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i'm offically staying over at Live Journal. i have no people i know here anymore. so if you have a lj and would like to be added as my firend, check it out. oh yeah, and on the 11th or something, it was 2 years of blurty. damn. so thats why i don't want to delete this account. check me out.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/wastedwords_/
mwa.
--amanda--
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| rock it..... bitch |
[17 Mar 2005|08:18pm] |
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burp! school was okay. didnt chage of gym but still played badmitten or whatever. walked to work. "the kid acrosssed the sstreet" came in. im such a fucker. 16 sunday bitches!!!! going for my permit test probably monday. i was looking at used cars like a jetta, subaru, mustang... only ranging from $3,000-5,000 the older models. not bad to me. so whatever. dude.. Straylight Run is coming to Cohoes thursday may 5th... and its an hour fomr me... but noone of my firend lsitne ot them.. jsut like Hidden In Plain View is coming ot pughkeepise and i relly wanan see them agian so fucking bad and no one fuckign lsitens to them.. fucking gay assholes. except for ronnie.. but that'll be jsut weird lol casue i'm like that.
i find that every guy i meet online is bi lol. no a problem for me but it's just weird. <3
i need a new book damnit. finished Shooter.. not bad. um i wanan get that book with all of Kurt Cobains "journal" entries. humf. casue i'm a sad mother fucker like that.
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[15 Mar 2005|03:49pm] |
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school was okay. did all my bio homework for the week. started my way overdue dbq essay. stayed period j so i get an automatic 65 on my global test. um yea.ANOTHER project for art. what the fuck. these god damn brudahaofs! shes starts another project when someone finishes the last one, and the original 5 peopel in that class arent even done with the first one which were on now our 3rd! so fucking pathedic. mark's band asked for between $150-$200 to play at my party....... and there kinda local... and i kinda know mark... and whatever. if i was in a bnad... i would so not ask for that much. that's insane. we only settled on $200 for Perfect Endings becasue there coming 3 hours to play for a "private" thing. you know. whatever. and mark said they normally ask for more... puh. if you really lvoe what your doing... you'd so not ask for that much. that's ccrazy. and his band is playing at the spinng room saturday and he asked to stop by so... if i find a "freind" who wants to come with me then sure.
anyway. i was on the five towns collage website.. and found out that your SAT score doesnt really count in getting acccepted so score! but your grades and class rank do. which i dont understand the class rank thing casue what if theres a lot of smart people in your class.. like above average. thats crap.
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[15 Mar 2005|03:49pm] |
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school was okay. did all my bio homework for the week. started my way overdue dbq essay. stayed period j so i get an automatic 65 on my global test. um yea.ANOTHER project for art. what the fuck. these god damn brudahaofs! shes starts another project when someone finishes the last one, and the original 5 peopel in that class arent even done with the first one which were on now our 3rd! so fucking pathedic. mark's band asked for between $150-$200 to play at my party....... and there kinda local... and i kinda know mark... and whatever. if i was in a bnad... i would so not ask for that much. that's insane. we only settled on $200 for Perfect Endings becasue there coming 3 hours to play for a "private" thing. you know. whatever. and mark said they normally ask for more... puh. if you really lvoe what your doing... you'd so not ask for that much. that's ccrazy. and his band is playing at the spinng room saturday and he asked to stop by so... if i find a "freind" who wants to come with me then sure.
anyway. i was on the five towns collage website.. and found out that your SAT score doesnt really count in getting acccepted so score! but your grades and class rank do. which i dont understand the class rank thing casue what if theres a lot of smart people in your class.. like above average. thats crap.
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[14 Mar 2005|05:19pm] |
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went to bed at 12. such in a bad mood today. in math i was drawing, taking notes, and paying attention. and i told him i didnt get it and he siad "we'll i asked you to put that way 3 times" and i was like "i'm taking notes and paying attention" and hes like "we'll i'm just letting you know" and i was like "okay" and he didnt fucking help me! what the fuck does he want me to do. stare at him? burn my eyes into him? WHAT THE FUCK!
i fucking hate that class. i'm failing casue he sucks at teaching. last year i had an 85-90 average in math.. with a diffrent teacher and now i have a fucing 65... now you know something is wrong.
