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I feel so torn inside. Like I don't know what to do. My heart is broken. Sooo bad. It hurts so bad inside and I cant do anything about it. I don't know how to make everything okay. I don't know how to heal. I don't know how to let go, I don't know how to do any of the things I am supposed to be doing. My hearts torn in two because part of me loves him so much that I can't help but believe what happens around me. What I see, what I hear, what I touch. Theres a part of me that knows he's gone and that it's truly over and done and I'll never ever have him back. But I can't deal with that. I can't. And then..there's the part of me that's scared. Scared that I dont love him as much as I think I do. Scared that I hold on only because I want to believe that I loved him. Do you know how much pain that causes? DO YOU? No. No one gets this. No one knows. No one knows that I'm falling apart, that this is killing me inside and I dont know what to do. I want to die. I seriously..honestly do. It's at the point now where I just dont think I can make it another day with this feeling..this hurt and disapointment, anger and confusion. I lost it in my car tonight. Just started bawling and couldn't stop. I don't know how to make it. I'm not strong enough. I'm not strong enough to do this anymore. I'm not strong enough without him.
For the part of me that believes:
Every now and then,
Soft as breath upon my skin,
I feel you come back again.
And it's like you haven't been,
Gone a moment from my side.
Like the tears were never cried,
Like the hands of time are holding you and me.
And with all my heart I'm sure,
We're closer than we ever were.
I don't have to hear or see,
I've got all the proof I need.
There are more than angels watching over me.
I believe, Ohhh I believe.
Now when you die your life goes on,
It doesn't end here when you're gone.
Every soul is filled with light,
It never ends and if I'm right.
Our love can even reach across eternity,
I believe, Ohhh I believe.
Forever, you're a part of me.
Forever, in the heart of me.
I will hold you even longer if I can.
Oh the people who don't see the most,
See that I believe in ghosts.
And if that makes me crazy, then I am...
'Cause I believe......
Ohhhh, I believe...
There are more than angels watching over me.
I believe, Ohhh I believe.
Every now and then,
Soft as breath upon my skin,
I feel you come back again.
And I believe.
For the part of me that doesn't :
It's been a long time since I saw you
Been so long since I touched your face
You know there's nothing I can do
That will help to get me through
'Cause I know you wont be there for me again
If I could dream about tomorrow
If I could dream the night away
You know there's nothing I could do
To get me over you
You used to be there every morning
You had that smile upon your face
But now that smile is turned around
And my world is upside down
'Cause I know you won't be there for me again
I know I'll miss you, but you will never hurt again
I know you're happy, but now I feel such emptiness inside
Can't stop the pain
I..want all this to end.
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