I like this place... [09 Oct 2011|05:23am] [ mood | frustrated ] Last time I came here my husband was dying and my youngest kid was going crazy.. The husband died, that was 6 year back and this place blurty is almost a ghost town.. The youngest kid is still anti-social -but can be talked to and the oldest son also has ADHD.. They are both dealing with life and trying to get educations.. The youngest will be a computer programmer within the next 5 years I hope to use some of his brains to improve the way my blogs looks.. I found another boyfriend.. Cross in the house he is nutty too.. That's the luck of the draw life doesn't get any better.. Only good thing that has happened is I now have a job and body build.. I have not heard from my own retarded family- excuse my french fuck them all! The ones whom mattered are dead anyway and it is the parasites whom are left.. I came into this life feeling alone so why wish for miracles- they don't exist.. So if I want anything in this friggin life- it is elbows and asshole method.. All I have left is my stubborn will and if I didn't have it I would have died years back.. Either you support me of your out the friggin door.. I have had enough let downs in this life time to sink a friggin oceanliner.. post a moan

[11 Jul 2007|02:28pm] Dear Journal, It's been a long time since I have been here, but I am back! 76 kilos lighter and with a new life. Things are looking up actually. Keep you posted in the future post a moan

[03 Apr 2004|01:05pm] Dear Journal, Sorry I have not updated in ages, but my husband died after being in hospital for along time. He had a toe removed but it was not enough, so last sunday he was admitted again to hospital because his liver was not functioning optimal. Monday and Tuesday he was hard to talk to, he could not finish his sentences. Tuesday evening he had a heart stop but was revived and admitted to intensive care. Wednesday morning they amputated his left leg above the knee. It seemed to help his recovery, so on the 30th, the doctors woke him up from the coma they placed him in. He was kepted in intensive care for 1½ days and moved to a back to a normal ward. That evening, I managed to leave around 5:oo pm for home, got in the door around 8:00pm and received a telephone call that Robby was dying as they held his hand at 8:45pm.... The funeral is all arranged and is being held on wednesday at 1.00pm.... I am just so sad that Robby is gone, despite that he doesn't have any pain.... Write more later.... Rena 1 hit me|post a moan

[31 Jan 2004|06:33pm] Dear Journal, Well it's been ages since I updated this thing, to be honest I like greatest journals deal better. However, I return now and again! cheers Rena 2 hit mes|post a moan

[08 Jan 2004|08:04pm] [ mood | amused ] Dear Journal, Well I got sick of my boots, I just bought them before winter, but when the snow set in I found having a wet foot abit of a drag. I got another pair today, and have saved the sale docket if anything happens to them. Work was funny! I made 35 large beef patties, 10 of them were to be used the second dish beef and vegetables in tin foil. Everything went great and tasted just fine, it took ages to do the patties (shaping them and frying them) but it occurred to me and Claudie that we forgot the onions when we served the first break lol.. So I quickly chopped onions to the next sitting and everything was peachy... Project cleaning is going fine, I did our bedroom when I got home. So everything is fine there, in the weekend I have to blast the kids room apart and make it look presentable... Sometimes I just wanna walk out of there, clothes books and bags in all directions and cd games (30 cms worth needing to be put back in their covers)!! I told Rik that if his cd drive breaks down again, it's not getting fixed again. I swapped my cd drive for their gaming pleasure... 6 hit mes|post a moan

[06 Jan 2004|08:35pm] [ mood | aggravated ] Dear Journal Robby has fever this entry, so needless to say he is not eating, and has to have alot more insulin-so sleep is not a necessity I got alot of last night. He also has a infection in his knee, so god only knows what this is the sign of... So today I stayed at home and totally relaxed. Robby was stubborn and would not get dressed before 1.pm. So three sets of help came and went, and it was me ending up helping him. I was quite pissed at him- he wonders why? yours Rena post a moan

