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wowowow [25 Jun 2004|10:31pm]
Havent updated in a very long time!!! Lol...well i think i may update more often in here! lol...well i really just watned to put in here 22 days until i go to germany !!!! woot woot! we gota diggi cam i love it!! lol well ill udate more later!!
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Depressed again [19 Apr 2004|02:50pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | heaven...bryan adams *sighs* ]

Well Im depressed again for something some of you may know *sighs* but its just today...*sighs*
WHEN WHEN WHEN??? WILL??? WILL??? WILL???? I????????????? I?????????? grrr

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GRRRRR [19 Apr 2004|02:49pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Heaven- Bryan Adams *sighs* ]

one more thing....today im even more depressed because of something...not saying what but some of you may know!!!! *sighs*

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GRRRRR [19 Apr 2004|02:49pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Heaven- Bryan Adams *sighs* ]

one more thing....today im even more depressed because of something...not saying what but some of you may know!!!! *sighs*

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GRRRRR [19 Apr 2004|02:25pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Heaven- Bryan Adams *sighs* ]

havent updated in awhile... I planned on having a really really long entry but...its not gona work because the internet is hoeing me!!! It says error!!!! but I will try!!!!!!!!!! Melanie just came in :-D it made me feel a bit special...oh i gota remember to ask her something lol...eneways....well yea, i broke up with james *am* break ups arent fun...i seriously if i could i would never ever go out with anyone just because I dont want my heart to hurt..Its sooo not fuN!!! My heart hurts so bad...Im not doubting that his doesnt...but I just wish something or someone would say that this wont hurt...but then we wouldnt be humans if it didnt hurt...I dont think that my hurt has hurt this bad b4....*sighs* I am going to try to talk to him tonight but i dont know forsure If i will be able to because i really need sometime to think I have had the whole weekend before this but that really didnt count because I was having fun...but now comes the time where i get to be *drum roll please*
DEPRESSED *WOOT*WOOT* my usual feeling...I really want james to know that I would still like to be his friend..But he doesnt want to be friends...I really dont want to depart on bad terms...But *prays* hopefully it ownt be hopefully we can still be friends...Well im just really confused...I hope that I will get hired for the Library...Im gona see if mom will drive me over and I can see if they looked at my app. I hope they did...anything is better than BK....I wish I could work at KOA but i really dont want to be a Maintence person...thats no fun...plus of my allergies...I am not suppose to be outside with all that crap in the air... I am very sad though cus of all this shit...plus yesterday was an emotinal day but also on Saturday...we *Sabrina, Michelle, and I* took Steffen back to the airport...we got to go to the gate with him though A30!! lol...but it was fun but sad because Sabrina and Steffen were hugging for about 10 mins... and never let go and just talked in Ferman and they BOTH cried I was suprised that Steffen cried...I didnt think he would...but he did!! But all in all we had fun on break because of them...and My party was on Friday...it was really fun alot of my friends got to come and it was very special we played DDR and Twister Movesa...btw twister moves sucks...dont buy it its not worth any of ure moneys...I wouldnt recommend it...Well Holly helped me yesterday...But the person who helped me the most is Jakiepoo...THANX JAKE!! i love you!! you helped me alot yesterday and I really appricated it...Im here for you too...I will call him tonite too... I might be going with my dad today. I really dont want to but its just because I really would like to actually do something with him. And he will bring up he paid for the trip to the inn..well..yea, but we OFFEREED AND WERE GOING TO! well im going to go because i thought it was earlier and i had more time but i odnt i gota get off the radio!!! ahhhH!! lol well ill try to update but dont count on it...*sighs* someone help me!! helfen mir!!!!!

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je t'aime holly toujours!! [28 Feb 2004|10:37pm]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | Hey!! big spender!! ]

Holly [10:33 PM]: youre a cute machine!@
Holly [10:34 PM]: that i dont even need to put quarters in!



ISNT THAT JUST SO CUTE??? lol
i wish holly lived closer we would have so much fun together its not fair!! *cries* lol

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:-/ :'( :( [27 Jan 2004|10:07pm]
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grr [31 Dec 2003|12:17am]
grr i love my best friend no matter what!
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awwww i feel so special~! [24 Dec 2003|10:48pm]
read this!
I love you Matt, stay strong honey- xoxo
my friend jessica put this in her profile! i think that is so sweet! no one has ever done that for me today!!!! Well im bored its christmas eve! And i cant get a hold of james i wanna talk to him! grrr! where did he go? :-/ well ttyl! Merry Christmas!
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[21 Dec 2003|11:03pm]
[ mood | Very depressed ]
[ music | My Immortal- Evanescence ]

Dying sounds fun again!!! i just wish this time it would happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just wish so many things in this life!

