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Thursday, May 26th, 2005
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11:29 pm - everything
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Boy what a day. I hate my job, I get suck in a small room all by myself for three hours. It so hard on me, getting up and down checking the list making sure what in each file cabinet. Tomorrow I hope to get the rest of the cabinets down. I have two test tomorrow to I have to get up early to finish the workbook for Spanish. It hard this semester getting up at 6:30. Tomorrow I have to work I plan it that way so I wouldn’t have a lot of time to kill before the friend I staying with gets home from work.
New news with me is that is I got a new car. It a like while Hyundai.
Other things I have a lot on my going on in my mind. I trying to earn the money to move out. I so need to get out, I love my family but there other stuff. Things I have to do a way I have to live. The only way I can move out is to get my OVR money back, if I do that I have a chance. With buying the new car, I had to make a choice, and I need a vehicle that I could relay on more then anything else. Then again, I can’t say I isn’t a bit worried about leaving and not be able to make it, I can’t be consume by fearing it, that what has me the way I am now. I have many thoughts on fear, but I just don’t want to write them all down. But then again, I have a lot of feeling and expression that I don’t let out. Anyways I have to get up early so goodnight people.
Later
current mood:  thoughtful
current music: Sether: Remedy
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| Monday, May 23rd, 2005
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11:56 pm - STAR WARS RULES
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Well it been a while has it not. Things are pretty boring for me. In December on Christmas no less I meet my last boyfriend who I needed breaking up with just a couple a week ago in a bar. Who how sad and low can you get meeting men in bars on Christmas. I really should get a life, seeing my last thrill was waiting in line at 7o’clock pm to see Stars Wars premier at midnight at the local theater. Well anyways I dress sort of Jedi and ended up getting my picture taken for the local paper. It was great, Espoide III is so worth seeing unlike the first two. Well I’m 22 now, nothing that exciting, just saying I did. Did meet a guy in the Stars Wars line, and ended up sitting with him, for it. I flirted pretty heavy with him, because when it coes to flirting with guys I’m not a very stuttle person, I usually come right out. Start taking my anxiety medicine tomorrow, and I start classes well that a mess. Well anyways it late and I have to get to bed if I going to make it up by 6. Later people.
current mood:  relaxed
current music: anything by Black Eye Peas
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| Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
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4:15 pm - NEOPETS
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I sould grow up but I love neopets, there other even older then me that play. Well quick entry nothing happening later.
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| Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
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10:47 pm - Very Long Time
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Well long time no post for me. Man how much has been going on in my life. Well I spent the whole summer with out a job, but I was also able then to counselor at Camp-K for twp weeks. I love there girls I worked with this summer it was good for them and myself. I also meet a really good friend. Well then there was the week of the 4th. I did a lot of work at the fire hall. Hell I did a lot of work there to begin with. That why I think I made Fire Person of the year. It made me very happy, and proud to let me know that I was apperacted there. My cousin also got married to this year. She made fun of me saying it will be my weeding next. I also meet someone there who has become a really good friend. Well I also have a new boyfriend. Yeah it good. Life good in general. Well Later
current mood:  flirty
current music: The Darkness: I belive in a thing called love
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| Saturday, September 11th, 2004
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9:34 pm - THree Years
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It been three years since 9/11. For the frist time I can see America getting back to normal. Before that would be all that would be in are minds but know it honored and we move on. It becomes as all disaters a date we will remember but the wound is healing. It still makes me think when ever I do see anything about 9/11.
Well as for things in my life there going alright. I have some problems but hell who does't. It getting hard going back and forward to school but I am living. Welll people later.
