| ~*~ What happened to the things he felt for me, am I really apart of his past~*~ |
[05 Feb 2003|12:06am] |
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I'm trying to hide pain and I just can't do it. I'm glad I got out the Erik thing. But I don't feel better. Not at all. What the hell is wrong with me? Seriously. I don't know what is wrong with me. I feel, scared, alone and hurt. But why do I feel this way? I'm not living out on the streets,eating out of trash cans. I don't have parents that beat me or sexually abuse me. I am damn lucky. I've got a mom, a dad, and two beautiful baby girls. WHAT THE FUCK IS MY PROBLEM?! I don't know. I just don't know... I'm just hurting so bad right now..and I don't know what it is, or why. My damn count is huge. [ Guys I'm not putting this here for you to freak..I'm putting it hear for me] Over 100. A couple of days ago it was 18. Now it's 100 or so. That..scares me. I'm scared of myself... I'm just so......urgh....and ahhhhh.....and......sdkgjdfljhlkdfjlkgdlfsjljgklfdlkd/ and I don't know what that means. I know...I'd never harm myself....you know....what I mean...I just don't like feeling this way.. I just don't like it. Jake....Jakers..Mr Jakers.....I'm just * throws hands up in the air* I've just lost it and can't take anymore.
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| ~*~Well I don't know where I am and I don't know who I'm with~*~ |
[05 Feb 2003|12:44am] |
http://www.playmash.com/
You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a Mint Green Eclipse.
You will marry Erik and have 6 kids.
You will be a Writer in Ireland.
*sigh* can't complain about that though.
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