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Reviews abound!!! [26 Mar 2005|01:28am]
[ mood | touched ]
[ music | the sound of thunder... damn storm ]

OK! It's been over a month since I posted anything in this journal, but I am trying. The day after the party (last entry) I slept until about 3:00 and woke up without a hangover. I was energetic the rest of the day, which helped because that week ended up being a cram week at school, and I got a lot of studying in. In addition, I took a trip to Houston about 2 weeks ago for Texas 2K5, the Toyota Supra Nationals. No, I don't own a Supra, but I have friends who do. It was fun, and I came back just as crispy as the Colonel's fried chicken :-D. The week after that, this past week in fact, just happened to be another cram week... so i'm running on empty again. Here I am, however. I decided that since I have no where else to review the stuff I watch, I might as well do it here! Anyways, prepare for mass amounts of information on everything you never wanted to know about anime!

First of all, I'll start off fresh... the anime I watched tonight, I'd like to say I finished. Unfortunately, this week marked the release of the 24th episode, and it's not yet done. In relation and hype for this piece of artistic candy, I wll not mention the name 'till later. Anyways, this series was, and still is, very special for me. I'm of the persuasion that it's alright to cry if something is sad. In fact, I also believe, personally, that a true man should be able to cry... if he isn't he might as well not have the emotional capacity. What I have seen of this show has made me cry 3 times, it pulls the emotions out of me so well. Full Metal Alchemist and Chobits (two of my very favorite for emotional content) could only make me feel sad or sorry enough for the characters to cry once, while this series has succeeded in drawing the emotion out of me forcefully 3 times. The name of it is My-HiME... An anagram comprised of english words, to make up the japanese honorific for princess (ex Mononoke-Hime means Princess Mononoke). The HiMEs go about their daily lives, dealing with their powers, and must eventually combat enemies and even themselves. The key thing about it is that when the HiME is defeated, the "Person most dear to them" dies on the spot. The main character loses her sickly little brother, and her boyfriend-to-be through these defeats, but she never lost. Everytime her loved one disappeared, I cried. Now, thanks to episode 24, I will always cry when I hear the ending theme, because the lyrics make a fuckload more sense when you know how it ends up. Anyways, due the the excelence of the plot, and the ability to draw out my emoions, this series gets my highest award, and a spot in my all time favorites.

Next comes something I saw about a week ago. It is comprised of 12 episodes, 1 OAV, and 1 episode Sequel (which happens to be hentai) called Green Green. Essentially, there is this school secluded in the mountains. It is an all-boys school... but it won't be for much longer. Think integration of the 1960's, only MARGINALLY less violent (watch for the hammer!!!), freshman-age girls instead of African Americans, and more funny. In other words, girls come to the school as part of a merging effort and stay for a month. In this time, there is much debauchery from the many inhabitants... but one of the girls has a secret, she somehow knows one of the boys from her past, and loves him. Much of the anime is about them trying to get along while he keeps getting into misunderstood spots and scrapes with his crass friends... much like any other "Harem" series. This one, however, ends on a sad note, and is worth mentioning that it also made me cry... a little bit. The OAV was basically a precursor, where the boys were instead visiting the girl's school... and hijinks ensued. It's only one episode, and is much cleaner (although still quite close to hentai IMO) than the series. Also, even though I don't normally watch hentai, this series was left incomplete... and the hentai sequel (actually an unaired 13th episode for obvious reasons) brings closure to the series. It should be a special exception... with all anime, you can see boobs and nipples... however most everything else is censored so the worst thing in the episode is either the breasts or the moaning, whichever way you look at it. Overall, I did enjoy the series. It could have been longer though. It is a perverted romantic comedy, and it succeeds at what it is meant to do.

Again with the reviews right? Well, I gotta make my opinion known :-P. I suppose I can review something else now. The last two were dramatic romance an comedic romance, respectively. Now to take another direction, and go with a straight action / drama. You might, by now, have heard of a series named Gunslinger Girl. It's a bunch of girls that the government of Italy found dying, and decided to experiment on. They gave them robotic appendages, and erased much of their original memory as a side effect. The girls are then given to older people (most often men) for training in the arts of assassination. The girls are taught to love their masters (whom they all end up being summarily obsessed with) and to protect them no matter what. The story is centered around one specific girl, and her master, who is different than the others. He treats her with dignity and respect. He is kind and acts like a brother. The others mostly treat their girls like tools, sharpening their skills with weapons even if they suck at social matters. The series on the whole is fair. The story is inspired, but moves slowly and can make you want to sleep at certain points. The animation and soundtrack is top notch, however, so if the sweet stuff is your thing, enjoy. The story itself, as i mentioned earlier, moves slowly. For me it got interesting about episode 10... and it's only 13 episodes long. It goes without saying that the series ends abruptly, and could have been drawn out longer. There are still things that need answering, as there wasn't a real feeling of closure like a person would expect.

Next up, old gone new! If you know anything of anime, you probably know of "Ah! Megami-Sama"... translated as AH! My Goddess. It was a 5 episode OAV made in the late 90's, and a side story to the manga of the exact same name. It was excellent, especially for a 5 episode long series. This series has been ressurected recently, as a full-length anime series fit for TV. The new series follows what happens in the manga, pretty much to a 'T'. The basis of the story is a 19 year old boy living with his sempais (teachers or elders) in their motor club HQ. He is pitiful in view, but has a pure soul, and a kind disposition. He calls someone, and gets something called the "Goddess Hotline". At that moment, something appears from the mirror, and says it will grant him any wish he chosses. His wish: that a girl like her will stay with him for the rest of his life. From this moment on, the goddess Belldandy is bound to Mr. Morisato Keiichi. The rest of the series (11 episodes at this point, and recently liscenced in America) is right with the manga, putting Keiichi and Belldandy through the gauntlet muh like any other romantic comedy. However, the voice actors are superb at conveying a broad range of emotions, separating this anime from all the others like it. In addition, the original AMG had amazing animation, especially for something of it's time. The trend is not broken. The TV series has some of the most excellent animation you will find today. The music is so-so, but it's mostly folk-type music, so I can't rate it. To me, this anime is engaging, funny, and heartfelt. I have not yet sen it all, but it is already in my all time favorites list in OAV form, so why not add the TV series too? Hell, I can already tell it's going to end awesomely.

