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yea so i havent updated in a while... there jus hasnt been much goin on lately.. but thats no surprise..cuz i never do ne thing.. soo yeah theres still not much going on, i started drivers ed last monday, so ill be gettn my license by mid april thank fuckn god. im going nuts being in my house 24/7, and i thought this feb. vacation was gunna be good, but now kels is grounded for the WHOLE week, which im not even gunna get into cuz ill jus get myself pissed off..sooo yea once i have my license i dont gotta worry bout little crap like this..ill be goin out and thats all i care bout as of now... but umm nothing exciting or even interesting has happened.. and i doubt ne thing will.
On another point... people who have to hide their feelings and pretend their happy when their not is completely messed up. im sorry but dont go around pretending to be somthing your not, jus to hide the truth behind your problems, you cant deny the truth, so dont try to, people who do that just show that they cant handle the real thing and have to imagine the better life they wish they had, and it shows they have no self dignity to stand up to w/e the problem may be and try to fix it. Instead they back away, and pretend its not even there, until one day they crack, cuz they cant handle it ne more. Well all i have to say is that i have no pity what so ever for people like that, i have no patience for stupid people. and to me people who dont stand up for themselves are by my definition stupid. and dont think im narrow minded, cuz trust me im in no way or form narrow minded, i jus believe that everyone has a say, and jus because the world thinks its disrespectful to talk back to adults...doesnt mean you cant, thers no difference between adults and teenagers... people may think so, but i dont, adults think their higher than us, well then fuck them too, cuz there not, and they better step off there little pedostals and realize it...adults think they have more experience in the world, and think that w/e they say is best for us, well it sumtimes isnt, and you cant hold your children back from figuring out who they are, i hate parents like that, who have to cage their kids in cuz they dont want them to be effected, or some shit like that, by the world. its a crock of shit, and the only way a kid is gunna learn is by taking those chances, going down the wrong path a couple times, learnin how to get themselves off the ground when they dont succeed in something. Parents just need to take a few steps back and let their children be.
You ever notice that someone who wasnt given everything they wanted, and got into drugs in highschool, and did all the, as society today puts it, rebellious things, but ended up picking themselves up in the end, ends up being the better person for it?
Where as the person who was given everything when and where they wanted it, was a straight A student, never did drugs or got into trouble ends up being your typical asshole in life?
Yea id rather be the first one, cuz even if my job doesnt give me that much money and im jus squeezing by, as long as you are completely happy, it doesnt matter what someone else may think, i say fuck them..who cares what the fuck they say, its only what you think that matters,
The second one, which of course is gunna get you a good paying job, and a nice house and all this other shit, that to me doesnt make the person, usually has many problems to deal with, starting most likely with family, and then the money problem follows, i just wouldnt wanna be that person, because to me, money doesnt mean shit, money doesnt buy everything u want, of course some may think so, but i personally dont, and thats only because im not greedy like the rest of the world, i mean of course money is a nice thing to have, and in todays world it def. gets you to where u wanna be, but i mean does it buy happiness? for a while perhaps, but what happens when thers nothin else u want, and you realize everything and everybody who has ever made u happy was all a lie, and they were only with you cuz of your money? dont tell me that wouldnt effect you, and make u think, cuz it would, no matter what kind of person you are, you could be the biggest asshole ever and even if it took a long time to notice, itd catch up with you, and u would be hurt by it.
so in the long run, dont think that just because you strived to be the best in school, and then went on to be a great big executive or w/e, youve got the better life... cuz u dont. yeh u may have the better materialistic life, but not the better real life, so get over yourself.
And sometimes all that hard work and commitment in school doesnt get you ne where, remember that.
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