ANYWAY! i got my class ring today. pretty nice. not use to wearing rings tho. eh. in bio lab, we fucking preped a pig "fetus" to be disected. of man it was so sad. and i'm the one doing the cutting in my group so patty tied it down for me.. so scared.
you have to watch this. its fucking awsome! i so wish i would have came up with this. i do have an idea with a hand tho.. humf.. just watch it its awsome.
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/dj.php
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[12 Mar 2005|10:04pm] |
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"Just a suicide note thats left on the table."
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[12 Mar 2005|05:14pm] |
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went to work. cleaned some of the shelves with the medications that the pharmacist has to fill out. checked for experation dates.. blah blah. not that busy. came home at 1. rightr before the parade started. mom went out and got me eggdrop soup. anit dinese came over with kateri. now there out walking snicks. i had a major headace again. i started painting on the canvsa for my mom. so far i have a fence, and flowers inthe cracks or whatever. i think ima draw a little girl holding flowers with fllowers all around her. of a house off into the distance or something. my fence is to rounded. gay. um the watercolor pencils kick ass.
hm think were gonna rent a movie tonight. i miss phil. and yea...
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[11 Mar 2005|11:16pm] |
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no school todday casue of confrences. major ass tooth ache last night. um slept in. trying ot avod my father. went to premire night thursday he showed my animation and the begining to my fiction. got my hiar cut today then went ot kingston. got another emo shirt for snickers. .and we got him this cat house tunnel thing lmao he loves it. and i got bosco a toy which snickers already stole.. gayman. um mwent ot micheals. they have such cute arts and crafts stuff. my mom bought a canvas and some waterclor pencils casue she wants me to do an abstract that she could hang in the dinning room... humf. went ot dollar tree.. got candy for the pinyada which is tottaly filled.
got pizza and thats it. work tommorw. barf. i hope mark doesnt ask for more then $100 to play at my party casue thats jsut ot much for a local/"friend" band. and its not liek there traveling 3 hours like Perfect Endings and i just found out that they thought that was to much ot ask so lol.
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[08 Mar 2005|09:37pm] |
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got up this morning.. check my tv before getting dressed... got dressed.. schools closed.. i was so fucking pissed so i walked my dog in the snow. the air felt so good. then.. i went back to bed. slept till 12 casue i was having fucked up weird ass dreams... did nothing.. computer, helped my dad take down cabnits from the old kitchen. dees not on.. so anyoying. i wrote liek a bitch when aol broke down... um watch The Exorsist, The Beginnging before.. kinda gay. mmm i decided not ot make a video of me for my bday.. casue its jsut embarissing lol so... hmm. recored my clock for my movie... when i wasted tape and battery realizing i could have jsut sped the clock up myself.. so retard! anyway.. yea
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[07 Mar 2005|05:55pm] |
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aol is back!! wop wop. and i thank everyone for leaving me FUCKING comments. you guys suck!
i've been working on my fiction for cinima. i came up with a short story about a girl whos trying to make it in the music buisness. i hate having parites casue the people who dont get invited are babies about it. but everyone keeps telling me "oh if you invite maria i'm not coming.." so wtf am i suppose to do. i dont really like her anyway but still. and i know that if i do invite her shes goign to be ON TOP on me like whoa. she is the bigget follower you will ever meet in your life. no joke. and i ahve a feeling i wil lbe getting a call form her mom if i dont invite her. I HATE THIS DRAMA SHIT! she always gets her mom involved dude.. get over it YOUR IN 10TH GRADE!
can't wait to see dee, mazzola, and jess. miss them like a bitch. this party will rock. gonna bring my own kareokee, cause i have a $5 mic lol. um, Perfect Endings is gonna paly for about 2 hours.. mad long for a party. plus i feel bad casue i'm the only one who bassically knows there music. so i just have to intive all the people who are into muis to my party.. jsut so i'm not the only one stading on the floor lol. and no one else really lieks them but me.. wtf i think there fucking awsome dude! gay....
i still need a theme. i got a pinyada! lmao. and jess is gonan go first csue at my 7th bday.. she didnt get to go. i think ima just do a theme with like a whole bunch of old schoo ltoys and colors like jacks, slinky's, that type of stuff. and like blue, red, yellow. but i wanted to do black, pink, purple.. that kinda colors but oh well. humm so far for the candels i have..