[03 Jan 2004|01:36pm] [ mood | anxious ] Dear Journal, Happy New Year Everyone! I have also have a greatestjournal account so have not given up on blurty as yet. I needed a break from all the maintance and crap Blurty has been doing before christmas. Nothing is worse than finding functions are not working because of maintance, it feels like forever until things are working again... This entry Robby has had problems sticking to his fluid limit of 1 liter each day. When he drinks too much, the fluid builds up in his legs and the worst that can happen is his heart can not take the extra work. So I am trying to keep a eye on his intake as good as I can. Rik is fine this entry, but Rex is home and is hyper and is hard to manage at times. I have to have a chat with Vagn when Rex returns to Brundhøj monday morning.... post a moan

[25 Dec 2003|03:20pm] [ mood | calm ] Dear Journal, We celebrated christmas on the 24th (a danish tradition). I was in a bad mood in the morning, but after taking my meds things got better with preparing food and stuff. The kids loved their watches, cd games and other presents which was great. Robby loved his cat mug and wallet I purchased for him. The boys both purchased a can of Harley Davidson deo for him. I received 100 danish dollars, I thought I could use it for something I liked but Robby told me to save it up for my next hair cut !?! Other than this, Gert and Arne popped in and gave the kids a Comic book, 50 danish dollars and a bar of chocolate each! They were thrilled, because they received something to put in their new wallets lol.. Our menu was roast duck stuffed with prunes, apple and parsley, sugar potatoes, red cabbage, sweet cucumber salad, brown sauce and Ris á lámande for dessert. Rik won a huge pack of coloured felt tip pens, Rex got himself a cd-carry case for his cd's out at Brundhøj. 2 hit mes|post a moan

[07 Dec 2003|06:37pm] Dear Journal, Robby has been really down today, so the nurse is going to get him some help. The doctors at Skejby know Robby best and can suggest a antidepressive medication that will relieve the situation. I am crossing my fingers and hoping for the best... As for Rex, the weekend has been okay if one looks past the fact his dad is a bundle of misery to be around. Rex was supposed to be delivered back at the busstation at kl.14:50, but the care givers cocked up big time and failed totally collecting the kids at the right time. I was in the situation of having to ask another family, whom has a son in the same cabin as Rex if they would make sure Rex got off okay. I got a phone call when I got home that everything was okay and that the staff were very sorry for putting me through a stressful situation. If I had not taken the bus when I did I would have to wait another 3 hours for the next one and I have Rik whom is 10 years old waiting at home alone with influenza. post a moan

[29 Nov 2003|07:43pm] Dear Journal, The past couple of days, I have been doing stuff with my journals look. I got tired of my linkin park layout, so this is the new look. I am still sleeping on the floor on a mattress beside Robby's hospital bed, and am stiff as a brick! Our neightbour Lindal has solved the problem for us of getting enough wood for our fire, he will drive out on monday and collect a load for us, which is really kind of him. Per whom purchased his business, told him about our problem, so it's a relief for me as I have enough to carry with getting the shopping home. Per may know someone with a cat for Robby, I hope if they do it works out Robby really needs some company while I am at work. On a happy note, I could really see that Robbys operation sore is healing. It was like a crater a few days ago, but with help of this special anti bactical impregnanted sea weed material the nurse puts in it sucks the waste fluids out, kills bacteria and pushes the seaweed up as the tissue grows back together. Really smart for modern day medicin! 3 hit mes|post a moan

[21 Nov 2003|05:27am] TESTING post a moan

[20 Nov 2003|08:05pm] [ mood | tired ] Dear Journal, I have been to see Robby today, he has a large open sore in his stomach from a infection attack. The sore has to heal from the inside out, so it will be the local nurse whom will be rinsing and changing the dressings from saturday. It pissed rained, so I got a lift home to Randers with the nurse and her student so this was cool. I am tired as fuck, as the bus trips were hell as usual there was a shit load of people on nr 14 out to Skejby Hospital. post a moan