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| Thursday, July 1st, 2004
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12:19 am - So much, and not the words to say it
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Well let see what has changed in my Life. My boyfriend broke up with me, that one thing. Long story and I wish it would not have happen I still love him, but I know I will have to move on in my life. Week of the 4th coming that means so much work at the fire hall. I’m in charge of one of the stands and it like hell trying to get people that can work the stands it driving me crazy. One thing I can say by typing this is I am getting better at remember where the keys are if any importance. I don’t know I have been keeping a written journal so this one has taken a back seat, it has a lot of things that I don’t really feel I should share online. I have been praying more, and despite everything that has gone on in my life I can always say God has been there for me. I don’t know any more sometimes I wish I could just take a break form it all it gets tiring after awhile. The same problems every day that I have to deal with. Can’t wait for class to start back again I hate summer breaks I miss my friends that I don’t see. I have to visit my friends in Lock Haven after this week see how they are doing. But anyways Later.
current mood:  melancholy
current music: Bad Relgion: Los Angles is Burning
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| Sunday, May 16th, 2004
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11:43 pm - 21
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Yes that right for anyoen that reads this I am turning 21. It time for a party. No really it no big deal for me. Well me and my boyfriend where doing good. THing just seem to be working out, but I need a job. Well more later.
current mood:  ditzy
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| Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
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11:29 am - A Long, Long Time ago.................
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It been awhile since I have updated. I been busy sometimes I don’t even have time to turn around. Yesterday the road I take to lock haven was blocked so I had to take a road I had never before taken. I did well and was so proud when I made it there barely on time. Well yesterday other then travel was good. College is almost out I can’t wait for it all to be over it will be so nice when it is all said and done. Well I might get some night hours with the way people finals are working out. It will be nice to close the library one more time before I am out of here, for old time sake. Other news is that my relationship is going great. It about the only thing sometimes in my life that I have straight, and that not usually how I am with relationship but this is the first time that makes me feel good, and good about myself. My friends keep talking to me, telling me not to be so self counius and shy and to just day fuck it to people. But I worry about people so much I have an appearance to keep up. Yeah no matter what I believe I will always live my life to please people version of me, expect for Mike he the only one I don’t feel like I have to impress, I so lucky to have him. I have so many poster to do for CCAB they just keep giving them to me, it like some else take a turn. Well I have to actually do some work now Later People.
current mood:  productive
current music: Mad World: Michael Andrews & Gary Jules
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| Friday, April 9th, 2004
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12:42 pm - good times
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d, what can I say. Things are great with me. Sorry I haven’t update of late I been so busy that I forget sometimes and I know there million of readers waiting to hear what going on in the interesting life of me. But no my social and personal life is going amazing well. I actually right now take break form writing my rough draft of my social problems book report. Six pages by midnight tonight are what are due. I can do it I can bullshit my way though it, even though I haven’t finished reading the book let. I can do it I can do it all, yeah right, I don’t know I just been so much of a happier mood of late and it a good thing, like I said my life is improving. Going to lunch today and tomorrow I going up to a friends house to get my car fix. He does me such a favor. Well later
current mood:  crazy
current music: Bon Jovi: Living on a Prayer
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| Thursday, April 1st, 2004
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12:00 am - could it get better for me
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Let just say, life is great I haven't felt this good for a long time. I feel with every day I spend with Mile the more secure I get about are relationship. I worry of course but he dosn more an more to prove himself without weven trying just the way he acts and all. I found someone that I connect ot that I can spend the rest of my life with, and enjoy every living hour of it. He so good to me, and has filled a gap in my heat and has healed so many old wonds that they no longer brother me, I can;t think about tthem because of how much he filled me. But life in general going great, a little behind on my school work but tha tall, I get there, well later.
current mood:  naughty
current music: Maroon Five: This love
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| Monday, March 22nd, 2004
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11:57 am - MONKEY
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For the first time in my life I can say I feel truly good. And that a first for me. I have now a wonderful boyfriend, on who loves, and respects me, so much. He so sweet and kind and so much more. It good to finally find what I have been looking for but could never find. In other news I staying up at my grandparents this week it pretty cool, they feed me better then I get feed at home. So much to do and so little time to do it, have to go home sometime today and feed the animals, plus a who bunch of other things. But later on people.