That's all for now... I typed a lot of shiz, and will probably wake up tomorrow with carpal tunnel :-P. Anyways, I plan on finishing some more reviews tomorrow, as well as having another series done with. Until next time (not necesarilly tomorrow), remember one thing - Anime can teach you many things. Learn from the main character's mistakes... NEVER, EVER touch the woman's chest unless you're in bed... you will get the hammer X-D

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...Update? Whats That? [25 Feb 2005|11:57pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]
[ music | who needs mucis when youve got ANIME!!! ]

*GASP!!!* OMGOMGOMG, DID HE UPDATE? Yes, he did. Its about time for a good old flame. Now, this isnt a flame meant for a specific person, more like a flame for the entire BitTorrent Community... Surely, if you happen to have a fast connection to the internet and use something like BitTorrent, you know what I will be talking about. Out of all my BitTorrent Activity, 99.9% of it is Anime Fansubs (the other .1% being the 2 times i've downloaded (tried to) Linux Fedora Core 3). Anywys, I have noticed something that is very prevalent among sub groups with older files... leeching. For those not familiar with he term, leechers are people who count on a high swarm of seeds to feed them the file fast, so they wont have to upload / share. Now, when youre trying to leech something like... say... the new episode of Naruto or Ah My Goddess... the swarm can usually be nearly 3k seeds and 2k leechers on the debut day... this is a time when leaching is OK by me. There are plenty of seeds fo everyone, so no one gets left out of the game. However, then there are only 5 seds in the torrent and 15 leechers above 50%, you wont get a fast speed unless you TOO are sharing. Thats the way it works. Now, if every leech in the swarm (applying to people who don havethe entire file yet) decide to not upload and effectively "leech" (meaning download and not share) the speed of the torrent can come to a near complete stop for some... like me! There are only s many seeds, and they can only seed t so many people at a time. I'm looking at a torrent now, and m upload to other people is actually 1/2 of the TOTAL speed of the torrent... meaning i'm uploading at 50 kbps, and the total speed is only 100 kbps... including my 1.5 kbps download speed. Stupid leechers will not help the BitTorrent community. When will people learn that the Law of Equivalence applies not only to alchemy (Reference to Full Metal Alchemist) but also to file sharing, especially as a whole. I mean hell, its not like the fansub has been licensed yet, so you will NOT get in trouble with anyno for sharing... except maybe your girlfriend if youre sharing Hentai... Anyways, thats my rant for the nest week... now here are my plans for this weekend...

Eric made plans with Laura (theyre now broken up BTW... no post was made for that) to go downtown and do something Saturday... and he'll probably either work or be with her all day Sunday. So, I have taken up an invitation to a party. Not a lan party, not a role-play party... a REAL party. This will be my first party - ever. I must say, I'm a little anxious, whilst also a litle scared. Anxious because I get to go do something a normal person would do, instead of staying home all weekend and doing geek things (not that theres aything wrong with them, but you gotta understand the need to do something different every once in a while...) and scared because, well, I have social anxiety disorder. It's not been officially medically diagnosed, but I can tell. When I get into a conversation, my heart rat speeds up, I sweat, and I can't talk... its most of the reason that im so quiet everywhere I go. Unless I know someone (as in well enough to know a topic to talk about) I will not talk to them, at least not any farther than saying hi. Further, if the topic shifts to something I dont understand, I just sit there and dont say anything. I am shut up in my room, away from the world... I'm like a Jedi - removed from the events of a world. I dont know anything about pop-culture unless youre talking about Rock... I know a little about cars, but not enough to get in depth with most of my firend's firends. I know a shitload about computers and programming and games, but those things wont get you laid or popular, the get you beat up and thrown out... not to mention most people dont want to talk about those things. They'd rather talk about something from the news or the media o something like that. At least there will be one way I can feel at home. I can't say there won't be something to drink at the place... I pitched in to help provide entertainment, and I plan on making the party something memorable - my first time drunk. I know what type of drunks my friends are... Eric is a funny drunk, Ray is a quiet Drunk (completely opposite his normal...). My brother Charles I think would be a stoner drunk... feeling hungry, and haveing uncontrollable laughter at th stupidest things - I've seen him drunk before, thats what he was like. I only have to wonder what i'll b like. Will I be funny? Will I be quiet? Will I be Loud and Sociable? Will I be horny? I have no idea... but we all plan on finding out tomorrow night. Until sometime Sunday, Peace Out.

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Sparse Entries Begin! [18 Jan 2005|07:15pm]
[ mood | working ]
[ music | Ayumi Hamasaki (JDM Music :-D) ]

Well, it's now a full week into the daily grind. I realize now, I won't have all that much time this semester to do "extra" acivities. In fact, I have to go to 4 special events for a single class, not to mention write 4 page papers for each of those events. I have a lot of extra reading to do in addition to all of that. This will probably be my last unimprotant entry until something noteworthy happens, or until the end of the semester. Until then, I'd like to say that all college and public school-age people have a great (yeah right) semester. I'm out.

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Mysterious!! [09 Jan 2005|10:11am]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | Chevelle - The Red ]

Well, here it is. The next day. Check the last entry, you'll find Eric somehow popped back up on my Buddy List. The evidence is somewhat clearer now, and I'm quite thankful... even though it's only a bit less murky than before. The clearing up was from a message he left me. Right now im in debate as to whether this message should stay a private one betweer two people, or if I should post it where I might be able to get an opinion. Why would I need an opinion? The message is not very long... in fact, its probably a couple of lines in Word. This message gives insight in explicitly told things, and leaves me even more mystery than before on others. There were the explicits...