[18 Nov 2003|05:55pm] [ mood | depressed ] Dear Journal, My head has been doing super spins, because I have so much thought traffic all the time at night. Robby, his difficults to walk and all the falls he has had the past 14 days, me taking time off work, our money situation, my depression in general, the house needing repairs, the hospital system ping ponging Robby around, being alone on lossing Robby, another education, life sucking big hairy balls...... Yesterday I stayed home to be with Rik whom was sick. I do not have the energy to visit Rex wednesday, he is coming home in the weekends. I am going to visit Robby thursday at Skejby hospital, we also have a meeting about ping pong issue with Skejby and Randers. Yesterday at work was busy there was 150 extra guests for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Lis just said she was going home at 14:30, the other kept working even if they don't get paid for it. On the other hand they are smokers, so usually take a extra ½ hour break... we non smokers never get lol.. post a moan

[17 Nov 2003|04:57pm] Dear Journal, This entry Robby has been admitted to hospital again. He had his p-catheter insertion hole and where it was sewn in place has stitches which have a horrible infection attack. Watching what happens to him is just like sitting on a fence watching the traffic flow going in both directions and not being able see a break in sight. His condition has deteriorated so fast, it is hard for him and even me to keep up with the state of events. I need a wheel chair for Robby because he falls all the time. He falls on a average of once a day, so I hope he does not break anything as this would be the last straw to break the camels back. post a moan

[16 Nov 2003|01:07pm] Dear Journal, Robby is really depressed and is it hard to take. I do not know what I can do to keep him happy, I guess nothing... He is powerless to keep up with his situation and I guess he needs to react and get his frustration out on someone, me.... post a moan

[13 Nov 2003|06:23pm] [ mood | tired ] Dear Journal, I am still tired, Robby talks in his sleep... The day has been pretty uneventful at work, Reva is having its christmas party tomorrow but Robby and I can not go. It's a bummer, but I can not see him being able to hold out all evening. Perhaps another year.... Rik had a mate over to play on his computer they had fun together. Absolute quiet, I had to look a couple of times to see if they were there...... 3 hit mes|post a moan

[12 Nov 2003|07:45pm] Dear Journal, Robby had pain in his stomach today, so I was up around 3.30 am with him. I got in touch with On call Kidney doctor and basically he was a useless wanker, so Robby had to wait until 8.30 am to be transported to Skejby. He is home again, minus his p-dialysis pipe. They made a hole so this infection liquid can run out, if he gets sick again world war 6 is going to start. I do not want him admitted to hospital again after just having him home a week or so...... Work was fucky all day, as I was butt tired. I hope I get some sleep tonight!!!!!! post a moan

[11 Nov 2003|06:23pm] Dear Journal, I had a good day today, only worked until 11:45, (baked a cake today, which looked great until it came out of the oven) then did some shopping. Afterwards I had a appointment to talk to Riks school teacher, Rik is doing really well. Riks teacher Frank is a bit of okay, handsome and quite sexy lol.... Probably married and blah blah... post a moan

[10 Nov 2003|07:58pm] Dear Journal, Work was chaos today as our new oven broke down, so there was sweat on a few faces getting the menu done today. As for me, I was in the canteen area, on the till and doing dishes. Someone pointed out I was on the washing machine, so I pointed out to them if they gave me a broom I would give it a try sticking it up my ass while I do the rest of the jobs I had to do as well lol... But however, I was not the only one with stress today which was a relief. It's amazing what a little switch can do a work place (they need a spare part to turn the oven on lol). On arriving home Rik and I found a empty house, Robby came home ½ a hour later than us. The doctor was really stumped looking at Robbys feet, a professor has to look at them to see if he can give a explanation why Robby has started walking on the edges of his feet. I reckon Robby has had a little blood clot in the brain, why else would his ability to walk change so rapidly within 2 months???? post a moan

[09 Nov 2003|03:51am] Conscious self Overall self Take Free Enneagram Personality Test Scale (|||||||%) results: Enneagram Test Results Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||| 58% Type 3 Ambition |||||| 26% Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 74% Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||| 82% Type 7 Adventurousness |||| 18% Type 8 Hostility |||||||||||||||||| 74% Type 9 Calmness |||| 18% Your Conscious-Surface type is 5w6 Your Unconscious-Overall type is 5w4 Take Free Enneagram Personality Test post a moan

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