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Monday, January 13th, 2003
12:05 am
so there's this thing you take to tell people about yourself. its funny.

+ What is the story behind your journal name?
-i love alan rickman. thus, i fell in love with the nickname rickMANIAC. hehehehe.
+Are you a lesbian?
-that is nobody's business but mine and ben's and...eventually alan's.
+Where do you live?
-in a shoe.
+Four words that sum you up:
-crazy, witty, moody, creative


-its blue with star sparkles.
-its purple with white spokes
-its green. i got it cheap.
+Jewelry worn 24/7
+Pillow cover
-dark, celestial
-three. one is light blue and was knitted for me by my grandmother when i was four. one is scot colors and is actually a cloak, but damb its warm. one is a dark blue coverall my mom gave me when i started college.
-black, simple, cheap.
-black, simple, cheap.
-none yet, next week i should be getting a superman symbol on my ankle.
-nine in ears, one in nose. intentions: bellybutton when stomach reaches reasonable size, nipple when spine reaches reasonable size.
-short, red, cut like the girl from amelie.

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Saturday, January 11th, 2003
8:32 pm
okay, okay, my talents have been called.

song for kelly. this is absolute shit...

*cough, straightens up*

Mike! Don't Tell Kelly (sung to the tune of "Don't Tell Mama")

kelly thinks i'm some sort of schoolgirl
just a freshman at her school, yeah
standing around in college muck
doesn't even have an incling
that i really am a redneck
in a great big chevy truck...

so please, mike
if you run into my kelly
don't reveal my indiscretion
give a piece of white trash
a break...

hush up!
don't tell kelly!
shush up!
don't tell kelly!
don't tell kelly
or i'll pummel you!

if you had a secret
i would pub-i-lish it
on the internet if it was something new...

i'm breakin every promise that i gave her
about the scum like andrea
that really hate her

so my mikey buddy
you won't tell her will ya?
about the missing teeth and trucker beau?

you can tell my roommate thats okay
cause she bought flannel yesterday

just don't tell kelly
whatever you do!

*sits down*

*notices nobody is applauding*

well, its not serious!


*the audience is not convinced*


*claps hands*

we love you kelly!
oh yes we do!
we don't love anyone
as much as you!


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Wednesday, January 8th, 2003
7:14 pm - more quizzes...
so addictive...started doing the really fucked up ones...

Which Sesame Street Muppet's Dark Secret Are You?

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The Count's Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder It started with a simple affection for counting and the terror it induced in others, didn't it? But now it's turned into a full-blown life-consuming chaotic nightmare of order, repetition, zealousness, and perfectionism. You used to be so grand, but now you find yourself obsessively worrying over the littlest things--like, maybe if you don't check the light switch at least once every two minutes, the electricity will go out (and damnit, you're a vampire--that shouldn't be a problem!), or maybe if you don't wash your hands until your seams are coming out, you'll get some fatal disease. Get yourself some treatment.

What Fucked Up Disney Princess Are you?

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das ist lustig, ich bin straight!!!!!!

Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?

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current mood: quizzical (hehe)

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6:05 pm - who's the quiz whore? mj's the quiz whore!
in a bit of a bad mood. grumble.

talked to janine! yeah! she's a friend now! *happy dance*

my doll:

took a couple of quizzes.

Which Tim Burton's movie charcter are you?

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happy. love sally.

Which Nightmare Before Christmas Character Are You?

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also happy. love jack. not famous, am i?

hehehe. i love the nightmare before christmas.

Which Rocky character are you?


You Are Ichabod Crane From "Sleepy Hollow."

You're a deep thinker - most times logically. You're a bit of a neat freak and a wuss (hey, you do faint a lot!) but you do have the ability to overcome your fears and come out stronger in the end. And you never lose your head over things. (Gufaw gufaw!)

Take The Johnny Depp Quiz!

johnny depp makes me go RAWR!!!!!!


Which Princess Bride Character are You?
this quiz was made by mysti

current mood: moody

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1:59 am - hmmmm
What Self-Mutilation Are You?

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Monday, January 6th, 2003
11:01 pm
quick quiz i took...very happy!

where do you belong?

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10:39 pm - happy night
# of cigarettes: 2

weight: 198

# of days until return to college: 10

had a good night tonight. was, at first, particulary depressed for no particular reason. then, arrived home to find dena, who'd been shopping and had "the missing part" of my christmas gift: an enormous stuffed grumpy bear (the kind you get at hot topic). it was awesome. we sprayed it with grumpy bear perfume and then she, myself and jissel decided to go to the movies to see "two weeks notice." dena and i saw it earlier, but it was nice to go and see it again.

so, we buy the tickets and head to the arcade. i waste a dollar trying to play dance dance revolution. i'd never done it before and i sucked miserably. hehe. i'll try it later when there aren't as many people in the arcade to make fun of my incompetence.

we saw the movie then headed home. we sang avril lavinge (hey, it was on the radio!) and once home struggled to get the cover onto dena's steering wheel.

it was fun. it was like it was back in high school, before we had problems.

dena wasn't mad at me. jissel wasn't snobby and bitchy.

it was nice. i'm going to bed a little happier.

current mood: optimistic
current music: whatever's running through my head...

