| Lonely *Poem* |
[30 Nov 2003|02:06pm] |
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Carnival Music...in my head. |
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She's very lonely, can't you see? That lonely one is really me. Many people say "I love You" even though I know it's not true. I don't need people because I hate them, they annoy me, they tease me, they cause my hatred. Writing is my only cure, for helping me, of this I'm sure. My social skills aren't too good, I don't go out like I should. "Staying inside?!" it's a crime, they say. "So I'm commiting a crime everyday?" I'm getting blamed for doing "wrong," but I won't be blamed for very long. The people that "love me" soon will cry, when they hear that I have died.
*~*SiN*~*
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[24 Nov 2003|05:58pm] |
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Cleansing- Ill Niño |
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*WHINE* Ughhh!! My dad is such an asshole!! He heard from my aunt or grandma that I was talking to Tony on the phone while I was over there *aunt's house* and today when I got home from school he called me and he said..."I don't want you talking to that Tony guy, it's not because I don't want you to have friends I'll tell you when I get home." Ughhh...I told my mom I wasn't gonna stop talking to him because he's the ONLY person I talk to...I have no friends, no social life @ all, and it's all because of my father. I've been grounded for 3 months now for something I didn't even do and I'm not allowed to go out, talk on the phone or see any of my old friends.
It just pisses me off to see me grounded for shit I didn't do. Well, there ya go....my day and my extrmely boring life.
*~*SiN*~*
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[24 Nov 2003|05:58pm] |
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Cleansing- Ill Niño |
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*WHINE* Ughhh!! My dad is such an asshole!! He heard from my aunt or grandma that I was talking to Tony on the phone while I was over there *aunt's house* and today when I got home from school he called me and he said..."I don't want you talking to that Tony guy, it's not because I don't want you to have friends I'll tell you when I get home." Ughhh...I told my mom I wasn't gonna stop talking to him because he's the ONLY person I talk to...I have no friends, no social life @ all, and it's all because of my father. I've been grounded for 3 months now for something I didn't even do and I'm not allowed to go out, talk on the phone or see any of my old friends.
It just pisses me off to see me grounded for shit I didn't do. Well, there ya go....my day and my extrmely boring life.
*~*SiN*~*
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[24 Nov 2003|05:58pm] |
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Cleansing- Ill Niño |
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*WHINE* Ughhh!! My dad is such an asshole!! He heard from my aunt or grandma that I was talking to Tony on the phone while I was over there *aunt's house* and today when I got home from school he called me and he said..."I don't want you talking to that Tony guy, it's not because I don't want you to have friends I'll tell you when I get home." Ughhh...I told my mom I wasn't gonna stop talking to him because he's the ONLY person I talk to...I have no friends, no social life @ all, and it's all because of my father. I've been grounded for 3 months now for something I didn't even do and I'm not allowed to go out, talk on the phone or see any of my old friends.
It just pisses me off to see me grounded for shit I didn't do. Well, there ya go....my day and my extrmely boring life.
*~*SiN*~*
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| Oww!! |
[18 Nov 2003|09:56pm] |
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Serpent Tongue- Cradle of Filth |
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Hey! I was in school today in lunch with all these idiots surrounding me...and Nick *guy* comes up to me and says "I'm gonna bite you!!" I said "NO! get away!" Nick is my artist friend he carves things into my skin...(ex: Anarchist sign, Tony, etc.) Well, he's kinda freaky so when I told him to get away he goes to my friend Jesika and pretends to bite her but he really just punctures her with his nails, which are pointy, then he comes up to me out of nowhere and bites me with his fangs, yes, he does have fangs, his dentist filed his teeth for him and now they're fangs. So anyways he bites me and I scream LOUD @ FUCK!!! I've never let out a scream like that...it hurt so much and then I started bleeding like crazy I had 3 napkins full of blood. I got home and my neck was still bleeding...*lunch is @ 12:30 and I get home @ 4:30* Anyways, I go to the bathroom, take a shower and cover up my neck with my hair. When my dad leaves I get the phone, I call Tony and I tell him and he says "I'm gonna kill that kid" it was funny though. Hehe. Well, Nick let me borrow his Cradle of Filth cd for making me bleed, even though he sucked it, which by the way was disgusting!!!! ugh, and yeah. Well, there's my day for ya.
*~*SiN*~*
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| UGHH! |
[17 Nov 2003|09:28pm] |
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Right Now-KoRn |
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OMFG! I got 1 F on my report card and my parents already knew that was my grade in that class and they're still having a fucking titty attack!! ugh! I changed two C's to B's so they wouldn't get madder. I am so pissed off because I think I tried pretty hard considering all the problems I have with my dad and shit *I'll explain later.*
Now I'm grounded for like a week and I'm not telling Tony *boyfriend* because then he'll get sad, so I'll just tell him I have to hang up early and crap. Well, I'm telling you about my shitty day...hope you have a nice time reading it.
*~*SiN*~*
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| Yeah...exactly. |
[04 Nov 2003|06:04pm] |
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Faget- Korn |
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I don't exactly know why I joined this journal thing, I guess I was high when I did. (Joking) Anyway, ::ditzy voice:: I hope I get to meet many new friends!! OMG! I, like, have to meet new people. No I don't I have myself and Tony, I don't need anyone else, but hey, im me if you feel like talking. Well, this is nice and exciting! Woo-Freakin'-Hoo! Yeah. Hmm-mm! Yes, the up-scale fuzzy dice manufacturer...yes.
Talk to you later.
*~*SiN*~*
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| POEM |
[11 Aug 2003|08:16pm] |
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Whisper- Evanescence |
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Black hair, pale skin
Being yourself is a sin.
If It were not
they would not care,
Or burn you with
their hateful stare.
It must be wrong
to be real,
Because others are
afraid to feel.
You sinful goth,
you are bad,
Because you cant
help being mad,
You hate the world,
that hates you back,
Just because
your clothes are black.
You get in fights
you did not start,
But they say its you
who has no heart.
They tease you as though
it were a game,
They laugh at you
they call you names.
You're the sinner,
You are wrong,
So your cuts
are jagged and long.
You drift to sleep
in the silent night,
Hoping to die
Before the light.
Originality is denied,
You cut so deep,
Cant stay alive.
You drift to sleep.
GoodBye.
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| Here, again. |
[11 Aug 2003|07:53pm] |
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We will rise- Arch Enemy |
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Hey...bored here, once again. I've got nothing to do, it's Saturday, I'm home alone until tomorrow, yeah. So, yeah, again, I still don't know why I joined this what-you-ma-call-it. My left hand is shaking like crazy, why...I don't know. I'm in my room watching a kid's t.v show...Jimmy Neutron. It's pretty cool, I could live with this. Well, going back to school on Monday..yay! There's no school on Tuesday...isn't that just great?! Well, this is getting better and better by the minute, isn't it? I feel like I'm talking to myself here, well I am, so yeah.
I'm going to put in some poems later on today.
Leave a comment and tell me what you think, if you want.
*~*SiN*~*
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