1. Eric was not ignoring me.
2. He isn't ready to talk.
3. Mad at me, doesn't know why.
4. No strength to work with problems.
5. I *WAS* off his list...

As for the cryptic hints and allusions... I have some idea of what to think... I know that at least one of them has to be wrong, but it will be listed.

1. Says to talk to Neil about some things, and that relations will turn bad between them if not done.

Well... last time I checked, Eric and Neil had no relations. Hell, I know Eric was invited over twice on Neil's last visit up... but I can't remember if he ever came. I also know that it was an uphill battle for a certain person to make him put Neil on his Buddy List. I'd also like to state that I'm not the only one off the list. I think Neil is too.

2. Says that the Neil thing isn't the problem between me and Laura, says he's sure we used the time to talk to each other.

...So many things in this message were probably meant to test me. Yes, I have talked to her. When I can't talk to him, she is the next best thing... the only other person I know that would talk to him on a regular basis. She's also a cool person to talk to, and I really don't have enough of those. Hell, she even got one of my crypticly impossible jokes. Nobody EVER gets my wierd jokes... Further, he *DID* lie to her about attempting to contact me. If he's not ready to talk to me, and even waited for me to go away and idle to give me a message (proably so I wouldn't reply), then he wouldn't have attempted a call. I know him, he's not the kind to change his mind on a topic such as this like that.

Now, for new reasoning. He says he's mad, and that he doesn't know why. One simple remark at that. BULLSHIT. That's like the comment a guy would usually use to say he loved his girlfriend (Words cannot express how much I love you). Its a statement made to dodge the situation so that he doesn't have to deal with it right now... at least that's what I gather from it. He also says he doesn't have the strength to work shit out. I don't exactly know why not, as this is now becoming a big issue with me. I can say something else about it. I am going back to school Monday, I am still working in my off days, I have other things and problems to deal with too. Hell, when I went to pay my tuition Friday, I met someone from my past that I used to have strong feelings for and now she is in my head again, taunting me with her wiles and beautiful smile. If I have the strength through all that, even through having to go car searching on a particularly crappy market, then he should have the strength to work it out.

I have other things to say, but I won't make light of them until he settles these issues with me. Until next time.... goodbye.

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UPDATE! X2 [09 Jan 2005|12:59am]
[ mood | amused ]

Well... just about 10 minutes after I successfully update (why does everyone and their dog update at midnight?) I get unblocked by eric. Thats right, UNBLOCKED. Therefore, I withdraw all prevoius comments about ending or friendship.... even thoguh thats what it seemed like. He is still away, however, so I'll have to wait until tomorrow for an explination.

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LAN Party / Eric Events... [08 Jan 2005|07:25am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | *Silence* ]

Well, I just got back from a LAN party. It was a fairly large gathering for a local event, about 20-25 ppl. I didn't play many games, however. Most of my time was spent helping make sure the network was working or giving some fansub anime ep's to a guy who wanted them. I feel sorry for Billy, though. He supplied almost all the switches and cables. Too bad his computer was haaving spasms when running. Every other clock, the CPU usage spiked. He couldn't do anything, even play Tribes.

As for the situation with Eric, I heard from both Neil and Laura taht he tried calling me to work out issues earlier yesterday. I never got a call or voicemail, however. That, and he's still got me blocked. A part of me wants to believe he tried to call and work the issues. Another part, however, cautions because he might just say that to appease Laura. In the end, only time will tell.

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good food, crappy times [04 Jan 2005|10:23pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]
[ music | JAPANESE FOOD GOOD!!! ]

Well, I guess a previous entry pissed Eric off... it seems that yesterday at 12:35 AM, he logged off AIM. He hasn't been back on my activity log yet. However, I contacted the g/f, Laura, and found out that he was actually ON!!! It seems that he was pissed enough to block me. If it was the "New Years Flame of 2004" that did it, I guess he didnt see the apology. Also, he needs to see it from my POV. If i'd have ditched him, he definetly would have held it against me. In fact, he'd proally still be pissed...

On a lighter note, I went out to eat at a very cool restauraunt tonight. The actual name that is displayed, I cannot list... the first two characters are in Japanese. The arabic alpha translation of them is "Kami". So, the name of the restauraunt is "Kami Kaze", directly translated as "Divine Wind"... aka Typhoon. As if you couldn't tell from the name, the name of the game there is Japanese cuisine. Thats right, not food... cuisine. The atmosphere of the place was probably the best part.the floor is nice natural wood, and the entryway is broken stone. They have a real sushi bar, a bridge and stone garden... the works. The waiters and waitresses are quite knowledgeable about the cuisine they server, and even some Japanese culture. They're also very nice and becoming. As for the cuisine... wow. I had the Miso Smoked Salmon... damn that was a good meal. In fact, the word "SUGOI" describes it perfectly. Everything was great. The salmon was so tender and savory that i could cut it with my chopsticks. Then, there were these kelp rolls with them. For my first time eating true Japanese food, i'd say the rolls were awesome. Hell, even the steamed rice was perfect. In Asian countries, rice is a staple dish. In American restauraunts that i've been to, I haven't EVER had rice cooked taht perfectly. Ever. For desert, they had some ice creams that i didn't get to try, a tiramisu, and a fried ball of vanilla ice cream. The fried ice cream was really good, but the tiramisu was astounding. It was smooth, rich, and creamy. Most people make the coffee taste too strong, or make the batter too rich to finish the helping. I woofed this sucker down in a couple minutes. Not too rich, but not lacking... and like I said, smooth all the way down.

The restauraunt is actually new to the area, just a few weeks old. In fact, they are in thei grand opening stage right now. Personally, I would encourage anyone who is a fan of asian cuisine, or anyone anywhere, to visit this restauraunt and give it a try. A fair warning... the prices are HIGH, with appetizers hitting almost $9, and entrees of up to $21 a plate. I'd definetly eat there before a steak joint though, and the prices are comprable.