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2:35 pm
okay, so about the fact that i HATE jissel's stepmother...

today we went back to jissel's house to get the rest of her stuff. jissel's stepmother begins a wonderful drama upon seeing me.

stepmother: (pointing at mj) she cannot come into the house!
mj and jissel: okay, whatever.
(mj follows jissel towards the door)
stepmother: fine, i'm calling the police!
jissel: she's not coming into the house, she's just going to the door!
stepmother: well she'd better not come into my house, she better not come near it!
mj: (pissed) well SHE'S five feet away from you! why don't you try talking to me like i'm a person!
stepmother: (waving and pointing) get off of my property! get away from my house!
mj: fine, i'll stand right off your property and stare at you. i don't want to go into your stupid house anyway!
stepmother: get off my property!
mj: (gives finger)
stepmother: well shove it up your rear!
mj: kiss my ass you fucking bitch!

afterwards, stepmother began ranting about me and jissel said something along the lines of "can't you just TRY to respect mj?" stepmother's reply: "i don't have to respect her!"

anyhow, jissel got the rest of her stuff (amid stepmother's tears) and i waited in the car. jissel has now decided she is definately going back to trinidad, and she's going to eventually announce it to the whole family. she wants me to tell her to stay, but i really don't care where she goes as long as she's with people who care about her. for right now, she can stay with us.

stepmother told jissel's neighbors that she just decided to move out. we talked to one of jissel's neighbors who was basically "well, you know what, your stepmother didn't want you anymore and that's your fault and your decision and i don't care how you feel."


man, i am pissed.

current mood: infuriated
current music: Good Charlotte- "The Anthem"

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Sunday, January 5th, 2003
6:53 pm
# of cigarettes: 3

weight: 200

inches of snow: 2

today has been depressing.

i don't really know why, i just haven't been having a good day.

it's been nice and snowy, with a couple of inches on the ground, i was able to sleep until 12, at which point my family decided that i was to get up, whether i wanted to or not. apart from my mom, none of them really notice that i'm not feeling good.

i've been really depressed, and i just want to get out. i don't care where, just OUT.

i'm thinking nice warm dorm room where i can curl up into a ball and sleep. yeah, that sounds nice. i don't want to do anything. i just want to sleep until i feel good again. maybe i'll tell my parents the d&d game is on the eighth and just stay there until the twelfth.

11 days until i go back to college!

current mood: depressed

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Saturday, January 4th, 2003
9:18 pm - sadder day.
the party sucked.

alix decided she'd make fun of me the entire party. when someone finally told her not to be rude she said that that was the relationship me and her had. whatever. she's so fake.

dena and her fuck-cheat-dump boyfriend had a fight or whatever. basically he told her he had to go home and she started crying. she wouldn't talk to me or even look at me. she decided because she was hurt she needed to hurt me. i can sure pick em, heh?

jissel is living in our basement. i'm still gonna sleep on the couch, but mom and dad cleaned out the basement for her. normally i would get jealous because they are doing for her what they wouldn't do for me, but under the circumstances...well, fuck yeah she needs that room. she doesn't have a dorm to go back to in 12 days.

i feel tired, i think i'm gonna take a nap.

current mood: depressed

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1:33 pm
yeah, so today jissel's stepmother was such a FUCKING BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

she decided to kick me and jissel out of the house because we were not getting her stuff fast enough. i'm so pissed at that little fucking bitch!

jissel's going to move in with us. sure, sometimes we have problems, but she needs me, and i intend to be there for her.

later today is dena's birthday party. she went to the movie with the fucked-up boyfriend, and then its party time. this means i must now face the great enemy...the moriarty to my sherlock holmes...my greatest nemesis...the antithesis of all things good and pure...alix.

the most evil person ever existed...and she's going to be at dena's party. i have been free of this bitch for almost half a year...and now...grrr...i must face her....

current mood: pissed off
current music: Nightmare Before Christmas Soundtrack

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11:14 am
jissel's stepmother kicked her out of the house today.

she's so upset. she's going to live here for a while. i'm so worried about her, and her relationship with her stepmother.

my brother is being a little prick today. he knows i'm writing in my blurty, so he's "pacing" around me so i think he's looking at it. now he's trying to piss off my dad. what a great kid.

man, i think i'm ready for a vacation.

i think i said that throughout all my tough times at college. this situation with my brother and with everything is just making me really depressed.

12 days until i go back to college!

current mood: worried
current music: Nightmare Before Christmas Soundtrack

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Friday, January 3rd, 2003
6:08 pm
took more quizzes!!!!!!!

I am...

I'm Elijah Wood!

Which Fellowship Actor are YOU?

Why Will You Go To Hell?

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need life...need life....need life...

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3:59 pm - the bordom is setting in......
took a couple of LotR quizzes. jissel is coming over soon. heaven help me.

