4:25AM - Everything yet nothing is new
Well I dont really know who reads this thing anymore, I havent updated in such a long time I dont think it matters.For those of you who dont know I finally got off of my lazy ass and joined the military the Marine Corp to be more exact. I figure if you join the military might as well go all out. Im hoping the Marines can change me into someone else other than who I am now,I dont like my personality, and I dont like overall how I portray myself to others. When I come back from boot camp I want to be someone else so that I can start anew. It might seem strange,odd, and even bizzare but it is something I want. Im just tired of being plain old me, Im tired of working dead end minimum wage jobs where I get yelled at for both doing the wrong and right things. In life I have always been better at doing things head on and using my hands rather than being stuck behind a desk. I hope the marines can offer what I want and in the end I think they will. I know its own fault for being where I am right now but everything happens for a reason as they say. Im already making the committent I have lost of 60 pounds already and I am continuing to loose weight. The truth is I would have joined up right out of highschool had I been more physicaly fit,but I suppose now is better than never. Well thats all for now folks I will update some time later.
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