(oh and for those wondering about the title my bf, bought me a stuff moneky hehe.)
current mood: loved
current music: Jet - "Cold Hard Bitch"
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| Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
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10:32 pm - Snake Island
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Well I watch this really creepy movie, Snake Islands. Some people go to this African Island and the snakes are hunting them killing them all of, typical horror, but it was good. My one friend John keep scaring me by gripping my leg and making me jump. It was a good scare and everyone needs a good scare. But life good, I wish I stay home today, instead of going to Lock Haven. Snow sucks this is march stop the damn snow. But there was some good points in going I will say. Nothing else is new with me thought. Have to get up early and do some work is all, that should be fun I think I go clean my room for a couple hours to waste some time before I get online again and check to see if my one friend is on. Tired, I just wish I could get some good sleep, I get sleep but none of it good. Oh, good news I thought I made a fool of myself with this one guy, cause I was flirting but I thought by the end of the night he didn't like me. But I was wrong just like my over-reactive personality, he actually got one of my friends to find out if I was intresssted because he intressed in me, so cool. I love when a good plan works out. Later.
current mood:  hopeful
current music: Garth Brooks: And the Thunder rolled
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| Monday, March 15th, 2004
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10:03 am - back to work
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Well I am back to work, it pays, and I need the money. Well I get paid this Friday, that good, I have 44 dollars for the week. I actually have more but I am saving that for my trip up to New York. That be good, but my friend Hoover is not going so it won’t be the same. I have to go to the comic book store that we always go to just for him. It funny he has to go every time and each time they tell him he could just order this stuff on-line, but he likes the joy of going up and browsing though the shelves. But I finally starting to feel good again, starting to feel good about being single. That takes time but I am more happy when I am alone then when I with someone, just me anyways. But I was talking to a really good friend of mine and we where both saying how we where tired of relationships and also other things. It was a good night all in all. Work/training at the fire hall tonight, should be interesting, to hear, just something going on that aren’t the best. There really starting to push training, and I should go over the rigs but the fact is I being push to hard to do it and the more I push the more I back away. Which I know there only trying to help me, they do care about me and want me to be a good firefighter. That book I have to read for social problems is so boring, I didn’t even buy the book for the class that how easy it is. Sleep, Sleep, I need some sleep. I do my own eyes is tired and I got a twitch in it and it is driving me crazy. ****brakes out sing in her head “”Crazy, I crazy for feeling so lonely.”” giggles**** Alright I don’t know what that was I guess I have only shown one side of me on my journal but there is this whole other side that really that funny and very blonde. I say that in no offence to blondes but I do have that ditzy character to me that you wonder how they ever made it this far in life with out dying. That reminds me of a book I want to get and that the Darwin Awards, it a book of the ways people mainly died (or stop them by ever having kids) and it goes to the stupidest these people should not be allowed to breed and it a good thing they stop themselves. That means but if people are going to be stupid they desire what they get, expect me because I am just way to cute for anything bad to happen to. But anyways people I will see you later, Same Journal time same journal place. “”Na na na na, Batman.””
current mood: giddy
current music: the sound of the printer
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| Sunday, March 14th, 2004
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1:15 pm - Spring Break is over
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That right people spring break is over actually it not over till 8 am Monday morning when I start back to work and school. So I am going to clean my room today that should be fun and I going to do a lot more, I did none of the homework I should have done it done;'t matter thought it a project and I still have till the end of march and a week with being with my grandparent to finhisn it. But anyway's things in my life are pretty good, could be better but whatever people later.
current mood: okay
current music: Anyhthing that sounds good
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| Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
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2:06 pm - working on spring break
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Well I am working today, but I needed the money so does it matter at all. GOOD NEWS MY LISTY TOP PRANKS TO PLAY AT THE OFFICE WILL BE PULIBSH BY KEEPERS OF THE LIST ON MARCH 21 2004, http://www.keepersoflists.org/index.php. For all those that read my fan fiction under the name Firekikyou http://nexus.colum.edu/user/nierodzik/html/fanfic.htm I have no clue on when I will get those publish, just waiting and hoping they will and soon. But anyways how has life been treating me, well it sucks, alright sucks. If you want to know why I tell you but really don’t feel like going though all the details tonight. I have to call my one friend soon, just want to talk to him and we can bitch at each other. This is whole friendship to listen to how horrid the other person life is. So anyways I am going to say later on people till I feel like posting again.