Who is your Ideal Lord of the Rings (male) Mate?

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oh, elijah wood, reow! i was on this elijah obsession kick for a while...

I fancy Elves.
The only one that will ever look good in tights. Oh yea.
Which culture from Middle-Earth do you fancy?
By Hannah and Dani

i love legolas!

Which Lord of the Rings Character Do You Fancy?

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AND, the only non-LotR quiz........

Which Alan Rickman Character Are You?

hmmm...... i love alan, but hmmmm.......

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Thursday, January 2nd, 2003
11:59 pm
grrg, so i downloaded this blurty lite thing that is supposed to make writing in my blog easier. i'm only getting more confoooozed. grrg. at least i can write to slytherin x now.

i have this little french desk calendar with 365 days of french sayings. i got it for christmas. today's saying is "je n'ai pas de chance," which means "i have no luck." damn does that feel right today!!!!

current mood: aggravated

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4:51 pm
oh, i am so tired of hearing my brother talk about his fucking radio station. grr, can't he get a life? (she said, as she types in her blog for the second time today...)

oh, well. i'm going-a-dvd shopping a little later. hope to catch some sales.

maybe i'll rent edward scissorhands or something weird like that. man, i am in such a strange mood. happy happy one minute and mellow-to-almost-depressed (like now) the next.

brandon asked me out. i said i'd think about it. i told him i only wanted to be friends, but he's not listening...

current mood: moody
current music: k's choice: "cocoon crash"

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1:07 pm
yeah, so i hung out with jissel for a good long time yesterday. after about 5 hours i got used to the bullshit, or she got out of the bullshit, and we were doing much better. like old times. :)

i'm bored. too much time on my hands. and i can't find a decent drawing of harry potter to save my life!

my fav games when i'm bored: www.myprecious.com/uk

i love hob killing orcs and bounce the baggains! hehehehehehehehehehehehehe!

current mood: content

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Wednesday, January 1st, 2003
3:06 pm - sad day
i'm feeling kinda blue today.

stayed up late watching robin hood: prince of thieves. Can we talk about candidate for Mystery Science Theater 3000? but alan rickman was sexy. grrg, the moment sean connery came on the screen me and my mom said, at the same time: "sean connery? what are you doing in this piece of shit?!"


anyway, the movie's not the reason i'm blue. i don't really know why. jissel's come over to eat new years dinner with us. she's pissed, i don't know why. she's making rude comments about me to my mom, and she's being downright mean. i say something that she doesn't get, like a comment about a commerical or whatever, and she's like "okaaaaaaay, that made sense. why don't you go back to watching sesame street with the other 3-year-olds?" or as we're driving along we pass starbucks, and she has to make a comment about ben. she's decided she doesn't like him because i told her not to make fun of him in the starbuck's in front of his friends.

now, correct me if i'm wrong, but i thought that you shouldn't have to deal with this shit from best friends.

and, she's always here.

the only reason she puts up with me is because my house is her refuge from her "problems" with her stepmother. her stepmother is a fucking bitch, don't get me wrong, but jissel is 18. 18. she can leave whenever she wants, but if she did then she wouldn't have anything to talk about.

(removes herself from the bitching box)

man, i complain a lot.

i really miss my friends from school. we joke around, but they treat me like i'm an equal. does kelly say mean things about me to her other friends? no. does janine call me a loser? no. i can have fun with them and not feel like if i say something stupid they're going to jump down my throat. god, no wonder my family thinks i'm introverted.

miss friends. miss freedom. sad day. :(

current mood: melancholy
current music: Lorenna McKennit-"Book Of Shadows"

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Tuesday, December 31st, 2002
8:03 pm - happy new year...almost...
big happy day. (note intense sarcasm)

got invited to a new year's day partay. i don't think i'm gonna go. i've got a bad headache.

i've been feeling kind of out of it lately. a little depressed...erg, too much time around jissel.

oh, well. time to go watch alan rickman in robin hood: prince of thieves. okay, so the movie's supposed to suck, but i love alan!!

current mood: listless
current music: lisa loeb "cake AND pie"

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12:24 pm - helloooooooooooo!
what the hell happened to jissel?!


mj: hey, babe.
jissel: hey. what are you doing today?
mj: i don't know.
jissel: i thought maybe we could, y'know, hang out after i go to mass.
mj: okay. what time is mass?
jissel: 5:30.
mj: i can't, i'm sorry.
jissel: oh. okay. well, i have to go. i need to make a phone call.
mj: oh.
jissel: i suppose i won't see you later. y'know, whatever. bye.

what the hell?

man, she is so frusterating. yesterday we hung out and it seemed like she was getting better but today it's just "me-me-me."


oh, yeah, took another quiz:

My Smallville guy is Lex Luthor!
Who's YOUR Smallville guy?
This quiz brought to you by Giselle and Vatrixsta at The Talon

current mood: frustrated
current music: Nightmare Before Christmas Soundtrack (again)

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