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I've been down
wandering past 2nd street
and looking at the ghosts
of you and me and thinking back on
all those memories of how we used to be
I've been hearing
hear those voices
of the noises of the breaking glass
and all those plans we had to get us through
they're never coming true
And I hope and hope
that you won't forget
and I hope and hope you know
that I can clearly see
The ghosts of you and me
'cause I'm just a long-gone memory
and you're still alive
and I'm still getting by
on these dead end streets
the ghosts of you and me
I'm still talking
talk of what we'll do
to the ghosts of me and you
and I'm still looking back into the past
when we were all we had
And I hope and hope
that you won't forget
and I hope and hope you know
that I can clearly see
The ghosts of you and me
'cause I'm just a long-gone memory
and you're still alive
and I'm still getting by
on these dead end streets
the ghosts of you and me
Hope you won't forget
hope you know that I'll always regret
those things I said
hope you know that I can clearly see
The ghosts of you and me
'cause I'm just a long-gone memory
and you're still alive
and I'm still getting by
on these dead end streets
the ghosts of you and me
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things are getting pretty messed up lately ... i really dunno what i wanna do?
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| blah blah blah |
(10 Mar 2004|03:36pm) |
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today was such a boring day in school i had like 5 test and i didn't know about any of them cuz i was at the doctors yesterday. They told me im most likely gonna have to get surgery (sounds like fun) ;o( now i have to go to work till 10 and its gonna suck cuz who actually goes to the mall on a wednesday. that means im gonna be bored as shit and probably have to end up cleaning stuff. check out the new layout i love it its probably the best one i've had yet. ok well bye people.
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| i hate fighting |
(07 Mar 2004|10:03am) |
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last nite me and rob got in a huge fight and we haven't talked since. i hate fighting with him i just don't understand why he gets so upset about some of the stuff he does. i didn't even know he was mad at me until he started saying all this crap. its like he just pulls it all from the air. we were having fun last nite to cuz me rob ted liz lora and tim all went to outback for dinner. it was fun but today i have to work blah! people come visit me!
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| police.. |
(29 Feb 2004|10:40am) |
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yesterday i had my banquet that sucked cuz no one was really there but then i went to wawa and visited rob and talked to him and anthony for awhile. Then i went to blockbuster but there were no movies at all! and when i come out there was like a billion cops at the mcdonalds so i went in to see corey and aj was there aparently some drunk was trying to steal a bike outside of mcdonalds and then earlier sum kids came in with fake guns and a lady walked in and ran out and called the cops and said that mcdonalds was being held up so they ran in and pulled the kids out. then we were sitting there joking with the cop it was pretty kool.
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| what a week |
(05 Feb 2004|10:46pm) |
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im dieing! ok well maybe not really but it sure feels like it! i have like issues with my side and theres a huge lump that feels like a bone except there are no bones in your side! so my dad thinks theres something wrong with my rib and its out of place and thats not good when of all ppl my DAD is telling me to go get it looked at! and yea i think i'm dieing i wanna die or take huge pain pills or sumthin anything!
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| wut a lose of words |
(03 Jan 2004|12:34am) |
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yea today was the same as any other day i had to work but i got done early and i got payed so it wasn't that bad. God i just got something on my mind that i can't seem to get straight and i wish there was someone i could talk to but i dunno its driving me crazy. I know what i want but than theres always that wut if....... that would would it be like? blahh im gonna go insane
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| its a sad song, sung with every painful tear |
(28 Dec 2003|09:19pm) |
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yea so rob corey tim drew jenn and lora all left for the mountains today and im still here all alone! and i don't even wanna answer my phone wen rob calls me cuz i dun wanna hear them all having fun and wut not cuz i know that im missing that... and wen they come back i just have to listen to all their storys about how fun it was. last nite i left coreys house in tears cuz i had to leave rob.... and i know he'd feel the same way if it was me leaving and him who had to stay behind. he'd be mad that a was gonna be there with guys and hed be mad cuz i left him and didn't stay behind and he'd be mad cuz he couldn't see me. i mean i want him to go and have fun but what about me. im alowed to feel the way i do alone and left out! i think maybe this time apart from rob will give me time to think about our relationship and how much it really means...even if the results are bad. cuz i dunno wuts going on anymore..its like an up down rollercoaster ride and its making me sick!
