| Random thoughts about Kim |
[12 Dec 2003|09:28pm] |
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This has got to be the worst part of a relationship: not knowing whether someone wants to be friends, or something more. She acts like she's flirting with me, but I've thought that before and have been wrong. She says she'll call me, but doesn't. To be fair though, I do the same. However, I do it out of shyness. I don't know why she does it. Dan scheduled us to work together. Coincidence? I think not. But what if she breaks my heart, or worse, I break hers? My pessimistic mind won't let me see this ending happily. I'm defending myself from getting hurt again by pushing this away, and I hate myself for it.
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[09 Dec 2003|01:27am] |
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DC- For You to Notice |
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Dear god, a girl that I like actually likes me?! This can't be! I've yet to determine whether she likes me as a friend or something more. My pessimism and battered heart won't let me get excited until I know for sure. Still, the mere thought is pleasant :-).
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[07 Dec 2003|12:37pm] |
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Alright, women don't suck, they're just too confusing to understand sometimes.
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[04 Dec 2003|08:14pm] |
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I hate women. I wish I was dead.
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| Jenn and Ross |
[01 Dec 2003|12:19am] |
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Dashboard Confessional- For You to Notice |
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Every single happy word, every happy moment that they have, every bit of joy they share...
It rips me further apart.
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[27 Nov 2003|12:00am] |
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Jenn forgot about the one guy...and moved right on to another. Sounds like she really likes this one. I should be happy....? I don't even know if I would really want to date her, or even if she would want to date me, but I guess I won't know now. Fuck I hate it when I hesitate and lose what I wanted. Hell, with my luck, Kim probably found a guy and married him over break, so I am back to where I started: alone and depressed. Bitch bitch moan moan. harumph harumph.
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| One thing I didn't miss about this house |
[24 Nov 2003|07:26pm] |
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People having sex in the middle of the afternoon. Fuckin A man.
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[23 Nov 2003|11:17am] |
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Yea, so Jenn is dating someone now...fuck.
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[20 Nov 2003|10:10pm] |
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I really like Kim a lot. I was helping the candidates with CPR, and they didn't have enough Resusi-Annie mannequins, so I wound up being her CPR dummy. Man, when she had to straddle me for abdominal thrusts, it took all the control I have over my retarded penis to not get excited. Afterwards I walked back to LincWash with her and we ate in the caf. I just felt really comfortable around her, like we had known each other forever. So yea, I like Kim :-).
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| We're Loyal, Like brothers, just us vs all the others.. |
[20 Nov 2003|11:45am] |
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So Trecia is pretty much out of the picture, as well as Shannon. That leaves Jenn and Kim. I actually got Jenn to go out with me the other night, but just for food. It was a good time, even though my brain was running on auto and I got a sandwich I really didn't want. I still ate it mind you, but it wasnt what i wanted at the time. Still, I kinda get the feeling that she's still stuck on her ex, and I really feel like she's too good for me. She's everything I've ever wanted, but now that I actually found her, I'm intimidated. I just don't want to mess up, you know?
As for Kim, I like her a lot. It seems like the more I learn about her, the more I like her. She's kind of a bad girl though; she smokes and drinks. I don't know if I can go out with a girl that smokes and still not smoke myself. But I'm not going to let that be the determining factor. Ehh, who am I kiddin...nothing is gonna happen anyway.
PS if you're not at least in college, please don't talk to me, k thanks.
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