Girls have always been this confusing, haven't they?
Private: Ginny is still beautiful, but it still feels very weird. It is especially weird after her trip to Charlie's.
Parvati still wanted me to shag her, and this time I almost did until she stopped us from getting too far.
That Slytherin girl's ring is still haunting me, and I don't know why. I also don't know why she was being sort of nice to me. END OF PRIVATE.
I'm starting to have strange dreams again, and I'm scared that they aren't real dreams. I don't want the same thing to happen all over again. I learned my lesson but I still wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat needing in ever muscle to get somebody away from some sort of danger. I hate it.
Private: Lately I've also been having dreams about Mum and Dad and Sirius. Although with Professor Lupin gone I'm scared he's dead now, too. I don't know if I could handle that. Then who? Hagrid? Dumbledore? What about Hermione or Ron? Voldemort could take anybody next RIGHT under my nose, and I can't even stop him if I tried. That's what happened with Sirius. I tried, and I failed. If I don't try, I could also fail. Since I never learned Occulmencey I'm kind of stuck, and I don't want to dare talking to Dumbledore about this again. Voldemort will take over and hurt him, and I don't want to hurt anymore. I can't. END OF PRIVATE.
Detention. For a week. Because MALFOY ATTACKED ME.
Quidditch practice was today. Despite the new line up, I think we're on the right direction to the Quidditch Cup this year. Being Captain is really tough. I miss the old days when Wood was here and knew exactly what to do and say, to instruct. I'm not captain material, but I have been on the team longest so I got the spot.
After Quidditch practice was interesting. I had a nice talk with Ginny. I'm going to help her out on something, and I should probably talk to Ron about this. So Ron, if you're out there, I'll be talking to you later. It isn't anything to worry about, I think, but I'd rather tell you. Maybe I should tell Hermione, too, or just let Ginny do that :)
private: What if I really do fancy Ginny? The idea keeps scaring me. I don't know if it is because of Ron or because I never liked her in the past, why now. /private
I got bored yesterday afternoon so I went to the lake where Hermione and Ginny were. Ginny was swimming and grindylows attacked. I ended up pulling her out of the water and doing some muggle restoration thing. I guess I did it right, because she's alive right now.
That's all I'm going to say, because that's the recap. I don't feel the need to talk anything out, either.
NOTE TO SELF: go to the lake and get your robes & glasses back, return Hermione's.