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[01 Feb 2003|01:54am] |
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In The End : Linkin Park |
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What bad word are you?
Really..now...no shit? Cause I DONT say fuck all the time
How Will You Die?
Suicide....huh?.......Russian Roulette....anybody?
You know...today..was just one of those days. I'm just fucking...pissed off, dark..mad for no damn reason. EVERYONE"S fucking pushing and pulling on me again. " T I need you, T I need you.. T I NEED YOU!!" Well. I'm sorry. I can't be here all the damn time. *SIGH* Jenika, I'm glad you're outta the ward. Seriously, I am. But damnit, don't tell ne about the Eric you met. Don't you realize it hurts to hear you of all people to say that name. Most of all, I don't want to hear about Ryan anymore. I just can't deal with the Ryan situation. It hurts too damn much. So you know, I respect the things you go through, I care enough to listen. Do the same for me? Kylie....for the love of Jacob.....I can't always fix JP. I can't. He's a big boy. He can't revolve around me. He can't. JP....come on please.....it's too much for me to handle right now....and if it stays this way....I'll push away.....it's what I do. Trust me. Ask Justin. Ask fucking anyone...it's what I do. *SIGH* That's off my chest now. I feel better. SLIGHTLY.
I fucking hate my life right now. I hate who I am, and what I am, and what I'm not. SO much fucking shit's being thrown at me. Becky's sick. AGAIN. and again and again..and again. YOu know I hate this. Becky's my baby. And if I lose her, I Lose my life. Not that I'm complaining. Life's a shithole, and it stinks. YOu know what? For once I could back away completely from everyone. Back away, and just be me....Be me without anyone else...I dont want anyone else as part of my life. YOU HEAR THAT? I don't need anyone else. Can't everyone stop needing me too?
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