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| memories of yesterday are just to far away.... |
(17 Dec 2003|11:44pm) |
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blah i stayed home from school and went to the doctor today rob came with me though. he gave me sum medicine for my ear thank god it hurts like... well it just hurts! i had to go to work though it was so bad it went by pretty fast. i get payed friday that means more shopping to do and i have no time to shop cuz im working all weekend! yikes. i can't wait till the 29th .. big snowboarding trip coming up thats gonna be great! caint wait caint wait.... ahh jenn maybe we need to go buy sum snowboarding clothes??? cuz i dunno bout you but i got no snow pants!! im bout to pass out im so tired!
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| in school |
(15 Dec 2003|09:44pm) |
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blah im in school and its so boring i was gonna cut today.... god i shoulda but no im stupid and jenns not here again STUPID JENN COME TO SCHOOL...... i miss you! well i hope your not sick or anything cuz that would suck oh oh oh yesterday i got robs snowboard. it came fast! yea well its awesome i can't wait to give it to him! ok anyway back to making my cd cover.
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| its been such a long time |
(30 Nov 2003|10:47pm) |
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ok hmm...well brandon spent the weekend at our house so that was pretty kool on black friday me n rob went to morestown mall and he bouhgt me the cutest jacket, i love it! and on saturday brandon and my mom came to visit me at work then nick and mark came in. today i got my hair cut and helped my mom do sum christmas shopping for nick got him 3 shirts a hoodie and a button up shirt. then i went to coreys just hung out and played video games for awhile learned that i pretty much suck at the game but im getting sumwhat better. owell bed time now
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| i think i can fel you...falling in love with me. |
(16 Nov 2003|11:05pm) |
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yea so sleeping over tim's was awesome we all just passed out at like 12 maybe 1... sleeping arangements were really weird though lol jenn. and cuz of brian and rob we all got up at like 6:30 cuz they had to go to work. we came back ate breakfast then me and tim finished up cleaning sum stuff then he took me n jenn to my house and i took a shower then me n jenn decided to go to the mall again and tim called so we told him to meet us at wawa and we went together i felt bad though cuz i was late picking rob up but it was all good! me n rob are all good! <<12-7-02>> oh yea almost a year.
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| at tims |
(15 Nov 2003|11:40pm) |
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ok everyone just left cuz we had a party tonite but everyone got so messed up way to early so everyone is passed out cept me rob jenn and drew so were all just chilling. me and rob cleaned tims whole downstairs... hes gonna owe us sooooo bad. yea well me n jenn went to the mall earlier and we had so much fun. saw this kid i work with kyle and hes jenn's future husband. i PROMISE yea but on the way home some creepy guy was like stalkin my car very EWWWW. yea and i forgot my license so the whole way home im trying not to do anything illegal but like every car in the world pulled out in front of me or cut me off and omg every cop decided they wanted to drive behind me so i had to be super carefull and it sucked big big big monkey balls!
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| if i keep holding my breath, all of this will fade away. |
(10 Nov 2003|11:17pm) |
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ok lets see yesterday i had competition wich was at winslow god i miss that school! then i picked up rob came back to my house tim stopped by then we went picked up jenn and decided to drive god knows where only to stop at wendys... it was fun though yea member that new band the anchors... they were awesome rite jenn???? lol. then we came home stopped at mcdonalds and the guys were throwing skittles at my car! ewww! so we drove away and played car tag and me and jenn were killing them cuz we pulled up in crys' driveway shut of my lights and all and we saw them drive right by us but then i hit my knee and the lights inside turned on and all the suden i saw the boys stop and back up so we hurry up kidnapped crystal that took FOREVER! and today me n rob just hung out he rented finding nemo and lilo and stitch then we went to mcdonalds and tims cuzin gave us free dinner that was kool so then we went to his house but i had to leave so we only watched finding nemo it was a much less interesting night then saturday wen we went to ted's... man rob got trashed he was tossing his cookies... o well wut ya gonna do? well im going sleepy!