The location of this joint is actually also quite convinient, if not a little out of place. It's a very upscale looking place, right between Hooters and the Sports Cafe on Restauraunt Row in Mesquite. Anyone from the DFW area probably knows the general area i'm talking about, an would find it easily by the out of place "AK JAPANESE" sign out in front. As mentioned before, GO HERE NOW!!! Give them your business, keep them up and running. In fact, go now so you can try it while you can still get in. They're going into the paper soon as a new place to go, so soon it will be packed... at least if they have the good stuff, it will be. Also, if you're not going to go try it, at least pray for it or something. I'd like to see something as different as that succeed in that area of town. I know from my experience that i'll probably go back at least once a month until they get shut down (hopefuly they won't ever go)

Until next time, ITEKIMASU!! (I hoep i spelled that right...)

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Apology and Realizations [02 Jan 2005|01:46pm]
Well, it's been two days since my best friend stood me up on New Year's Eve. I have to say, i'm quit over it now. There is also something else I have to say, though. I am sorry that I took the situation so hard. I really shouldn't have. One of the things that I said was that I expected him to ditch me for Laura, so then why was I so pissed about it? I was just sour about having to sit at home on the last holiday of 2004 with nothing to do, much like i did on... well, heres a list:

1. St. Valentine's Day - What am I gonna do? I probably had plans with Eric to drown in my sorrows at not havin a girlfriend to do anything with. He, however, made his move on Laura, the current g/f, on this day. How romantic, asking a girl out on Valentine's day. I believe i'll be doing the same thing this year, too. Languishing at school, then coming home and being sad because I don't have anyone to call MY significant other.

2. My Birthday - This becomes less of an event every year. For my sweet 16th, 3 years ago, I literally did nothing. This year, I had cake with family, opened presents, and that was it. No friends that I remember, no good times or permanent memories, nothing. Hell, that holiday (Cinco De Mayo is my Birthday) has always been shitty for me anyways.

3. 4th of July - Nothing. Eric went to the lake with his parents, and Neil had already moved to Houston. Can't remember if I knew Ray or not... yes I did. He was out shooting fireworks and probably getting half-drunk too :-P. That's ok, though. The 4th is still fun to me. It's Valentine's Day that I hate the most.

4. Halloween - Sat at home and played games. Woohoo. No friends, no family, just me in my secluded saftey-blanketed area with my Uber-PC, GameCube, and PS2.

5. Thanksgiving - More of the same. Games, family dinner, games. No good conversational pieces came from me, and I didn't talk when the subject came to something I knew nothing about. That's why I don't enjoy holidays taht involve family gatherings. No one else is into what I am... no one else likes Anime, Games, Computers, and Car Audio enough to bring them up as a conversation topic. So I just go back to my room and eat, while watching some of that nice anime I love sooo much.

6. Christmas - Same as thanksgiving, only I did take part in a conversation. About my poor car. Other than that, Same old, same old.

7. New Years - In my other entry, you can find out about what I was doing, in detail. Read it.

OK, so... what was the meaning of the title? Well, I already made the apology. That extends to Eric, which I haven't had a good conversation with since last year :D and Laura, who I seemed mad at just because she was participating in it. If either of them see this page, they might be mad at me. Hell, I was mad at her and could still talk to her like normal... kinda freaky. Anywho, like I said, apologies extend to those I have humiliated or belittled with the prior entries noew to be known as "The New Years Flame, 2004"

So, onto that second word in the topic. Realizations... now what can that mean? Lemme tell ya real quick. I realized through this little ordeal what my major problem was. I rely on a single friend for all my social entertainment. That is a major shortcoming on my part. Being shy doesn't help at all with the making of friends. My core group of friends from High School split me from the group shortly after graduation. Travis, Lee, Jason... I never talk to them anymore because they quit inviting me over to roleplay. Neil, my only other cose friend besides Eric, left for Houston to live with his dad. We were also on bad terms when he left, due to a little misunderstanding. It's cleared up now, and we're friends again. But, that still leaves me with one less friend close by. I had friends at Target when I worked there, Zach and Justin. They were both from school too. I am still in contat frequent enough with Justin, but Zach just kinda quit talking to me. Guess he doesn't like me anymore. I also had other friends at Target, ones that I would talk to every day I saw them. Unfortunately for me, I never did anything extracurricular with them. I have only one old friend I have exempted thus far... Billy. After I started working for Raytheon, I got an IM from Billy. We started talking, saw we were still friends, i guess, and he invited me to an anime convention with him, his sister, his g/f, and Justin. Oh, and it wasn't wierd being there with him and his g/f.... they didn't hang on each other. I was surprised, i thought that was what they all did o.O... Anyways, The only friends I have left are Ray, which I didn't know really well until about August or September, and didn't start doing anything with until recently, and Eric, Laura, and Andrew. Go through that entire list. Of all the people mentioned, I have talked to the following last week: Andrew, Eric, Laura, Ray, Neil, Justin. A mere 6 friends in contact with me over the entire span of a week. This is where the realization comes from. Only Eric was ever free, in the past, to do anything with. Andrew is only 16, he can't drive or do anything without his parents interfering. Justin doesn't drive, and usually just sits at home like me, playing games and wathing fansubs. Neil is usually in Houston. Laura was always either at work or with Eric ... and I would NEVER hang out wth her alone. Eric gets jealous too easily, and he'd kill me. Ray has a life. That is why I am always here, usually being bored to death. Now, apologies and realizations aside, Eric could have taken this into account and tried to make some time for us to do something... then again, he's lazy just like all the rest of us guys are.

Well, time to go play my games. At least I had fun last night. It should hold me over for about a week.
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A Fine Night Out [02 Jan 2005|03:18am]
[ mood | rejuvenated ]
[ music | Nothing, Sound Isn't Working (DAMNIT x2!!) ]

Well, I learned from last night. No more turning down Ray when he says for me to come do something fun. I'd have to say that tonight was one of my best nights in a long time. I had fun, didn't have to see a g/f hang off my best friend all night, didn't argue over what game to play or what movie to watch (actually a movie arguement DID take place.... too bad choice #8 won... :-P) AND... blowing shit up is fun as hell, even if i'm not too drunk to remember it.

