeks back. He told me that a man should always have time for his girl...no matter what ::shrugs:: I guess he's right. I love Joel...I always will ::sighs looking at a picture of him:: Hes the only person that can hold me and stop me from crying, while telling me everything will be alright ::laughs softly trying to get rid of the tears that are in her eyes:: I was looking back at some logs...I found something...It's for Billy ::laughs softly:: Dont ask me why I'm putting this in my post but I am...I guess it's just another way to say that I'm sorry.
Once upon a time there was a young boy named Billy ::smiles:: He was only 18 and in love with a man who was 20. This mans name was...BENJI! ::giggles:: Well everytime Benji was with him...he cheated on Billy...yet Billy took him back again and again. Others didn't know why Billy took him back....but when they were together....they loved eachother deeply.
One day...after numorus times Benji had cheated on poor Billy he got up and just left. Benji just left everything. Some guitiars, clothes, CD's, but more importantly...the one he loved. He didn't know why. Hell, nobody did...he just walked out one day. And of course Billy was devastated by this...I mean who woudln't be. He thought Benji was going to come home...like he always did...but he didn't that night.
Billy got scared....it wasn't like Benji to do something like that. So he thought they were over for good. Of course they still loved eachother deeply. In their hearts that is. It hurt Billy so much to see Benji with another person and the same for Billy. They knew they needed eachother. They needed eachother to survive...to live...to love.
So finally one day...Billy told Benji that this just couldn't be. They needed to be with eachother. Benji agreed and Billy told him that Benji ever hurt him again....there were no more chances...he was out of Billy's life for good. He was sick and tired to being treated like a doormat. Benji agreed and actually never cheated again. He loved Billy and he didnt wanna fuck this time up.
::smiles:: Well soon Benji and Billy got married and they lived happily ever after. No cheating, no lying, no secrets. Just pure love. They were so happy. They didn't need anything but eachother and that was true. They loved eachother deeply and nothing would stop them from loving eachother...nothing was going to get in their way this time -the end-
::shrugs:: I hope you remembered that one ::laughs softly:: I really am sorry Billy ::nods then walks away::
~*Sam*~
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[27 Aug 2003|11:03am] |
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Blah! Everything reminds me of Joel! ::faints::
~*Sam*~
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[26 Aug 2003|12:00pm] |
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How dare you people actually do that ::is disgusted:: How can you actually be so cruel to somebody. I mean sure Benji has cheated on Billy numerous times...but who took Benji back? I mean he did thise just because he had to find out if Benji really loved him ::glares:: of course he loves you, ya skinny white bastard...thats fucking messed up...especially those of you who went with it ::shakes head:: that really hurt Benji...it hurt me too. You guys are fucked up.
~*Sam*~
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[25 Aug 2003|06:10pm] |
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Bah! I hate Benji...anyways...right now I'm talking to Ginger and hearing about her and Seb...awww their so cute together. Right now Officer Mike has rabies because I bit him and I m now his CAR WOMAN! WOOT! ::dances:: I really need to take away that gold star. Well this update was pointless...I love Joel...I want to be with him...but I cannot seeing how he is never home ::sighs:: I'm sorry Billy...and Tim...what the hell am I saying...they wont forgive me...blah...bye!
~*Sam*~
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| I'm a trend whore! |
[24 Aug 2003|07:43pm] |
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::laughs:: All right people! I'm home ::smiles:: I stole this from Brit who stols this from Billiers...so I got bored and tried it.
Nick is my hoe! Grr Nick is a manly studdmuffin ::laughs::
::looks around:: Should I be grossed out?
~*Sam*~
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WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!! Sorry about my sudden outburst...Sarah and I are at a hotel right now....and were kinda hyper...or...REALLY hyper. Billiers got mad at me today just because I mentioned the docks? Oh well..::laughs:: Sarah was just jumping on the bed and she kinda fell off and flew into the wall ::dies laughing:: We have had one to many drinks ::giggles:: Early this morning we flirted our way out of a ticket....the officer really wanted us ::laughs again:: Well I'm gonna go now...were going to jump off the roof into the pool...woooooooooooooooooooooooooooot! Night!
