01:42pm 26/04/2003
mood: annoyed
music: Chumbawamba - Homophobia
Computer is down, can't update. I will when it gets fixed. Pz.
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Which Bright Eyes Song Are You?   
03:58pm 20/04/2003
  You are Let's Not Shit Ourselves (To Love and To Be Loved)
You are Let's Not Shit Ourselves (To Love and To Be

Which Bright Eyes song are you?
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11:25am 20/04/2003
mood: lonely
music: Bebel Gilberto - August Day Song
Everyone is gone for Easter and I'm here all alone waiting for someone to get on :( Marx, I hate easter so much! >:(
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More about myself...   
12:36am 20/04/2003
mood: tired
music: Bebel Gilberto - The Girl From Ipanema
I thought it would be a nice time to tell you a little more about myself. lol. Well, I am a pretty original fourteen year old. I am very much into left-wing politics and I don't buy into corporate bullshit, I am also vegan. My normal day is spent sitting on the computer. lol, pretty sad, huh? Well, if you lived in San Antonio you would do the same. This city really sucks. Never come here. I plan to move to Brazil when I get older. It is the most beautiful country in the world (besides Palestine of course). My favorite genre of music is bossa nova. I love music, rarely am I away from it. I also like indie, drum n bass, and experimental. My dad is a whacko. lol. I can't wait until I am out of this house. Well, I think I'm going to go to bed now. Pz.
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08:52pm 18/04/2003
mood: bored
music: Ani Di Franco-Self Evident
Alright so it's friday and we are finally off from school. And you would think that this would be something i would be rejoicing over, but instead my day really wasn't all that great. As a matter of fact it was FREAKING BORING! Gosh i am glad tomorrow is Saturday. Maybe something exciting will actually happen for once. meh. maybe not. we live in san antonio so not much of anything seems to happen. I wish something would. i don't care what it is as long as something happens.right now it's almost 9 at night and i am wondering to myself how i let my entire friday slip away. man i didn't do ANYTHING today. i wish that i would've. man i am bored. I need to do something. I need to get out of my house. I think i am starting to go stir crazy. there's nothing to do but stare at the walls. i almost swear a pattern moved on the wall today. maybe i'm just going insane. anyway. i have done absolutely nothing. i took a bit of a nap earlier and had a random dream. it was something about a turtle and a merry-go-round. all i remember was my friend was there and kept trying to make her turtle jeffrey get on the merry-go-round. alright you have to agree with me that a dream such as that is enough to make anyone think they were going crazy. forget sleep. whenever i sleep i just end up having either scary or random dreams. i hate both really. some of the random ones are funny, but as far as the scary ones go, i just can't stand them. You know what else i can't stand?of course you don't, so i will tell you. i hate it when people are in the 10 items or less line and there is that one person that sits there and unloads their basket WAAY too slowly. i mean if they were ok with going that slow, why couldn't they just go into the regular checkout line!? I mean come on! some of us actually use the ten items or less line as a way to get in and out of the grocery store as quickly as possible! HURRY THE HELL UP! I wanted to the old lady to move it along or at least help her unload her stupid basket just so the process would hurry up. then she realizes that she has forgotten something. she asks the clerk to hold on while she goes to get it. she gets back and realizes that now she is over ten items, so she ponders for two minutes as to whether or not she should give the item to the clerk. Well i must have sighed pretty loudly b/c then she turns around to look at me, notices i have one item, turns back around, tells the clerk to forget all her items and insists i now go ahead of her. so i take the offer as quickly as it is handed to me. *ahh* i pity the fool that was behind me. i bet that lady didn't get out of there quicker than 15 minutes later. that really bugs me when people do that kind of thing. but it's almost like it didn't bother me anymore as soon as she was polite and let me go ahead of her. i like it when people notice you have less items than them and let you go ahead. i mean even though they were there first, they have the courtesy to put you ahead.*sigh of relief* that was nice of her. AFTER 20 MINUTES IN THE 10 ITEMS OR LESS LINE! SHEESH! i've never waited in that express line so long in my life. well they always say there is a first time for everything. all i can hope for is that when i am her age i can do the same to some poor sap and hope they feel the same way. you can't just let legacies die. lol. anyway, i wrote a poem today. it is pretty dark and mean and pretty much filled with hatred and anger, but i wasn't feeling that at all. never the less, here it goes.and it is copyrighted as my original work.
What I Want©
I want you to say you love me; the way you always used to do.
I want to know that you-want to be with me too.
I want to know what i mean to you; if anything at all.