1. mom, dad, joey, toni
2. patty
3. ruby
4. anita
5. mel
6. jess v
7. jess and family
8. dee
9. ronnie
10. james
and thats it. i need to think. and the "speeches" are hard lol. i'm just trying to remmeber memories and crap.. humf..
and my dad might be going to iraq............ guys......... he got a job offer to train iraqie police officers. and he keeps talkign about how hes going. at first i guess i didnt really want it to get to me.. and now it looks like its really happening... so scared. he'll be in the safe zone but still. he might be going either early april or early may. and he'll be gone for a year or 2. coming back probably every 6 months. but. .were talkign aobut mad money so whatever lol. but so scared.
i got th Hidden In Plain View cd.. fucking sick. god i lvoe them <3. i also got the Nirvana cd... never really gave thme a listen and not bad. also got a new book caleld Shooter. pretty cool. um and these headces are killing me :( and i miss phil :(
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[22 Feb 2005|11:26pm] |
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went to mels and anitas today at 2. helped them record till 6. came home. ate dinner. watched one tree hill. i'm probably going ot end up having my sweet 16 in the fire house. eh oh well. its somewhere right? gotta work from 10-6 tommorw. dnno what ima do with myself. fucking what...8 hours with that bubbly girl. puh. umm CONCERT IN LIKE A DAY!! AHHH. can't wait! um mad people are gonna be crashin at my house... and i ahve to go to work the next day so good luck to them lol and i'm jsut gonan kill myself falling asleep. oh well. its worth it.
p.s. THIS COMPUTER SUCKS!
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[22 Feb 2005|12:05am] |
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first time i've ever voted on american idol. let alone watch that show. 1st season thank you. voted for Bo casue hes awsome. i wanted to vote for Containtine but he wasnt that good tonight. i could have voted for him but eh. and i like Mario or whatvever his name is to. fuck everyone else. one of them HAVe to win. along with Scott. i was so mad when they kicked that italian guy off. i fucking lvoed him man. fuck them!
Summerland starts next week. does anyone know what happened to Life As We Know It casue it jsut dissapeared. fucking retarded. and no ones on. chatroom maybe? hmmm...
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[21 Feb 2005|09:09pm] |
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...i dont know if it's jelousy, or if it's a girl thing, but i can't stand how guy friends talk about other girls to me. it makes me feel like shit. i don't understand why. maybe becasue it feels like your lossing then in some way. i dont understand it. why do guys have to be that way? especially after you had some complication with your realtionship and they dont seem to understand that it's not helping by talking about some other girl. i don't know. forget it.
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[16 Feb 2005|11:38pm] |
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i hate allergies. ugh.
school was uh... okay. runny noses suck and so do computers. i spent 3 hours trying to get the USB port to work and fuck it. this computer is so fucked up. i wanted to downlaod some pictures of my firends to show you guys what a lovely heath calss we had today and pics for ebay. but no.
my community is growing! yay! i guess it pays off bothering people, leaving the ones from Ny and into music comments huh? Perfect Endings is getting back to me on the sweet 16 thing. i hope they can play and want a not so high amount. last time i searched thier location, they were an hour and a half away... and for some rason i missed all the long islad talk on thier myspace page. humf.
BRACES OFF TOMMORW!! so fucking excited! i had enough of these pecies of shit ass!!! AHH CANT WAIT!!#M!@#@!# not goign to school toomrw. appt at 11. so leaving at 10 casue its in poughkeepise. an hour appt. so wont be back till 1. and theres no point in going to school. so then work.
ta ta.
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random 2 hour delay this morning. hey, good. whatever. skipped period b.. no gym score! CONCER NEXT WEEK! HOLY ASS CHEEKS!!!!!!!@#$@#$
took a shower the second i walked in the door. then my dad comes home and hes like why'd you change so fast i wanted to take you driving. uh okay. so i did my hair and put a nice shirt on. drove to the video store to get Saw.. but the guy before my dad had it in his hand ugh!! and he todl me to call and tell mike to hold it for us.. but i couldnt find the number. gay!
mrs. rita tottaly ignored me today. i called her name about 5 times, i was standing in front of her and she kept looking at me... WTF! so i jsut walked away. and i wasso excited ot go to school casue i ahd something to do.. meaning my video casue we recorded the "ceral killer" last night. mad funny. but all of bains camras were lent out and my camras gay and doesnt capture right. ugh! and then the cd mrs. rita copied the pics on for me... didnt have anoything on it. so i jsut did my art project all day which i tottaly keep messing up.. well mrs. rita messed up.... cause she drew some of it without me wanting her to. and i just followd the lines and its messed up.
and yeah, one tree hill tonight. humf.
