i walked right past him but he was too busy talking to his stupid friends. he didn't even notice me. and guess who else was there..miss stefanie gibbs, our fucking wing commander. she's SOO god damn ugly and gross why the fuck does he want her over me? is he fucking blind?! i don't understand men! they're such pigs! grrrrr!!!
but more than anything else, it hurts. he doesn't even look at me. he doesn't even know when if i'm there or not. i mean nothing to him. nothing. and that hurts so fucking bad.
i just want to curl up and die.
i have to see him tomorrow at awards banquet. fuck. oh fuck.
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: the sound of voices in the air