Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
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1:56 pm - Nice Fucking Start To Summer
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I swear to god... Last week we had a storm. Lightening hit the fucking dish for cable and friend the bitch as well as the modem, the tower, and various other shit.
Also out fucking car's moter is shot and the moter mount is busted so all fucking week I;ve had to deal with my POS ex and his current "wife". This cunt usually doesn;t bother me, but she;s been yelling at my kids!
Bitch you yell at MY kids one more fucking time Your gonna be chokeing on your fucking teeth because I'm gonna knock them out!
current mood:  pissed off
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Sunday, May 11th, 2008
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1:29 am
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I'm so tired i feel like my fucking eyes are gonna fall out but I felt I should say something so... something.
Now I'm taking my ass to bed where i Intend to stay till at least noon.
current mood:  exhausted
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Monday, April 28th, 2008
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3:21 pm
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I'm so fucking sick of the male sex. I swear to god half of them don't have brains and if they do they are so fucking shallow.
current mood: aggravated
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Tuesday, November 27th, 2007
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1:05 am - A Post
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So it's been awhile, part of the reason being I lost my password and the other being a lack of time, but lately so much shit has been going on that I just feel the need to get it out before it eats me alive.
Things were going ok for awhile. I was dateing a guy who I thought was finaly going to be the one guy to prove to me that all males aren't scumb sucking dickheads and yet, I ended up being wrong.
Monday the 19th he decided to to get married and didn't feel it was relavent to tell me till Wednesday. This chick is 18 years younger then he is and what gets me is he acts like everything is just supposed to be fine! UM HELLO!!!
Not only were you cheating you son of a bitch, you went and married the slut you were cheating with!!! A slut who clearly states on her MySpace {Oh yeah she added me I forgot to mentiomn that} that she is Bi and also said that she was "Looking for a nice girl to be with".
I don't even know why this is bothering me so bad, it's not that I haven't been dicked over by a guy before.
Fuck it. I'm headed to bed.
I'll probubly update more now that I have my password.
current mood:  blah
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Wednesday, August 30th, 2006
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10:50 am - This Shit Isn't Worth It
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Sometimes I think it would just be so much easier to go ahead and put myself out of my misery.
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Monday, August 14th, 2006
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12:55 pm - So Close
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I almost did it last night, I had eight Tylonal PMs in my hand ready to pop em.
Guess it's a good thing someone who barely knows me gave enough of a shit to call me or I wouldn't be sitting here.
current mood: blah
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Saturday, July 15th, 2006
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5:25 pm - These Are Kinda Neat
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Animated me...Yay
current mood: blah
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Sunday, July 9th, 2006
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5:04 pm - Stupid Stupid Stupid!!!!!!
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Why can't I just learn to shut the fuck up? I think I totaly destroyed a good frinedship with someone all because I let feelings get in the way.
I am so fucking STUPID
current mood:  crushed
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Friday, May 5th, 2006
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1:29 pm - I'm Still Here
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If anyone even cares, I just haven't posted because I've had nothing to say. Life still sucks and i still somehow deal with it.
current mood: blah
current music: Some Disco Shit On Internet Radio
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Friday, October 21st, 2005
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5:49 pm
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Won't sombody kill me please?
I'm on my knees pretty pretty please kill me
I want to die
Put a bullet in my head.....
So the movie this was from was a comedy and who knows maybe this little diddy of a song was supposed to be funny to, but if that's the case why am I not laughing?
current mood: suicidle
current music: Live ~ Run to the Water
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Monday, October 3rd, 2005
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3:42 pm
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Had a really shitty evening yesterday, debated cutting, but didn't because...well I just didn't.
Was talking to my sister on AIM and she tells me my Mom and oldest sister are sitting up in the kitchen, eating dinner no less, bad mouthing me. Now my oldest sister is a stupid cunt bitch who I can't stand and I really could give to shits less what she thinks, but it really pisses me off that I get labeled the family fuck up.
That bitch has 7 mind you 7!!! DUIs, she's a fucking druggie, got her ass thrown in jail for intent to sell, her BF is a crack head who has more then once stolen every fucking thing she owns including cars and sold it for crack yet the stupid bitch is still with the guy!!!
Yet I'm the fuck up, Anyone else see anything wrong with this?
I'm not saying I'm perfect, but damn! I am a lot fucking better then they are, I had enough sense to get out of a bad situation, my husband may be a dumb ass, but at last he's not a crack head, I'm so wrapped up in my own shit that I let my kids walk all over me like my Mom does.
Pretty damn sad when you can't even count on your family... Well, aside from my brother, he's the only one who's ever given a shit out me.
Well, guess it won;t be hard to turn my back on them now will it? What does it matter when they have made it more then apparent they don't give a shit?
current mood: numb
current music: I Fucking Hate You ~ Godsmack
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Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
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2:21 pm - Heh
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2:00 pm - Somewhat Happy
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So things are somewhat looking up, not everything, but some things that have been major stressing me out.
I don't really want to get into the details of it all because I don't feel like typing out this huge ass post.
So yeah, things are pretty OK, but it can always take a turn for the worse.
current mood: blah
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Monday, August 1st, 2005
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2:06 pm
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I want to die.... That is all.
current mood: crushed
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Monday, July 25th, 2005
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3:35 pm
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I'm such a mess of mixed feelings today. I've been skeptical, annoyed, mad, sad, content, then back to sad ant somewhat angry.
These people are a part of my madness and at times I wish I could rip out their hearts and toy with their emotions the way they do mine even if it isn't intentional.
current mood: Mixed up
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Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
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3:36 pm - Fuck it all!!!!!!!
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Fuck it all just fuck it all!!!!!! I've had it!!!!!!!!!! If people don;t just leave me the fuck alone I think I may kill one of them!!!!!!!
current mood: FUCK IT ALL!
current music: I Fucking Hate You - Godsmack
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Monday, May 16th, 2005
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8:43 pm - You Can't Fix Everyones Problems
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Something I am struggling with because I so wish I could.
As I sit here typing this my heart is breaking, not because of my own hurt, but because I have to watch someone I care deeply for suffer knowing there is nothing I can do to help.
I am also worried sick about this person as I know they cut and in their current state I am really afraid of what they may do.
*sighs* I just wish there was something I could do.
current mood: crushed
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Thursday, May 12th, 2005
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4:02 pm - Pimping of the Midwest Haunts forum and webpage
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Monday, May 9th, 2005
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4:34 pm - Do you have the time to listen to me whine?
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One of the main reason I haven't made one of these things, till now, is because I hated how most people use them to bitch and whine about how bad their life sucks. Yet, here I am doing the exact same thing that I hate about these journals.
Maybe I'm finally starting to understand why, there has been so much drama floating around the little space known as M's existence and if I don't find some outlet for the stress I'm gonna lose it!
Seems every damn thing involving certain persons in my life has got to be a fucking war. This person doesn't like that person, someone is gonna kick someone's ass... It's all just bull shit! Stupid bull shit and I'm sick of it.
These people need to grow the fuck up and move on. If nothing else do it for the children that are involved in this mess.
I hate to say it, but out of the bunch they seem to be the most mature.
current mood: aggravated
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