I want you to hold my hand; to never let me fall.
I want to know if i'm the one, but wonder if i'm not.
Whenever i think about you, i put my stomach into knots.
If i'm not the one, i want you to feel my pain.
I want you to go mad, for you to feel insane.
I want to see you suffer; want to see you cry.
I want you filled with sadness; to feel you want to die.
I want to see you burn; to see you crying in a ball.
I want you to let go; to go ahead and let me fall.
But as long as i am going down, i want you to go down too.
But I want you to fall alone, as you've made me do.
I want you to feel hurt everytime you look at me.
So that you can see the pain that you gave to me.
I want you to find no one else, to live your life in dispair.
I want you to know the way you left me was not fair.
I want you to cut the crap, to tell me how you feel.
i want to stop living in a dream; to know if this is real.
I want you to leave me alone, all you do is cause me pain.
I look at you in disgust, wonder how you can be so vain.
You're so blind you cannot see what you do to me.
Can't see the hatred you make me feel,I wish that you could see.
Forget it, i'll just stop. It's no use anyway.
Forget this ever happened and i'll just go away.
You don't need me here; nor does anyone at all.
It's already too late; you let me slip and fall.
I hope now that you're happy but hope you live in pain.
I hope this drives you crazy; that you no longer are sane.
I hope someone hurts you, the way you did to me.
And someone opens up your eyes so that you can see.
See what you do to me and to others as well.
I hope you realize what you've done and how because of you i fell.
So now i'll go away; leave you to your life of pain.
I just want to see you die; to see your heart get slain.©

pretty dark and creepy eh? i thought so. no clue as to why i wrote it, but i did. well i hope that whoever reads this enjoys it. i'm out. update later.
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Alright, i'm exasperated.   
06:06pm 16/04/2003
mood: blah
music: Electric Light Orchestra-Telephone Line
Well so far this week had been a complete blowoff and waste of time. It has been completely boring all week! That is, up until this very day. People have really bothered me lately. I'm so sick of people telling me they think i am hot. I know how good looking i am! i wake up and see myself! You don't have to remind me! (sound a bit conceded? i thought so too. but then i changed my mind. JUST KIDDING!)So anyway like i was saying, this week has been pretty boring so far. But there is good news. We are off from school on friday, so that's something to look forward to i suppose. I plan on going downtown with my goldfish Mikey and handcuffing myself to a statue in the middle of the downtown area. I decided i would take along mikey for one simple reason:I think there aren't enough animal rights activists in this world and i for one am taking a stand. i wanted to release mikey into the wild in Corpus Christi, but i feared this would only kill him. He was given to me in a ziploc bag for crying out loud! HOW IN HUMANE IS THAT?>!?!?! I AM EXASPERATED! And another thing...what is up with people and their lame nick-names for people? My gf called me sparky the other day and i swear i almost slapped myself in digust. but anyway....I'm really tired of people complaining about how "hot" it is here in San Antonio. It's April for goodness sake. It isn't even summer time and yet already these weak people down here have to complain about 80 degree weather. Once again I am exasperated. My girlfriend and i asked for freedom fries at a festival this past weekend instead of asking for french fries and the guy that was serving us looked completely confused. He admitted that he had no idea what we were talking about and that he in fact must have "missed the joke". This makes me wonder: How many people actually live under a rock? I know one guy that does. That's for sure. So here we are waiting for our freedom fries and my gf has to explain the whole freedom fry thing to him. This guy was completely clueless and i, well i was completely astonished at societies stupidity level. Once again i am amazed at the constant growth that is apparant. So anyway i am happy about this friday. Mikey and i shall enjoy ourself. That is if i had a goldfish named mikey. But in fact do not, so i suppose all of those animal activists will have to wait for another day when a fish named mikey and i take a stand. I don't know if anyone heard about San Antonio's recent little fiasco, but it was pretty funny. Only in san antonio would something as random as this occur. There was a cattle transporter heading down the highway in the downtown San Antonio area when all of a sudden, it flipped over. Cattle started to scramble everywhere onto the highway and into the grasslands on the side of the road. As if having crazed cattle all over the roadwasn't enough, 20 of them died. And the funniest site had to definitely be the fact that there were police officers in jeeps driving around sticking their bodies out of the windows with lassos in hand to rope up the cattle.*sigh* only san antonio. I must say i was shocked at the fact they thought that the lasso in car plan would actually work. once again, the stupidity shocks me. and thus is the highlight of my week so far. i'll update later.