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[14 Feb 2005|03:51pm] |
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wook up a little after 12. took a shower finally. went online for a good hour. waiting for the rents to get home from food shopping. i really need them to get my red food coloring and corn cyrup soi can make fake blood casue i'ma film some of my movie tongiht when my sister gets home. damnit and i need little gumballs. and she doenst have the cell. fucker.
i'm on the edge of deleting everyone from my firends list if you do not comment! i dont care what you say, critisis me, anything!
i watched some tv but got mad bored. t.v sucks these days. i found my fuse channel! it moved. thoguht i was gonna die without it. braces off thursday! yay. monday i have therapy. i am over bored with myself its so bad. and yeah.
edit: when i say the word gay, i mean stupid/pathedic. i am not a homopho. i love boy on boy love.
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to... bored...worked...the hot guy waering a TBS shirt....<3....got...chineese...food....got...the grudge...and...shark tale.... braces...off...thursaday... cant...fucking...wait...took..pics..of..some...of...my....dads...plaques...and...gramps...trees...for...ebay.... life....sucks....hnads...dry...mad...sad...upset...sad...bored...phil...come...on...fuck...this...
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skipped school today. i couldnt take it anymore not doing anything. beyond fustrated. went to work with my mom for an hour in a half. sent out the school newspaper to those 3 bands. jane dropped me off at work at 2:30. i was beyond nasueas. these headaces are turing into nasuea. what the fuck. i told my mom and shes like "i'm so sick of hearing everyuone problems" i was like "okay then when i drop dead it'll be your fault" thne she said something and i said "you care so fuckign much" sacarsticly and shes like "What'd you say?!" and i said "nothing" and that was that.
i am so pissed at myslef. 2 weeks ago i told sandy i'd work for her the 21st. and a week later.. it hit me... i was gonna go down to the city that week, hang out with dee, meet phil. and iwas so lokingfoward to it. and i can't not work for her. its wrong. and she keeps brining it up!@@#$@#%$# so pissed!!! maybe i'll go down one weekend but not anytime soon cause i'm taking to much time off. and i need moeny right now. i have NO money for my guitar.. which i have to pay $100 every month. and i only have 135 or something for the ocncert. and i need WAY more then that. 5 bands shit i wanna buy.i'm beyond pissed. i really wanted to meet him. UGH! and i really need to get out of this shit hole!!
grams over for dinner again. i was gonna go to kingston but no! I NEED AN ESCAPE! I NEED TO GO OUT! maybe i should jsutgo to the dance tongiht in my cloths. cause i really dont fucking care. its a formal dance and screw it! i'm so desperate!
i would go to the city after that monday i'm working for sandy for 2 hrs... but i have the concert that theursday and i wanted to come home wensday. so what am i gonna og down for a day?? ... well... hmm... it'll be like 2 half days if i leave monday night and 1 full day... dobut my dadas gonan drive... il lask tho. SO DESPERATE!
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[09 Feb 2005|04:08pm] |
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can school get any more boringer. i thought i had lab and so did liz and we had gym. freakin retards. i had so many free periods. i did all my homework for the week already. so there is nothing left to do. kill self now. i'm making a cake. jsut becassue. i walked snickers. theres word that were getting like 20 inches of snow tonight. so hopefully no school tommorw. but thats anoying casue its like school, no school, school, no school. UGH. work tommorw. braces off next week. concert in 2 weeks! so excited. and i get my retainer on that day to. humf.
k gonna go write. and jsut bullshit around. i went to go start my Used documentary. i was gonna record stuff off thier dvd.... but the reflectin in the tv and it was being weird. didnt know waht was up with it. so il ltry it tonight.
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