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Friends [09 Dec 2003|08:27pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Paycheck preview ]

Friendship is a big topic with so many +s and -s. My friends are almost all good. I learned today though that 2 had betrayed me. Im sick of this happening. Friends are suppose to be there for you. But atleast i got to talk to one of them that i havent in forever!!! Thanx Jake. Even though he wont see this.
I heard something today that really got me pissed. Well not really pissed but upset. :-/ o well who cares?

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Well....... [09 Dec 2003|06:51pm]
Well last nite wuz terrible... Can't begin to explain. Just wuz. I feel really odd tonite. I wish that i could explain But i cant. Sorry all lol. I really dont feel like typing tonite. But yea, im mad at sum1 who is suppposibly a gr8 friend n all. I think this is the last straw. Actually Ill give her one more chance n thats it! Sorry dont feel like talking
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*sighs* [08 Dec 2003|10:59pm]
Dying sounds fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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PEOPLE [01 Dec 2003|05:46pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | Selina Transforms ]

PEOPLE PISS ME OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but one thing good happend today :-D it made me smile!! but thats it!

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Gosh [30 Nov 2003|09:28pm]
Gosh i cant wait for schoool to start toomrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT!!!!!!!!!! its gona be a fucking horrible day! i can already tell my nite is going all bad. and wrong. GRR well aghh well who cares! its only little matt. Grr well talk to you all l8er who really care!
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grr [30 Nov 2003|09:03pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | NONE ]

I feel like i wanna scream and run away! Too much going on! I wish there was some answer! :-/

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:-/ [30 Nov 2003|09:01pm]
:-/!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Depression [28 Nov 2003|11:17am]
[ mood | pessimistic ]
[ music | Selina Transforms-catwoman! one thing i can smile about! ]

Well not that anyone really reads this or is really intereseted in my life enemore. But I may not be updating for a very long while. I know what your all thinking those few of you that actually read this. He hasnt updated in forever now? whats the big deal? Well things arent going good right now at home. My home life isnt so good. Everyone always said 'oh matt you have the best home life' considering my life n all. But its not good right now were kinda going through a big family crisis. I am very confused my mom is. Everyone is. I am going to ask her if i can go back to my counselor. Cause i need to talk him. But things really really arent going well. I really am confused. My mom is. And we wont be here for a while id say for the weekend maybe the next week. But most definelty the weekend mostlylikely longer. I may be able to write and keep the few of you that are interested updated. But, If you want to know more or just wanna talk. It would be most greatly appricated. Call my cell fone PLEASE im begging someone to. 810 357 7674. I am going to also lose the interenet for awhile as i failed geometry. I know that not me to fail a class but i did. Well techinically the teacher said its not failing. Well a 63% is failing to me. Some of you who may read this may think im just a baby and want attention. But right now im very frantic and confused. :-/ sometime hopefully soon. My life will get back on track. GRR Well I gota go pack. Talk to you all later. Comments and espcially fone calls would be greatly appricated. Thanks to everyone who helps or tries to help. Remember you maybe able to help someone but u will never know until you TRY. ~mct~ :-/ on a side not....if u wanna know my feelings...watch Batman Returns! and watch when Selina *catwoman* comes home for hte SECOND time and she goes NUTS. thats how i feel! and i am listening to the music! lol. well its one thing that will make me laugh...
HELP

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HEY [26 Nov 2003|09:05pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | dream-he loves you not ]

Well, this will be an extremely intersting thanksgiving! For many reasons. Well, cant really describe it. Well I havent updatedin a long time for various reasoins.. but i dont have time to update grrokeen!!! ttyl i <3 jsm

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YES!!!!!!!!!! [29 Oct 2003|05:17pm]
[ mood | geeky ]
[ music | Here without you- 3 doors down ]

I am actually happy today! I learned in speech that i will be able to do my musical pantomine on the song i wanna do!!! I will be doing Selina Transforms! im so happy! i know it so well! lol your all probably pointing and luaghing cus its so funny looL! but im happy :-D go catwoman! lol!! and my song finally d/led ! yes! im happy today finally! lol!
hopefully itll stay!

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