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[ Didn't your mommy teach you not to ( trust ) Strangers? ]

[09-21-2003 @ 08:22pm]
NEW JOURNAL. blurty can kiss my azz! you suckage! well its here. dude, it kicks so much more ass than blurty. you get all the same things as blurty and LJ, but you can have like 1000 user pics and you just have to be 13 or older, not 16 and shit. SO JOIN ME AND CHRISTOP!! :] im not officially done with blurty yet, because i have to get that one all fixered up, but ima movin! :]
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: I worship Emiliana Torrini and Bjork : [09-21-2003 @ 04:56pm]
[ mood . in love ]
[ music . Emiliana Torrini - If You Go Away ]

Once in a house on a hill
A boy got angry
He broke into my heart

For a day and a night
I stayed beside him
Until I had no hope

So I came down the hill
Of course I was hurt
But then I started to think
It shouldn't hurt me to be free
It's what I really need
To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself
There's a bar by the dock
Where I found myself
Drinking with this man
He offered me a cigarette
And I accepted
'Cause it's been a very long time
As it burned 'till the end
I thought of the boy
No one could ever forget
It shouldn't hurt me to be free
It's what I really need
To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself
To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself
To pull myself together
But if it's so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don't know what to do with myself








If you go away on this summer's day,
Then you might as well take the sun away
All the birds that flew in the summer sky
When our love was new and our hearts were high
When the day was young and the nights were long
And the moon stood still for the night bird's song
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away."

But if you stay, I'll make you a day
Like no day has been, or will be again
We'll sail on the sun, we'll ride on the rain
And talk to the trees and worship the wind
But if you go, I'll understand
Leave me just enough love to fill up my hand
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you will
You must tell the world to stop turning
Till you return again, if you ever do,
For what good is love without loving you?
Can I tell you now, as you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly till the next hello
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a night
Like no night has been, or will be again
I'll sail on your smile, I'll ride on your touch
I'll talk to your eyes that I love so much
But if you go, I won't cry
Though the good is gone from the word goodbye
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you must
There is nothing left in this world to trust
Just an empty room, full of empty space
Like the empty look I see on your face
I'd have been the shadow of your shadow
If you might have kept me by your side
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away

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: w00t for me! : [09-21-2003 @ 12:20am]
[ music . Korn - Trash ]

hey hoez! just got back from dinner aand a movie with Chris, Ms. Melanie, and Tony. saw all mah peeps and my lovar Dani :] saw Underworld. kool movie. go see it. :]

just got back and Chris came here for a minute then my mom [in her state of extreme high-itude] came in and was all "hey, like 4 people are outside lookin for you" turns out it was Justin and some peeps. :D havent seen him in forevar. t'was a nice surprise. CHris went home and im horny.

oh. i think Moe likes me like a teeney tiny tidbit more than before. me, her, and Chris watched the Lizzie McGuiire movie earlier. shes cool. the movie kicked MUCH ass. lol.

k, im tired... and horny. must be off. byee! :]

[[p.s. my clock is still wrong... its only 11:30...]]

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: Jay = Coolest college dude I know :] : [09-20-2003 @ 02:05pm]
[ music . i dunno, shyt from my mom. ]

Jay is awesome. hes just really fun to hang out with.

anywho, we went to see Em at Lakeview Fine Foods then went back to his house for a bit and just watched some really flamingly gay funny stuff and hung out. im pretty sure im going to the Quarter with my ma for like a couple hours or something, so theres a strong possibility that im just gonna wanna stay here and maybe go see Em when she gets off work.

k, its definetly food teim. later.

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: losing friends over something so insignificant as that really blows : [09-20-2003 @ 12:36pm]
[ mood . sad ]
[ music . Blue Oyster Cult - Don't Fear the Reaper ]

i miss Semsar. a lot. havent talked to her in forever and im kind of scared to call. i dont know if she wants to talk to me, and if she doesnt, and i call.... it could be not so good.

*sigh* well that was my depressing tid bit of the day. later.

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: my life is shit : [09-20-2003 @ 12:24pm]
[ mood . eh ]
[ music . the humming of my computer. go me. ]

havent updated in a while. sorry bout that. Chris got a new computer that kicks my computer's ass. hes being a little piss ant today because his mom is on his case about cleaning. im trying to get in touch with Em, but i dont think she's home. damn. :[

all is well in my life. im doing pretty well in school and all that shit. going back to my dad's for a few days Monday. hung out with Chris last night. didnt get to do much of anything because he was all into his new computer and then we had to go get a whole new sound system, so by the time that all taht was done, it was like 9 something. then we just hung out and i didnt leave till like 11 because my mom was super high/wasted. go me. i think i wanna go out tonight and let Chris fuck with his computer, so if anyone is going to Clearview, call me today so we can make a plan or someshit. k, i gotta go. bye.

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: .... no comments, plz... *blushes* [09-13-2003 @ 11:29am]
kinky isn't a feather...its using the whole damn chicken! and you kno it. you are so kinky that even you are afraid of yourself sometimes.
kinky isn't a feather...its using the whole damn
chicken! and you kno it. you are so kinky that
even you are afraid of yourself sometimes.


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: some math for ya : [09-13-2003 @ 11:19am]
[ mood . content ]
[ music . Dave Matthews Band - When The World Ends [Paul Okenfold rmx] ]

me + room at dad's = done and absolutely perfect! :]

me + chris = happy

chris + Moe = happy

me + school = bad, got like 7 progress reports

me + mom = same ol...

me + dad = awesome! :} :}

me + life = good

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[09-11-2003 @ 08:00pm]
[ music . Matchbox Romance - The Greatest Fall (Of All Time) ]

i got a puppy.


and im going to my dad's tonight.

bye.

without enthusiasm

: until further notice, youre forgotten : [09-11-2003 @ 07:36pm]
[ music . Manson - Valentine's Day ]

its fucking over. im sick of all this "moe" shit. ive been gone for fucking like 6 days and he came over for like fucking 20 minutes, then little miss Mary Ellen calls and "O, stop everything, MOE called! i MUST go fucking see her! she's so fucking important!!" and considering that i have to be at my dad's till like Tuesday, yeah, thanks Moe. thats fucking great. o, nad fyi, hes ALSO going to a fucking dance with her tomorrow and didnt even tell me. i was gona make plans and then have to go back to my dad's Saturday, but im just going back tomorrow since i have absofuckingtutely NO reason to stay in this shit hole if a neighborhood. whatever. bye.

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