| 5:09a |
Ramblings
It's 4.40am in the morning. I have to leave for school at 7.30am and I am still up doing work. I've been feeling rather depressed of late.
The quality of my life is pretty low now... Yes, it is rewarding when I finish editing Pleasure Factory and see it come to life, or doing projects that let me travel to New York. But so what?
I miss my friends who've I've neglected for the pursuit of fame and fortune. I question my desires... Just last week I was having lunch with Eric Khoo, Royston Tan, the head of MDA, Raintree, Frameworks and so on at Goodwood , and I was thinking I made it! I'm finally getting to where I want to be! But somehow, I also felt like I was lying to myself. I wanted it so badly and I got it...so what's next? More desires, more illusions to reassure myself that I mean something, more sufferings, more pain.
Many choices and many mistakes. I've been talking a lot with Mark Chan and Ekachai, both successful people in their own fields, and both quite different from each other. I'm learning so much.
Hope and abandonment...
I'm glad I have Joe and Miaovin and David and Alf and my family to keep me rooted to reality...if not, I would have blown my brains off by now. |