Here's the breakdown...
1. Applebee's - First time I've ever payed for a steak. BUT, man, lemme tell ya, it don't taste nearly as good as a free one. Still yummy though, and dinner was full of laughs. Talked about Ray's birthday party, and the New Year's Eve party that I missed out on (DAMNIT!!). Also got to experience Liz's fine driving (1. Liz is Ray's sister. 2. She says her driving is scary... guess she's never been with someone when they're getting sideways...)

2. Fireworks (Part 1) - More of Liz's mad driving skillz. Stop by a stand, spent $7 on fireworks. Artillery shells, roman candles, and 2 packs of bottle rockets were the highlights. The best were the Artillery Shells. Fireworks was fun, till some stupid-ass people called the cops. Had to leave or get a ticket... smarter choice was apparent. Quick observation: ALWAYS RTFM ON FIREWORKS WHEN YOU'VE NEVER PLAYED WITH EXPLOSIVES BEFORE... I should be dead by now, I shot off 3 Artillery Shells before putting them in their tubes... oops :-D

3. Fireworks (Part 2) - Went to one of their friend's places, and finished off the fireworks. One more conclusion: cheap roman candles suck ballz, so do little itty-bitty M60's. Bottle Rockets are fun, however... even the cheap ones. Also, mud and fireworks are not a pleasant mix. All of our shoes were covered by the time we were through. It was all worth it, though... except for those DAMN ROMAN CANDLES!!!

4. Movie: Darkness - The movie experience was ok. Sat in theatre, made 2 comments before it started. Watched about 5-10 minutes of black screen while the projector boy decided to stop whacking off and start the movie previews. At the end of the previews, I remember saying to myslef "DAMNIT, WHERE'S MY DAMN STAR WARS EPISODE 3 TRAILER!?!?!" My synopsis on the movie: Good plot twists, but not enough of them to keep the movie interesting and exciting. The movie to see was a toss-up between a comedy and horor/suspense film. In the end, the moviefone number (8) was what was randomly picked. Liz really seemed like she wasnted to see the movie. Too bad she slept through the last hour. I was probably the only person (yeah right) who stayed awake through the entire thing. For a suspense/horror flick, it sure was slow and dull. "OOOHHHH, THE DARKNESS IS COMING!!!! RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!!!" Ugh, what a shitty movie. Never have a toss-up that depends on the moviefone number again.

5. The Drive Home - Well, with the night coming to a quick end, we took Christian back to his car (which was left about 40 minutes away from the theatre) with relative human silence. The same old music from the radio permeated the air. After dropping him off, it was time to take me home. And off we went. Again with the human silence and permeation of the more common music.

Well, out of all the bitching i've done lately, I can say that Ray has been the only friend to take me out and show me a good time. I know of another friend that would have done the same, but he won't be in till tomorrow... SORRY NEIL!!! Anyways, like I said. Through all my bitching about shitty music (you'd have to have been there to get this joke...) , boring movies, and lousy roman candles... I had a lot of fun. When I got out of Liz's car at my sidewalk, my exact words were "Thanks for the ride, and thanks for a great night. I really enjoyed it." Unfortunately for me, I don't think that those words quite sum it up. Saying thanks, like saying "I Told You So", just don't quite cut it. I was having a shitty day, my dad didn't come. I was having a shitty start to a new year. Ray, his little sis Liz, and his friend Christian solved that problem. I was down and depressed just 8 hours ago. With a dinner, a movie, and explosives, i'm cured. Words can't express what I feel at this. A simple "thank you" is not sufficient. But, alas, it will have to do. I hope that all three of them see this eventually. They deserve all the thanks that I can give tonight.

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An Idiosyncratic Routine [01 Jan 2005|09:52am]
OK, I'm over the "i've been forgotten again" syndrome. I no longer care. I'm tired of trying to keep up with Eric and his hectic schedules, his time he'll make for his g/f but not his best friend that he's known longer. I'm just tired, in fact. I've never actually felt truly apathetic about anything. I've never felt like I didn't care about something that was presented to me. Well, it's time to change that. I know he doesn't want to lose a friend because he can't make time for me, but thats right where it's heading. I spent time with him, stayed up until 3 in the morning when i'd have to be up at 5 for work. I've tried my hardest to make the friendship work and continue being of benefit to me and him. But, alas, I am tired of trying when he won't. Heheh, I sound like a wife who's pissed at her hubby. Oh well, i've got other things to worry about then just his situation with me. For those who know (not many) the situation I have with my father isn't exactly all that great. Him and my mom divorced when I was young, and I grew up without a real father figure... that explains why I think more like a woman - I wasn't raised to think like a guy. Anyway, about 3 months before Christmas, he called my mom and told her he wasn't giving us christmas presents this year or ever again because we didnt call him or visit or anything like that. I myself, I had a good reason. Always working and going to school left no time for 2 hour drives and 2 day visits to Fort Wort over the weekend. Now that I have a new job, no longer working at Target, I have time. I just don't wanna see him. When I turned 18, he told me he was gonna oull my child support from my mom, but that he'd send me money every month to help support me or give me some fun money. I never saw a dime from that promise. When I entered UTD, he told me to forget about my tuition problems, that he'd pay the 1000+ dollars that I needed. He paid 100 dollars, and I nearly had my classes cancelled before I could pay in total by myself. Now, he calls on Christmas day and says taht he'll be coming over New Years Day with our christmas presents. Here it is, Christmaas day. I wonder if this will be another promise broken...?
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HAPPY NEW YEAR... and... stuffz... yeah [01 Jan 2005|12:11am]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | nothing ]

Ok, look at the title... YEAH! Happy New Year everyone. My karma sucked way too much last year, so i;m really glad to see it go. Hopefully 2005 will be a good year to me. Now, on to the normal flame that now categorizes my sparse amount of entries. Hell, it's even about the most pooular topic in the entries so far, the best friend. Now to explain and flame, flame on.