current mood:  drained
current music: Nothing, why would anyone come in on spring break
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| Thursday, March 4th, 2004
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11:47 pm - promise more
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Yeah I promise more and here it is. What a day, it been I feel so tried but yet I have no reason to be. But anyway's, set up for the fish dinner, and god how hard is it to set as good damn table, I wasn't even going to fight the fact it was done wrong tonight, let someone else bitch. But anyway, that life, and people are idiots. But anyway Later.
current mood:  cranky
current music: Youth of the Nation
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1:50 pm - it all good
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Yeah, bowling last night was great. I had fun, and I talk to a friend on the phone. Bought Kingdom hearts nothing else really just a quick little post to say I well more later I promise.
current mood:  rejuvenated
current music: The Buzz 105.9
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| Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
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7:41 pm - bowling
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Well I am going bowling in a bit. *giggle, giggle*. I know that is not like me to be happy but tonight looks like fun. There been more people there more people I know. I like large groups where I can meet and talk to people. The more friends I have the better. I need to start moving out with my feelings and allow myself to be more open. And I doing something wrong I'm flirting with this one friend of mine who does want me. The problem is I like him but not in that way, I should back off, even thought I told him I just joking around, I should stop. I don’t want to hurt anyone and this is something where my good sense should step in. I need to stay single I feel as If I am happier when I have no one. Well spring break is here, fun fun fun, Later People.
current mood: flirty
current music: Hilary Duff: Come Clean (i know it pop but I like it)
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11:09 am - "forgive the spelling"
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I take things much too hard; as soon as something happens I think the worst. I have to remember people have more then a life then me. Also when you with someone knew they have preexisting friends as do you which should and do take presdence over the new. I have to tell myself these things because I forget them and I take to many things way to personal. I just feel left out sometimes, next year I be complete moved up to Lock Haven and life will be complete different not that I don’t want to go, it just I know things will never be the same ever again. It the leaving sadness, all again, has it at every big change of life. Well other than that my day has been going well. In a short time Idiot George W. Bush will have his ass out of office with all hope. If he becomes president for 4 more years, I leave the country, I like America but the republicans (and some demerocraits) are sending this nation to ruins. This gay marriage thing also, I believe it to be wrong to amend the constution to outlaw same sex marriage. Do I think it right for a two people of the same sex to be together, no I don’t but I don’t belive it my right to stop them. I have the right to marry and divorce as many guys as I want, but tow people who might stay together longer then any man and women can not be legal. I don’t belive they should actually have a church marriage, that is something on my own person belif, but should they be deniy the government status of being a married (civil union) and be deny health benfits, the right to raise kids and that. Lets see a child can go to foster home to foster home and be complety mess up most times, or could have tow loving parents. And what of teasing, kids are mean, it doesn’t matter what going to happen kids will find some why to tease on who they think they can, nad just because you stop one way that same child with no parnts might still get that teasing but have no one to support him/her. But anyways you all are proplemly getting tried of reading this so later.
current mood:  crushed
current music: The Living End: Who's Gonna Save Us
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| Sunday, February 29th, 2004
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9:29 pm - the weekend is pretty much over
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Well it Sunday night and the weekend is pretty much over. Tomorrow the week will start again, and I will be in Lock Haven once again on Tuesday. I miss that place when I not there. Well I did go to the Lady Lions game today. It was so great, 69-60 finally score, Penn State the winner. It was so pack it was great, and I was with my family which made it even better. I like day I get to spend with my dad and I get tot talk to him, which I hardly do anymore. Need money so bad seems like the second I get a pay check I have it gone within the day. Long day just a long day, I wish there was something to do around here, I feel so bored most days. But anyway's later.
current mood: ecstatic
current music: Mindy Smith: Jolene
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