~*Sam*~
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[20 Aug 2003|03:13pm] |
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Ok...my friend named Sarah Whibley and I...and yes shes Deryck Wibleys little sister.....are going on a trip to...uh..we're not sure yet ::laughs:: But woot..we are going to have fun...I think...I hope. I will be on sometimes...just not as much...well I'm gonna leave tomorrow morning at 8:30! ::dies:: I cant get up that early! ::shrugs:: Oh well.....Billy...your a ass muncher ::laughs:: awww you know I love ya! Woot...I'm happy for him and Benji...woot go them. I wish Joel could get on so I could atleast tell him I'm sorry for leaving him. Blah...but whatever...toodles guys!
~*Sam*~
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| I hate people who lie |
[18 Aug 2003|10:55pm] |
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He lied! ::sobs:: Why does everybody have to lie?!?
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[17 Aug 2003|03:00pm] |
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::sighs:: Well Joel....I guess it's over between us. I cant go around being with you knowing that your loving another person the same way you loved or love me. That would mean you lied to me...::shrugs:: dont worry...everybody does...this is why I was scared of falling in love...I fell too deep for you Joel grrrr! I still want us to be friends because your a great guy...well I'm gonna go now...bye.
~*Sam*~
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[16 Aug 2003|09:36pm] |
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::sniffles:: You know...I thought I was over the whole Billy and Joel thing...but I'm not. It hurts me too much to re-read what Joel and Billy said to eachother. I mean when I asked Joel about it he just said "oh dont throw that in my face when you fucking kissed Seb"....but Joel...this is different...Seb and I were drunk...but you and Billy...you two knew what you were doing. That hurts ten times worse even saying it out loud. I mean when we first met I told you that I was scared to death about falling in love because sooner or later you would have to crash. I dont want us to crash Joel....I know I said this many times before but...I love you too much to let you go. Besides you promised me that we would always be friends...no matter what. You also promised me that you could never and would never hurt me...I guess that was a lie...but then again I think I promised it too....and I'm sorry. I told you a million times before how sorry I was about the drunken kiss incident....but blah! It's like you dont trust me anymore...and a relationship is built on trust Joel. I mean basicly you told me that we were now "even"...I had hurt you and you had hurt me...but I never told Seb I was trying to fall in love with him ::sighs:: I just wish you were around more...instead of being there for me for five or ten minutes then rushing off...I know your bust but still....I just wish you were around more. And then there is Billy ::shakes head while looking down:: Billy is like my best friend almost...I can go to him when I need good advice but now....now I dont know. After all that shit he said to me I feel like when I talk to him I'm talking to a completly different person...and that hurts me too. I mean he rants and raves about how I ruined his and Benji's marriage....I dont know but I'm beginning to think thats true...I never ment to Billy and I'm sorry. Benji...I realy need to talk to you...you will help me out if you would just come home damnit! Well I'm gonna go now...I'll talk to all of you later....night ::waves slightly::
~*Sam*~
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I thought about it...I dont think I can leave Joel. Now I know how Billy never left Benji...I love Joel with all my heart. I really need to talk to Benji...I already talked to Joel...he wasn't himself...something was different...BENJI COME HOME NOW DAMNIT!
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Blah! This is confusing...I need to talk to Benji...or Brit...or Tina!
~*Sam*~
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::sighs:: I wish Joel would come home....grrr...like right now..or at least one of those damn twins...Benji...I am not going to get up at seven in the morning so get come home later damnit...like noon or something! And Joel! ::points finger at Joel:: You just need to come home period...we have A LOT to talk about. I just want tim with my Joely! Blah! Well Billy is a great friend...even if he does love Joel...I guess I'm ok with that ::shrugs:: Tina is a great friend too...and so is Brit...I love Brit and Tina! Woot! I have changed my mind...Kenny is not as big of an ass monkey...he's actually pretty ok when you peel back the ghetto layers ::laughs:: Tasha is great too...I would do you too Tasha! ::laughs again:: Tim is a pretty good guy also...he still needs to teach me how to play the gutiar though ::pouts:: Seb is a sweetheart who is going to get some Tasha booty but only if he stops being to shy ::nudges Seb playfully:: Chuck...you better not kill yourself...I cant let you go with STACY'S MOM! ::dies:: And Lars...well he can run me over anyday. Joel is my heart...I love him deeply and it's scary...I never thought I could love somebody as much as I love him ::blushes:: Now Benji ::shakes head:: Benji is my little reble rule breaking Benji the butthole ::smiles:: Dont ask...and I guess I'm his happy ass? Blah...well I'm getting really hungry and Joel or Benji better be on later or tomorrow damnit! Well bye people and I love you all! Woot! ::blows kisses:: Night!
~*Sam*~
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