OK, so its like Christmas day or something like that. The 23rd, I was in a bad wreck. My poor Accord is probably totalled, i'm still waiting to find out. I myself should be in traction it looks like, but somehow I make it out of a sticky situation with minimal injuries. Anywho, I called him for the usual... greet, merry x-mas, etc... He asks m how I feel, I say crappy. Bout bow it would usually go. Now, later this week, maybe sunday or monday, he told me he would be off on friday and saturday, and that we should have one of those old-fashioned gaming nights that we used to do so much. I, of course, agreed. I had other plans for New Years, but they fell through when my car went boom (you can't drive to Houston in a car that the door wont open on.) So, I accepted his offer. Then I spent all day today, from quitting time at work until about 4:00 with my coworker and friend. He talked a salesman down on a car from 5,995 to 2,000... a feat to see. Then lunch came, and I was invited to go and blow shit up tonight with them. More precisely, to get DRUNK and blow shit up. I'm not the type to get drunk, but the prospect of this had not eluded me since the accident. I know it isn't supposed to be used to escape reality, but one time can't hurt, right? Anyways, I turned him down (even though I really wanted to go) because of my prior plans that still stood with the best friend Eric. Now, on to why I need to flame. I talked to the good buddy about 4:30, and he said he was taking a shower and then leaving. I didn't bother asking where to, it would be either here or the girlfriend and we're both close enough in distance to see tonight. At about 5:00, he calls me saying he's getting some food. I accepted that without arguement too. Then, right before hanging up, he says to have a good New Years while hes at the g/f's place.

So, did you catch why I am so pissed right now? Look again, maybe you'll see. I'll agree, this isn't the first time i've been blown off for the g/f, and I don't expect it to be the last. That i'm not surprised about. What I AM surprised about is the fact that he completely forgot! He can remember pkans with her from 2 months in advance, but he can't remember then with me if they're more than a day old. He, of course, has no idea that I canceled some plans and blew someone else off to do something with him, but he'll hear about it next time we talk. I still consider him my best friend, even after all the times i've been blown off by him.I don't expect him to spend all his time with me or anything... i'm not his life-partner. But friends aren't friends when they don't hang out, or when they blow each other off everytime they make some plans. He's done this so many times I've almost come to expect it of him. Further, he probably will remember later tonig... well this morning, and say something. Course, then it will be too late to do anything... like normal. Damnit, I should have gone to the country, blown some shit up with Ray, then got drunk off my ass. Maybe I should even try getting a g/f myself. I know one thing. I'm tired of sitting at home on holidays, or even on normal days and weekends, with so much time and so little to do. I'm tired of being blown off by my close friends, due to their own negligence and inability to tell their g/f that they have other plans for the night that they want to go through with.

Im pissed, so i'm out. night.

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Meh... [06 Dec 2004|06:15am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | N/A ]

Well, this has been a bad weekend. Friday, I can't register my classes for next semester due to advisor holds. Saturday, my 250 GB hard drive (containing all my anime and games) decided to get hacked and die. Sunday, My best friend tells me hes coming over, then apparently blows me off yet again (it's becoming a common thing). The registration thing got on my nerves a bit, but I can wait... I think. My HDD being dead pissed me off, but all is better there for now, because I seem to be able to recover all my lost data on the partition. Still, the friend thing really gets me. We talked about doing something, and resolved to do it around 3:00. He didn't leave his place till about 7:00. Then, he decided to go to his girlfriend's place. I can understand that, but I called him twice before I finally got him at 9:30. He told me he'd be leaving about 10:00, and I told him not to come if it would be after 11:00. All this, and I knew I had to be at work today at 7:00. He really pisses me off sometimes, y'know? He said he'd call me and let me know if he weren't coming. So that I could go to bed if it was futile to wait for him. Well, there it was, 11:00, and no call-no show does it again.I was up until nearly 2:00 this morning cause I couldn't sleep, I was so pissed at him. I've let his taking advantage of this scenario slide a lot in the past, but frankly, i'm getting a little tired of it. I understand that your girlfriend comes first. That's all well and good, but when you make plans with someone, you usually TELL THEN when you can't make it, or at least INFORM THEM if you're going to blow them off. If he would've just called and told me I wouldn't have minded. But no, he couldn't take a minute to quit cuddling and call me, and when I called him, he couldv'e let me know the truth, that he wasn't coming. But did he? NO! He told me he'd be here. Maybe I shouldn't care about this all that much, but you'd be pissed too if it had happened to you every week for nearly a year. Even since they got together it's been like this. I didn't mind at first, but now it really gets me.

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1-Way Relationship [02 Dec 2004|07:30pm]
[ mood | Use your imagination... ]
[ music | Nothing, absolutely nothing. ]

Heh... just when you thought it was safe to leave your room. Exams are this week. I have a job that just got very difficult in more ways than one. I have, starting next week, NO TIME for ANY recreational activity. This sucks. Further, tonight I had to play daddy again. My little bro Phil went to a basketball game tonight. He called home, and said he would be out by 6:45. Well, then... OK! Here it is, 7:15, and i'm sitting in my LOUD ASS, LIT-UP-LIKE-A-XMAS-TREE car. I decide I've waited long enough, and maybe he's not coming out of the front enterance of the school. I start going around to the side, and VOILA, there he is at the corner, sporting a new bike! His explanation: "Well, I DID get out at 6:45. I waited for a friend and talked to her for a minute or two, then I went outside at about 7:00. I didn't see you (although my car looked like the house from Christmas Vacation) so I decided to go home on my own (even though i'm walking in the OPPOSITE DIRECTION with my FRIENDS I was talking about). Guess what? I GOT PISSED! That's right, I blew a head gasket. The motor was running, but noone was home. My words: "...go home...". The punctuation should suffice to say that I was growling in a near guttural tone of voice. That's how you can tell if i'm really pissed.... when you barely hear me. I raced home (racing makes me vent frustration), only to take flak for not returning with my venerable younger brother. Well, you shouldn't dish flak if you can't take it. I believe I gave it back in a quintuple dose, because the grandparents were visibly shaken, obviously so mad they couldn't speak. I then proceeded to return to my small, peaceful corner of the universe, where I slammed down on my bed and cried. That's right, CRIED. If you can't cry, then you're not a real man. I'm not going to go off saying my life sucks or anything like that. There's already too much of that on the internet. Instead, here's what i'm going to do about my bad day. I'm going to start up my gamecube, and take out some unbridled aggression on someone in Super Smash Bros. Melee. Then, I'm going to take my history exam tomorrow. THEN, I'm going to wait until next friday, when I go golfing with Ray and Chuck. Hehe, then I'm going to pretend that ball is the head that matches my hardship. I'm gonna smack that ball so hard with my crappy clubs that it's gonna fly 500 ft.