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| wut a bad day |
(02 Nov 2003|10:57pm) |
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i had cheerleading competion today and ehhhh none of atco placed cept the real little girls. We did so good though but the judges tore us apart for every small little thing they could wut bitches! o well i know we'll win next one cuz we always win cept at gay pine hill cuz they're just mad that we beat them in maryland thats all! haha yea so anyway i get my license on thursday... and then me n rob are going to OC hell yea and friday i have playoff game at home for field hockey then im prolly going out with rob so this week should b fun
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| hope is always there with a smile |
(30 Oct 2003|05:03pm) |
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to start off with i stayed home today cuz i feel sick really sick. but any way on to a more serious thing.... about 3 weeks ago i remember my dad walking in from working at the tropicana in AC and hes all complainging and what not. Then he starts telling me and rob how the engineer on the job is a dickhead and complete dumbass. and he says after i'm done this job ill never ever set foot in the parking garage of this place cuz its gonna end up being a huge tragidy lots of people are gonna die cuz that thing is gonna collapse down on inicent people. me and rob just laughed never in a million years did we think my dad would be rite till today when i was fliping through the channels and happened to see the news title on channel 10 "paking garage collapses in atlantic city" chills just ran through my body! and now 4 people are dead and one person is still trapped and many other people are injured. I can't believe it and its gonna be a very sad nite and lots of bad news but i'll have to update about it later.
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(26 Oct 2003|10:12pm) |
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i got my car today!! hehe yea its kool. my dad took me for a ride in it but i can't drive it till it gets registered on tuesday. so then we went out to olive garden for my brothers b-day he's 22! god hes getting old. it was really fun though and hilarious cuz amanda starts cursing in italian and were like you dork were in an italian reasturant. i dun think i laughed so hard in my life! but now i gotta do my essay..... BORING!!
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| tired! |
(25 Oct 2003|11:31pm) |
i had nuthin to do today and me n jenn were trying to figure sumthin out but it was getting no where... and rob left for work so i was really bored but he's home now
i hate fighting! i hate yelling! i hate disagreeing....... but then why do i love him so much!? i dunno but i do no even with all that, i would never wanna live without him. love is love. if your not ready to be hurt then its not love! and i know i love him cuz no matter how many fights we have at the end of the day he's still my robbie and i still love him and he still loves me!
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| oh yea |
(20 Oct 2003|10:21pm) |
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woa so umm my parents are like we need to talk to you real quick and im like oh god wut now... and they hand me a paper and say how do you like it and its a pic of a car and they're like its yours.. hell fucking yea i got a car its a forest green grand am.... hotness
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| you don't know....goodbye |
(19 Oct 2003|10:29am) |
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yesterday i had a field hockey game in lenape at 2 so i had to be in hammonton at 12 to get the bus. varsity tied 1-1 and ahhh j.v lost 1-0 but it was a cheap ass call cuz i was playing post rite on the goal cage and i had my stick right in front of the goal line and the ball came so i let it hit my stick then swept it out and the mother humping ref. called it a goal!!! i sooo fucking saved it and the goalie and the coach and the whole damn team was like that was not a goal ang you saved it but yea w/e so they won on a cheap call so they can just go ahead and think they're better but they really aren't. yea so then i came home and i asked if we could go to mc donalds for dinner so i could see rob and my mom sed ok so we get there and we were about to go in when she realized she needed to hit the mac machine so we went to wawa and tim was working so i saw him and it was funny cuz the girl he worked with was bout to flip cuz she thought i mite be holly and tims like nah thats angie and she was like ohh hey thought you were that bitchy girl. she wants to fight holly so bad, ha i think everyone does. so then we went got dinner saw rob feel really bad though cuz he took a brake cuz he thought we were staying there to eat but we weren't. and now today im off to emily prakish's house for sum field hockey thing...
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