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10:31pm 15/04/2003
mood: bored
music: Chumbawamba - Jacobs Ladder
Geez, This week has been so boring. I, once again, have nothing to say. This day was like all the other normal days. Nothing exciting happened in my day. Thank you.
08:41pm 14/04/2003
mood: bored
music: Nuspirit Helsinki - Circular Motion
Sorry for not updating but theres really nothing to update. Nothing happened today....Nothing....
11:34am 13/04/2003
mood: happy
music: LTJ Bukem - Cosmic Interlude
Yeah, I didn't get to update yesterday because I was out all day with Kris! Oh My Marx, we had so much fun. We went to the strawberry festival and didn't eat any strawberries, drank lemonade that looked like eggs, and ate some freedom fries. We went like on all these rides and crap. It was great. Then we came home and went to thrift stores. lol. After that, we went to the movies and saw Anger Management. It was a pretty good movie but it was the best just because Kristina was with me. Aw man, I wish I could time travel back to yesterday and do it again. It was so amazing. :). Update later.
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07:23pm 11/04/2003
mood: happy
music: Atari Teenage Riot - Ghost Chase
Raven's coming over! w00t w00t! Strawberry festival is tomorrow! I get to see my beautiful Kris! Ah, I can't wait! I'm jumping up and down now...hehe....I love you Kris! This weekend is great.
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09:37pm 10/04/2003
mood: anxious
music: dj DB & dj Dara - Live @ Destination
Sorry I haven't updated today. Some Jordanian people are visiting so I had to visit with them and stuff. Kris got me a ushanka! w00t w00t! She is the greatest! Oh My Marx, I love her soooooooo much! It's crazy. Thank you! Gah, I am so tired today. This Saturday I'm going to the Poteet Strawberry Festival with Kris so that should be major fun. I can't wait! Well, I have to go visit some more. I'll have more updates tomorrow. I promise. (As if anyone reads this anyway) lol.
Stupid Time Warner   
09:06pm 09/04/2003
mood: angry
music: Saul Williams - September 12th (original)
Stupid freakin Time Warner. I can't stay connected for more than two minutes (literally) because they are working on some "special project" in my area. Corporate asshole. Oh well, I'll update when this is all over.
04:06pm 09/04/2003
mood: sore
music: The Clash - Rock the Casbah
Damn, they gave me a shot and took out blood..Damnit, I can barely type well...I did absolutely nothing today besides going to the doctor and watching the news. I was asleep until 12 so yeah...Update later...
02:06pm 09/04/2003
mood: awake
music: Madonna - American Life
w00t w00t! I stayed home from school today. I really didn't fell like going. Anyway, I have a doctors appointment in about 20 minutes. I have to go get a shot. I'll update when I get back. See ya.
09:33pm 08/04/2003
mood: cold
music: Ladytron - Seventeen
Yo! What's up? Today was another boring day. Man, nothing exciting ever happens in my day. The only fun part of the day is when I get home, get on the computer, and chat with all my buddies. That's real fun! Today in lunch, I hit a girl in the face with a pizza. Well, not really but that would've been pretty cool. Oh well. Pz...
10:10pm 07/04/2003
mood: excited
music: Blackalicious - Release
w00t w00t! Only one hour and 20 minutes until i call Kris and talk to her the whoooooooole night! weeeeeheeeeeeee!
05:02pm 07/04/2003
mood: good
music: Warsawpack - Attention To Deficit
Gah, what a boring day. I did absolutely NOTHING today but watch a video on the Palestinian/Israeli conflict and another video in biology on genetics and crap. Well, it was a pretty nice day since I didn't have much work so I can't complain. I guess the most exciting part of the day was when I accidentally hit my self in the head with a yard stick. That's all for now. :-] I love Kris!!!
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07:55am 07/04/2003
mood: sleepy
music: Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful
Well, I'm off to school. Update when I get back.
11:32am 06/04/2003
mood: depressed
music: Ladytron - Zmeyka
Well, she's gone :-[ Man, I'm so sad now. She's not going to come back until later tonight so I guess I just have to wait, huh? My mom STILL hasn't called me. Geez. Update later.
08:56am 06/04/2003
mood: depressed
music: Blackalicious - Blazing Arrow
Good Morning! Damn, it seems we've lost an hour meaning today is gonna feel really short :(. I got to talk to Kristina (my girlfriend, the best) last night so I am really happy. Today she is going to her dads so I will not be able to talk to her the whole day!! grrrr.....Oh well, my mom better pick me up today or I'm going to be bored out of my skull