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HL2... *sigh* [16 Nov 2004|03:13am]
[ mood | disappointed ]
[ music | Nothing... HL2 crashes alot, so no music ]

Well, here I am, only an hour into having what is possibly my most awaited game of my life. My preliminary report... buggy as hell. I have to restart steam every 12-15 minutes, or further every time I load another part of a level, due to a crash that happens upon loading an object that will randomly dissappear. Further, the damn steam forums are down currently... meaning I can't go there and see if anyone else is having this problem or if i'm an isolated problem.

I shouldn't even be up right now, I gotta go to work at 7... but hell, I couldn't sleep tonight due to the anticipation that has now left me. Meh, steam is back up again, so i'm off to play for another 15 minutes.

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w00t4g3 [14 Nov 2004|02:30pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Batte Music for "Shin MEgami Tensei: Noctourne" ]

Hahaha... today is a triumph. I have been so busy that I haven't been able to post in this journal for over a month... which sucks in and of itself. However, now that I am sick (therefore unable to fulfill much of my normal duties) I have enough time to make a nice entry. Things have happened in the last month, but none of them have been all that significant. The good: I watched more anime, started playing more games, talked more to my friends, did more homework, and made lots of money working. The bad: I still have homework, my weekdays are still plagued by routine, and all it gave me was a cold and sinus drainage. I'll admit that the damn unpredictable "Texas Weather(tm) " is mostly responsible, but its also widely known that if you get little sleep you will usually find yourself bedridden. Anyways, there is another reason for this entry... that being there might not be another one for a while. As any megagamer should realize today's date, I need only utter one word for them to realize the impact... "VALVE". Thats right, Tuesday is the day the HALF LIFE 2 will finally debut. I have already pledged all my time to this game, so that I may whoop the crap out of it before the rest of my friends. Of course, it wouldn't be nice to just drop all my other hobbies like that, so I made sure I was ahead of myself. I completed 4 anime series' this weekend in preperation... Love Hina, Love Hina Again, Full Metal Alchemist, and Initial D: Fourth Stage. In total, thats a lot of time to spend on anime, I know... but its all worth it. Half Life 2 will engross me to the point of no return, and in two weeks, NFS:Underground 2 will be realeased, thereby sucking my life into oblivion again. Oh how I love the holiday season :-P

Until next time...


PS,
They should add a mood on the post page named "w00t", just for occasiopns such as this.

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Mosquitos SUCK ASS!!! [06 Oct 2004|06:07pm]
[ mood | irritated ]
[ music | Can't quit scratching long enough to turn it on ]

Well, My profile says that one of my hoobies is golfing... and i'n not that bad when it comes to slapping the ball a set distance. My only problem is that whomever I go with to hit always wants to go at night. Well, last Friday, I went hitting with my friend down the street. It was fun and all, but I'm never going at 7:00 at night again. I looked down at my leg at one point, and saw (I wish I were joking, but i'm not...) about 15 MOSQUITOS sucking my blood... Some of them must have hit the same spot or something, cause my leg is now 2X the size it should me, and the bite and swollen area make about the size of my palm. Plus, it itches like mega-whoa. With the swelling, its hard to walk. The bump is restricting the movement of my calf muscle. My mom's a nurse, and told me to put this Benadryl-cream-type-stuff on it. She said it would be like this for about a week... DAMNIT I HAVE TO GO TO A COLLEGE CAMPUS AND WALK AROUND!!! I have trouble driving because it feels like my calves are constantly cramping everytime i move the gas/brake pedals.

MAN do I hate mosquitos... seriously, I know all surviving animals/insects/plants have a reason for being on earth, and a place in the food chain... Seriously, though, WTF good do mosquitos do? What is their purpose, besides becoming lunch for a frog? All they do is annoy us humans by sucking our blood and leavin a big, swollen, infected, itchy, annoying bump that stays for about 3 days? I could deal witht he side-effects if they gave me somethint EXUBERANTLY nice in return, but now I see that this "Exuberance" is quite "Insubstantial"... which reminds me... "This Beef is Amazing!!!" =p

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All's fair in love and war... [20 Sep 2004|07:47pm]
[ mood | good ]
[ music | Papa Roach - Blood Brothers ]

Well, the thing with the best friend is now smoothed over... after posting that two days ago, I felt bad about it... like I had betrayed his trust in me by talking publicly about a private matter... but it doesn't matter now. I'm no longer mad at him, he used the same explanation I wouldv'e used: stress relief. His outburst of stress culminated in one simple comment. After that comment, I felt betrayed... he had previously told me he trusted me, and he trusts very few people. That trust felt violated when he accused me so blatantly like that. Still, as the title of this entry says, "All's fair in love and war..." and its true. He can get away with that because they love each other, and nothing so meager as a small arguement can break true love apart (if thats what they have)... also to break OUR bond would take quite a bit... he has been like my brother for 8 years, and is the only person who knows how truly stressful my life can be at times. And, with him being a single child, the brother thing can go both ways... I assume that i'm like the brother he never had. He is like family to me, and blood is thicker than water... even when that blood is not really identical.

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Stabbed in the back... metaphorically of course... [19 Sep 2004|06:00pm]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | papa roach - assortment ]

Today, something happened taht I never thought possible. I woke up to the sound of an incoming IM. It was from my best friend. In this message, an underlying threat was present... ill post it...

"I want to.. Ah.. warn you..

Dont you dare devolop feelings for .

I believe the underlying threat in that sentence you should have picked up. Other than that, l8r."

Having DeadAIM is very convinient, no? Anyway, I have replied in just. Yesterday, before his gf went to work, she IM'ed me, and we talked for a bit. She gave me a website, I already had it. We then played the game on hat website for about 30 mins... the game was Flash Flash Revolution. Now, if you go back a post or two, you will see that a girl tried to hook me up about a week ago. This is the girl. I assumed that by talking to me, she was trying to understand my personality quirks and hobbies... for whatever reason. It's always good to understand someone, right? Fro any reason, though, there is no reason for my BEST FRIEND to be angry with me over his gf and me talking, TALKING, and of ALL venues, over AIM NONETHELESS... this is unexplainable on his part... he has told me for years, that out of everyone he knew, I was his most trusted confidant... there is no eplination... none...

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GitS2... [18 Sep 2004|04:14pm]
[ mood | impressed ]
[ music | Theme to GitS2: Innocence ]

Wow... what can I say about Ghost in the Shell 2...? One simple thing... DAMN WAS THAT CONFUSING!!! The GitS saga kept it's true roots, one of the most alluring things, for me, about the franchise. This movie was all I expected it to be and more. A masterpiece among all. This simple feature reminded me why I love anime. The depth of thought that you need to understand some sections of the plot line is far beyond my humble skills. In fact, the thoughtfulness of the movie was my favorite part. You actually have to read the subtitles (thank god), process the immense amount of imagery (which was some awesome eye-candy... the best 3D i've seen in an anime yet), and all the while, you have to dedicate a thought process just to the story. Nothing that comes from America's hollywood every, EVER makes you think very hard in order to understand where the plot is going. In fact, it's very sad, because i've come to the point that I can actually predict the outcome of any event in a USDM movie. No matter what.

All the plotlines in America are the saame, and all have this underlying theme of love... most times not very underlying at all. In GitS2: Innocence, the plotline is sompletely unpredictable, besides knowing that Major Kusaragi will return towards the end. Also, it did have an underlying theme of love, and it's easy to spot. Batou loved Kusaragi, most definetly as a partner in the law enforcement division, but also somewhere else. It wasn't like in American movies, where you see the hero / heroine, and they always have their significant other right beside them. I won't spoil the ending, but the love in this movie is not capitalized upon. That is the difference. In just about ALL USDM movies, the love is always capitalized in the end. The boy / girl ends up realizing their feelings for their sig. other and they end up together. Hell, even in the most recent violent movie, RE:Apocalypse, the main muscle, Nemesis, ends up realizing through his programming that he loves the heroine, Alice, and therefore saves her life. No matter how bloddy and violent the movie is, it contains hope for the future. There is never a hopeless situation. Ever. I can think of many things taht the situation starts hopeful and ends hopeless. Neon Genesis Evangelion is a great example. It starts off with the main hero, Shinji, bearing the hope of all Tokyo on his shoulders. In the end of the series, the world is saved, but then you see the main HQ of NERV being overrun. In the movie End of Evangelion (Sequel), you see that NERV is losing.

...Enough of this mindless ranting... if people who don't know me ever see this thing, they'll think i'm crazy... L8-rZ

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Hahaha... [17 Sep 2004|11:19am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Hoobastank - Crawling in the Dark ]

Stupid friggin' girl... I talked to her, she seemed pretty nice. Very much like me, accorcding to her interests and experience in life. But she doesn't like me. My friend called her a biggot after haering why, some of you might also call her that. She asked if I liked computers, I told her that I used to really be into computers, but that since I got a job and started college, they've kinda taken a back-row seat on my priorities. She then asked me what my major was. I told her a double major in Computer Science and Software Enineering. That was all it took. Through my friendly personality she broke, through my insecurities about my weight... I always thought that my wieght would be the deciding factor in my having a girlfriend, and that my kind, fun, free personality would contrast it enough to offset the disadvantage. Well, in that method, I was wrong. What a shallow person this girl was. Said she didn't want to go with me since I was a "Computer Nerd". WTF?!?!?!?!?!? I thought that that kind of discrimination had left me when I entered High Scool and saw that everyone had to know how to use a computer, and that I wasn't a real computer nerd, just a tech-savvy student. Just because I would like to have a job programming code, and because I play video games for personal enjoyment and group activities, I am labeled as a computer nerd. Well, lets not focus on that label. What alse am I? Here's a list...

LABELS FOR RICHARD:
Geek <--- I like to study
Dork <--- Sometimes I don't get things quickly
Computer Nerd <--- It's Here, see?
Gearhead <--- I like working on cars
Anime-freek <--- Love watching anime :)
Gun-bunny <--- Guns are always cool
Headbanger <--- I do listen to a little metal
Raver <--- I also listen to techno
Rocker <--- ...and Alt / Rock
Goth <--- ...and dark-style music
Skater <--- ...and punk
Gamer <--- I love playing games
Lover <--- I'd rather do this...
Fighter <--- But sometimes end up doing this
Genius <--- I'm very smart
Dumb-ass <--- Yet sometimes stupid beyond belief
Driver <--- I love to drive...
Ricer <--- and modify my car...
Couch-potato <--- and also watch movies

Haha, that was fun. Anyways, the list goes on and on, and I will do my best to keep adding more labels to it. Still, it sucks that some little bitch-like girl (I didn't call her a bitch...) has to call me a COMPUTER NERD of all things just because I'm not computer-illiterate like all the other h8r's out there, like her.

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